We were far from the Thorin, Dwalin and Bilbo now. I was not far behind Kili, he was so driven by anger and pain he hadn't noticed I was following behind him. I could hear his every grunt and every clash of his sword each one growing more powerful and more vicious.

I looked over my shoulder to see Kili taking on two orcs at once. I ran over and dug my sword into one of the orcs side, the orc didn't see me coming so it was easy. It only took Kili two swings before he managed to kill the orc he was fighting.

"(Y/N)! You need to go, now. Go back to Bilbo and get out of here!" He yelled. "No! I'm going to help you!" We yelled over the screeching of the orc bats that were flying over us. Kili took one look up at the bats and back at me. He gave me and small nod and we ran up more stairs. I pushed the hair out my face and followed right behind him.

We ran into more orcs not far off from where we were before. Kili dug his sword into an orc and rushed over to the next orc. I ducked when another swung at me, whilst I was ducked I sliced its leg, came back up and sliced its head off in one go. There were only a few orcs so we managed to take them on easily.

We had made it to an open area. No orcs seemed to be around so we bent over and caught our breath. My knees were trembling but I stood firm and put sword back into my belt. We were both crouched over panting until we heard someone call out. "Kili!" It was a woman's voice. It was a voice that I recognised. Tauriel. "Tauriel!" Kili called back out whilst cupping his mouth. We waited for a response but all we could hear was the grunt and the awful scream of Tauriel. Kili and I looked at each other before we grabbed our weapons and went to help. We ran to the edge of the wall.

We saw Tauriel fighting a much larger orc. My mind suddenly skipped back to when orcs ambushed us in Mirkwood, just by the gate. I remember seeing this orc, he caught my eye. He had metal armour on, ghastly teeth and what seemed to me metal in his head! He was definitely one of Azogs accomplices and by far the strongest.

Tauriel was using her daggers to fight his until he grabbed her arm. I cringed as he twisted it, she let out a moan before the orc smashed his fist on her head, knocking her down. I scanned my surroundings getting desperate as the orc picked Tauriel up by the neck and held his sword. I feel i'm going to regret this but Tauriel's life is on the line.

Without hesitation I jumped off the edge and into the air. It seemed like a slow-motion movie. My hair flowing behind me, my body jumping off the edge and the slow motion shout of Kili. "(Y/N)!!"

I fell onto the orcs back with a groan. The orc threw Tauriel into a wall and grabbed onto me. I struggled to keep on. With my spare hand I tried to reach my sword but my belt had loosened and had spun around my waist, so my sword was behind my back. Fuck! I tried to hold and the grab the sword but I couldn't reach it. I heard Kili grunt as another orc came up behind him, from what I could hear it was only one.

Without warning the orc raised his clenched fist into air and swung it around to the back of his neck and slammed me hard in the face. My face flew to the left and blood and spit squirted out of my mouth and onto the floor. Pain. That was the only word that shot into my mind.

Before I could bring my head back up the orc wrapped it's hand around his neck grabbed me by my leg, which was wrapped around his neck and yanked me off slammed me onto the floor. I screamed when I smacked onto the floor, a shooting pain shot up my spine, I arched my back in pain as stars appeared in my vision. So much pain.

Through blurry vision I could see the orc above me with his sword in hand. A tear formed in my eyes and I knew what was coming next. I looked over to Tauriel who was on her back by the wall, I looked over to Kili but he wasn't there. I'm about to die.

I braced myself as the orc brought up his sword with an evil smile i'll never forget, that will forever haunt me even when i'm dead with a sword implanted in my chest. Help me. The words that I wanted to plead caught in my throat.

The sword was just inches from my face when a figure dove into the orc, pushing him out the way. Through excruciating pain I propped myself up and watched as Kili picked himself up off the floor. The orc regained his foot and charged towards Kili. I watched as the two fought. When one took a swing, the other ducked and they continued to do that.

I gasped when the orc landed a firm punch into Kilis face like he did to me which sent him flying back, as he fell the orc grabbed Kili by his tunic and held a firm grip on him. He grunted as he tried to wriggle out but the orc threw his sword, which landed near my feet. I was panicking, I shot my head around to Tauriel who was weak and my back was killing me, it was excruciating to just sit up. The orc raised his sword above Kili's chest. God please no...

"Kili!" I screamed. Kili took one glance at me before the sword went through his chest. My heart stopped and I gasped. I reached out my hand and I felt like throwing up. Breathing heavily, Kili looked at me with a tear forming in his eye. Tears began falling from my eyes and everything around me seemed to stop. I watched as Kili tried to speak but he was out of time. The orc pulled the sword out of his chest. Kili's eyes fell shut, a tear escaping before they shut. And that was the first time i'd ever seen him cry.

"KILI!!" I shouted at the top of my lungs. Tears streamed out my eyes as I looked at Kili's body laying there. I didn't know if he was dead or not but I needed to get over to him. I could see Tauriel beside me, overwhelmed by shock. She used her fists to stand up and threw herself onto the orc. Tauriel began to fight him so I saw this as an opportunity to go to Kili. With my elbows I crawled over to Kili and managed to reach him.

I grabbed his hand, I tried to breath but no air was going in. I wanted to bend over and throw up but I swallowed it down. "Go!" Tauriel screamed to me as she wrapped her arms around the orcs neck and pushed herself off a rock before swinging around him "GO!" She screamed again at me who's heart was wrenching at Tauriel. Those words echoed in my mind as they were Filis final words.

They both told me to go. She was telling me to go to him, she was telling me to be by his side and have my final moments with the love of her life. And I'm going to do that.I looked at Kili who was still laying there but when I looked back...I saw Tauriel and the orc fly over the edge. I gasped as the two disappeared over the edge. And everything went silent. I turned back around when I felt the slight movement of Kili.

"Kili! Kili listen to me, you going to be okay just please-" My voice broke as I sobbed. Kili brought a weak hand up to my face. "(Y/N)- (Y/N)." A tear fell from my eye onto his glove. I tore my eyes from his hand to his face. He had blood falling down his face, he was pale and breathing heavy. "(Y/N)- im sorry." "No. No your going to be fine. Please, just don't leave me. Please." I sobbed as my voice broke.

He stared deep into my eyes and i'd never seen so much love in one's eyes. "God," A tear fell down his face and onto his lip "You are so beautiful." Oh God. Why does this hurt so much. "I have a swollen eye." I let out a quick chuckle but Kili was still starting at me "You know that would never change my mind about you." I know. I sobbed as I listened to him, his beautiful words tearing me apart.

"Oh Kili." I swear I could hear my heart shattering. He wiped a tear from my face "Don't cry cause this is how it has to end, but be happy that it did happen." I inhaled a shaky breath. "However before I go," I shook my head it disbelief "There is something I've been meaning to give you." With trembling hands he reached into his pocket and pulled out something I would least expect. A Rosa Peace. I looked at the flower and back to him with my mouth open. He carried on.

"I picked it up in Rivendell, before we left. I've held onto it and waited for the right moment to give it to you." I held the rose, my hands shaking. I looked at the stem of the flower where a gold ring was tied to the stem with a white ribbon. I took the ring and held it.

His eyes began shutting and his breath became extremely weak. "I questioned myself many times, could she ever grow to love me?" He breathed as a whisper "You cannot be her, I thought, she is far away...she is far, far away from me. She walks...in starlight in another world. It was just a dream," His stories "But (Y/N), you are far more than a dream, you are the star that appeared in the night and directed me to somewhere I could call my home. You've given me so much in the time I had, and it tears me to leave you behind." He let out a weak chuckle followed by a painful cough "But I guess none of this has really turned out how we wanted it to be,"

He coughed again before continuing "I've always told stories passed down from generations...but this was my story. And having you the star of my story is something I will never be able to repay." His words were like the sun parting storm clouds on a rainy day, like the feeling when you run your hand along fresh silk, his words brought me to life and cause me to dream of wonders I knew knew were there. He's had my heart since the beginning and I've had his, and our story is one I will pass down for generations. Cause our love was more pure than anyone on his earth.

I gripped his hand tighter, his breaths became weaker. My heart wrenched at the time he had left. "So (Y/N), before I go. There is one thing I want to tell you." "What is it, Kili?" God, I don't think I can take anymore. "This is a journey i'll always remember and I love you, my amrâlimê," He exhaled his final breath "My light...my one."

A loud, brocken sob erupted from me as his eyes closed shut. "Kili." I shook him. "No." I shook him even harder. "Kili?" My sobs were quiet as I lowered myself to his ear as I clung to his jacket "Wake up, Kili." I begged but his eyes were shut and no air escaped his closed lips. "Please," My voice cracked as I hung my head and sobbed, each cry more painful than the last "I can't do this without you." It was true.

Suddenly, I heard the sounds of gentle flapping above us as if it was some bird. I looked up to the sky. The Eagles. My lips parted as I looked up to the sky, signifying freedom. "Kili," I patted his chest with a hopeful smile "Look, it's the eagles. Can you hear me?" I looked down to him, holding onto that final thread of hope "See Kili," I pointed up to the sky in a quiet whisper "Look, we're going home, remember?" But he still wasn't answering "You promised her Kili," Her, was the woman waiting at home for her brother and two boys to return home. But little does she know.

"Your Kili, you never break a promise." But my Kili was gone. Forever. Words couldn't begin to describe a fragment of how I felt, but my chest it empty. Kili was the dwarf that kept my heart beating, our love being the blood that pumps through it, keeping it alive but without his heart...I am nothing. I feel...nothing.

I brought my lips down to his and placed one final kiss on them, the last fragment of our eternal love draining from me before simply laying beside him, my arm trailed across his chest as I laid against the stone, as if I was waiting for him to wake up. But he wasn't. I shut my eyes hard and clawed his coat with my hand before a loud sobbed wracked from my chest and I poured all my emotions out like the little girl I was still deep down inside my heart.

My heart shattered at the thought of never hearing his voice again. Never hearing his playful jokes ever again. Never see those enchanting eyes ever again and never kissing those soft lips ever again. My heart hurt. It hurt so much it was burning in excruciating pain. I squeezed his hand one final time before I was torn from my one and only love. I just want to hold him. One final time. Please.

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From infornt of me I heard a gasp. I tore myself away from Kili and looked up to the company. All of the rest seemed healthy and unharmed. Gandalf was there. All except Thorin and Fili, Bilbo and Dwalin. The company starred down at their family member who was in my arms.

"(Y/N)." Balin was behind me and reached for my shoulder but I gently shook it off. "No. Please. I'm sorry," I looked up at the company "Where is Thorin?" All of the company all looked at each other and I knew the answer. My heart. It hurts. I placed Kili's hand on his chest and pulled myself off the floor. I looked down at Kili.

"I'll be back." I whispered only loud enough for him to hear. I looked back at the company "Take me to him, please." I hugged myself and walked past the dwarves. The dwarves patted my back and apologised as I walked past them. I felt myself get further and further away from Kili and every step shattered my heart even more, for whatever was left. I looked down at the golden ring on my finger. Normally I would be overjoyed. But I guess none of this turned out how it we wanted it to be...

—————— BILBOS POV:

I finally woke up. After I was knocked out by the orcs I smashed onto the rock and I hadn't been awake since. I opened my eyes with a groan, my head was killing me, and I blinked a few times before looking up at the sky where I could hear screeching. The eagles. They were flying in circles above me, I had never been more relieved to see them in all my life. "The eagles are coming." I murmured to myself. I managed to smile through the pounding and spinning of my head.

"(Y/N)." I reminded myself. I shot up from where I was sitting and flinched as a flash of pain struck me. I had to find (Y/N), I have to see she's okay. If something has happened to her I have no idea what I would do with myself. I jumped up from where I was sitting and brought my sword with me, cautious of my surroundings. God knows how many orcs are lurking about.

There's so sign of (Y/N) and I was starting to panic. I ran up these stairs with pieces of rubble on them and peered over the edge to see if I could find her anywhere. However, when I looked over the edge, I found someone else, someone that I was just as relieved to see. Thorin.

He was standing on the edge of the frozen lake, looking down at his kingdom and the eagles. "Thorin! I'm coming!" I yelled but he couldn't hear me as he didn't turn back. As quick as I could I ran down the stairs and threw the corridors of Ravenhill until I made it to the lake.

"No." I gasped when I saw Thorin laying by a rock on the floor. He looked awful. He was coughing and gasping for air with blood on his head and a huge stab wound on his boot. Sick rose in my throat but I swallowed it down as Thorin desperately needed me.

I dove onto the floor with him and his gasps for air make my heart break. "Bilbo!" He gasped. "Don't move. Don't move." I told him as I searched for his wounds "Lie still." I instructed him. I peeled back his coat and I felt sick at the huge stab wound on his chest "Oh. Mnh. Mnh." I flinched hard. I brought a fist up to my mouth to hold back the sick I could feel coming up.

"I'm glad you're hear." I could hear Thorins breathing become lighter as every breath. "Shh. Shh. Shh. Shh." I shoosh-ed him as he groaned and I tried to think on what to do. "I wish to part from you in friendship." He breathed. "No," I told him "You are not going anywhere. Thorin. You're going to live." In my mind I was determined to not let this dwarf die but my heart was shattering and it knew what truly was about to happened but I continued to choose to listen to my head.

"I would take back my words and my deeds at the gate." He said. He chocked on his words before continuing "You did what only a true friend would do. Forgive me. I was too blind to see it," His voice broke "I'm so sorry," His eyes became glassy and my bottom lip trembled "That I have led you into such peril." He coughed as I grabbed onto his hand shaking my hand "No. I'm- I'm glad to have shared in your perils, Thorin. Each and every one of them. It is far more than any Baggins deserves."

He smiled and I could feel him weakly squeeze my hand "Farewell... Master Burglar," I hung my head and held back the tears that were battling to be let free "Go back to your books. And your armchair. Plant your trees, watch her grow," I knew who he was addressing "She changed my nephews life, and I thank her for all eternity. Nothing has brought me more joy knowing Kili has found someone he could call his One."

He struggled again before he told me something I'd never forget "If more people...valued home above gold...this world would be a merrier place." He moaned and I could see he was quickly running out of time. "No. No, no, no, no. No." I chocked on my words as the emotions were beginning to show. I have to keep it together for him. "Thorin," I leaned over him "Thorin, don't you dare."

He exhaled slowly and when he looked up at the sky above me, I knew he was gone. And my heart broke one final time. "Thorin." I whispered. I moved away from his body and wrapped and arm around his head with a hand on his chest "Thorin. Thorin. Hold on. Hold on, please," I whispered as I pointed to the sky "The eagles- The eagles are here. Thorin?"

I could see that his skin was pale and his body was cold. He was dead. But I wasn't ready to let go. I rolled away from him and sat up brining a hand to my mouth. My eyebrows pulled together as I cried next to his body. I could see the eagles above us. Why couldn't have he just waited a few minutes?

I hung my head and sobbed into my hands. Why him? Why did they have to take Thorin? When I joined this company it was just me and (Y/N) but I gained something I thought I'd never be able to find. A best friend. Thorin was and always will be a friend I hold deep in my heart, he taught me things I never knew before and he showed me a new perspective on life beyond the borders of the Shire.

"Thorin." I sobbed his name one final time before my heart could no longer take it and my heart was drained off all love and happiness. I loved Thorin, more than I ever thought I could.

"Bilbo." Balin gasped from behind me. I spun around and the whole company was there besides Fili, Kili and my daughter. I jumped off the floor and I grabbed onto Balin with horror and a shattering heart. "(Y/N)-" "Is okay." He finished. I'd never been more relieved in my whole entire life.

"Is she with Kili?" I asked. They all looked at each other and I knew the answer. "My God." My voice broke. (Y/N). She'd be heartbroken, lost without him. The pain my daughter must be feeling right now must be indescribable, I'd never in a million years wish for my daughter to feel a pain as great as this.

I've felt that pain before, when her mother died. But when she passed I knew that I got to spend my life with her and have a beautiful young daughter, and I promised to raise her just to be like her mother. And she became exactly that. (Y/N) is the splitting of her mother, in every way possible. From her kind heart to her courageous and adventurous personality and to her care for others.

When I lost my wife I thought that I'd never be able to see her again. But I was wrong. She gave me (Y/N), and every day I look at her I see my wife, the good and bad sides of her even though I find that my wife was perfect, like no other hobbit across the world. And now that my daughter is feeling that pain, brings me a greater one. All the dwarves around me circled their king and all bowed so I did the same. Part of me wanted to run away and go find my daughter but the other half of me knew that she needed this time to be with him, and only him.

This has not turned out how it was supposed to be...