I DON'T EVEN THINK YOU REALIZE HOW EXCITED I AM TO FINISH THIS BOOK SO Y'ALL CAN READ IT BECAUSE I

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Carry on.....

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I walk up to Kathy and Jo's house, where I just walk in the back door. I shot them a text letting them know I was here just incase they were busy, so I just walked into the kitchen.

"Hey! It's Anna!" I call out as I walk through the kitchen swing door.

"Hi!" Jo's head comes into view as she finishes buttering the bread. "Just in time for lunch! You want a grilled cheese?"

"Oh yes I'm starving. Where's Kathy?" I ask, sitting down at the table.

"I think in her office." She turns to me after putting the grilled cheese in the oven. "Matt told us just a couple hours ago. Mom locked herself in there ever since. She does it every time he leaves."

I look down at my hands sadly. "It's not going to feel like 9 months, is it?" I ask quietly.

She shakes her head as she sits across from me. "I want to say otherwise, but it's going to feel way longer than 9 months."

I go to ask more questions, but my cell phone rings. It's an unknown number so I excuse myself and make my way to the living room.

"Hello?"

"I need to speak with Annalise Torres please." A male voice says.

"This is she. May I see who is calling?"

"Miss Torres, this is Michael Tucker from the D.A. Are you familiar with the name Derek Heater?" The name brings a cool chill to my bones.

"Yes..." I reply quietly, my voice all too weak. I clear my throat to try to strengthen my voice. "He's being released soon, isn't he?" I ask, completely terrified of the answer.

"Yes ma'am. Next Tuesday." He says sympathetically.

"I want a restraining order." I immediately demand. He sighs and my stomach clenches. "You can't tell me I can't get a god damn restraining order on him!" I shout.

"And I completely understand that. However, at his meeting with the lawyer and his parole officer, the judge has been convinced that a restraining order wouldn't be necessary seeing how he's been going to rehab and showing massive improvement." He says, and he even seems pissed off. "And what happened between you and him happened so long ago."

"There must be something you can do." I beg. "It happened a year and a half ago, not 5!"

"I'm sorry Miss Torres, but we've done all we can. Unless he does something, a restraining order beams unnecessary." He says. "I will call you back if anything changes. Have a good day."

"Thank you...." I say, and hang up.

I come back into the kitchen where Jo puts the now finished sandwiches down and comes over to me.

"What's wrong? Who was that?" She asks in a concerned voice and sits me down.

I tell her about the phone call, seeing she already knows about Derek, and becomes more pissed than me.

"That's fucking ridiculous! After what he did? He could do it to somebody else or worse, come back and do it again to you." I nod, letting her know the thought has already been planted in my mind. "You have to tell Matt." She says.

"I know. I was about to leave now. I'm sorry I couldn't stay for lunch. I'm not vey hungry now." I stand up and put my shoes on.

"Yes. Go tell him now. Don't worry, I'm not all that hungry either." She gives me a big hug.

"Tell your mom I stopped by, and that I'm sorry I missed her." I tell her apologetically.

"She'll be alright. Being a bit selfish if you ask me. She's not the only one who's going to miss Matt. But, it's how she copes I guess." We hug again before she shoos me out. "Now go. Matt needs to know from you before someone else tells him."

I nod, and quickly leave out the door, my hands shaking almost uncontrollably I have to take a couple deep breaths before I can get myself to calm down a bit.

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I'm sitting on the couch holding a mug of tea when I hear someone come into the apartment.

"Matt? Is that you?" I call out nervously.

"Of course it's me." I hear his voice before his face comes into view. "Were you expecting someone else?"

I shake my head and get up, setting my mug down on the coffee table. I walk over to the kitchen where I see him shrugging his uniform coat off. He smiles widely, his golden eyes alight. He sees my expression and his face fills with worry.

"What's wrong? Did something happen? Is this about the deployment, I told you-"

"It's Derek." I interrupt him and he because dead silent.

I tell him about Derek, the phone call from the D.A, and the restraining order situation.

"I don't know what I'm supposed to do because the only way to get a restraining order is if he does something and I can't just sit here and wait for him to hurt me or rape me again!" I scream, the tears I didn't know I was holding back finally spill over.

Matt quickly comes over and brings me close to him. He's been silent the whole time.

"Say something. Anything." I beg.

"I won't ever let him come anywhere near you." Is all he says, but I know it's a set on promise.

It's then in that moment when my feelings on him finally become clear. I am completely head over heels in love with this man.

****MATURE CONTENT****

"Anna" Matt says as I lean more up against him on the couch.

"Yeah?" I mess with a loose string on his shirt, and frown as it becomes a little bit more unraveled.

"I love you." I nod, not quite registering the words.

"Mmm" I hum. "That's nice." He stiffens, and I freeze at the words he just said.

"Wait what?" I sit up on the couch and face him.

He looks me straight in the eye and says it again. "I love you, Annalise. I love you so much I can't even begin to describe it. I love you. And I want to scream it to the world. I. Love. You."

I stare at him, and he doesn't break eye contact. After a while he looks away. He gets up from the couch and grabs his coat.

Anna say something!!

"God Matthew I love you too." I yell, jumping up from coach to stop him from leaving. "I love you. Please don't leave."

He throws his coat off to the side and comes over to me. I don't say anything before he grabs my face and kisses me with so much love and passion. Our tongues are soon wrestling for dominance as his hands travel down to my waist and under my butt. He lifts me up and I wrap my legs around his waist and my hands grab at his hair.

"Let me make love to you." He whispers in my ear. I nod, not trusting my voice.

He carries me to the bedroom as he whispers sweet things in my ear. He lays me gently on the bed and the fact that this is our first time together occurs to me.

And I'm not scared at all.

Matt's lips kiss all over my face and neck as they travel to my ear.

"Tell me Annalise. Tell me to make love to you." He whispers so sensually my sensitive area begins to pool.

"Make love to me Matthew Starks. Please." I tell him, surprising myself that I can actually get words out.

He rolls his hips and I can feel his excitement. "Now let me see your pretty blue eyes." He kisses each corner of my eye.

I open my eyes I didn't even know I had shut, and I'm met with golden eyes filled with love and lust. Matt grins widely enough to make me smile before he kisses me again.

I take off his shirt quickly as I feel things getting a little more heated. He quickly peels off mine, and I'm soon undoing the button and zipper of his pants as he messes with mine.

We both wiggle out of our jeans and I run my hands down my soldier's toned tanned torso. Matt gently runs a finger down each scar on my torso. He then leans down and kisses each part of each big scar on my sides and down my middle.

"So beautiful." He says as he hovers over me and stares as my now nearly naked body. "I love you." He says as he pecks my lips. "God it feels so fucking good to say that." I giggle as he confesses his love for me with each individual kiss.

My hands go down his body to the band of his boxers. He takes that as a que and goes behind my back to unbuckle my bra. He gently slides it off, uncovering my breasts to the air. As I slide off his boxers, his fingers hook onto my panties and takes them off to my feet where I kick them off.

With our naked bodies pressed together, I whisper my love into his ear as his mouth explores my neck and chest. Gasping loudly as his mouth latches onto one of my nipples, my fingers become intertwined in his hair. He moves his mouth to the other bud, giving it the same tender attention.

"Matthew." I beg, "I want you so bad." He grins at my words as he kisses me one more time before positioning himself over my entrance.

"Uhh do I need something or are you-" I laugh at him and his unpreparedness.

"I'm on the pill." I tell him, and he nods before taking my hand and lacing our fingers together.

"If it hurts too bad, let me know, okay?" He says into my ear, and I nod, bucking my hips a bit to tell him I'm ready.

"God damn you're going to be the death of me Annalise." He laughs, and he slowly enters me.

I gasp out in pleasure as Matt whispers sweet things in my ear as he moves in and out. I bite his shoulder to keep from crying out as he hits a certain spot that shoots pleasure throughout my whole body. He hisses as I bite down, and then begins to chuckle.

"Faster." I whisper in his ear, and he doesn't hesitate to follow my command.

I moan out loudly against his neck, getting closer and closer to my climax, and I know Matt is too. Now he's pounding so hard the bed is shaking and I don't even try to cover up my cries.

"Fuck Matt I'm gonna cüm!" I scream seconds before I let go.

He doesn't slow his pace until I feel him release himself inside of me.

"Fucking shit." He breaths as he lays on his back and I lay my head on his chest. "Did I hurt you at all?" He immediately asks worriedly.

"No." I shake my head. "It was amazing."

"God that's an understatement." He laughs as his thumb draws circles on my hip.

We lay together in comfortable silence before I feel Matt shift around uncomfortably. I laugh as he tries to make himself more comfortable.

"Ready for round two?" I ask as I drop one eye into a wink.

Matt raises an eyebrow with a smirk on his face. "Your neighbors are going to hate us." He says in a husky tone and I squeal as he yanks me under the covers.

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Bam.

Anna's blonde moment when Matt said he loved her for the first time el oh el. At first I was thinking it might be a bit too early to be having them say I love you, but I said screw it.

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