INSIDE HER WARD ***Alphalette walked in and found her laying there on the bed with an oxygen mask on and a drip inserted in her left hand….she felt like someone was inside her room and she opened her eyes and found Alphalette standing next to her bed*** Alpha: hi ***she slowly took off her mask with her shaky hand and greeted him back*** Alpha: what triggered your….Lupious decease Masai: Lu...Lupus not Lu...Lupious ***he didn’t say anything he just kept a straight look on his face and she sighed biting her lower lip*** Masai: Ste...Stevens send me a…. photo of him and his…. baby mama in bed naked….. and he typed... “this is what I call a real woman” but before that he…. insulted me using my…. insecurities ***she said taking deep breaths while speaking, she has shortness of breath…. Right now she’s feeling ashamed that she let him get to her like that….Alphalette sighed and he bend to her level*** Alpha: what insecurities ***she didnt say anything she just looked away*** Alpha: I asked you a question mama ***she swallowed hard*** Masai: my….my flaps ***he frowned*** Alpha: what flaps ***then his face relaxed as he caught on*** Alpha: well I loved them and im damn sure I still love them so f#ck him….anything else ***she swallowed and shook her head no...she wasn’t comfortable with confiding in him about all her insecurities...even though they have a child together she fact remains, she doesn’t know him to trust him like that *** Alpha: listen here and listen good mama….mourn your relationship and heal and you’ll find me waiting for you...we still need to give AJ a sibling to play with aboStevens are confused small boys who still needs to f#ck around ***he then kissed her slightly dry lips as she froze just staring at him with shock all over her face then someone cleared their throat*** Alpha: I’ll come see you tomorrow...get well mama *** he kissed her forehead and he walked out and Moera walked to her twin’s bed with a raised eyebrow and Masai cleared her throat and she put her oxygen mask back on and Moera took it off*** Moera: explain Masai: there’s... nothing to explain... Mo Moera: you were exchanging spit with him Masai Masai: he kissed me…. not the other way... around Moera: you didnt stop him akere Masai: where’s my son ***she said trying to divert their conversation*** Moera: with his grandmother Masai: mama is... here Moera: no but she’s on her way Masai: so... which grand... mother are you... talking about Moera: your mother in law ausi ***Masai frowned then her eyes popped out*** Moera: apparently she even cried when she saw him for the first time Masai: yho...akitsi ke reng...my life neh ( yho I don’t know what to say….my life neh) Moera: mmmh sbari wa ngaka neh ( mmh a brother in law who’s a traditional healer neh) Masai: mxm...wa gafa ( you are crazy) ***she put her oxygen mask back on and Moera laughed….Moera was glad she’s ok cause she cant imagine her life without her*** ---------- HAMMANSKRAAL ( TEMBA) Tshimologo: hi can I help you ****She said to the man sitting by her gate looking down….he looks like a hobo….his clothes look dirty and the smell that comes from him is horrible*** Tshimo: ooh God whats this now ***she said to herself but the funny thing is she wasnt scared...she opened the door and got out*** Tshimo: hi can I help you...why are you sitting here ***the man raised his head and looked up at her and you could see sadness all over his face*** Tshimo: do you need food ***the man looked down again and said nothing*** Voice: please help him ***she quickly turned and found an old woman looking sad standing next to her car*** Woman: please help him my daughter and God and his ancestors will bless you….please help him ***she said as tears ran down her cheeks...Tshimo turned to look at the homeless man and he was now laying on the ground not moving*** Tshimo: ooh my God...hey...abuti...Ooh God is he dead *** as she’s walking closer to him with her heart pounding hard against her chest….she’s scared that he might die in front of her gate….she got closer about to touch him then she woke up panting with sweat all over her *** Tshimo: F#3K!!! ***she said moving back and she balanced her back with the headboard….she took off her now wet pyjama top and she wiped her face with it….she could still smell the guy’s horrible smell…..she closed her eyes a bit then she opened them and sighed calming herself down….this was the fourth time she has this dream and its exactly the same every time….Maybe she needs to go and consult somewhere “ she thought”….she got out of bed and wore another pyjama top and she knelt next to the bed and prayed *** ---------- IN THE MORNING *** She finished eating breakfast then she got up and went to the sink and washed her plate and cup then she left them on the dish rack and she wiped her hands and the sink then she sighed and got her things and walked to her car after she locked her door….her heart pounded as she reversed out of the yard and luckily what she thought she will find wasn’t there then she closed the gate and drove away going to work*** LUNCH TIME ***Shes eating her lunch when her phone rings….she sighed and answered it*** Tshimo: hello Mmamogolo ( aunt) Aunty: Tshimologo Tshimo: golo (aunt) Aunty: so it has gotten to this now ***She sighed*** Tshimo: what are you talking about Golo Aunty: Jokobete asked to come live with you to help you around the house while you go to work and you refused...why Tshimo: Golo I dont need a helper ko ga me ( in my house) I’m actually fine alone Aunty: ga gao ( your house)...heh I helped your mother find that stand ngwanyana ( girly)…..if it wasnt for me nkebe o sena legae ( you wouldnt have a home) ***she said bitterly*** Tshimo: well thank you for helping her but title deed says that’s her house akere ***The aunt laughed*** Aunty: you forgot that I was the one taking care of your mother when she was sick... now that my daughter needs help ompotsa masepa Tshimologo….ke dankie yona ee...ongleboga ka plate ya masepa!!! ( you’re telling me sh!t...is this the thanks I get….you thanking me with a plate full of sh!t) ***Tshimologo sighed as tears filled her eyes...it pained her that ever since her mother and brother passed on she’s been alone...her close family members turned their backs on her just because she refused to be controlled by them….. they changed when they found out that her mother and brother left everything they own to her and none of the close family members got anything *** Tshimo: I paid you to look after her while I go to work Mmamogolo ….you didnt do it for free Aunty: you even know how to talk back at me Tshimologo….my sister must be turning in her grave shame Tshimo: yes she’s turning in her grave because of your evil heart and treatment towards her child!!! Aunty: o reng…. ( what did you say) ***Tshimo dropped the call and breathed out with a shaky breath...her phone rang again it was the aunt and she just let it ring *** Tshimo: mama why did you leave me all alone to deal with your family…. Abuti im all alone and im trying so hard to be strong like you taught me to but it gets too much abuti….please fight for me like you always did when you were still alive ***she wiped her now falling tears and continued to eat her lunch with a heavy heart*** ---------- JABU ***I cant believe Lorraine right now….she blocked my numbers ( huffs)….its official I hate that piece of shit Kenny, she has turned Lolly against me and I hate it….Well at least Sbu is better now, he can interact with us now and even laugh here and there...whatever she said to him worked cause my boy is back... yes he’s not full back to his old self but slowly but surely I believe he’s gonna be alright...my office door opens and its Heath*** Heath: ola Me: sho...wa moizela vroeg so dintshang ( why are smiling like this so early in the morning) ***He chuckled*** Heath: nna ke troile bosso and my mamiwata makes sure papiwata is always happy Me: mxm ***he laughed*** Me: can you believe Lolly blocked me ***he frowned*** Heath: blocked you where Me: she blocked my numbers Heath: and why would she do that ***he said sitting down*** Me: o bethile draai ko nna daar go ova le Sbu and mpya ele le ntswitswi came by and took her ( she came to my house to talk to Sbu and that dog with a small dick came by and took her) ***Heath looked at me confused...eish he can be slow this one when he wants to*** Me: dai moerskond e mo jang….eish….yeer ne ke bethile top bra yaka….ne ke bela straight….nxaa ya ntlwaela bari ele ( that bastard thats f#ck#ng her...eish….i was mad-angry bro….i was boiling straight….nxaaa that fool doesnt know me) ***this fool laughed** Me: o lagang ( why are you laughing) Heath: why are you angry gore boyfriend ya Lolly fetched her ***he didnt just ask me that this fool*** Me: o nyakoreng ( what are you trying to say) Heath: he’s her boyfriend Me: your point Heath: hebaan ***he gave me a confused look*** Me: he had the nerve mfo….sebete….the liver to come to my house and demand her….he’s not even married to her kamo o busy o kuka mar#te a go shoshobana o tla ko nna go tlo mo claima… ( and he comes to my house with his wrinkling balls to claim her) ***why is he looking at me like this*** Me: keng? ( what) Heath: mh mh nex ( nope nothing) ***he said shaking his head*** Me: so wa vrostana gore why kele suur so ( so you understand why im this sour/mad) Heath: yeah...o nyoko ragiwa blaen ( yeah he wants to be beaten) Me: re mo kgaole le m#rete nxa ( and cut off his balls) Heath: anyway the trucks arrived safely ***i breathed out loud….what a relief*** Me: eish thats a relief man….yeer Heath: yeah those packages were expensive...if you know what I mean so losing them more especially to cops…. ***he whistled shaking his head*** Heath: mathata ( trouble) Me: yeah ***he sighed*** Heath: eish ever since Thandi put to bed Ruu is scarce ***i chuckled*** Me: we all were scarce Mshikaro ***he laughed*** Heath: yeah mara Ruu is worse...you’d swear its his first child….anyway let me pass by Ruu’s place then go see Naledi Me: you just saw her before you came here man….no man hemisa aram skepsel sa batho haw (let the poor girl breath) Heath: tsek!! ( piss off) *** He said getting up and walked out leaving me laughing….these two f3ck like rabbits hai man*** ---------- HILLS ***The last time I saw Tarek was yesterday when he came back from work….he received a call and panicked then he rushed out..., he didnt say anything he just rushed out and I havent seen or heard from him again….all I heard when he was on the phone was dont panic and I’ll call your gyna and he rushed out ( sigh) , I know I despise him now and I cant stand him but I still love him and its hurts so bad that he’s now giving his full attention to the side chick….maybe I should just count my loses and leave….i cant compete with his child….he’ll always chose them over me cause I cant give him a child and his evil mother will make sure everyday I know that im no longer a priority ( sigh)…. Maybe this is it for us...this whole marriage was build on an unstable foundation and maybe we shouldnt have gotten married in the first place….Maybe if he said “ baby I messed up and had a one night stand with some chick and now she’s telling me she’s pregnant” i would consider forgiving him as time went by but for him to say he also want to marry her too is just a stab in the back...he literally took my heart and shred it to pieces...My phone rings and its him calling mxm, I just dropped the call and switched my phone off then I got up and went to get ready to leave for the hospital….mama is coming back today and I need to prepare myself mentally for her outburst when she learns of my failed marriage ( sigh)*** ---------- NARRATED ***Tarek tried her numbers again and it send him to voicemail*** Tar: damn it!! ***he clenched his jaws then he walked inside Samke’s ward*** Tar: mamakhe Samke: hey ***she said after she opened her eyes*** Tar: I have an important meeting I have to get to...ill see you later ok Samke: ok ***he kissed her forehead*** Tar: take care of him ok ***he said brushing her belly and the baby kicked and he smiled widely*** Tar: I love you boy ***he kissed her belly*** Samke: I love you daddy Tar: me too mamakhe ***he kissed her forehead again then he walked out trying Hills numbers again and like before it send him to voicemail again*** ---------- NARRATED ***Jabu dialed her numbers using a new simcard*** Lolly: Lorraine Mpofu hello Jabu: why did you block my numbers ***she sighed*** Lolly: Jabulani Jabu: why ***she sighed again*** Jabu: what if Sbu needs Lolly: he has my numbers Jabu Jabu: and what if his phone dies or something Lolly: yho Jabu ufunani ( what do you want) Jabu: o jola le dai bari nou and wa dema….oipotsa gore o Queen Elizabeth heh ( you’re now dating that fool and you suddenly think so highly of yourself….you think you’re Queen Elizabeth heh) Lolly: did you call to insult me now Jabu: Lorraine o tsene keng mmh...o dronka ke pipi ya stlaela sele sa le Zulu ya le shobore heh ( Lorraine what has gotten into you mmh….that uncut dick of that Zulu fool is driving you crazy heh) Lolly: Jabu you havent told me why you called me ***she said defeated ignoring his insult towards her man*** Jabu: ngithe ongiblokelani ( I said why did you block me) Lolly: cause you’re harassing me Jabu...i dont even understand why you’re mad...my boyfriend came to fetch me...my boyfriend!! ***she said raising her voice*** Jabu: at whose house heh….at whose house and o tseya kae sebete sa tsuane ya go tagwa ke ditshotshwane tsa tshukiri to come claim you heh...are you his wife!!! ( and where did he get the guts of a chick that is intoxicated by sugar ants to come and claim you heh...are you his wife) Lolly: yho….you know what, if it happens Jabu neh I come to your house again which I doubt I ever will, he wont park outside your yard when he comes to fetch me….how’s that Jabu: o reng (what did you say) ***she dropped the call*** Jabu: LORRAINE!!!….NX!!!! ***he squeezed his phone a bit then he threw it on top of the table*** Jabu: SABS!! ***he called one of the guys that work for him*** Sabelo: bozza ka zwakala… ( boss im coming) ---------- AT THE HOSPITAL NARRATED Moera: I just hope she doesnt cause ruckus when she gets here Masai: oho… ***she took a deep breath...she was still having difficulty with breathing*** Masai: as if ***they laughed but they could see Shalate wasnt herself*** Moera: Hills are you ok ***Hills sighed*** Hills: he didnt come home last night ***she said and tears ran down her cheeks and Moera clenched her jaws*** Moera: that piece of…. Masai: MO no Masai: im sorry Hills… ***she breathed in and she released he breath as Moera went closer to comfort her*** Masai: I know how much…. you love him ***she breathed in and released her breath again*** Masai: I cant….i cant believe…. he’s the one doing this Hills: I...i think he loves her….i cant compete with her….she’s giving him what I cant...i should just cut my loses and leave ***she said between her sobs*** Moera: i know it hurts and im sorry you’re going through this babes ***Hills sobbed until she came down...she wiped her tears and took a deep breath*** Hills: ive decided to move out and go see that lawyer you recommended for me Masai: Hills… Hills: depression is knocking on my door Masa and I dont wanna go back to that place again….it took a lot from me to move on from Mhlaba’s death *** the twins swallowed hard*** Moera: whatever decision you make we will support you 100 percent mntase ***Hills nodded*** Hills: ok enough about my problems….Masa Mo told me about you and Mkhulu Alphalette ***Masai rolled her eyes and Moera and Hills laughed*** Masai: there’s nothing…. there…. ***she took a deep breath*** Masai: he’s still Stevens…. blood brother and im not that kind of lady Moera: oho busy acting like mother Theresa ***Masai showed her the middle finger...right then they heard commotion in the corridor then the she stood*** Doris: oooh my baby….ngwanaka bathong ***she rushed to Masai and hugged her then she broke the hug and kissed all over her face*** Masai: Maaa stop Doris: hai suka….you’ll always be my baby ***she fixed her blankets then kissed her forehead*** Doris: how are you feeling Masai: better than maa...bane ( yesterday) ***then she turned and went to Moera and hugged her and kissed her forehead*** Doris: hi baby Moera: mama Doris: how are you feeling my baby….i know it must be hard seeing Masa laying there ***Moera just shrug*** Moera: im just glad it was just a panic attack ***she brushed her cheek gently with an emotional look on her face*** Doris: go tlo loka baby ok ( everything will be fine baby ok) ***Moera nodded then she went to Hills and hugged her longer and Hills blinked fast fighting her tears back then Doris broke the hug and she cupped her face*** Doris: what did that big headed Zulu boy do this time around ***she asked with a stern voice and the twins looked at each other while Hlls tears ran down her cheeks*** Doris: oooh someone is gonna pay dearly…. ***She said pulling her into another hug and Hills just sobbed*** Moera: eyeye ***she whispered to Masai*** ---------- TO BE CONTINUED…. #TO-DARE-IS-TO-DO