TORN





I entered the apartment breathing deeply. This feeling is something I will never get used too. It makes me feel like a stupid in love teenage boy who hasn't got in control of his emotions. I need to be in control everything in my life is controlled. But she is the opposite she is more go with the flow and let her feelings consume her. Whereas I'm never like that, never have been... And once before I told myself that I never will.

Until her.

"What," I grunted lowly as my friends were still in the same position as they were last time. Stilling looking just as confused as before.

"Um care to explain. FIRST, you offer her breakfast. Which might I add is rude because I never got an offer? SECONDLY, you let her sleep in your bed. THIRDLY you were been nice to her AND gave her a lift home." Cole rubbed his head sounding conflicted as Simon spoke out. But just the sound of these people already interrogating me gives me a headache. I do not need to explain myself to anyone. My business is my business no one else's.

"I'm not explaining because I will be in my office." I walked to my office knowing quite well Simon and Cole are following behind.

"Dude, what the fuck?" Simon yelled. I rolled my eyes and clicked my tongue ignoring their presence as I scroll through my computer.

"The plan was to get close to her and THEN kill her. Not have sex with her. She could have killed you! This could be her plan too." I slapped my laptop down glaring at Simon for being so outspoken.

"I know what the plan is," I growled then ran my hands through my hair. Cole looked at me from afar in the corner of the room. "Yes?" I asked him irritated.

"Do you love her?" The question took me back nearly as much as the first time she told me she loved me. I wasn't sure if I could tell them, I am still trying to accept it myself. My cold forgotten heart came back but only to betray me and to fall in love.

"I-i." I cleared my throat then opened my laptop.

"You do." Coles and Simon's eyes widened as they looked at me.

"But what about your revenge? What about your family." I furrowed my eyebrows and looked down at my desk. Simon had known me most of my life. He knows how much the revenge meant to me. It is what I have been working towards all my life.

"Have you forgotten everything! Because of her family, your life was ruined. Because of her family, your family is dead. Your poor innocent mother was killed by her family's hand."

"I-" I couldn't answer but I know If I let my heart take over it would answer the question loud and clear. A part of me was annoyed by Simon bringing up my past. My out of bounds unspoken past.

"Look I don't know what you are thinking or what you are planning. But I am happy for you, you deserve to be happy." Cole spoke smiling widely. The sight made me want to cringe. There is only one smile out there that could make me happy.

"Yeah, dude we are right behind you." I nodded my head and continued typing.

"Oh! Before you forgot the real reason why I came here this morning was to tell you that you have a job on Tuesday night. His name is fr-."

"I can't go." I interrupted narrowing my eyes.

"why?" Cole asked with furrowed confused eyebrows.

"Because I am taking pri-Angelina out on a date."

"Wtf-." A loud knock on the door interrupted. "what." I huffed not wanting anyone else in the room. These people are enough as it is.

"Blazey can I come in." I pinched the bridge of my nose then glared at the two morons in front of me. "Why did you bring her here."

"Don't look at me Madeline was supposed to be on Chloe watch." I rolled my eyes the welcomed Chloe in and dismissed the boys out. When Chloe walked in she looked on the verge of tears. But the coldness in heart didn't care a single bit.

"What Chloe I am busy," I growled at her wanting to get to the point of this. She jumped but then cleared her throat. "Is this about what happened last time between us?"

"Nothing happened between us." I clarified not even sparing her a glance.

"Is this about her!" Chloe spat out with disgust. My head immediately snapped to hers narrowing my eyes dangerously.

"what about her?" Smacking her lips she scowled.

"ANGELINA! She is the girl who you have been wanting to kill for the last few months. A few months ago I was the one you CARED about. Now all of a sudden SHE comes in and now she is the only thing you fucking care about." I clicked my tongue and got up slowly stalking at her but that didn't stop her.

"You have to listen to me! that bitch is just a fucking spoilt brat who has lived with everything on a golden plate. I know you do-Blaze! I and you have lived the same life, we have grown in the same pain with no parents. We would be perfect Blaze you just need to accept that. Blaze please..."

"I think you are mistaken." Her eyes widened as I was now directly in front of her looking down.

"W-what d-do y-you mean." Her lip quivered as she started shaking.

"I think you are mistaken because.-." I lowered my head and brought my lips to her ear. "Because I have never cared about you."

"No, no, no, no, y-you do." Her eyes were filled with tears as she clutched my suit jacket with desperate tears. My face was scrunched up with disgust as I looked down at her.

pathetic

"I would suggest you get out of my sight Chloe because right now in your disgusting composure I don't think I will be able to help myself, without putting a bullet between those eyes of your."

I went to walk to my desk but desperately again she caught my arm holding me back with all her strength.

Weak

"You can't just push me aside. I love you! I always have!" Using my arm I pushed her slimy hand of me by force.

"Chloe." I started before grabbing her collar and lifting her off the floor. Letting the coldness in my heart overcome me.

"I. will. Never. Love. You."

And just like she ran out of the office with tears streaming down her face. Her tears meant nothing to me. I didn't care about her. I only care about one person despite how unsettling it is.

"What was that about?" Cole crinkled his nose as he and Simon walked into my office.

"Do you guys have nothing better to do than to welcome yourself in MY office," I warned narrowing my eyes. After the Chloe fiasco, the last thing I want to deal with is more people.

"Nope! But Madeline is making waffles." I rolled my eyes and smacked my lips.

"In my kitchen?" I asked irritated.

"Duh, how else would she make waffles." I rolled my eyes and went back to work. Scrolling through targets and deals.

"If I see a single mess in my kitchen all of you will never be welcomed in my apartment again," I warned meaning every word. Cole sighed loudly while Simon shrieked.

"What! Angelina ruined and messed up your whole apartment and SHE was welcomed in arm in YOUR bed."

The corner of my lips lifted as I thought about the 'present' she left me. I remember the anguish and how mortified I was when I saw what had done to my apartment. I like everything neat and tidy, with everything in place and untouched. But she truly destroyed all of that and made it into a 'piece of art'. With anyone else, I would have hunted them down and killed them in the most sinister way possible. But surprisingly I didn't. I let her go despite everything I have promised myself. I let her live...

"well to be fair She is the only one who has been able to deal with Blaze," Cole smirked.

"I deal with Blaze!" Simon pouted like a child. "I have been doing it for YEARS."

I clicked my tongue allowing them to talk about me while I'm still in the same room. "Yes, but does Blaze deal with you." Simon was about to answer before Cole interrupted him.

"No. no he doesn't."

"Can you guys stop talking about me like I am not here for a second?" They looked at me but then both continued to bicker. It wasn't long until I smashed my hands on the desk and slammed the boys into the wall.

"If one more word comes out of your bloody mouth, I won't hesitate to wrap my hands around your necks and snap them," I warned under my breath lowly.

"You know I think she is already making a difference in you." Cole started while starting to smirk.

I tightened my grip narrowing my eyes darkly. "why." I seethed.

"because before, you would have already killed us."

I pushed the guys away and scowled. "Get out of my sight before you prove your own words wrong."

They didn't waste a second to hastily leave the room. I sat back down in my seat and sighed loudly. Had I actually changed? Is Princess actually making me soft? I groaned into my hands as my head started to ache from all of this. As much as I didn't want to admit it but a few months ago I probably would have swung my fists at them. I used to never let anyone get away with anything. If I didn't like what they were saying I would ensure they knew about it. Like it or not.

Looking out into the city lights I couldn't help but wonder that if she is really changing me.

Is that a good thing or not?

A/N: Hey guys! today I did a double update so I hope you guys enjoyed! I really want to say thank you for being so nice and supportive. I also wanted to say that I have made a little competition for a chance to get a full character in my story. The reason I wanted to make the competition was that I like hearing what you guys think and what your ideas are. I still to this day can't believe how popular 'letting go of pain' is. I remember writing it in one of my darkest spaces not really thinking it was going to go anywhere but it did. So thank you so much! And please keep commenting because I love hearing from you.