We get to planning straight away, we can't leave Inej with Van Eck. Saints knows what he will do to her. I promise myself that whatever he does to her I repay him back in double. My hands are shaking with rage and in a fit of anger I push Kaz, he looks at me shocked "how could you let this happen" I push him again and everyone has gone very silent. When he doesn't reply I hit him again "he could kill her Kaz, kill her and you just let her be taken" I turn to the others, anger blazing in my eyes "this wouldn't have happened if I was there" i seethe.

Jesper looks down at his shoes, Nina is standing close to Matthias, a hand on his arm. Wylan and Kuwie looking identically afraid of my anger and Kaz...... Kaz is just looking at me, his expression empty, void of feeling. I shaking my head and scoff "you are really unbelievable" I start towards the entrance as the sun starts to rise. I turn to face the others and shake my head again "after everything she had risked for you guys, you just let her be taken" I need to go for a walk.

I move between the graves slowly, letting my hands trace the tops of the different grave stones. Inej and I have never exchanged a lot of words but we have never needed to, it's like we already know what the other is thinking, if we are on a information job we work in unison, nether moving out of place. So the fact she has been taken by Van Eck, who has the power to make her disappear is so terrifying and all I want to do is scream but that won't solve anything s I don't.

I reach back to our hide out and stalk inside, grabbing a piece of paper and slamming it down on the table in front of who I'm guessing is Wylan "you are going to write down everything about your fathers house. Everything. When I break into it I don't want any surprises" I have decided that I will break into the Van Eck town house, to see where she is being kept. Wylan visibly paled but nods his head and starts taking to Kuewi who is writing things down for him.

I turn around to survey the room and see Kaz limping out of the door, "Kaz wait" I call running to catch up with him but he doesn't stop, nor deigns to speak to me. "Kaz! I need to speak with you" I call and he turns his head slightly although doesn't slow down "I'm busy Salem, I'm heading out" I stop and fold my arms. "Kaz Brekker, you will stop and listen to me" my voice is hard and demanding, he stops and slowly turns to me "you have been ignoring me" I say finally spilling what I have been feeling for days now.

"Is that a statement or a question?" He asks coldly and I frown pushing my hair from my face "don't get smart with me" I snap and he shifts his hand on his cane awkwardly, "alright yes, I have been avoiding you happy?" He answers and starts walking again. I move in next to him "not even a little bit why?" I cock my head genuinely curious "because there are things that require my attention" I snort and roll my eyes, stepping over a fallen grave stone.

"Boring. Give me the real reason" it is so easy to see through this man sometimes and sometimes it's like trying to read a stone. He stops abruptly and turns to face me, his eyes dark "because I love you alright" he says lowly and my breath hitches "you- you what?" U stutter not sure if I hear him right. He sighs and runs a hand through his dark hair which is reflecting the morning light "I love you. I love you so much it hurts to breathe. I can't focus when you are around because all I want to do is make sure you are safe. I love you so much I can't think of anything but you. So yes I have been avoiding you" I have nothing to say and so we stand in silence for a minute. Kaz shake his head and without saying anything he heads towards the boat.

Still feeling lost for words I head back to the camp. Kaz Brekker just admitted he loved me and I couldn't say it back. Given, I was a little shocked he reciprocated these feelings but now he thinks I don't love him back. "Hey Salem, I have cookies" Nina calls me over, I plaster a fake smile on my face and head over to her "chocolate chip?" I ask and she nods handing me a small pile of cookies.

A/N: dramaaaaaaa!!!!!!! I don't know if I like this chapter. Let me know what you think :)