Cielo POV

On my way home from the studio it was already dark. I put my hoodie on and tucked the strap in my jeans just incase.

I got on the bus and waited till my stop but I started nodding off. I was tired after putting in hella work. I was in the studio with Jojo for almost 6 hours.

They called my stop and I woke from my lil eye rest.

I got off the stop and started walking making sure to keep a look on my sorroundings.

I was about to pass the neighborhood park when a car rolled up on me. The beams on.

Who the fuck is that. I grabbed my strap and pointed it at the car. Somebody got out but I couldn't see cause of this high beam light blinding me.

"Don't come closer" I said taking off the safety.

"What you gon shoot me? Nik said putting her hand on my gun and pulling it down.

"Cielo I told you so many times to stop walking home alone at night" she looked pissed. "Don't you fuckin know it's active right now? Get in my car." She demanded giving me back the gun.

"I'm fine and I'm almost home" I said annoyed. She just gave me PTSD for no reason.

She started walking back towards me and grabbed my wrist, pulling me to her car.

I didn't fight back cause I honestly didn't have the energy.

She was driving for some time.

"Where are we going? I wanna go home" I said.

"Ima take you home after this" she said.

I felt nervous and uneasy.

"Can you please just take me home" I said looking out my window.

"We're already here" we stopped at an apartment complex in downtown LA.

"Come on" she said getting out of her car.

We went into the lobby and then the elevator, leading to the top floor.

We walked into a calm apartment with all black furniture.

I stood by the door while she took her shoes off and got comfortable.

"You want something to drink" she asked.

"I'm okay" I cleared my throat.

"I missed you ya know" she said looking at me.

I felt awkward and annoyed.

"Is that why you brought me here" I asked.

"I needed to talk to you" she said. "Come here"

I sat on a chair across from her at a distance.

She chuckled at me. "Don't you miss me?"

I didn't answer her question.

I don't understand why I'm here.

"Okay. I need you to know some things for your safety. There's a war right now between our gang and that bitch ass n*gga who was behind your kidnapping. So I need you to be safe please Cielo. Don't go out on your own no more. You need protection. I know you may not want to see me or be around me, but I just want you to be safe, I'll always be watching you" she said.

"Okay I'll be safe" I said just wanting to get out of here I'll agree to anything at this point to be able to go.

"Ight good. Another thing. Nyahs our shooter now so I want you to stay away from her. Nobody needs to find out why it our weaknesses so you can't be seen associating with anyone from the gang. That includes your brother. We ardy talked about it." She said.

"Ok" I said. I'm so fed up with this shit. "Is that all"

"Don't give me an attitude Cielo I just want to protect you" she sighed. "By the way, who was that at your house the other day?"

"Who?" I asked.

"You know who" she said.

"No I don't" I crossed my arms.

"The stud bruh! Who was that?" She got up.

"Don't come over here" I said.

She sighed; and of course, didn't listen to me. She got on her knees and put her head in my lap. "What can I do to fix things?" She said with her head down.

"I don't know"

I heard sniffles in my lap. She lifted her head up at me and looked at me with sad eyes.

Out of no where she kissed me and carried me to her room.

"N- Nik put m-me down" I said.

She pushed me down on her bed and pinned my wrists down.

"St- Nik l-let go" I said trying to move my head but she grabbed my neck and kept kissing me.

I gave in but all the memories from that night came flooding in and tears started to slip from my eyes.

"L- l-let m-me go" I cried out. "Stop"

She lifted her head and stared at my face with a weird expression.

She hit her wall. "Fuck!" She put her hands on her head in distress.

"So that stud is your new toy or what" "You replaced me that easy?" she laughed and looked at me.

"Stop" I said angrily.

"You like getting fucked by studs huh, you're a fucking slut you know that, giving your body away to any fuckin body.

"Shut up!" I cried.

"I should've known once I gave you some dick you'd turn fem-"

I slapped her.

"You're the only one I ever did that with! I never let nobody else touch me. That stud don't having nothing to do with me! She's just my mom's friend! If you wanted a fem so bad then go fucking get one" I wiped my tears and ran to the door of her apartment. But she ran after me and slammed the door shut right when I opened it, locking it.

I started sobbing.

"She's nobody to me" I said as I put my head between my legs and tried to calm myself down.

I think I'm having a panic attack.

"I can't breathe" I held my chest and gasped.

*pant* *pant* *pant*

*cough*

"Fuck" she carried me to her couch and gave me water.

"Just breathe, can you do that for me?"

"Mm- *sniff* hmm *sniff*" I rocked myself back and fourth cause my body was shaking.

"I'm sorry please just calm down" she kissed my head.

"I'm not gonna hurt you" she said.

But she already did.

"I keep loosing my shit in front of you, my intention was never to hurt you I just love you so much and it kills me to keep a distance from you" she said holding on to me.

*sniff* I wiped my tears as I calmed down. *pant*

I can't go home like this.

I stayed silent for a little bit to get my thoughts together.

I'm so confused. I don't know what she wants from me.

It seems like she just wants to control me.

"Please forgive me Cielo" she held my arm.

"Okay" I said. "I forgive you"