( picture of Tori above ) { Tori's POV }

The after effects of everything hit when we reached the mansion. My heads where shaking, I felt like screaming, but I also felt like I couldn't breathe as we walked into the mansion.

Michael and Alex walked me up the stairs on each side and they almost pushed away Angelina, Elena, Greta, and Vera from touching me.

The moment someone touches me is the moment I lose it. One time I broke down and wouldn't stop crying. The other time I almost killed the one who touched me out of instinct.

It isn't pretty.

Alex and Michael walked me to my room, and stood outside the door. I didn't bother even locking the door knowing that Michael and Alex wouldn't let anyone in.

They know the separation isn't just because I want to be alone but because I need to be. It's also for everyone else's safety. I'm unpredictable when I'm in this state.

I turned on my shower to warm water, I started taking off whosever nasty clothes that I'm wearing.

I looked at myself in the mirror and I could tell I lost a few pounds, and that I have a broken rib, and there's a few bruises, and a cut on my face. I even have dark circles under my eyes, and my whole body is filthy. I recognized this girl from a while ago, the only difference is that this time I'm proud of myself and I respect myself.

I get in the warm shower and as I'm washing my body I watch dry blood and dirt wash down the drain. I sink to the bottom of the shower and cry. I allow myself to break down.

I sit there crying till the water turn cold, then I get out and wrap a towel around myself. I get dressed in comfortable clothes. I try to brush my hair, with my hands still shaking. I start crying again while looking at myself in the mirror taking this moment to feel actual pity for myself, and everything I've been through.

Why me? Why Diego? Why is my life so twisted?!

I scream and punch the mirror, and I didn't feel a thing as it shattered. I stand up and throw a lamp to the other side of the room breaking it. I slide all the stuff off my nightstand. Then my knees buckled, and I fell on the ground crying fairly loud.

I hear yelling from downstairs and it sounds like Luca, and then I hear heavy footsteps that sounds like someone's coming up the stairs.

I have a feeling it's Luca but I stay where I am not being able to get up or stop crying. I don't want him to see me like this.

I didn't think he would till I hear Luca talking to Michael and Alex outside the door. I place my hand over my mouth so they can't hear me cry as I try to listen to what they're saying.

"I'm not allowing anyone inside. She needs her space." Michael says sternly

"This is my house and my territory. She's in there hurt, and neither of you are going to keep me from going in." Luca says

"You don't one wrong move, and you'll make her worse, and cause her more pain."

"I just need to see her." Luca tells them

I hear whispering and then the door opens and I see Luca walk in. He looks worried and relived at the same time, but he still comes in and shuts the door behind him, with Michael and Alex still standing outside of it.

"Would this be a bad time to give you a hard time for running out after our night together?" Luca asks trying to joke with a sad smile as he starts slowly walking towards me. He's acting like I'm a wild and injured animal and I guess in a way I am.

I give him a sad smile and shake my head. Although I continue to cry not being able to stop myself. Luca looks at me and looks as if he's in pain.

"Can I come closer to you, Angel?" Luca asks softly

I give a slow hesitant nod.

He sits on the floor beside me with his back against my bed. He doesn't touch me he just sits there. Luca sees my hand that is busted open and has glass shards in it from punching Adrian and the mirror. He says "We need to call the doctor Angel."

I shake my head no.

"Angel you are hurt and we don't even know the extent of the rest of your injuries." Luca says carefully

I still shake my head no.

Luca just lets out a breath.

And after about ten minutes Luca stands up and I tense up as he walks to the door and opens it. He's leaving me..

At least that was my first thought but to my surprise he just opens the door to talk to Michael and Alex.

"Why won't she let me call the doctor?" Luca asks Michael and Alex who are still standing outside my door but are now looking at both Luca and I.

Michael and Alex look at me and I give a nod to tell them it's okay to tell him. Michael and Alex walk in my room, and shut the door behind them.

"She's scared she'll black out again." Alex says

"What do you mean?" Luca questions looking at me then back at Alex

"The last time when we got her back, we took her to our doctor, and she went into survival mode. She almost killed him and the nurse, we learned that we couldn't touch her. Because whenever we did she blacked out and went a little insane. No offense Tor." Alex explains

I just shake my head.

"Why won't she talk?" Luca asks softly

"We aren't sure. She said a few words the last time as long as no one got to close." Michael says

"The thing you need to realize is Tori is she's insanely brave, strong, independent, kind hearted, and fierce..but she has a dark side that appeared after Adrian took her. It was like he broke something inside of her, and it created a cold ruthless side. That's why she doesn't actually train with many people, she's afraid of letting go. Because when she lets go, she's unpredictable, even to herself." Alex says

Luca nods and looks directly at me.

"Get me some medical supplies." Luca says to Alex and Michael

"I don't think that's a good idea." Alex says

"Just go." Luca says

Alex and Michael leave to get medical supplies.

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They come back with the supplies.

"Do you need our help?" Alex asks Luca

Luca looks at me and just shakes his head.

"We'll be outside of the door." Michael says

Michael and Alex leave my bedroom to stand outside of my door again.

Luca walks closer to me with the supplies in his hands. He sits the supplies on my bed, then he kneels in front of me. I can't help my tense up.

"I don't want to scare you, but we really need to get the glass out of your hand. I know you're worried that you are going to hurt me, or black out again..but I promise you Angel, that if you do I'll be okay. I just need you to be okay, and right now you are in pain and bleeding. So please Tori, let me help you." Luca begs

I slowly stand up and sit on the bed. Luca stands up and watches me closely.

"Can I look at your hand?" Luca questions

I stay tensed up but I hold up my injured hand to show him. Luca looks closely at it but doesn't touch it yet..

"I'm going to need to take the glass out, and bandage it up." Luca says softly

I shake my head.

"Tori, Angel..I'm not going to hurt you, I just need you to trust me, even if you don't trust yourself right now, trust me." Luca says

I don't say anything but I move my hand closer to him. He gives me a nod.

"Don't worry Angel. I won't let you lose yourself." Luca says as he gently holds my injured hand in his, I close my eyes as tears flow down my face.

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I didn't black out. I remained quiet and tense but Luca was able to take the glass out, and bandage my hand. After he finished I sat looking at the wall in front of me crying again.

"Angel, can I hold you?" Luca asks

I give him a hesitant nod.

He lays down on my bed and I lay down beside him. I cry with my head into his chest.

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After an hour of crying into Luca's chest, I finally stopped. I promise I think he cried a few tears himself.

Luca got Alex to get me food and drink, and ate with me even though I knew neither of us wanted to eat, but I was basically starving, and Luca looked as if he was forcing himself to eat just so I would.

Luca seemed to understand my silence and for that I was grateful. It's not that I didn't want to talk, but after everything catching up to me it felt as if I couldn't.

Even the strongest have weak moments..

This just happened to be one of mine..