I was awoken by a strong feeling of nausea. Quickly I jumped out of the bed and dashed into the bathroom. Bending over the toilet seat I emptied my stomach.

Wiping my mouth with the back of my hand I stood up and walked to the sink washing my hands and mouth. Taking deep breaths I looked at myself in a mirror.

I looked paler than usual, which probably have some kind of connection with the fact that I'm in Italy. I mean it's different air, different weather in comparison with Croatia, well with Zagreb. But that is also because of this little bundle that I'm carrying.

Instinctively I put a hand over my little bump making a smile stretch across my face. 'I'm getting fatter.' I frowned at the thought but quickly shook my head. I don't want to think about it, not again. I don't want to do to myself the same thing that my parents do. I don't want to feel useless or fat or ugly.

'I'm gonna be a mom. I need to get myself together. Even if I don't remember what happened through the last four years and who the father is. I need to get myself in order, not for me but my baby. I don't want to be like my parents, I want to be better, a real parent. The one that will be with you no matter what, through thick and thin.'

I still remember the day when the doctor told me that I'm pregnant, that I'm expecting a little bundle of joy. I was scared shirtless.

Flashback

I was not feeling alright for a while now, ever since I came from the hospital. I thought that it had something with me feeling nervous and anxious because I couldn't remember or recognize anything. So at first, I didn't want to tell anything to Daniel but he caught me throwing up this morning.

"How long do you feeling like this?" He asked as he sat next to me extending a glass of water to me.

"Ever since I exited the hospital." I said silently while looking at the floor. I could feel his burning glare at my face.

"Why didn't you tell me anything?" He asked with sadness and anger in his voice.

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to be a burden to you." I exclaimed seeing his face softens "I know that you worry about me because of my memory so I didn't want to add on it. And besides, I thought that it was a bug or because of my feelings that are switching every second. At a moment I'm anxious than nervous and all that because I'm overthinking again." I added with a small smile.

Sighing he rubbed his hand against his chin "I'm not mad at you. And you aren't and never will be a burden to me. You are my little sister and I would like it if you tell me if something is bothering you or if you are in pain or.. basically everything. Okay?" He asked and I nodded my head.

"Okay then. Umm, you said that you are throwing up since you returned here, right?"

"Yeah." I answered fidgeting with my fingers. "That's not normal. It can't be normal, so can you get dressed I'm gonna take you to the hospital." He said making me sigh heavily.

"Sure. I'm gonna be right back." I said as I got up and went to my room to get dressed. 'I'm sick of the hospital already. I spent way too much time there.'

After getting dressed I came back into the living room finding Daniel and Maya together sitting and talking. At the sound of me, their heads snapped in my direction.

"Hey," Maya was instantly on her feet and ran to my side "Dani called me to come here. He said that you are not feeling good. Are you okay?" She asked with concern in her eyes.

What I learned since I woke up is that she was Daniel's girlfriend. They are together for quite some time now, I think Daniel said that they are two years together already or something like that. And I must say that she was stunning. She has beautiful red hair and deep brown eyes, she is breathtakingly beautiful.

"Yeah, I'm fine. He's overreacting a little." I said with a slight chuckle receiving a glare from Daniel.

"That we will see." He said as he got up and pointed us toward the door "Let's go." He added with a small smile.

Getting out of the apartment Maya turned towards me "Do you want that us go by car or are you in the mood for a walk? I mean we don't need to walk if you don't feel good." She said concerned but I quickly shook my head.

"No, no, I'm fine with a walk. I think that fresh air will do good for me and besides the hospital is not that far away from here. So why would we spend gas till we found a free parking spot when we could just walk over there. It's nice outside anyway." I said with a slight smile causing her to smile also.

We were walking towards the hospital when Daniel decided to break the silence that fell over us. "You know last year after your birthday you went into New York." He said making my head turn to him.

I know that I went there he already told me that but he didn't tell me why or what did I do there. He told me in short lines about the last four years of my life of which I, unfortunately, don't remember.

The doctor said that it could be caused by my hit on the head in that accident or my brain is trying to suppress bad memories.

"Yeah you told me, but you never told me why I left." I said making him share a look with Maya.

"Well, you wanted a new, fresh start away from.. your parents. " he told me making me frown.

"They still didn't stop their torture, did they?" I asked even if I know the answer to that. 'They will never stop.'

He shook his head silently as Maya decided to continue the story "Oh, but you got a job over there." on the sound of that my head wiped at her side.

"Really? What did I do? Probably something with languages." I asked eager to know the answers.

"Yeah, you went there for a job of.. umm I think it was a translator in one of the hotels, right?" She asked Daniel making him nod. "Umm, but you didn't get it. They give it to some bitch that came a day before you." She said making me title my head in confusion.

"So, what did I do? Please don't tell me I was a waitress. If I was that definitely wouldn't end up good. I think that I would get an anxiety attack in the middle of serving." I said making her laugh at it.

"Oh no, you were a nanny actually." She exclaimed as we got to the entrance of the hospital

"A nanny?" I asked her as I entered the hospital following behind Daniel.

"Yep." She said as she took my hand and lead us towards the waiting room where Daniel disappeared.

. . .

I was on the verge of leaving at this point. We were waiting in here for at least an hour if not longer when a doctor finally called my name.

Getting in I decided to tell her how I feel and what is happening. The doctor looked at me frowning slightly.

"Mhmm, okay I'm gonna need to ask you a couple of questions now." She said and I nodded at her, silently telling her to continue. "When was the last time that you had your period?" She asked making me frown at her this time.

'She doesn't think what I'm thinking, right?' Shaking my head I looked at her "Umm, I didn't know. I was in an accident and was in a coma for a month. But after I woke up I didn't have a period."

Hearing that she nodded her head while writing something in her notes "Okay, let's do this then. I'm gonna send you to take a blood sample so I can see what is happening." she said giving me a paper and sending me to the other part of the hospital.

. . .

After I finished everything and returned back to her, she had a smile on her face. "Well, my thoughts were confirmed." She said as I sat down on a chair in front of her "The sickness you are feeling in the morning is indeed morning sickness. And it's normal at your stage of pregnancy. " she added making my eyes widen.

"I'm pregnant." I whispered not being able to raise my voice any louder on which she nodded her head.

"Yes. Your blood sample confirmed that. Nausea that you feel in the morning is what brought me to think of it. And it ended up correct."

I could feel my throat tightened and my breathing started to get labored. 'I think that I'm having a panic attack.' I thought to myself and tried to calm but couldn't.

Seeing my distress doctor jumped on her feet and approached my trying to calm me down. After a couple of moments, I remained my calm but tears clouded my vision.

'Oh, my God. What I'm gonna do? Daniel will surely hate me. He will be disappointed in me.' My thoughts repeated in my head, but soon they went away as the doctor lightly shook my shoulders.

"Are you okay? Did you arrive here alone or with someone?" She asked making me nod my head. "Yeah, I'm fine and I came here with my brother and friend." I said and she nodded her head at me.

"Do you want me to call them in?" She asked but I quickly shook my head. "N-no, ma'am. I'm fine. " I exclaimed making her frown slightly but she didn't say anything.

"I can see that you are scared about your pregnancy." She said making me nod silently as I looked at her. "I will set you tomorrow for an ultrasound and then we will see, okay?" She said as she handed me an ultrasound paper, but continue to speak as she saw the uncertainty on my face.

"You know that you have options right. You can keep the baby. Or give birth and put a baby on adoption if you are considering yourself not being able to rise it. Or final opinion is abortion. But for the last option, I'm not sure because I don't know how far along you are. If you are longer than ten weeks then abortion isn't really a solution because it can cause later problems and it's not safe for you." She added but I quickly shook my head at that.

"No, no, I could never do abortion..." I trailed off "...I'm gonna more than definitely keep the baby. I don't think that I would be able to give my baby to someone else." I said causing her to smile.

"Good. Do you want me to call your brother so he can help you or you can alone?"

"I'm fine. I can alone." I said standing up and thanking her, biding my goodbyes I left.

. . .

During the whole walk, Daniel and Maya tried to talk to me and find out what did the doctor say but all I told them was "We will talk at home."

Now sitting on a couch next to them ready to tell them I couldn't form a proper sentence.

"Umm, I... well I.. the doctor.. she, umm s-she said that.." I shuttered while feeling my eyes burn from tears making Daniel wrap his arms around me pulling me into a hug.

I sniffed trying to calm my breathing while Dani whispered sweet nothings in my ear.

"Shh, what happened? Are you okay? You are scaring me, sis. Tell me what is bothering you." He said as he gently pulled away from me.

"Promise me that you won't be mad." I said making him frown but nod nonetheless.

"I promise. What's happening?" "I'm pregnant. " I choked out as tears started to fall freely down my cheeks. I felt him stiffened, but couldn't bring myself to lift my eyes to look at him. I didn't want to see the disappointment in his eyes, it would break me.

After a couple of moments I felt his arms tightened around me "Shh, I'm here. Don't worry. We will think something. Did you think about the baby? Are you going to keep it?" He asked making me pull a little and look at him.

"I want to keep it, but I don't want to make you mad." I said making his frown soften.

"I could never be mad at you. You know that. And whatever you want, I'm okay with it. If you want to keep it I'm fine with being a hot young uncle." He said making me laugh a little "It's your decision. It's your life. Do what you think is the best in your interest and in the interest of that baby." He added kissing my temple.

"So you are going to keep a baby?" Maya asked while looking at us making me nod which caused her to squeal and start jumping on the spot.

"So I'm gonna be an aunt!" She squealed making me laugh. "I don't remember putting a ring, aUNtY." Daniel said mockingly making her stick out her tongue on him.

End of flashback