the first day

On the first day, even after all that I had lost, I was hopeful. Even though I was going against the last wishes Of my brother, I had convinced myself That this was the right thing for me to do.

Everything I had tried before had failed. My old ways were wrong. I had lost too much. And here I was. In a place I never Thought I'd belong, doing things I never Wanted to do. The hope I once had... gone.