Cielo POV.

I woke up and Nik was no longer in the bed with me.

I felt a sore feeling in my lower body that left me feeling achy.

My feelings haven't changed. I want to cut ties with her but I'm so scared to let her go.

I've let her know almost all of me. She was my first..

But I just can't let go of that day.

"Goodmorning" Nik said leaning on the side of the door frame.

I smiled.

"You hungry?" She asked.

"Not really". I replied.

"Why do you seem all down" she walked towards me.

"Don't lie to me" she looked down at me in a dark demeanor. Reprimanding me before I even answered.

"I just feel kind of sick" I said trying my best to make it convincing.

She put her hand on my forehead and I flinched.

"Sorry" I said. Her face expressed frustration but disappointment too.

"You are kinda warm" "Was I too rough yesterday?" She asked.

"No no it's okay" I said laying back down.

"Listen I have a few things to take care of today but I'll be back in a few hours. Wait for me." She said.

I nodded.

"Answer me when I speak to you Cielo" she said looking at me.

"Okay, sorry. My head just hurts." I said lying through my teeth.

She kissed me and left.

Ughhhhh. I fucked up again. Why did I have to do that.

I rubbed my hands over my face.

"How am I gonna tell her now? Fucking Cielo bro why are you so fucking dumb." I knocked my fist over my head out of frustration.

Well I might as well just go back to sleep maybe she'll be back by the time I wake up.

A few hours later...

"Hey mama wake up" I felt someone lightly rocking me.

"Huh?" I rolled over but kept my eyes shut.

"Why are you still asleep?" She said.

"Oh" I opened my eyes. "What time is it?"

"It's already 7" she looked worried.

I sat up and rubbed my eyes.

*cough cough*

Damn did I speak sickness into existence?

"Let's take a shower" she helped me up.

"Okay" I followed her.

I was still really tired for some reason so I let her wash my body.

She started to caress my skin and kiss my neck.

"W-wait"

"Hmm?" She looked up at me.

"I'm still really sore from yesterday" I said.

"I'll be gentle I promise" she continued to kiss and touch my body.

"B-but I-" she covered my mouth with her hand and pushed me against the shower wall.

"Lift your leg up" she said.

I winced as I tried to lift it up so she grabbed it and placed it where she wanted it.

She started to rub her fingers against my area.

It felt good but it also hurt a lot.

I winced at the pain but she couldn't hear me because the shower was running.

She inserted her fingers into me and started to slowly increase her speed. I felt bruised inside and this was more pain that pleasure.

Her hand was still on my mouth as she kissed my neck so I tried to move it so I could tell her to stop but she pressed down onto me harder.

"Mmph ni-" I put my hand on her arm to try to move.

"Stop" I sounded muffled. I don't think she could hear me

She increased her speed and I cringed, grasping at her arm.

I started to feel my eyes water as my mouth started to shake.

"Please stop" I cried out through her hand.

My body shivered and she took her mouth off my neck.

"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" She took her fingers out.

"It hurts" I wiped my tears.

"Sorry." I said.

Why am I apologizing?

She turned off the shower and wrapped me in a towel, carrying me to her bed.

She opened the covers and there was a patch of blood on the bed probably from last night.

"I think I was too rough I should be the one apologizing.. I didn't realize." Nik said taking the sheets off the bed to wash and replaced them with new ones. I changed into one of her oversized Ts and sat on the chair.

Should I go home? I'm afraid if I go home I need to end things now. Maybe I should. She didn't notice I wasn't okay enough to do those things with her right now but maybe it was just a misunderstanding.

I'll leave when I'm ready.