It was the next day. Thorin and Fili's bodies have been taken and their funeral will take place in soon. They will need to fix the mountain, rebuild what's left of Lake-Town, Dale and remove all of the bodies and have funerals for them. All the kins have come together to each others aid, we've all lost something this week.

After we left Thorin we found Fili and said our goodbyes. We left Kili by himself to have a minute with his brother. I didn't know what happened but I don't think it went well as Kili found us and we could see the dried tears on his face, tears that scar his cheeks deep down and my heart shattered for him. We all gathered by the edge of the frozen lake where the people of Lake-Town got together, the elves came together and the dwarves came together as we listened to the blast of the horn, signalling the end of the war.

Bilbo held me close as I rested my head on his shoulder whilst we all had a minute of silence to mourn all the people who died during the battle. I felt relieved that all of this was over and we can go back to normal, but so much death in one day, I fear it is something we will never recover from.

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It was finally the next morning. Bilbo and I had gathered our stuff and we were about to leave. Gandalf was going to ride home with us. I wanted to stay longer and it tore me to leave the company i've travelled with and learned to adapt to for the past a bit over a month. I hated to leave them behind to go back to my perfectly safe home when theirs was destroyed, they would practically have to rebuild it all over again.

The ponies are ready, our bags are packed and the company is lined up. I looked at the company, it felt really weird that we were missing two very important members of our company. "Well," My hands slapped down on my thighs "It's time." I gave a sad smile to my family as tears pricked at my eyes, until I noticed Dwalin who was trying to hide his face from me by looking away, slightly over his shoulder.

"Dwalin?" I approached him. "I'm fine." He breathed through gritted teeth but he was clearly lying when a sob escaped. He was crying. "Aww Dwalin," I wrapped my arms around him and put my head up against his chest "You big old softy." I sniffled as I chuckled. "Your a good kid, (Y/N)," He sniffled with a smile "One of the bravest i've ever met." He wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me really tight, everyone awwed at this special moment between me and Dwalin "I knew you always had a soft spot for me." I smiled into his chest whilst he patted my back "I sure do, kid. We're really gonna miss you."

I gave a hug to each one of the dwarves until I reached Kili at the end. I brushed my hand through his hair and met my eyes with his. "Kili. I promise to be reunited as soon as possible, I fear now I can't live without you, without any of you. But I want to thank you, for the journey of a lifetime. I can't wait to spend my life with you."

Kili smiled and kissed me. The company awed us and smiled. We pulled away from each other and gave each other a tight hug. I pulled myself out of his arms and he helped me onto my pony. Once I was on Kili placed a gentle kiss on my hand. "I'll see you soon, my One." I'm his One. I love saying that. "Goodbye Kili."

He lightly chuckled. "Must you go?" He peered up at me with big, hopeful eyes. That something, anything will keep me here. But I can't. "I must go, I will go home and be back very soon. So goodbye, to all of you!" I called to the company. "Thank you all for opportunity, i'll never forget this." I said. They all nodded their head as I pulled on the reigns and we were off. "Bye (Y/N)!" "Bye Bilbo!" "Bye Gandalf!" The company called at the same time. I took one final glance at the company and waved. I smiled, showing my teeth and we disappeared over the mountain, and we were gone back on the road, the first journey on our own.

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KILIS POV:

"Well," Balin sucked in a sharp breath as he continued waving his hand until (Y/N), Bilbo and Gandalf had turned from us and began their journey home "There they go." "Yeah," Gloin nodded with thinned lips "I suppose so." None of us wanted them to leave, we've all grown so close these few months that we're practically family if it weren't for our blood.

"You got lucky Kili," Dwalin looked down at me with glassy eyes "I've never met anyone like her." Neither have I. "Yeah," I nodded, still keeping my eyes on her before she was officially over the hill and torn from me "She's incredible." (Y/N) was gone and the final pieces left of my heart were sad, they felt lonely.

I excused myself from the company and walked through the remains of my home, the mountain, until I was too drained to continue walking. I was halfway through walking the hall were my uncle once walked when he overcame his disease until I inhaled a shaky breath and my knees buckled.

My brother and uncle are dead.

I fell to the floor and just stared at it, inhaling shaky breaths. I look down at the sword on my belt which I fought with for many hours just for me to loose my brother and uncle. I growled before throwing grabbing the sword and through it across the hall with a cry. It clanged against the floor before sliding further from the slippery concrete.

The pain was so great. So great it felt like that orcs sword had embedded itself in my chest and left me to bleed to death all over again. I escaped death. But my brother didn't when he was stabbed by the orcs and thrown onto the floor right at my feet.

I still can't get that scarring image out of my head. My brothers lifeless body in-front of me, his soulless eyes looking up at the sky. I still tremble at the sound of his screams as the blade pierced him. I didn't even get to say goodbye. His last moments were with me, I was the last person he spoke to. And that conversation was him telling me to go back, and that saved my life, but cost his.

If I was there I could have helped him, or at least try to protect him, however, that would have also killed me. But I couldn't have done that to (Y/N), my heart wrenches at the pain she felt when I was dying, imagine it if I didn't wake up again. Fili died thinking I lived. Thorin died thinking I lived. But I live knowing they're both dead. That is an indescribable pain that my shattered heart can't take.

I didn't get to tell him how much he meant to me. He's been my best friend since the day I opened my eyes. My mother always told me as a young boy, one of her many lectures, that an older sibling is scared. They're sacred because they would always be there to support and protect you and that they would never turn their back on you. And he never did. How do I say goodbye to someone who's been with me my whole life?

Never once did he leave me on my own, he was always there whether that was to play with me, teach me a new trick with my weapons, or even just when I needed company. It makes me sick to think he won't be there anymore. "Why?" I sobbed as I trembled "Why them?" I hung my head and stayed like that for minutes. I still deep down think he's here, he's on his way to comfort me and tell me that's everything is going to be fine.

"Kili." I turned and Ori was standing behind me with his hands in-front of him with big glassy eyes. "Ori." I replied, drained of every emotion. "I miss them too," He said "A lot." He looked down at his feet and sniffled. With every bit of me, I pulled myself up and managed to stand on my two legs.

Another tear fell down my cheek as Ori and I just stood there, no one sure what to say. "Do you think..." Ori started but trailed off "Do you think that if Thorin never declared war...then none of this would have happened?" His bottom lip trembled. "This was a war that was going to happen eventually," I said "Today, tomorrow, or even years from now. I suppose...that this just had to happen." I slightly shrugged.

Ori dug around in his pocket before he pulled out a long dark green ribbon. He slightly held it out at me. "It's (Y/N)'s," He said looking at the ribbon in his hand "She left it behind, so I thought you should have it." He handed me the ribbon on placed it in my hand like it was sacred.

"I miss them already," Ori continued "Especially (Y/N). She was part of our family." I lightly chuckled and for the first time in a while, the smile stayed on my face. "She'll be home soon, Ori," I wrapped an arm around his shoulder and squeezed it "And she'll be here to stay, no more being apart." Ori smiled at the thought of (Y/N) coming back home.

I have seen dark days in my life, i've seen my own uncle turn against me, i've seen my brother being killed and dropped on my feet and I even died, well that's what we thought. And (Y/N) was there with me through the whole thing.

She always told me when she was scared and I was always there to bring a smile to her face. She used to think that I was saving her, but she was saving me. If it weren't for her, from the impact of my trauma, I would have never made it this far. She is my other half, the half that keeps my heart beating at keeps the light in my life shining.

She is my one.

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Hey guys! This is a much shorter chapter but i feel this was an important chapter. I'm excited to write Kili and (Y/N)'s wedding and Kili becoming King. I am happy that I kept Kili alive. I really wanted to keep Fili or Thorin or even both but I couldn't think of a way to bring them back like I did with Kili and I feel it wouldn't go with the story. The battle of the five armies is over and i'm really upset, but i will write my own chapter and continue Kili and (Y/N)'s story. Thank you all for reading up to this point, I am so happy with this story and i really hope you have enjoyed this story. Thank you all so much! BYEEE!! 🗡🫶🐎