Sweat is rolling off my body in waves. My hair is half stuck to my forehead and half sticking up like I've been electrocuted.

Ah shit, still too soon.

I groan slightly as my breath comes out in fast pants, desperate for water, or air that wasn't 95% dry as fucking sand.

Is this death?

Am I dying?

I have to be dying, there is nothing else that can feel this fucking terrible.

I drop the ground ceremoniously as I land face first into the dirt, "leave me guys, leave me here to die. Tell everyone that I tried and unsurprisingly failed" I cried into the dirt as sweat still continued to roll down my body continuously.

Where is the fucking water coming from?

I should have absolutely none left in my body, yet the sweaty, undrinkable (yes I tried), liquid that was oozing out of my skin wouldn't stop.

Aria's weak body collapsed next to mine in the dirt, it was as if she was waiting for my ass to finally quit so she could to. Her dark hair pulled hazardly away from her pale face. Her short black short and black shirt doing her no favors in this heat as sweat rolled down her form.

Best friends my ass.

Bonnie leaned heavily on a tree, her tank top completely soaked in sweat, her blond hair drenched as she desperately tried to get it out of her face. Trina next to her, her hair beautiful brown locks pulled harshly away from her face as she smiled through the pain. Her bright smile only pushing me to shove my face harder into the dirt.

How she could still be smiling was beyond me, but just looking at her positive persona was making me want to die even more.

Cha stood calmly ahead, a small little tornado of air blowing against her face, making her look refreshed and beautiful. Her long pin straight black hair blowing easily behind her, her body relaxed and not a drip of sweat anywhere near her.

Sasha came stumbling through the trees behind us.

Sasha, beautiful athletic Sasha was not made to live in this environment and she had said so over a hundred times from the time we left my apartment all the way to the dead of South America, where we were now.

Her purple hair was now in a fuzzy afro that she had desperately tried to pull away from her face. Her eyes wild as they shot around the forest looking for animals and insects. She'd been attacked by beetles, mosquitoes, and even a snake had tried to chase after her. Her brown skin glistening as sweat swallowed her form as well.

Sweat was pumping out of her body as her eyes landed on Aria and I face first on the ground before she slumped down next to me.

"I don't think I love him enough for this shit, you guys" she choked out desperately as she fanned her face. "I know I love him, but ... when you love something you have to let it go right? I think this is one of those times" she wheezed as she fell back on top of Aria and I.

Trina's disgustingly beautifully light laugh wafted into the air, "you took a bullet for him once, Sash".

Sasha head bobbed back as she laid limp, "yes, someone fucking shoot me" she cried her eyes closed.

Bonnie turned to look at the three of us piled on the floor of the jungle. The thick leaves that surrounded us, barely giving us shade. "How's the baby doing?"

I looked up at her, eyes watering, "I'm dying man, we should have high jacked a plane, or a car, anything. I-"

"-Not you, Kat" Bonnie cut me off, rolling her eyes before having them shift over to Aria's stomach.

Aria winced, before her hand unconsciously cupped her lower abdomen.

Flash Back- One Month Ago

"I don't know if I can do this Ari, what if it is positive? What in the hell will I do? He's been gone for months, he fucking abandoned me. What the hell am I going to do raising a Super child all alone?" I whimpered as I looked down at the twenty or so boxes in the bag in front of me.

Aria's small hands came and rested on my shoulder, "then we figure it out. You are not alone Katrina, even if they left us all alone, we are not alone. We have each other, and thats all the family you need. Besides, are you sure he didn't use a condom?" she asked peering at me skeptically.

"I don't know!" I cried sitting on the floor in the bathroom at Blue and I's, or my apartment now. "He said he hated them, and I'm not on a pill-" I stuttered as Aria peered down at me from her position opposite of me leaning against the sink.

The bag full of pregnancy tests in between us.

"They've been gone two months, shouldn't you know by now?" she asked.

"I've been in an ice cream coma for the past two months, I can hardly remember if I peed, let alone if I've had my period!", my eyes drifted to the test.

I'm going to throw up.

And cry.

At the same damn time.

That bitch had completely ditched me and now here I was about to take a preg- vomit slipped into my mouth.

Swallow that shit.

I gulped as I looked up at Aria who looked utterly disgusted, "did you just swallow your own vo-"

I wailed loudly, "I can't do this. I can't! Ignorance is fucking bliss, I'm going to shit myself along with vomit while crying all at the same time if I have to deal with this Aria" I cried for the twentieth time today.

My chest ached.

Physically, I couldn't stop crying.

It literally felt like a limb of mine had gone missing, taken or stolen. I was lost, always calling for Blue, rolling over in the morning looking for his beautiful eyes only to find a wall of snotty tissues by Trina and I.

I was just as emotional as Trina.

And that bitch felt everything.

I couldn't do this.

Blake had left me and now I was facing way worse consequences than I could have ever seen coming. Alone.

Aria sighed before bending down to my level, her large eyes surprisingly not surrounded by dark eye liner as usual.

"Listen, Katrina, you are the strongest bitch I know. If the test comes back positive ... we deal with it. Here, I'll even take the stupid thing with you" she sighed.

She had been the strongest out of us since we had all been dumped.

Aria had stayed head strong while I and the other girls were currently curling into balls and crying. Even Sasha was having a hard time controlling her anger.

She was either screaming or breaking something.

I looked up at Aria, my eyes letting loose tear after tear for a man who did not deserve them, "you will?" I sniffed.

She nodded as she dug into the bag between us pulling out two pregnancy test.

"You first" she smiled encouragingly.

I can fucking do this. I slowly made my way to the toilet before turning to look at Aria who was going to the one across the hall.

"Meet in the middle in five, and try not to do anything crazy" she sighed before slipping out the door.

I peered down at the little pink box before ripping into the casing like an animal.

Get this over with and then, .... then you know.

Quickly peeing on a stick and crying, while not trying to get pee on your hand, is hard.

I set the test down as I pulled my pj's up.

My reflection caught my attention as I set the test next to the counter.

I was wrecked.

My hair was knotted, while the back was pushed into my head. My face was paler as my sunken eyes took in my reflection.

I wanted to be strong, I desperately wanted to shake myself and scream 'bulk the fuck up bitch, you don't need him!'.

But I couldn't.

Because I did need him.

As fucking weak and needy and stupid as it sounded, I needed closure.

Just having his stupid glare look me in my face and tell me he hated me and never wanted to have anything to do would make this unending pain vanish.

But he hadn't given me that.

He had just taken my heart and sanity- what was left of it, and ran.

And now I was nothing more than a sad puddle of ugly tears and depressed eating.

I sighed as I looked away from myself to find the test was finished.

A minus sign.

My eyes widened as I snatched the box and read the back of it.

Minus- not pregnant.

....YES MOTHER FUCKERS! NO BABY MAMA HERE!

I was out the bathroom door, a huge smile on my face for the first time in two months.

The hallways empty as I started my cabbage patch, "YES. YES. YES. SUCK IT, MOTHER FUCKERS. I AIN'T PREGGO. THIS ASS AIN'T GETTING A BABY! YESSSSS. FUCKING THOUGHT HE COULD IMPREGNATE ME? NOT TODAY SATAN!" I slammed the test to the ground like a football, "TOUCH DOWN BITCH! JUST NOT IN THIS UTTERUS!" I screeched.

The door creaked open slowly as Aria stumbled out, her eyes wide and surprised as she held her own test in her hand.

She was stoic as she stood staring but not seeing at the wall next to my head.

'"I-I-I'm-" her hand slowly reached out as I looked at her test.

A plus sign.

I froze.

She didn't move or even breathe as she stood in the hallways, her large eyes all the way open as she stood completely still.

I winced, "o-oh wow ... c-congrats" my voice shot up twenty octaves as I spoke.

Her wide eyes suddenly filled the brim with tears before she collapsed to the ground in a heart broken sob.

I followed behind her as I wrapped my arms around her, her heart broken cried echoing through the halls.

She had finally broke.

END OF FLASH BACK.



Aria had been inconsolable as she wailed Klaus' name like a prayer, her body shaking as the news hit her hard.

And the bitch had the nerve to say shouldn't you know.

But I had decided not to be petty that day, she had been in such a fragile state.

Ever since then we had all fallen into a funk, Trina and I balling, Bonnie and Cha moping as they stayed connected to the couch. Sasha had been the violent one, and now there was Aria who was reduced to sadly gazing out of windows.

Horrible, I know.

But that dream I had two weeks ago, had changed everything.

Had changed everyone.

Which is why we were currently on day three of a five day trip in the middle of the jungle desperately looking for the only person who would even have a clue as to help us get our men back.

We needed help, and we needed it quickly.

It was the only way we had a chance of finding the guys.

And there was only one person who could possibly know anything about where we needed to go.

Katya.