(Please read the author's note at the end!) (Song on the next slide)

TW- Use of drugs.



Elijah and me were currently in our English class. "You wanna go check out this new diner that opened up near the school. I've heard they have amazing milkshakes." Elijah asked.

"Na. I am going to stay at home today." "Wait aren't you're brothers throwing a party tonight at your house." "Yes. That is literally all they have been talking about for the past week. And before you ask no, I am not going to party. They are inviting bimbos like Jennifer and I can't be in a five foot radius with her or I might catch her stupidity."

Things have been.... okay at home. It has been a month since the whole club-running out-impromptu-park-concert, and my brothers seemed to have simmered down now. Xavier is barely ever home and when he is, he is always in his office.

Alex tries to talk to me from time to time but I usually just ignore him. The youngest three simply think of me as Satan. Which they wouldn't really be wrong but I still don't like that.

They have already made it evidently clear that they don't want me there at the party so I am to either stay in my room or out of the house. I would have not given a shit about their rules, in fact I still don't. It's just the fact that I would rather avoid human interaction on as many occasions as possible.

And besides if I do go to a party I am bound to have a drink which would not be good because I'm trying to limit myself, I haven't even taken any other stuff since that night. Now I do admit its hard, especially given what goes on at home, but I have powered through it up till now.

"So what are you going to do? Sit in your room and watch Netflix the whole night." I look back at Elijah sheepishly, trying to hide the smile growing on my face. As he looks back at me, we both simultaneously burst out laughing. "Well you can have fun with your TV I am going still going to the diner."

The bell rings and we gather our stuff to head to lunch. Once finally at our table, Elijah hastily grabs my arm and turns me to him. "Okay. Okay. So there is a hot blond at ace's table. Who the fuck is that?" I look around him to where ace is sitting and sure enough there is a blond there but surprisingly that blond is a guy.

"That is his cousin. Victor, I suppose he changed schools." Elijah literally shudders in front of me. "Oh dear lord! The whole family is made of Greek gods." I laugh at that. Ace and me have been cool since the whole club incident, which basically means that we are just trying to avoid the whole thing. There are still the sarcastic quips in class and the wave or nodding of our heads as a hello but other than that everything is cool.

"So is there something you want to tell me about?" "What?" I just look at him expectantly waiting for him to figure it out. Seriously how that hell is this guy supposed to be a nerd. "Oh.... I'm bi." "Cool. So you going to ask him out." the guy starts laughing like I had just told hi the funniest story ever. "What?" "Are you crazy? I can't ask out a guy like that."

"Why not? You go up to him and you tell him you think he's cute what the worst that could happen?" he replies with a straight face "he could hear me!" we just spent the rest of the school day talking about nonsense topics like this.

Finally at home, I changed into comfortable pajamas, had the entire harry potter series downloaded and ready to play, I got a bunch of snacks and settled down for the movie marathon.

I don't think I have ever stayed in one position for so long, it is around 8 right now and I can hear the sounds of the party downstairs. It is taking all of my will not to go down there and let loose but I have to control myself. I always go overboard at parties.

After staring at the door for what felt like forever I finally caved. "Screw it." I ran into my closet and put on a basic party outfit. Nothing too much but enough that I didn't look like a homeless man.



After applying some light make up I went downstairs. It was a full rager; I haven't been to a party like this in a long time. It was mostly filled with seniors given it was organized by Luca and Marco.

It was your typical high school party with an endless supply of beer; teenage couples sneaking of into empty bedrooms, the popular kids huddled up around a keg that they somehow managed to steal and most importantly the living room turned into a dance floor. The scene I was witnessing right now with drunken kids jumping around thinking they're in Grease or something.

I knew I had to pace myself so within the next half an hour I only had one beer. Everything was going great; I hadn't crossed paths with my brothers or any other of their close friends. I was finally getting the second beer when my night was ruined by the shrill, screeching voice of none other than Jennifer.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I turn to see the girl dressed in the most hideously slutty clothes ever. I mean if you want to show skin go for it but who wears a Jaguar printed top with a neon skirt. How the hell is this girl even popular here?!

"Enjoying the party." I reply. "Oh please we both know Luca wouldn't invite a trashy whore like you." The smug smile on her face, which granted had healed up in the last month but it would take less than a minute to fuck it up right now.

And it's mind boggling how stupid she can be I mean, even if my brothers do hide the fact that we're related didn't she pick it up from the others around her? "Oh you'd be surprised." Knowing she wasn't smart enough to get the meaning of what I had said.

As if this couldn't get any worse my three brothers showed up beside her. "What's the problem?" As Luca's gaze landed on me his happy party demeanor instantly turned sour. "Why the fuck are you here? Didn't I specifically tell you not to come here?" He snarled at me.

"And I didn't I specifically tell you I don't give a fuck?" My head tilting slightly. Jennifer took the chance to add her input as well "She's the crazy bitch that tried to kill me in the school a month ago. I told you it was her."

I don't think anyone in this world annoys me as much as she does. "Stay out of this you bitch." "Hey don't you dare speak to her like that." I look at Luca hiding my surprise at whose side he was on. "Oh so you'd rather defend this blond bimbo than me, your own si-." "Shut up!" He cut me off as he yelled.

I saw Dante and Marco trying to pull him away telling him to just leave this before he did something he would regret. But Luca simply tore his arm out of their grasp and turned back to me and honestly I don't think I have ever seen him this angry.

"No I am done doing this your way, she needs to listen to the cold hard truth and get that through her fucking head." He stalked closer to me. Meeting my eye "I'm going to tell you this once. You weren't invited because no one wants you here. We don't want someone like you anywhere near us. Because guess what you take away people's happiness."

What the hell?

"You are this black hole that sucks in the happiness of every person around, just like you did with us." He still blames me for Jasmine leaving them. "So one last time, get the fuck out of here. We don't want you here, we never did."

Don't cry! Don't shout! Don't break down! Not in front them. Control yourself.

I felt something wet in my palms and I didn't need to look down to know that I had carved my nails so hard into my palms that I had started bleeding. I wanted to say something, some comeback but I couldn't. Nothing came to mind; the only thought in my mind was to not breakdown in front of him.

As fast as I could, I ran back into my room not sparing a glance to the prying eyes fixated on me. Slamming my door shut I tried my hardest to control my breathing, hot tears streaming down my face, my hands were tangled in my hair as I desperately pull at it.

My knees gave out as I sink to the floor, repeatedly punching the floor to get rid of my frustration and anger. He called me a fucking black hole; I take away people's happiness. God, he never once tried to think before he spoke. I mean if we are being real isn't it everyone else around me who has been taking my happiness. My own mother, Jason, and now my brothers. I am not even a human anymore am I? I'm just an outlet for them to take out their anger. How the hell is this fair?

I tried to think of something else, tried to calm my self but the voices in my head just weren't calming down.

"I never loved you." Eren "You know we all hate you, right?" Luca "Just leave!" Marco "You're a freak." Xavier "You're nothing but a burden." Mother "Toughen up!" Alex "Why are you crying? You certain don't deserve to." Dante "Why should I care if you're crying?!" Elijah "You did this to yourself!" Jason "Just stay inside! It's better for everyone!" Luca "You weren't invited because we didn't want you here." Dante "You're not my friend anymore, remember?" Elijah "God, you couldn't possibly be any worse." Xavier "Get out of my life!" Eren "It's all your fault and you know it." Mother "You're so selfish." Alex "You deserve all of this!" Jason "I never wanna see you again!" All of them

A scream broke through my throat. This was getting too much, the only time I ever felt like this was when Jasmine convinced Jason to... to do those things to me. And the only way I even got through that night was-.

My eyes fell onto my bedside cabinet, crawling up to it; I threw out all of the junk until I got to the thing I was looking for. The tiny packet, filled with the white powder. I had saved it from the night at the park. If I'm being honest I didn't actually think I was going to be using it. But.... look where we are right now.

Without a second thought I cleared my study table, opening the bag I dumped out the entirety of its contents. I pulled out my school Id from my wallet, and used it to chop it all up into three straight lines. Rolling up a hundred-dollar bill, I bent down, hesitating for a slight second but then I heard those voices again. I plugged my right nostril and inhaled the line of coke.

My body was physically vibrating and I loved every moment of it. I felt like I had accomplished something monumental. I looked at myself in my bathroom mirror, fuck I looked good, as good as I felt. God! It's been a while.

I couldn't take my eyes of myself and I wanted to verbally express my internal thoughts but my jaw was locked so hard I couldn't speak. I peeked out the bathroom door towards the open window in my bedroom. "I wanna go out." I said to myself.

I wiped my nose and straightened up, I wanted to go for a run, and I wanted to break something. I haven't felt this way in so long. I was on the top of the world. I went back to my table, inhaling another line. Slinging on my jacket, which had my phone I climbed down the window. And into the night.

——————————————— Hey guys! So there are few things I want to say

1. My update schedule- it makes me ecstatic to see that so many people read my story and eager for more. And I have tried my best to update on a proper schedule but given it is my 12th I am super busy with school, extracurriculars and a whole lot of other stuff. So from now on I would be updating as much as I can but I wouldn't be able to have a proper schedule. I hope you guys can understand.🤞🤞

2. I know I am torturing my own Mac but we need it for the story. I did think about adding a light hearted chapter in between but it just didn't go great with the story right now, and all of my ideas included her having fun with her brothers which can't happen right now. But don't worry Kate will be happy very very soon.

3. Yes, Kate does have a past with drugs and that would be explained in the coming chapters. I want to do this properly and explain her history correctly instead of just dumping it all out without a proper reasoning.

In the end I hope you guys enjoyed the chapter.

Love you all💕💕✨✨