Responsibility and....Him



I love him...

When your a little girl, you always dream about who you will love and who will love you. You dream about the castle you will live in together, how many kids you both will have. You dream about your wedding and how your family will accept whoever it would be. For me, this was never the case...

I never thought I would love someone or find someone who could fit in my cold messy heart. I never wanted to find love because in some way or another a heart always gets broken. I didn't want to fall in love, nor did I ever plan too. But I did.

I found him... I found the one who has stolen my heart and soul completely. And the thing what scares me the most is how quickly it all happened. My heart didn't even waste a second to betray me and fall for my enemy.

But the worst part about all of this is that it's not going to be his fault why my heart gets crushed. It will be mine.

"Miss Garcia Would you like to inform us of what you were daydreaming about." 32 years of teaching and what do you know? Mr Dickson is still a dick. "Something more interesting than this lesson." Before I could hold the words what I was thinking they slipped.

Everyone's mouth was agape while next to me Jace was trying his hardest not roll on the ground with laughter. Before I could apologise to Mr Dickson, he was quick to turn red.

"How dare you give me this level of disrespect. If your parents weren't such a valuable source for our school, I would give you a detention. But out of the generosity of my heart." And the fact you are afraid shitless of every family member in my blood. "I will only give you a warning." The tightness in my chest suddenly vanished and I was now allowed to breathe again.

"Dude you are so lucky if that was me, I would probably get expelled," Jace whispered scrunching his nose at the thought. "Yes probably but then again you wouldn't have to deal with my family nor my uncles." His face paled into realization.

"Yeah, your right! Fuck that."

The bell was a piece of music or in other words, a blessing to every person in this room. "ok class, dismissed!" Jace didn't even let Mr Dickson finish his sentence before he sprinted out of his seat.

"C'mon Ange save yourself while you still can! this shit kills brain cells." I bit my tongue to hold my laughter while I quickly escaped a very angry Mr Dickson.

"That was horrid." I breathed.

"Horrid!" Jace gasped. "That was utter torture. Mr Dickson is two shorts of a cake from being the most terrifying cruellest animals on the planet."

"That." I started. "Or you are just a complete wuss."

"I'm not a wuss." He defended with a glare.

"No, your right." I nodded in agreement.

"You're my little bitch." Jace gasped dramatically catching his chest as if someone had just plunged a knife in his heart.

"Dramatic much?" I asked sounding board

"DRAMATIC MY AS-." I was quick to clamp my hand over his mouth before he turned to many heads. His eyes narrowed and my eyes narrowed at him daringly.

"Hey Angelina, I was just wonde- Oh am I interrupting something here." I quickly retreated my hand and turned to Olivia giving her a tight smile. "Hey, Olivia."

"Hey! Jace." Her cheeks blushed a bright pink as Jace gave her sly wink. The whole scene made me want to barf. A pig in my opinion would have more charm then Jace, and that's been nice.

"Is there anything you wanted?" I hated sounding rude but right now the last thing I want to see is Jace flirting. I already see enough of that as it is, Jace is like a brother to me.

"Oh yes!" She chirped loudly half startling me and Jace. "I was just wondering if you were still coming to my party tonight?"

The confusion was what I first thought, party? What party? And when the hell have I ever agreed to go to a party?

"You said you would go for my birthday." Jace looked surprised and gave me an unexpected look which I shook off.

"of course, I am going! But is it ok if Jace tags along?" Like light bulbs, her cheeks were flushed bright pink all over again.

"Yes of course he can come! The whole year is coming it would be wrong for him not to come." I internally groaned at that knowing now my tweedled dee and tweedled dumber twin cousins will be attending this party.

"can't wait."

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"Why did I agree to this again?" I asked Jace the fifth time before he parked the car outside Olivia's house. Tonight, I was kind of hoping that Papa or one of my brothers would not allow me to go. But instead, they said 'I am glad you're making so many, friends'. For me, it was betrayal and not what others would say 'supportive parents.

"Because you didn't want to be seen as completely heartless," Jace smirked.

Smart boneless ass wanker

"Fine... well let's just get this over with." I complied with complete dread.

"Don't you think you could have dressed just a tad nicer?" I gave him a sharp burning glare. "What do you mean?"

"I mean you are legit wearing a sweater and jeans with converse sneakers! Have I not taught you anything?"

"You have taught me how to have a wicked migraine." He rolled his eyes not impressed with me in the slightest.

"Why does it matter?" He rolled his eyes looking disappointed with me.

"It matters because I intended in getting some luck tonight! And I am not going to get any with you standing next to me looking like that." I couldn't help but slap the back of his head. He yelped loudly and shot me a glare, but I couldn't care less. I had no one to impress here and right now with everything going on the last thing I want to do is get dressed up just so Jace can get his little Jace satisfied.

The house was filled with empty cups and intoxicated sweaty teenagers. I thought the bar Jace brought me too smelt bad... But no this for sure takes the prize.

"ANGELINA." I jumped back at the loud voice and suddenly arms were pulled around me. "I'm so happy you're here." Olivia was completely blind and all over the shop. It was quite surprising to see her like this because I am so used to seeing her closed in her shell. But tonight, she looks completely different. It was a side to her what I wasn't so used to seeing.

"Happy birthday Olivia." I greeted warmly as possible while handing her a neatly wrapped box. "AWWW thank you! You're the best friend ever." And before I knew it Olivia and the present were gone in a flash. I could see Jace looking where she went with a hint of concern mixed in his eyes.

"Hey, Ange do you mind if I go and follow her. It's just she looked a bit unwell and someone could try and hurt her. An-and I well-."

"Jace just go! I will be fine!" I smiled to myself as I saw him chase after her. As much it disgusts me, I couldn't help but think it was a little cute seeing Jace chase after someone. But just as I found some content in this unsettling scenery it just became more unsettling.

'Look Sophie the trash was left here." I rolled my eyes at the lame insult.

"Where? If you asked me, I think it just arrived." I retorted causing Rebecca to sink into herself.

"Excuse me? I don't know how anyone else could be seen as trash with you in that outfit." I scoffed loudly waving Sophie off. I was not going to let these girls get to me.

"Well, at least it is just my outfit. But with you girls, you don't need an outfit to change who you are. You will always be seen as a whore."

"You bitch! Just wait until Daddy tells uncle Enzy and then he will tell-" I raised my hand interrupting Rebecca's pathetic rant which aggravated them further.

"I don't care what you girls do nor what you say but if you excu-." My words and thoughts were interrupted as I saw a dark dangerous shadow move from the outside window. My breath hitched as a million thoughts went to mind and suddenly, I was a statue in front of the twins.

They were about to say something. "Sorry girls if you excuse me." No time to explain I quickly went outside and tried my best to follow the shadow.

Gates and houses flew past me as I ran faster and faster closer and closer to the dark shadow. Just as I was about to turn in a corner into an alleyway.

BANG!

"fuck." I cursed under my breath clutching my jaw. If it wasn't who I knew it was I would consider ripping his head off with my bare hands.

"Well, if it isn't for Boss's favourite little Angel."

"What do you want Tony." I spat whipping the blood from the corner of my mouth. Placing the bat on the ground Tony turned to me with his sick sinister smile.

"I want lots of things miss Garcia. But none of which I can have while you're still alive. This wouldn't be an issue if your target was actually dead." I narrowed my eyes as he started stalking towards me.

"you might not realise this." He seethed while wrapping his hand around my neck. "But I have been watching you." Both of his hands wrapped around my neck tightly as he brought his lips to my ear.

"And from what I have seen... I am not even sure if you are planning on killing him. Or is your family life's just a game to you?" The oxygen was getting harder and harder to reach with each word he spoke the tighter his grip became.

"I still have two months." I breathed out desperately.

"I know." He snarled darkly. My efforts while fighting his grip were pointless. The more time that went on the weaker I became.

"You can't kill me." My efforts were becoming desperate which only seemed to encourage him.

"No.... but I can give you a warning."

I should have known that this was his shadow... That he will always be watching me and my every move. After all, this was his and Bosses test. To see my loyalty to see how much I am willing to fight for my family. And they are willing to test and try and torture me in every possible way.

The air had almost completely left me turning me purple and just as I thought it was over. His fists were met with my stomach trying to see how many ribs it was possible to break under 10 minutes.

Every minute seemed to last forever until finally, it was over. And if I thought that was torture stepping up was a whole other level. But surprisingly walking wasn't that bad. Probably because I am used to walking with a broken rib or two. I knew I couldn't go back to the party and right now I couldn't think of anything worse. I didn't need a mirror to know that I look worse than death. The looks what people gave me as I walked past gave me that confirmation. I was thankful that no one stopped and asked if I was ok. I just wanted to be in my own world and me being in the worst part of town allowed me that.

It seemed even the weather was against me because a second later California greeted me with a thunderstorm.

Then suddenly my tracks were stopped, and I bumped into the last person I wanted to see today.

"Princess?" I Gave Blaze my tightest glare.

"Go away Blaze I am not in the mood." He looked more than surprised seeing me here. And by the looks of his uniform, I can tell he had just been on a mission.

"What happened to you?" Why does he care? Hasn't he been the person trying to kill me for the last four months. "Fuck off Blaze.

I tried storming pass him but he only caught my arm with determination to get whatever answers he was after. "I asked you what happened?" He spat seething in his low deathly tone.

I pulled out my gun directing it directly to his head. "And I told you TO FUCK OFF." Without even a hint of effect or emotion, he drew his gun pointing it directly to my head.

If I just shoot this will all be over. It would just prove to my heart that I don't love this man. It would just prove that it has all been just in my head. I can finally put an end to this and put this mission to bed while keeping my family's life's alive.

Just pull the trigger.

"What happened?" His eyes were unrecognisable with the darkest shade I had ever seen. "Why do you care? Why do you fucking care?! I am your enemy, and you are mine. I want you dead." My words were spat with the most venom I had ever given. But the tears what threatening to spill were betraying me completely.

pull the trigger.

His lips smacked together as he looked deep in thought. "Why couldn't you just leave me alone?" His eyebrows furrowed as he just stared at me bewildered. "Because of me... Because of YOU, my whole family is hanging on a thread." Tears left my eyes as I stared at the man who had stolen everything from me.

"You stole everything from me!" I yelled through my tears while holding the gun with more strength.

Pull the trigger and this could be over.

He said nothing but only observed me looking at me like ticking bomb. Which in theory I was. "So I will ask again, why!?" he didn't answer.

"Why?" I screamed but again no answer. But the way the look in his eyes changed caused my breath to hitch.

He lowered his gun looking completely defeated. It was a new Blaze one I had never seen before. Broken, completely broken and full of emotion.

STOP! This is a game.

"Rise the gun and shoot!" People would think I was crazy but at this point I was desperate.

"SHOOT, COME ON!" he dropped his gun to the floor and looked directly into my eyes.

"Please..." I was desperate. Now would be the time to kill him... But I can't.

I lowered the gun letting it fall onto the cold shiny pavement as the raindrops poured down my face.

"W-why," I asked again not bothering to hide the break in my voice.

"I-i." He seemed just as broken as me as I couldn't decide the words to say.

"I can't do this anymore Blaze. I can't do this to my family." I spoke weakly. "But I can't hide my feelings for you... I-I love you." The look on his face was enough to break my heart. He looked completely taken back but that didn't stop me.

"My family could die tomorrow because of this. But I can help it... I love you. And if they died tomorrow it would be all my fault. But Blaze. I-I love you... But I also hate you. I hate nearly everything I love about you but I-."

"I love you too."

I couldn't help but step back and cough for air. I definitely heard that wrong. He couldn't-."What?" I stammered.

"I love you too Angel. I love your strength, your smile, your independence. I love how you don't need to depend on anyone but yourself. How you can be yourself and light any room you walk in. And more importantly, I love the light you put in me. I love-."



No more words were needed to be said. Because somehow the prayers what my heart sang out were answered. Although it was wrong nothing had felt better than the way how his lips connected with mine... It wasn't just filled with lust. It was filled with passion, love and integrity. And I couldn't think of another place nor anywhere else I would rather be than in his arms.