This was bad. Really really bad. Papa thinks I'm bad.

The dinner is not going well. We both are quiet and I am having hard time to eat my food. Today is weekend which means that maids leave after dinner, earlier than usual. Which also means that I won't be playing with them after to avoid meeting papa.

I pushed around steak's sliced pieces. Somehow I lost my appetite. My heart almost jumped out of my throat when I heard dad's chair move back. He stood up revealing his perfect 6'3 height.

"Come to my office after you finish" He said and threw the napkin on the plate.

As he was leaving I thought to myself that I am going to take as long as I can.

He is probably going to yell at me...

I was taking my time. Maids did not dare to touch the table, but they checked on me every 10 minutes to see if I was done. They kept frowning when they saw my untouched food.

I was acting selfish. They had their own families to attend. And I was making them late. So I decided to eat at least half of the food and when another maid opened the door I just smiled at him and nodded.

"I am full "I said and walked out of the dinner room. I froze. I had to go to dad's office.

Oh no.

***

*Knock Knock*

I knocked on his office door softly, hoping that he wasn't there and already asleep.

It was 9pm. And I have no luck.

"Come in." I heard and slowly opened the door and closed it behind me after walking in. I stood there awkwardly waiting for him to tell me something. Not daring to look at him, I peeked to my right to see the plant still standing where he moved it last time. I felt my cheeks get warm as I remembered how I stood there last time.

"Matthias come here." He said and took his glasses off putting them on top of some documents. As I walked towards him, he rolled his chair back so there was room for me to stand between him and his desk.

Only when I stood in front of him, then I saw his face. Firm and cold. I swallowed the lump in my throat and clenched my shorts on the sides.

"Papa I-"

"What did I tell you about the third drawer" It's not like he interrupted, I didn't know what to say anyways.

"Not to touch it" I mumbled.

"So you heard..." He continued rubbing his chin slowly.

"And yet still disobeyed me."

Holy Christ. Please let me get away with this once. And I swear I'm not going to stop reading bible ever again.

"P-papa I didn't mean to brake it" I said my eyes starting to sting.

"Fuck the vase Matthias. I'm talking about you" This is the first time papa swore in front of me. He must be really mad.

"I do not like being disobeyed, especially if it's my son." I tried to get out of this. So I remember what Ms. Dona said to me.

"E-everybody makes mistakes and they pay for it in the future." I said but I was not meant to say the last part. This will make things only worse. I stared up at him to see his reaction.

"Good thing that we both agree on that" he stated coldly and I gulped which came out too loud.

"Everybody makes mistakes Matthias and they receive punishment. And so will you" papa said and suddenly picked me up and in few seconds I found myself laying on his lap.

I heard some clicking noise and saw him place his watch on the desk next to his glasses.

"Oh no" I muttered accidentally loudly.

"Yes Matthias, You are getting a spanking" He said and delivered the first swat on my right cheek, No I meant both cheeks. There is no way his hand would only hit one of them.

I gasped and curled my toes at the slight stinging. Before I breathed out he delivered another smack and my breath hitched and my bottom lip trembled.

"O-ow!" a yelp left my mouth as he continued to spank me. I never imagined if this would happen. Papa spanking me. How embarrassing.

My cheeks started to feel warm like my face.

I did my best to hold on tears to show dad that I could take it but few of them still escaped as well as small sniffles.

He stopped after few minutes and I went stiff as I felt his eyes watching me.

"Do you understand how worried I was? I thought you got hurt or shot yourself accidentally. I never thought you would disappoint me like this."

I was already close to bursting out, but that one word made me not hold myself back anymore as I started sobbing quietly and then they became louder.

"i-I just wanted you to feel proud of me and t-to think th-that I'm strong enough for you" I managed to blurt out between sobs, wondering if he heard what I said.

Unexpectedly he swatted my butt few more times and my sobs just got louder.

"Papa!" I yelped out at the stinging.

"What you did was stupid and dangerous, disobeying me doesn't make you seem stronger in my eyes." Dad said and I felt his fingers move to my shorts waistband and before I realized what he was doing, he pulled them down revealing my black underwear.

Cold air hit the half part of my bottom, the part which underwear didn't cover.

I clenched my hands on his trousers as he continued to swat me. Shorts did a lot of protection, now it stung a lot and I couldn't help but kick my legs after every swat. Papa didn't say anything about me kicking he just continued what he was doing.

"Papa! I'm sorry!" I said after few minutes and he slowed down the smacks until he finally stopped.

My shoulders were shaking from all the crying and shorts had slipped off due to all the kicking.

He stood me up and placed me in front of him. My legs wobbled and if not him holding me in place I would have fallen.

"Go to the corner and think about what you did today" he said and I rubbed my eyes fighting the urge to rub my bottom instead, in front of papa. I finally managed to move my legs and walked to the corner I stood last time. Putting my nose in it, the room was silent and only filled with soft sobs and sniffles. It was embarrassing, I could feel his eyes on me.

It was so stupid of me. I should have never done it. What if the bullet hit dad or someone else? What if they walked in by the time I shot? Papa is so disappointed. All I wanted was dad to be proud of me.

The thoughts made me cry harder. Papa must think that I'm such a crybaby. I want mom to be here.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and I looked up to see blurry version of papa.

"Come here" He said and picked me up easily. I think receiving comfort should calm you down but it only made me want to cry more.

He walked around the room slowly patting and rubbing my back as my face was resting on his chest as well as my hands.

"Hush now, it's alright" He kept shushing me.

After like 20 minutes I managed to calm down and was only sniffling slightly. It has been a while since I cried like this.

Papa kissed my head and noticed that I was getting sleepy, so he turned off the lights and walked out of his office.

We went to my bedroom and I thought he was going to put me in bed but he only grabbed my pajamas and walked to HIS bedroom.

I was glad that I would sleep with dad tonight, I don't fear monster because monster are scared of my dad.

He moved the sheets and made me stand on the bed. My eyes were starting to close, I did not have strength to change myself. I felt his hands take the bottom of my shirt and I lifted my hands up for him to take it off. He put the Pajama shorts away only put the pajama top on me.

I did not care at all. The top was long enough to cover my butt anyways.

"Sleep Matthias..." he said and placed me under the comfy sheets.

I managed to mumble a small goodnight and felt myself dozing off.

It was a long day.