Cielo POV It's been 5 days since I've seen Nik and it was now Friday. I stayed in bed for a while cause I been mad tired for some reason lately. I finally got up around 11 and took a shower. I washed my locs since I'm posed to be gettin em retwisted in a little bit.

I miss Nik. I've been feeling hella guilty lately, I know I would've been upset if Nik made all of these important decisions without me but it's my life and my body.

Plus she be god knows where doing god knows what. I hate that she be doing ghetto shit all the time. I feel like she deserve better... and so do I. Ion want this life and I never did even though she don't involve me in shit. It jus makes me scared that a day might come where I won't be able to see her ever again.

RING RING RING.

I picked up my phone. Damn I ain't got a call from this mf in a whileeee.

Me: Hello

Nyah: yo you good?

Me: yeah why?

Nyah: wym why have you not seen yo phone??

Me: huh?

Nyah: Bruh clo check yo phone rn

Me: Okok chill ima check rn. What is it?

Nyah: *she sighed through the phone* I told yo ass about her man.

I go into Instagram and I see a video sent to me from Nyah. I click on it and I gasp.

Me: this is a joke right?

I laugh smile cause I feel like I'm boutta cry.

Nyah: Ni**a does it look like a joke?

I sit down on my bed and try to catch my breathe.

Me: I don't understand.

Nyah: listen bro don't even trip on that bitch we gon find you a new one tonight man watch.

*incoming message from Nyah*: 228 greenfield road

Me: I can't I'm getting retwisted today nyah

Nyah: it's good when you're done just hit me I'll come pick you up don't even trip. Head up okay shit gon be alright.

Ne: alright.

I sighed and put my face in my palms.

How could she do that? I guess I was right. I'm not her type... she wants a fem like the bitch in the video.

I started to cry.

"Fuck you Nik" I wiped my tears.

She took my virginity bro. She was the first person I ever let touch me in that way. And then she goes and does shit with other bitches.

No wonder she keep disappearing on me. I'm so fucking dumb bro. *sniff* I'm so dumb.

I tried to get myself to stop crying but it was no use. I kept watching the video on replay. The fem kissed her and then got on her knees. Wtf is this shit bro. You got this bitch doing the same shit im so fucking embarrassed.

I checked the time. Fuck I'm ardy late for my appointment. I slipped on a coo lil fit incase I end up going to that party but I'm honestly not even in the party mood right now.

I ordered an Uber so I ain't have to walk the neighborhood and risk seeing Nik.

I waited by tha door for a lil min and peeped outside to make sure her car wasn't in the drive way. When I seen that it wasn't I went outside and met the Uber.

"Goodmorning" an Iranian man said to me.

"Morning" I close mouth smiled.

We drove to Jojo house cause her girlfriend was gon hook it up and do my retwist. And maybe we can write some music too.

I arrived after around 10 mins. I walked up to the apartment and knocked. A bad lil fem opened the front door.

"Omg hey youre C'lo Right?" She smiled.

"Yeah hi nice to meet you" I put my hand out to shake hers but she pulled me into a hug.

"Papi tells me a lot about you but you're cuter in person" she drags me in.

Jojo walks down the stairs fresh out the shower.

"Wassup youngin" she comes and daps me up. She smells so good.

"Why yo eyes look like that?" She glared at me.

"Wha- what?" I smiled and put my hand behind my neck as I avoided eye contact.

"Yeah they swollen and yo face is all read and shit" she said getting closer. I backed up.

"Shi maybe cus I'm high or sum" I laughed.

"I seen you high and this ain't what it look like" she growled like an overprotective brother.

"Leave the poor baby alone oh ma gawdddd" her girl came and sat me down.

"Okay boo you can sit right here on the couch ima go get my tings okay don't let papi bother you too much" she looked back at Jojo and gave her a warning look and Jojo put her hands up in defeat.

"So" she sat down on the chair.

"It's shawty you was telling me bout at our session a few months back?" She asked.

I nodded nervously.

"Oh cielo cielo das all you hadda say" she got up mad quick and tucked her strap going to get her keys.

"WAIT" I said. "It's coo if was my fault don't even trip" Im just tryna keep the peace.

"Oh so it's you who I should be trippin on" she glared me down.

Oh my god.

"No bruh I'm just dumb for thinking she could like me when I'm so different from anyone she's ever fucked wit." I said.

"What the hell type of sappy shit is that, so she cheated on you?" Jojo said.

"Yeah she was kissing some fem in the school bathroom, a fem that I seen her leave the stalls wit months back but she told me it wasn't like that." I told Jojo.

"And you believed ha ass?" She said loudly.

"Yes I believed her cus I'm dumb." I layed my head back on the couch.

"Aww poor cielo" she put an arm around me. "It's good youngin more gon come along but if she the right one she'll come clear shit up to you and tell you what went down." She said.

"It's pretty clear what went down" I looked at the ceiling and closed my eyes.

A small tear fell but I wiped it fast.

"Papi you making this girl cry don't make me teach you a lesson" her girl came down the stairs growling.

"What? Cry? No" she looked back at me. "She's fine see" Jojo said nervously.

"Yeah I'm fine" I fake smiled but not in an obvious way.

"Okay move I need to get to work on this girl head" she shewed Jojo away.

"It's gon be alright youngin just don't sweat it too much, more fishes will come along. This weak will show you wassup" she says and I nod.

Her girlfriend was tugging on my head asking me questions about my life and Nik. I told her Nik was a stud and she actually wasn't suprised about it. She was excited lol which is kinda odd.

I told her how she took my virginity too and that she the first girl I genuinely ever loved fr.

"You betta go get yo bitch back girl" she said parting my scalp.

"I don't know if I want her back" I said scratching my nose.

"Yes you do girl it's all over yo face. She's yo weak spot ain't it.

"I guess so" I sighed.

Jojo came down after a while and started playing some beats and cooking up.

She asked me what type of mood I was in and I told her I wanted to make some rnb soul wit trap involved.

"Ok I see how you feelin" she said and I laughed.

She cooked up an immaculate beat and I started writing to it.

"When can I come back to the studio" I asked her.

"Tomorrow" she said.

I got excited.

"Girl don't move yo head" her gf chanel said.

"My bad" I laughed.

I showed Jojo what I wrote.

"Damnnnn okayyyy this shit hard lil reli" she said.

I smiled and she gave me my notes back.

We talked and chilled for a min till chanel finished twisting me. Once they were done I tipped her a hundo and said thank you to both of em before I dipped.

"You needa ride youngin?" Jojo said.

"Actually if you don't mind" I said nervously.

"Say nomo" she grabbed her keys and kissed chanel before we dipped.

"Where to?"

"Can you take me to the Culver City mall?" I asked.

"It's lowkey late for allat youngin" she said.

"Oh yeah I know Nyahs gonna pick me up there and take me to dt LA there's a party tonight and she wanted me to come clear my head and get lit like we use to." I said.

"Alright we'll be safe and take this" she handed me a shank.

"Thanks." I said to her.

"No problem anything for ya you like blood" she said speeding off.

She dropped me off by tha Hilton and I called Nyah to see where she was at.

Ring

Nyah: hello

Me: yo I just got to Culver City can you pick me up here?"

Nyah: yup be there in 5

Me: bet

I hung up and waited. Soon after nyah pulled up in a black challenger. Wtf.

"N*gga where did you get this car"

"Don't worry about that hop in" she chuckled.

I sapped her up and she pulled me into a hug.

"I missed my bestie frls" she said all girly making me laugh.

"I missed you too fag" I said.

"Uh- you ruined it" she rolled her eyes.

"Cmon les go I wanna get drunk" I said.

"This the first time In months that I heard yo homebody ass say some shi like that" I chuckled at her comment.

"Whatever n*gga" I rolled my eyes.

We arrived at the party and I was big chillen at first. It was a lil penthouse party wit a few homies of mine and then some older mfs that fasho ain't in schoo nomo. This be so weird to me, the gang life be havin 15 year olds bicking it with 20and 30 year old mfs. Me and Nyah was sitting on the couch smoking a fat wood when the bro came up with some shots.

"Here C, take two. You need it more than us" i laughed at her.

Fuck it. I downed both shots.

A few shots later there was a whole lot more mfs here but I was so drunk that my anxiety ain't even matter.

I seen Nyah making out wit some fem shawty so I sat at da lil bar table in the pent n chilled.

"Hey" some fem came up around me.

"Yo" I said drunk out my mind

"You fine lol" she says.

I just ignore her and pour myself another drink.

I look back and shawty actually pretty cute. She was wearin a black see thru dress wit this sparkly bra on. She had long curly black hair wit her edges done and her lips was lined n glossy. Mmm.

"what's your name" I asked her.

"Destiny" she smiled "yours?"

"C'lo" I looked her up and down. The room was dark wit red lights and everybody was drunk, talking and laughing and dancing.

"So you gay?" I asked her.

"Yeah I am ion date boys" she laughed. I ain't believe her tho.

"Das coo"

"Why is yo sexy self over here alone" she asked me sitting down.

"Long story" I said closing my eyes a lil. My drunk was hitting hitting now.

"Don't tell me somebody broke yo heart" she smiled.

"Hmm.. break my heart? Nah" it been broken. I chuckled.

"What's funny boo" she looked at me. Her eyes was all sparkly n shi I could tell she wanted me.

I shook my head "nun"

"So what then" she kept pressing.

"I was fw this girl, but I'm not her type" I said.

"What she fw n*ggas?" She was curious.

"Sum like that" I laughed.

"Yeah she was" the girl laughed. "Ew that's gross" she said.

"Yeah it's gross so I ain't wanna kiss a bitch that was kissing on n*ggas too yk" I said lyin thru my teeth. 😂😂

"Yeah no fasho I get you, so das why u here all sad, don't even trip daddy I'll make you feel better" she said straddling my lap. I just looked her up and down. I'm not going out my way to please this bitch when she just a distraction. She turned around and started throwing it back on me . I put my hands up and my n*gga Nyah looked at me and started dyinggggg. I laughed too.

"You having fun bae?" She asked looking back at me.

Not really buh I guess.

I was feeling hella light headed when she got up off me and held my hand walking toward the bathroom, we was in line waiting I guess cus we was standing next to the door. She started touching my abs and kissing me. I kissed back her mouth tasted kinda sweet. She grabbed my shirt and I gripped her hair.

Out of no where I was snatched to the side. I looked to see who it was cus my vision was kinda blurry and I looked to my left. My heart dropped and my eyes widened.

Fuck.

She pushed me into the bathroom and shut the door behind us.

"What the fuck are you doing Cielo" she had me pinned against the wall so hard that it hurt.

Her head looked like there was fume coming out of it and her expression.. I never saw her this way.

I didn't dear to say anything.

"When I let you out this bathroom" she came closer and put her hand on my throat. "you finna go tell Nyah that Jojo is picking you up, then you gon meet me outside the door and I'm finna take you home" she looked at me in a way that told me if I ain't do what she say shit was gon get crazy and all these mfs would see my business.

"Okay just let me go" I said and she pushed back aggressively. Made me sober up real quick

I did what she said and walked down from the penthouse to her car which was waiting out front like she said.

My heart pounded harder after every step I took that brought me closer to that passengers seat.

I got in.

"Nik I-I"

"DONT SAY SHIT TO ME CIELO" she said.

I just sat quiet the rest of the ride home cause I ain't wanna get yelled at again, uon like it. She was speeding like a mf it kinda scared me.

She parked and slammed her door.

"Get out the car and follow me" she said.

I followed her into her house.

How y'all feelin 😭 y'all good?

My bad it took me so long to update but I'm tryna make it up wit hella chapters 😁

I'm torn on if I should keep up my story line that I have it might shock y'all so idk lmk how y'all want they relationship to go