I swear I was trying to be as calm as possible.

I swear.

But every time I had to look up, my eyes found Ana's perfectly curled blond head and her amazingly proportionate face.

So, to stop the never ending rush of anger that seemed to course through my body when I looked at her, I shot my eyes away.

Then guess who they collided with.

Guess!

You got that fucking right, that prick of a man, Carter.

And as sad as it is to admit it, I could see planes and lines in his face that desperately remind me of Blue.

So, on a shallow and very sad level I wanted to stare at him.

Allow my mind to re-arrange his face, until I could see the stoic, annoyed face of the man who had grabbed my heart and then hauled ass.

But then on the other hand, I wanted to shove my hand down his throat with tears streaming down my face, with his blood covering my hands, screaming at him why would his brother do this to me? How could he just stop caring?

If anything, I wanted to know the secret.

Maybe if I stopped caring for even just a small millisecond, I could finally breathe against the truck like weight that seemed to be crushing my chest constantly, begging me to give up and just lay on the ground and drown in my own sobs.

Wild emotions.

I know.

So I was stuck looking at a woman who represented my fight to snatch the greatest love I had ever experienced and a man who looked like the one who had loved me and was currently causing some internal bleeding in my chest region.

Painful.

Again, I know.

So I did my next best option.

Stayed absolutely focused on the plate set in front of me.

Which currently contained some type of soup.

It looked amazing, and smelled even better. It was a gorgeous cream color and I was dying to start shoving things down my throat, because eating my feelings was going to be my play tonight.

Raymond swept into the room, in a bright yellow silk onesie, and a flowing tulle cape, that fluttered behind him, the color of spun gold.

His dark silver hair was pinned up onto of his head, in a swirling bun, his gorgeously shaped face was beaming brightly as he looked at his little party.

"Hello, hello, my friends!" he shouted over the table. "I decided to make this dinner party just for you select few, since you all arrived today" he beamed, that slightly evil intent in his eye, shinning like a diamond.

The table consisted of me, Rhett, Carson, Daniel, Raymond, Riley, some random person I had never seen before, then Carter and Ana.

Raymond had just plunked himself down at the head of the table, right in-between Ana and I.

"Now, my greatly esteemed guest, enjoy this wonderful meal" I sighed finally picking up my spoon, "all completely prepared by Ana and hosted by me" Raymond smiled sweetly at her as he winked.

My spoon chattered back to the table.

And my hand gripped Rhett's just before it touched his lips.

He looked over at me in question. I just shook my head, and looked up to watch Carter trying to pretend to eat his food.

I wonder if they told Ray-

Raymond screeched like a banshee before doing a spit take towards he floor.

Everyone else gagged simultaneously, before their spoons hit the table.

"I-is everyone alright?" Ana asked clueless to the fact that her food was literal poison.

Carter laughed hoarsely, "yes, babe, the soup is just really hot is all" he smiled down at her as a smile slipped over her lips as she nodded.

I honestly didn't know why we didn't just all hurt her feelings.

I know I wanted to.

But even Blue had stopped me from having a full blown panic attack when her food touched my holy temple.

I wonder what she would do if someone really told her how shit her cooking is.

Raymond was dry heaving to my right, "did someone just try to assassinate me?" he snapped, his eyes wide and confused.

I leaned over, "at least you didn't swallow it" I shrugged over at him.

He looked like he had been struck in the throat.

Rhett sent me a cautious smile as he leaned further away from his soup bowl.

"It taste like candles" I heard Carson mutter in complete bewilderment.

"STAFF!" Raymond screeched his voice ten octaves higher than usual, he chuckled forcefully as he looked around the table at us, "can we serve the next course now" he forced a smile on his green looking face. He turned back to Ana, "thank you so much dear for uhh ... the- yes! Did you say you made the entire meal?" Raymond quickly switched over, a small sweat breaking over his brow.

I feel you, dude.

It just baffles me how pretty she is able to make the food look.

It isn't until you taste it, that you know theres a snake in the garden.

"Unfortunately, no, I only had time to make the soup. But if you like I could make tomorrow's meal-" Ana brightened.

"No. Nope. Never, not necessary, my dear. You are a guest! You won't even be allowed in the wing of kitchen anymore" Raymond quickly said, trying to stay bright and happy.

I just can't stop thinking about it ... she has to be putting household items in her food. Has to be!

Ana giggled thinking she was getting a compliment, little did she know, we were all just trying not to have our stomachs pumped.

"You know actually we should all probably do a shot of Pepto, before the rest of the meal, hmm?" Raymond smiled, the pain barely concealed on his paling face.

I couldn't help the snort of laughter.

Ana looked confused, "what? Why?"

"It cleans the palette" Raymond choked out as his hand slid down to his stomach as he gripped it.

Carson's stomach let out a weird crying sound that could be heard all around.

My jaw dropped, how could she have made it potent enough that it was killing them and they didn't even swallow it.

Carson gagged slightly as he put his hand out to stop us all from speaking or moving.

"I'm ...okay" he gagged out, turning greener.

Rhett was shocked shitless.

Just not the kind of shitless everyone else at the table was going to be.

Raymond snatched a pink bottle of Pepto from one of his servants before throwing the cap off and downing it.

But we all know, it was ten steps past too late.

Riley let out a small cry of terror before she bolted away from the table in a dead sprint.

It would be wrong to laugh, Katrina, don't fucking laugh.

Next was the member of our party that I didn't know, he stood quickly as he sprinted out the room after Riley, his hand clutching his mouth tightly.

Raymond was trying to keep his cool, his face covered in sweat, "oh no, oh no, ohhhhh shit" he hissed, his light little accent disappearing behind a deeply terrified voice. He stood quickly, snapping his fingers at his workers, "dinner is cancelled, I'll send your meals to your rooms later" he tried to regain his composure.

Daniel stood next, "if you'll excuse me" he nodded to the rest of us, and then took off at a dead ass sprint away from the table.

I was biting my fucking fingers, while Rhett was kicking me trying to get me to stop.

"Yes, well, goodnight, everyone" Raymond finally stepped away from his chair before he slowly walked quietly and calmly out the doors, two servants of his trailing behind him.

He pushed the door open slowly, as he and the two men slipped out. However before it could close fully we all clearly heard, "MOVE GODDAMNIT! THIS IS FUCKING SILK, I REFUSE TO SHIT MYSELF IN THIS! GET IT OFF OF ME NOW!" and the strong slaps of feet sprinting against the ground.

I was choking.

Carter looked over at me, his own lips tilting slightly as he tried to keep his cool.

Ana looked around confused, "that was weird" she stated.

No fucking shit.

Actually ... hold up, I bet there a lot of fucking shit happening right now, because of her.

I bit my lip to stop from full on dying laughing in her face, "so ... you two, what makes me so unlucky that would bring you both here at the same time as me" I sighed as I leaned back into my seat watching them.

Ana's eyes hardened slightly at me, before she shoved her hateful sprint down her throat and sent me a smile, "well, Carter and I are celebrating our new relationship and decided to take a vacation to ...reconnect" Ana smirked over at me.

"You both need to reconnect in your new relationship?" Rhett asked, complete confusion in his voice.

Thank you! Someone else finally seeing through their little bullshit act.

Ana's eyes finally fell on Rhett and she paused, her mouth slightly ajar as she just looked over at him.

He sat there waiting for an answer that she seemed to either not want to give or couldn't.

"A-and who are you?" she asked.

"Rhett-" he started only for Ana to completely cut him off, her eyes finally shooting to me in shock.

"Where is Doom?" she asked, her eyes wide.

Oh great, I get to tell another person about my break up.

"He and I, actually are ... n-no longer, together" I stated. It felt like trying to spit a brick out my mouth.

Carter and Ana both leaned forward like dogs to a bone, "what do you mean, not together? Like last time, when you two broke up in his office? Or the time he left you at your apartment?" Carter stated his eyes alight with some creepy interest.

"Calm it down" I stated to him in annoyance, "and its like neither one of those time, you dipshit. He- he has fallen in love with s-someone else, apparently" I shrugged, trying desperately to look indifferent.

Ana and Carter flew back with a gasp.

These fucking losers.

"You mean to tell me, that you stole my husband from me, and then let him get taken from you?" Ana looked over at me in absolute shock.

"First off, I didn't steal what you didn't have. Secondly, he was taken from me" I sucked my teeth, "he found his mate, and they are in love" I blinked harshly at them as they sat there gaping at me.

They just stood there staring, saying nothing.

"Well, this has been an utter waste of time" Carter snapped his head looking over at Ana in annoyance. "I thought you were keeping tabs on them, how did you not know they were no longer in a relationship?" he snapped over at her.

And let the rings, unravel.

Ana glared over at Carter with absolute hatred, "well maybe if you stopped your fucking complaining for more than two seconds, I would have been able to concentrate on the news about them" she hissed back.

Oh its getting good.

Carter scoffed, "please, admit it, your good for absolute shit. Which is why my brother left you in the first place" he growled back.

Can I get a bucket of popcorn?

Ana laughed with absolutely no amusement, "no, your brother left me, because I was stupid enough to think that you could rival him in anyway" she smirked and looked directly at his crotch, "which you can't".

I had to slap a hand over my mouth, to stop my tongue from slipping.

Did she just?

"What did you just say?" Carter hissed lowly.

She couldn't have just-

"Don't tell me your ears are just as small" she snapped.

She just went there.

Cue the internal screaming.

Carter went red with pure anger, "don't get pissy now because you realized your only good for something when your on your back".

I winced.

The pure glee and happiness I was getting from watching their conversation roll down hill, was sick.

But it made me feel so, so good.

I thought Ana would have really gone for his jugular, but she just laughed in his face, "please. Don't act like you were on top" she snorted.

Rhett choked.

And I was desperately trying to not let my laugh slip past my fingers.

"Owned" I choked out as Carter's face turned towards me.

I guess he was looking for a new target since he obviously wasn't getting any hits in with Ana, "oh please, Katrina, lets not pretend like your anything but another notch on my brothers belt, just like I told you, you would be".

"Now, now Carter, don't be cross. But I have to ask, Ana, does he cry like a little bitch after sex?" I asked.

Carter's face was picture worthy.

He was furious.

"More like sobs" Ana cackled, sending me along with her, as Carter growled before pushing out of his seat and storming off.

"Both of you are just whore of the same man!" he snapped trying to make a dramatic exit.

My eyes narrowed on the back of his head, as I snatched on of the many decorations of the dinning table, before hurling it right at the back of his head.

He went stumbling forward as the napkin holder beamed the back of skull, before he slowly turned around to face.

"I will have you, one day Katrina" he snapped darkly.

I glared back at him, "you can have these balls until yours finally drop" I shoot back at him.

He only snarls before finally storming out of the room.

It was weird, I finally had a small, inkling of anything else other than distain for Ana.

I looked over at her, to find her actually smiling at me for once, no anger or malice in her eyes, "you know, maybe its time I finally stop with those brothers" she sighed a small smile on her face as she looked over at me.

I narrowed my eyes at her, "oh you think?" I asked her sarcastically.

And then there was that special Ana glare, I had missed so much.