Missing memories



Time was already passing too quickly and I already feel like time was closing in on me. I haven't found anything yet and neither has Jace. We were both surrounded by the same fear and anxiety. Fearing the lies, the secrets and the untrusting Boss and his sadist friend Tony. It has already been one week and no moves have been made.

He was truly a ghost...

I let out a frustrated groan as I had just led myself into another dead end. I wanted to scream and throw my laptop. Everything was hopeless making feel completely worthless. I am used to being in control. I have never had trouble finding my target until now. It makes me restless and the uneasiness feeling was starting to sink into my veins. "Hey, sis."

"what?" I snapped out in frustration and as I turned around I was met with Diego's disapproving eyes. He stalked closer to me towering me with his large frame. "Watch the attitude." I felt my hands turn into tight fists but as Diego's narrowed eyes lumbered over me so I just sighed in defeat. "sorry." I hate letting everyone control me but it is something out of my control. "It's ok! Mamma told us that you accidentally skipped your dinner so I brought it up for you." I smiled gratefully and shut my laptop as he placed my dinner down.

"So, what are you working on?" Diego asked as he sat down on my bed. I looked up from my plate and smiled. "just some boring schoolwork what the teacher gave us last minute." He chuckled and slumped back into my bed. "Thank God I am finished with High School that shit drove me crazy." I laughed along and played with the casserole using my fork.

"so, what's wrong?" I furrowed my eyebrows and gave him a confused look. "Nothing, why do you ask?" He shrugged then grabbed the basketball what was sitting beside my bed. "You have just been acting off." He replied sheepishly giving a warm smile which was full of concern. I walked over to him and sat down beside him giving him a tight hug. "Nothing is wrong bubba, I promise I am ok." I might have convinced my brother but the one person who I didn't convince was myself.

"Good but just remember you always have me if you want to talk about anything." Out of all the brothers Diego had always been the one who I can talk too. He always understood and listened to me and he let me let out all of my emotions. People would think having brothers would be joyful and cute and in some cases, I am sure that is the case. But it is not mine not only do I have older brothers but they are all triplets. They all share this weird bond which strangely makes them even more protective. "Thanks, bro and the same goes for you." I gently nudged him with my elbow and wiggled my eyebrows to lighten the mood. He scoffed loudly and pushed me away.

He looked at my old basketball then gave me a funny look. "You know I haven't seen you play in forever you used to love basketball." His playful smile turned into a slight frown. "well after you, Juan, John and Dad forced me to quit just because you thought it was too 'dangerous' I guess I have just focused on other things and haven't given a thought about it." there was slight venom laced in my voice and I shook it off with sarcasm. It wasn't fair to lash all of my inner anger on Diego. He was only trying to spend some time with me and have a conversation. He cleared his throat and looked at me with a serious look before he spoke up. "well perhaps maybe sometime soon we can all have a game."

"Maybe." His green eyes glistened with hope and he placed a soft kiss on my head before wrapping his arms around me. "I have missed you." My heart tugged and I narrowed my eyes with confusion. What did he mean? How could he miss me when I have never left? I shook my thoughts away and sunk into my brother's warmth letting myself melt into the loving embrace.

"Can I sleep with you in your bed tonight?" I rolled my eyes as my idiot brother pouted. "not in a million years." I replied sternly narrowing my eyes at him. He whined and stomped his feet as he sat up. "are you sure?" He tried again asking me hopeful. I rolled my eyes and nodded ignoring his ongoing pleads.

"You will just hog the bed and steal all of the blankets so I am perfectly sure of my decision. You have your own perfectly fine bed to sleep in, so you should go into your own room and sleep in that." He slumped his shoulders and muttered complaints under his breath. "Sometimes you can be just as mean as Juan." He complained waving his accusing finger in my face making me want to break it. "well you should tell him that." I replied swiftly before slamming the door in his face.

I reopened my laptop and looked at all the unsolved murder files what I still need to be looked through. I have looked through records and past files but now I have moved my attention to all of the mysterious unsolved murder cases. I have hardly gotten any sleep in the last week and my body is starting to become affected by that. I shrug off the drowsiness and eat my dinner for nutrients as I prepare myself for another long sleepless restless night.

"ANGEL GET UP!" Juan slammed the door startling me awake. I rub my eyes tiredly and looked down surprised to see that I slept at my desk. My muscles were all aching and I am pretty sure my back is going to give me hell today. Juan looked at me unexpectedly for a moment before scowling. "did you really sleep at your desk last night." He clicked his tongue annoyed and waited for me to answer. "Yes! I am sorry please don't tell the others." I begged and pushed out the puppy eyes trying to use the oldest trick in the book when it came to fooling my brothers. I haven't done it since I was a kid but there was no harm in trying. The only shame in it was that I was eighteen and I am trying to convince my meanest brother to not rat me out. He grunted loudly and tried to ignore me by averting his eyes but eventually after I pulled the fake tears for an extra affect he sighed in defeat. "Fine, I won't tell only because mamma and the others are already worrying about you enough." He spat out glaring at me with anguish. I wanted to ask him more about as guilt started to tug my heart. I already felt enough pressure on my shoulders and now my families happiness is falling on me too.

"Thanks." I rolled my eyes and shoved him away with my shoulder. He quickly caught me by my wrist and shoved me closer to him gripping my face harshly. "Don't. do. That. Again." I narrowed my eyes at him and instead of trying to break free I stood closer to him. "take. Your. Hands. Off. Me." we glared at each other for a good ten minutes before he let me go. He turned his back to me sucking in one deep breath. "get ready you have school in fifteen minutes." He walked out of my room and slammed my door shut letting the big bang echo in the room.

I got dressed quickly mainly spending the most time trying to tame my monstrous curly hair. The good thing about being Sparrow was I got to spend no time worrying about my hair and spending every minute hassling my hair out of my face.

I walked downstairs and was met with mum drinking her honey tea while my brothers all sat in their usual spots eating their massive portions of cereal. "Hey, baby." I kissed mamma on the cheek as I sat down pouring myself a small bowl of cereal. "how did you sleep last night." She asked while tucking a loose strand of hair behind my ear. "good, what about you!" she smiled warmly then told me she slept well but I know her well enough to know that was not the case. It is always the same whenever Papa leaves I don't know why she just doesn't go with him. It would save them both from suffering so much. My mamma is just too stubborn.

"I have to go to school mum." Mamma gave my hand a squeeze as I kissed her head. "Just remember if you need to go anywhere after school just text me where you are going or just tell one of your brothers." I nodded and sparred my brothers one final glance before I left.

I drove to school slower than usual trying to spare some more time before I go to school. Just as I was getting closer to the school my phone rang.

"Hello?" I asked in a small slightly irritated tired voice.

"wow someone didn't get up from the right side this morning." I rolled my eyes, of course, it was Jace who would be calling me at 7:45 in the morning.

"what do you want?" I sighed slowly hoping that it was some good news and not another burden to hang over my chest.

"Boss wants us to talk to him in an hour." A low growl escaped me as I banged my hand on the steering wheel.

"Why the fuck does he want us? We are already doing his dirty work and it is slowly killing ourselves. How much does that motherfucker want to torture us." I wanted to cry and release the ball of emotions in my chest.

"I don't know Ange." He sighed. "but we have no choice you know that. if we don't meet him he will just send tony to find us. And you know how that ended las-."

"fine." I cut him off harshly while clenching my jaw as I gripped my phone.

"I will pick you up at the usual spot, just don't get caught by one of those dumb protective family members or some uptight private school teacher." I let out a half-light heartedly laugh.

"ok."

I hung up the phone and parked my car trying my hardest to not release the tears in my eyes. I just wanted my normal carefree life to come back but deep down I know.

That I will never get back what I lost.