It's now Thursday and I still haven't seen anyone as I've been staying in my room but I've been going to the gym as I mean I did some exercise. I've started packing my bags with let's just say some of the more revealing clothes I have in my closet, I know I'm turning into Hailey.

I think I'm going to go down stairs to get Lunch, I mean a little later than everyone else but it means less people. My god I sound so anti social but it's just because I don't know how to react, i mean I'm going to be colder but what about Hailey?

I've been thinking and depending on how Hailey acts I think I'm just going to be fine with her but when we're away from everyone else. I don't mean to keep this act up but I going to do it until it doesn't hurt anymore.

Most people would say 'why don't you just leave?' Well if I'm honest with you I don't know, maybe it's because on Hailey and Louis or the fact that I have no where else to go or because Jeremiah but I pushed that thought away when it came to mind.

I changed into a white tight crop top with some blue denim shorts and headed to the door, I opened the door looking around for people and then went to the stairs.

I'm not trying to avoid everyone it's just Jeremiah, to be honest I want to know how he's doing. Has he moved on? Has he not? Does he want to see me again? Should I leave? Yep that's the questions that I've been living with.

Anyway I walk down the stair case tightening my high ponytail and walking towards the kitchen. To my surprise no one was there, so I made a piece of toast and at and ate it. I had a feeling everyone had gone out as it was completely silent and the same outside.

While I was eating I saw Jeremiah come down stairs which instantly made me want to leave but didn't when I noticed how he was walking.

Jeremiah sloped from one side to another with messy hair and dark circles under his eyes. When he reached the kitchen his eyes lit when they met mine.

"Maeve?" He said running over and hugging me which I instantly pushed away, I could tell he was drunk from the stench he was carrying around. "Your drunk." I said harshly.

"Maybe but that's no biggie let's have something to eat and talk" Jeremiah said attempting to sit but me having got catch him as he fell.

"No you need to sleep" I said trying not to sound nice, "but I don't want to sleep without you anymore, when are you coming back to me" He said sadly, I wasn't going to answer as he wouldn't remember when he woke anyway.

I put his arm round my shoulder and started walking him up to his room, and we got closer he stopped walking. "What are you doing?" I said. "I don't want to sleep in there I want to sleep in your room" he said attempting to point to my room.

"No" I said opening his door to be confront with smashed glass and alcohol everywhere, he couldn't sleep in this room even if he wanted to. I put his arm round my shoulder once again and pulled him to my room.

"Are we going to your room" Jeremiah said staring at me. I gave no eye contact and just ignored his question. When we arrived to my room I helped him take his suit off, but Jeremiah started trying to pull up my top. "No Jeremiah" I said making his eyes go to mine.

"But your going to be uncomfortable" he said confusing me. "What?" I said "when you sleep with me" he replied. "I'm not sleeping with you Jeremiah" I said as I walked out my room to go and get some sweatpants for him to sleep in from his room.

I walked back in were Jeremiah was stood shirtless with only trousers on which made me blush. I walked over to Jeremiah's when he suddenly started kissing me. I pulled away and he looked confused "No" I said as I passed him sweatpants and turned around so he could change into them.

"Okay" he said and I turned around admiring his abs but quickly stopped as I knew I shouldn't. I placed him on my side of the bed and turned to walk away when he grabbed my hand.

"Stay?" He said sounding sad. "No Jeremiah" I said "Please"he said making me give in as I also felt bad as I did this to him.

I nodded and climbed round the other side where he laid me on his chest and I hesitantly accepted it.

"Goodnight" he said. "Goodnight" I copied.

I didn't have to wait long until Jeremiah fell asleep so I slowly and quietly stood up and left his room. I walked back to his room where I don't know why but I started cleaning up his room, first picking the bottles, glass and rubbish off the floor then hoovering his room and making his bed and putting things away.

It had been about an hour since Jeremiah had fell asleep and I finished his room. I liked how I was with him but it couldn't be like that I knew I had to be cold to him and the others, otherwise I will never change.

I walked outside after making an iced coffee and sat on the bench in the garden by the pool. After about 5 minutes I heard the front door open and saw everyone rush in.

Hailey noticed me first and walked outside and up to me in silence. "Maeve" "yes" I replied not looking her in the eyes. Before she could finish her sentence I interrupted "I'm sorry" I said feeling guilty. "It's ok I forgive you, let's go shopping today as we go tomorrow" she said excitedly.

"I can't" I said back still not looking her in the eyes. "Why?" She asked confused. "Hailey he broke my heart and I can't forgive him" I said coldly. "But what does that matter, there will be plenty of men to get with on holiday" I said before Hailey could say anything else.

"I thought you were falling for him Maeve, you promised you'd try" Hailey said standing up and raising her voice at me as I showed no emotion. "I guess things change" I said to her making her more angry. I haven't told anyone about what happened that night and I don't plan to.

"You've been sat in your room doing nothing while we've all had to suffer watching Jeremiah drink every night! Do you even know how many times I had to watch him drink over and over again until Grayson and Louis had to take him up to his room because he'd fallen asleep!" She shouted in my face.

I stood up ready to leave as I wasn't going to explain what happened between me and him. "No! You stand right there Maeve! You've put him through hell!" I was going to leave when I felt a hard slap to my face from Hailey. "That's for hurting Jeremiah" she said as she slapped me once more. "And that's for putting everyone through hell because you were being selfish!" Hailey said.

Grayson and Louis ran up to us as they saw Hailey slap me. I was stood with no emotion on my face as I was trying to compose myself, she may have the story the wrong way but maybe I deserved it.

"Hailey what the hell are you doing!?" Grayson said to her as it was like she jolted awake, as if she didn't know what she'd done. While Louis ran up and was trying to look at my face where I had a small cut from where Hailey's ring had hit my skin.

Before he could touch it though I grabbed his hand. "It's fine" I said and before anyone could say anything I walked away.

I walked through the house and out the front door borrowing one of the cars that were parked at the driveway. I drove off only letting one tear fall which was an improvement. I could have told Hailey what really happened but I think I might of deserved it.

I drove to the beach were we went the other day and sat there for a few hours watching as families cam and went until I was all alone. My cut had finally stopped bleeding but I knew I might of needed a few stitches on my cheek bone where the cut was.

It was now around 9pm I couldn't really tell but I just guessed as I left the house at quarter past 6.

I was pitch black around my only stars to light up the beach and it was getting cold so I walked back to the car and drove back. When I arrived back I walked through the front door where I instantly saw everyone sat in the living room looking worried until they spotted me.

"Maeve!" Louis shouted as Hailey turned and so did Grayson. I ignored their calls walking straight to the freezer. Louis came walking in worried as Hailey followed behind showing her baby bump well. "Maeve let me check your cut" Louis said attempting to touch it but once again I grabbed his hand and stopped him.

"Maeve I can't help you if you don't let me in!" He said sounding angry now. "We've been waiting for hours worried about you and you waltz in like this?!" He said. It was like Hailey everyone wanted to let their anger out as 'I had caused all the problems' but to be honest it seems like I did.

"Maeve are you even listening to me!?" He said angrily. "Save it Louis" I said trying to walk away but he grabbed my arm. "Louis, let go!" I said but his grip was really tight.

"No Maeve you've put us through hell! You've put this upon yourself!" He said similarly to what Hailey said, Hailey walked up grabbing his arm while Grayson told him to stop.

I removed my arm from Louis's grip , walking up the stairs with an ice pack that I had gotten before. I walked into my room forgetting that Jeremiah was in here, I close the door quietly behind me while looking over to see Jeremiah asleep.

I walked over to the bathroom where I closed the door letting my emotions flow back in, everyone hated me, Hailey thinks I hurt Jeremiah which it seems like I did and Louis is upset about the 'hell' I've put everyone through.

I placed the ice pack on my face as I let the tears flow out. I think I should leave, at this point in time it doesn't seem like I'm wanted anymore and when Jeremiah wakes sober he'll feel the same as the others. I seem to be causing more damage than fixing.

I cried some more looking at myself in the mirror until the bathroom door opened and Jeremiah stood there watching me. "Maeve" he said speed walking over and looking at the cut surrounded by bruises that had appeared on my face.

"Who did this to you!" He said with anger in his voice. "It's fine" I said turning to the mirror again and pulling the ice pack back over my cheek bone.

"What happened" he said sadly which just made me instantly break down crying in his arms, he held me worried about me and letting a small tear escape.

"Maeve tell me" he whispered. "I was rude to Hailey and she slapped me" I said lying but I didn't want her to get in trouble. "Maeve I know your lying to me" he said.

"Hailey got upset because of what I put them through, I caused hell for them and I was being selfish" I said still crying in his bare chest. "No Maeve you didn't it's the other way around it wouldn't have happened if I would have not hurt you" he said hugging me.

"Why didn't you tell them what I did?" He said confused "Because they were all angry and had to get their anger out also because it hurt when I spoke about you" I said while my voice broke.

"I'm sorry" he said hugging me tighter. "I only did it because of what's happene in the past. That morning when you woke me, I did have a nightmare and you died in it, and I thought it as a wake up call, that if I pushed you away you'd hate me" he said making everything piece together.

"I can't hate you" I said looking up at his eyes. Jeremiah's lips suddenly smashed onto mine while tears still streamed down my face, we made out for a while until we had to come up for breath.

He pecked my lips once more before walking out into my bedroom while holding my hand. "What are you doing?" I said confused as he led me out of my room and into his bedroom.

"Im chang-" he paused for a moment, "did someone clean my room?" He said looking at me. "Yes I did as it was a mess" he lent in kissing me once again making butterflies float around in my stomach. "Thank you" he whispered in my ear.

He took me into his closet where he picked his suit. "So you changing at half 9 in the evening because?" I said. "We're going to tell everyone what actually happened so they slap me this time" he said making me chuckle.

After he changed we headed down stairs where everyone was sat on the sofa in the living room again as Louis looked sad. When Jeremiah walked in everyone turned.

Jeremiah explained what happened on the beach and Hailey came running up to me giving me a tight hug.

"I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry!" She said over and over again "it's fine, let's just say it was pregnancy hormones" I said as we both giggled. "Let me check that cut in a second okay?" She said which I nodded to.

Louis walked up with his head down. "It's okay" I said giving him a hug. "What the hell did you do!" Jeremiah said angrily. "You didn't tell him!?" Louis whispered. "What was I supposed to say?" I replied.

"He just shouted at me that's all" I said kissing Jeremiah's cheek which made him calm down.

"Fine" he said. "I hope everyone's packed as we're going on holiday tomorrow" he said which everyone cheered for.

"Will you go back to being my girlfriend again?" He said making me chuckle. "Let me think about that......sure" I said as he lifted and kissed me making me laugh.

"Holiday! Holiday! Holiday!" The group shouted.