Jadwa

"I'm sorry please I'm leaving" I managed to whisper but my legs had to betray me

"Come on" he said giving me his hand

"What was I supposed to do?" I asked myself

"Let me help you up" he offered and my hands had to betray me again because I didn't even know when I extended my hand grabbing his own gently,

My heart skipped a bit but I ignored maybe it's because of how soft his hands were,

He lead me to a white sofa there in his room and i say down but still couldn't stop crying so I placed my head on my knee struggling with the pains i was feeling,

I have a very abnormal cramps that always comes with heavy mensural flow and even make me faint sometimes,

I use to be so emotional and even cry for no reason sometimes or think myself to tears,

I didn't feel his presence again so i raised my head and searched but he wasn't there,

Then he came and sat on the chair opposite me with his food on his laps picking it like a little boy you fed something he doesn't want to eat,

I laid my head a little on the arms of the sofa to relax a bit but nothing was helping

"What can i do to help?" He asked but I couldn't say anything so I decided to be courageous and at least go and lay in my assigned room

He was on his phone when I decided to leave

"I'm so sorry about this please" i told him resting both of my hands on the chair arms to support me as i leave but i fell back immediately making him to turn immediately to look at me

"Omg Jadwa baiwar Allah kin shiga 3" I mentally told myself when i saw what happened

I started crying so heavily scaring him but who cares

"Ab how far abo......." Haidar chocked on his words when he saw me crying

"What is happening? What did you do to her?" He asked rushing to my side

"What the fuck will i do to her" Sultan replied angrily but Haidar ignored him coming to grab my face with his palm

"Jadwa are you ok" he asked but I only nodded a yes and started turning my head crying,

"Gashi nan shegiya 'yar gidan babu, idan ya kare kuma ai za a san nayi tunda dai ba uban ki ke bani kudi ba" aunty Salma's hurtful words rang in my ears,

That is what she always says whenever i was on my period and she gave me a pack of pad,

"What am I supposed to do? Where am I going to start from?"

This is the most embarrassing moment of my life, the white couch i was sitting on was now stained and the stain was so visible that immediately i stand up they both will see it,

"Should i just whisper to Haidar?" I asked myself but I couldn't because i have a very shy personality and i cant even open my mouth to tell him what happened,

He came close to me and asked me what's wrong one more time,

"Please if i can get some pain killers" I begged crying

He then dashed away immediately saying brb

"Sorry" Sultan said quietly as if he didn't want me to hear him

"Allah ya taimake ka" I started saying slowly gathering the remaining confidence i had before I pour it down the drain

He then looked at me waiting for me to say what i was about to,

"For the love of Allah please forgive me, I didn't mean for it to happen but I promise to clean it no matter what" i said with more tears rolling down my face,

I know that he had no idea what i was talking about because of the way he was giving me the clueless look,

I had to tell him before he was going to see it anyways so i was saving myself the embarrassment,

So I slowly got up holding my skirt tightly,

"Dan Allah kayi hakuri" i quickly said kneeling down with my head down waiting for the snapping or the slap but none came,

What he did surprised me, he hurried and picked one of his towels wrapping it around me,

"You can go with it" he said and instantly i ran out his room to my own room cursing myself to be a grown up,

Haidar is still not back even though i heard the front door open and close again

I took a nice shower but stood there in the bathroom because i had nothing to use and take care of myself,

I heard a faint knock on the door so I wore my big hijjab and opened it revealing Haidar standing there with a paper bag which looked way bigger for just a pain killer, he handed it to me,

"I didn't know the one you prefer so i got several types" he said and poor me taught he was talking about the medicine because it was surprising so i just smiled weakly saying a quick thank you and then closing the door behind me,

I then hurried and poured everything down on the bed to see what was inside and I almost strangled myself right there and then

"Why did he tell him?"

Haidar got the painkillers with different types of pads, tampons and even panty liner,

That was when I knew it was official, i am ruined, I don't have anymore dignity left in me,

I picked the pad and hurried into the bathroom to do my business then i came out and dressed then I decided to take the medicine but no water and i was too ashamed to go out and get it from the kitchen because i cant risk bumping into any of them

So i went with the best option I have, taking it with the water from the toilet sink and that is what i did,

I packed them back into the gift bag and drifted off to sleep since we were leaving tomorrow,

The next morning breakfast was sent so I didn't have to go for it so they ate but i wasn't hungry at all so I hurried and arranged the room i stayed and rushed out since i know the car I usually follow,

"Jadwa ta fito?" I heard Haidar's voice asking and moments later he opened the door,

"Jadwa good morning"

"Morning" I replied without looking at him

"Hope you're feeling okay now?" He asked and i just nodded, I think he sensed that I was uncomfortable so he didn't say anything else and just locked the door and left,

"Its gonna be a long time of embarrassment" i said pulling my hijjab to cover my face as i fell asleep

"Na shiga 3!!!" Amla said laughing as if her life depends on it

I was just telling her about my drama,

"Ayyah wlhy har kin bani tausayi" she said wiping the tears of laughter from her eyes,

"Ke dai kika sani" i said to her faking an angry face

"C'mon Jad kema you know i was joking ai" she said hugging me and I jokingly pushed her before I finally gave in,

"Jadwa I'm leaving tonight" Haidar said to me,

He came into the kitchen and met me there and I swear to God i was hoping that the ground will just open and swallow me,

Ever since the incident i can't look at either of them in the eye so after what he said i just nodded and managed to say "Allah ya kaika lafiya"

Before i knew what was happening he grabbed my hand putting a nice looking bracelet on it and i gave him a questioning look immediately,

"You will break my heart if you remove it" he said placing his hand on his chest,

So i just left it there since its just a bracelet it won't cause no harm,

"Abbakari kwana 2" i said to the man who use to come and pick sultan's kaftans and other royal wears for washing,

"Wlhy 'yar fulani i was sick ne" he said, 'yar fulani was the name he always use to call me I don't know why

"Ayyah Allah ya kara Lafiya"

"Let me bring the clothes for you" i said and immediately ran upstairs to pack the clothes for him that I didn't even know Sultan was there,

I gave him the clothes and he said bye and left so i went in to continue my work,

I was turning the stir fry i was making when the kitchen door opened slowly and sultan entered,

I looked down immediately "what would you like your highness?" I asked but what he said surprised me

"Go back to your work" then he opened the fridge and removed the carrot juice i made then he dropped it on the counter in the middle of the kitchen and started looking for cups I guess because he was just opening and closing cupboards so I hurried and picked a cup for him and dropped it,

"Here is a cup your highness"

"Thank you" he said as he sat on the chair taking the juice....

"What is he doing here?" My inner voice asked😌😌😌

As promised 😘😘😘