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Okay, I fucking can't!! HELLO GUYS I'M BACCKKKK!!!

Welcome if you're new and hello if you came back, I'm Shiara. The writer of this story.

How have you guys been? How was your summer? *trying to be kind because of the long wait...*

This is the sequel to Crisis of Desire, so I advise you to read Crisis Of Desire first! You can find it on my account or simply look it up.

Started writing on the 3rd of May 2021 and finished it on 1st of January 2023

Like book one, there will be many sensitive subjects such as sex, abuse, drugs, murder, miscarriages, and suicide.

If you can't handle that then I don't think my story is for you... I'm sorry.

I won't be posting trigger warnings on every chapter, even if there might be triggering subjects because I'm warning you now!

This is a mafia story, so there will be some dark subjects. If you cannot handle it, then this story is not for you. Hope you understand!

I am writing this story because I'm bored and I enjoy writing in my spare time, so don't expect it to be the best book you're ever going to read, because I know it's not.

I hope you guys will enjoy this story just as much as book 1, maybe even more! Please don't steal my shit, I'm really busting my ass for this!

Also, follow me on TikTok (@crisisofseries) for updates and snippets of unpublished chapters😌

Comment and like if you want the story to continue and let me know what you think!

Before we start, a few things: 1) As some of you know I usually post whenever I finish another chapter, so if I don't post for a while, it's because I'm stuck. (It happened before) I don't really mind if you guys ask, just don't explode the comments with questions. 2) The characters in my story act a certain way because it's just who they are. If you don't like it, go read something else :) I get it. Some characters annoy me too, I wanted to kill some of my own characters as well, but it's just who they are! 3) Talk about killing... I kill whoever I want in this story because it adds to the drama or is needed for the story to continue. I wish it wasn't necessary, but most of the time it is (trust me). It's just the way it goes. 4) The story is a little all over the place because there's a lot going on at the same time. So if you have any questions about what the hell is going on, just ask and I'll try to answer as quickly as I can. 5) There won't be smut at the beginning of the story, I can't explain why yet, but just so you guys know. If you only came here for the smut, I'm sorry. Like always there will be a warning for every chapter that has smut in it, so I suggest you guys wait for those. 6) ENJOY THE STORY AND YEAH, I LOVE ALL OF YOU BYE!

Okay so everyone grew from last time and some new characters, so new aesthetics!:

꧁༺ℂ𝕒𝕥𝕒𝕝𝕖𝕪𝕒 𝕍𝕒𝕝𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕒 𝕍𝕖𝕝𝕖𝕫༻꧂



꧁༺ℕ𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕒𝕙 𝔸𝕦𝕣𝕠𝕣𝕒 ℕ𝕠𝕣𝕥𝕙༻꧂



꧁༺ℝ𝕒𝕗𝕒𝕖𝕝 𝔸𝕕𝕣𝕚𝕒𝕟𝕠 ℂ𝕦𝕣𝕫𝕚𝕠༻꧂



꧁༺𝕃𝕖𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕣𝕕𝕠 𝕋𝕚𝕒𝕘𝕠 ℂ𝕦𝕣𝕫𝕚𝕠༻꧂



꧁༺ℍ𝕦𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝕊𝕥𝕖𝕖𝕝༻꧂



꧁༺ℂ𝕖𝕝𝕚𝕟𝕖 𝔼𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕚𝕤𝕖 𝔻𝕦𝕗𝕠𝕣𝕥༻꧂



꧁༺𝕂𝕒𝕚 ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝔻𝕒𝕧𝕚𝕤༻꧂



꧁༺𝕀𝕤𝕒𝕓𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕖 𝕃𝕒𝕦𝕣𝕖𝕝 ℕ𝕠𝕣𝕞𝕒𝕟༻꧂



꧁༺ℕ𝕠𝕒𝕙 𝔻𝕦𝕟𝕔𝕒𝕟༻꧂



꧁༺ℕ𝕚𝕜𝕠𝕝𝕒𝕚 𝔹𝕣𝕠𝕧𝕤𝕚༻꧂



Just like last time, I'll put a little snippet so you can catch a vibe😗✌🏽. Enjoy!:

They're all afraid of me. Everyone I've ever met. Their first reaction is fear. Even if they wanted me to sleep with them, they still feared me at first.

And I enjoyed it. I enjoyed the fear in their eyes. It made me feel powerful in ways I couldn't describe.

Even with her.

But it was different with her. I mean, I knew she was going to mess me up if I kept her close, but I didn't expect her to grow on me this much. I didn't expect her to fall for me.

She was my salvation and I was her destruction. I knew that the moment I saw her that night at Angels.

That first night. It was the night that everything changed. I knew she was going to be the ruin of me. I just knew it. But I didn't want to accept it. I wouldn't let her ruin me.

So I had to ruin her first. I had to be the survivor. I didn't care about her, I was simply trying to protect myself from her.

And now that she's gone. Now that my enemy has her. I regret every decision I made leading up to this point.

I should've just killed her, cut her throat, shot her in the head, dumped her in a ditch, burned her alive. Anything. But I couldn't.

It's funny how I always threatened to kill her, to hurt her in the best way I could, but I never did. Sure, I scared the living shit out of her, I beat her with all the shit I had, I showed her my darkest parts to scare her away, but I would never actually kill her.

Everyone feared me, but now I became my own biggest fear.

Obsessed with someone else. All because of... Love. All because of... Her.

I always laughed at my cousin for the way he fell for North, always thought he was just being dramatic about the way it felt, but he wasn't. He wasn't even close to defining the way it feels to fear for someone's life this much.

She made me fall for her and I hate her for it.

But I can't and will not let Steel have her. There's no way in hell.

I will hunt down and kill everyone involved until I have her back in my arms. I will burn down entire cities until I have her back.

I need her back.

And that's all her fault.

She made me obsessed with her. Without even knowing.

She became my biggest fear.

Normal people run away from the shit they fear. But I'm not normal. I kill people for fun, I have sex with people because it helps with my mind, I torture people to get what I want. I'm far from normal.

And I want to overcome my fear. I want to overcome my problems with her. I want her next to me. As an equal, the way she always wanted.

But now Steel has her and I know that he won't hand her over that easily.

If it's war he wants, it's war he'll get.

She always said that I had anger issues, that I was destructive, that I reminded her of fire.

I'll show her how destructive I can be.

May God have mercy on my enemies, cause I certainly won't.