I need you...





"You are my life now princess."

My life, my fire, my everything was gone, and I could only now watch her from afar. I couldn't hold her; I couldn't tell hell her she was safe or that she was enough. I could only watch her... which is by far the most painful dagger in my heart, watching the love in my life in pain. Knowing that I couldn't comfort her or tell her how much I loved her.

The day Cole told me what she had tried to do was the largest amount of pain I had ever been in.

"Tell me god damn it!" I shouted at him. This concerned her... I could see it in his eyes that he knows something. Something dark and dangerous.

"s-she." He looked away and closed his eyes, drawing deep breaths.

"She what?" I spat.

"She tried to kill herself!"

My life felt like it was ripped away from me... Just the thought of life without her was impossible as life does not go on without the love of my life. Every bone in my body screamed to be near her, to help her, to hold her. I needed her to forgive me, I needed to hear that she still loved me. But that was unknown, or I am just ignoring the truth because the last time I had her with me she looked at me with nothing but hatred.

Though that was what I deserved... I was not honest when she put everything in this relationship. She put her trust, her life story, her own life, her family's.... I couldn't even gift her the respect of being honest. So now all I can do is just remember her smell, touch, sound and presence because I lost her...

"Blaze there is something I need to tell you." I slammed my computer shut and crushed the glass of whiskey in my hand. The glass pierced my skin making droplets of blood drip onto the table. "What Simon?" I clicked my tongue. "I am busy, and it is rather late," I say annoyed as I wrap my hand up with a cloth to stop the blood.

"it's about Angelina." My head snapped to his with my eyebrows furrowed. Ever since Cole told me what happened I had gotten them to look over her just to protect her. To give me peace of mind that she is safe. "What about her?" I ask carefully, as calm as I could manage under the circumstances.

"She and her whole family were taken... Cole barely got out of there alive and is getting stitched up now." My eyes turned up and I was in seconds already walking out the door with my coat already on. I was ready to kill... Ready to show everyone what I was fully capable of. To show why my name brings chills to everyone who passes to show why people should fear me.

"Who took her?"

"I believe it was her boss... and I think the other guy. Do you think this has something to do with you Blaze? I mean it could be his way of getting back to you for betraying him. I mean he is your – ." Before he could finish, I gave him a dirty look.

"Don't ask me questions just find a way to save her and her family. Disclose any other cases we are doing right now because this is now our priority." He sighed and gave me a sad smile. It irritated me like no other and had raised more alarm bells. What else was he not telling me?

"Blaze I am sorry man... but I don't think this is going to be easy. He has already secured them in high surveillance and guarded building. Not to mention the number of men and weapons they have.... These aren't just like those mafia men or gang members, but these are highly trained assassins all coming together to kill Angelina and her family." Simon looked defeated and I could see Maddie and Cole in the background just as conflicted as I was. But I knew what I had to do, I didn't care if it killed me.

I would taint my hands in my blood any day if it meant that she was safe and ok.

Tainted hands

"Open her so-called 'boss' file because I want to know anything and everything to be able to get her safe and sound without a harmed hair on her head." So help me god if he hurts her I will do unimaginable things to that disgusting man and Tony to get revenge for her.

"I have already looked at it already Blaze, and I think I have a way to get some men from their inside onto our side." Cole then came into the conversation giving me a file. I looked briefly down at the file then back up to Cole and Simon with a confused expression.

"What way?"

"Well to start...his name is Devon."

Two Days Later

Waiting and more waiting was the last few hours for me and every other minute that was passing felt like an eternity. I had never been a patient person, as a child, I learnt that when you wait the percentage of you winning only ever gets lower. I have stood by that for as long as I can remember. But for the first time, I can only hope to God that saying is wrong because if my Angelina is not ok.

All hell is going to break loose.

"Have you heard anything yet?" I asked Simon who was doing everything he could to help on the laptop. He could see everything that was happening, so he could see if my Angelina was ok.

"They are just getting Angelina and her family in a helicopter now but I think she is ok." Relief washed over me instantly and I felt like I could finally breathe again. But I still had this anger deep inside of me which still felt like it was corrupting me. I wanted to kill everyone... I wanted to kill everyone who ever hurt Angelina physically and mentally.

I wanted them all dead.

"And her family?" I asked carefully while remembering the past and what I have said and done.

"BECAUSE YOUR FAMILY KILLED MY FAMILY!" I screamed in her face with tears in my eyes. I was completely heartbroken and felt like my insides and heart was being ripped from me. It was the most pain I had ever felt. It reminded me of the time my stepfather and mother had died... "I-I wanted to kill you and your family. I wanted to make you fall in love with me just so I can break your heart. B-but I-I betrayed me... I fell in love."

Although her family took everything away from me, all I cared about was her. It was not her fault that her family killed my mother and stepfather. It was not her fault that my uncle took over my life and turned me into a monster. I loved Angelina with everything inside me. It took me a lot of time to realise this but from the moment I saw her when I was a young boy...I just knew. I knew that she was the one... She was the missing piece of the puzzle that perfectly fitted inside my heart.

"They are safe Blaze as well... Everyone but 4 of their members made it out of the building. That Devon guy did well, surprisingly." Sucking in a deep breath I let my shoulders finally relax. "Blaze." Simon started. "I know this won't be the best time to do so but you need to try and fix things with Ange. I never believed in true love or all that soapy lovey-dovey shit but after seeing you two I-. I don't think I have or will ever see two people more made for each other than you two." I looked at him briefly before looking out the window.

"Ange is made for you Blade. Soul mates I didn't think we're real, but Ange is a real soulmate real for you. She puts up with your grumpy ass and if that is not a sign, I don't know what is." I couldn't help smiling at the thought of her. Ange was my soul mate and I believe I was hers. I just need to figure out how to fix this and I will stop at nothing.

"Blaze!" Both of our heads snapped to the door as Cole and Maddie busted through the door. They were both panting, and both had zero scratches on them which was another relief.

"Woah are you both ok?" Simon asked alerted. Furrowing my eyebrows, I tried not to let my mind race to bad thoughts as to why they were in such a rush. I carefully asked. "What is it?"

"A-Ange s-she." Cole started but was still out of breath.

"What?" I spat impatiently watching him still pant.

"S-she is here." That is all needed to hear before I stood up and left the room. Fighting the urge to run, I walked hastily towards the cafeteria. I needed to see her again. I just needed to see Infront of me that she was ok and that she was still alive. I needed to see her beautiful doe brown eye, I needed to hear her voice and feel her touch.

But when I opened the doors and saw her the air in the back of my throat hitched. There she stood in the middle of the room just as beautiful as she always was. I was glad to see her breathing and staring right at me. However, she was frailer and despite her fiery eyes and strong composure she still in my eyes looked fragile. She was top to bottom covered in blood and dirt. Scratched, burns, scars and cuts covered her arms and all unclosed skin from what I can see.

An urge inside of me wanted to run to her, pick her up and then take her away somewhere safe with just me and her. I wanted to say something, I just wanted to do something so I could hear her voice. I had all these urges inside of me that I needed to fulfil. However, the greatest need was getting her to forgive me plus accepting me again. But no words could come out or come to mind.

I was still in shock that here she was inside of me. I was scared to see hatred or disgust in her eyes. I was fearful to see or to hear what she said last time because that last time I was with her, nearly killed me.

"If I ever see you again, whether it be near Jace or any of my family members. I promise you Blaze that I would never be so glad to have my hands tainted with your blood."

With those words and fear running inside of me I still looked in her big brown doe eyes with love and yearning. I wanted to explain to her, I wanted to try and explain again why I did what I did, but there was only one word that I could say.

"You."