"little brother!! forgive us! today we can't play with you lagi" said amon

he hugged noha really tightly, his watery eyes and his face buried in noha's shoulder made noha's clothes wet

"That's right, if this wasn't an official invitation, I would have burned the invitation letter," said Avion

even though he smiled but it was clear that there was a huge dark aura behind him, it made noha break out in a cold sweating

"brother amon, brother avion don't worry! I'll be waiting for you!" noha said

he didn't really want to say that but if he didn't then these twins wouldn't go away

"wooooaaaaaaaa!!! because my little brother is waiting for me! I have to finish this event as soon as possible!" said ammon

in his eyes there was a burning fire, just looking at him made Noha start to feel tired

"Then we will go first, little brother," said Avion

his expression was calm but his tone was different, usually his tone was gentle but this time there was a bit of passion burning in his tone

the twins rushed out of the mansion and got on the horse carriage, they waved and noha waved back

'this way my problem is over, now I can sleep well' thought noha

Plus Kyriol and Evan won't be coming so he has a lot of alone time today

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it should be but it's different from what he wants, for some reason noha who usually always has a great desire to sleep suddenly can't sleep

and that frustrated him, his sullen face which made the maids wonder what was upsetting their young master

everything has been done but it didn't work, it feels like the gods really don't let him be comfortable with his beloved slacker life. out of frustration noha decides to walk around the mansion

and he just found out that the mansion actually has a really high tower, without waiting long he immediately tried to open the tower door

the door was unlocked but because the metal door was rusty and old noha had to exert a lot of effort to open it

inside the tower is very dark, relying on instinct and the help of a small light that enters from the small hole of the tower. noha went up and there he found a lot of things that seemed to belong to a woman

he saw lots of beautiful clothes and sparkling jewels, he was fascinated by the gems and intended to take them but he then restrained himself

'calm yourself, stealing is not good' thought noha

he walked further inside the tower to distract himself, finally he found an old book, because it was dark there he couldn't see clearly what was in the book and the place was also full of dust, he couldn't just sit carelessly

he brought the book and his favorite pillow that he had brought to the room, Ardia who saw Noha immediately prepared a teapot and 1 tea cup

Noha saw the contents of the book, it turned out to be filled with portrait photos of Duchess Aprice, the mother of the original Noha who had died

after seeing the book, noha immediately turned to ardia who was pouring tea for him

"ardia...is mother really this beautiful?" noha said

ardia was silent hearing noha's question, she then smiled and answered

"That's right young master" Ardia said

ardia misunderstood and thought noha was like other children who praised their mother and felt that their mother was the most beautiful person but what noha thought was far different

'her face is very boring, my old face was more interesting' thought noha

noha doesn't understand, many people say that duchess aprice is very beautiful but somehow for noha her face looks very boring

many people also say that noha's face is similar to the duchess even though his charming face was actually got from osius

he tried to hold back his yawning and that made a few tears appear and that too made Ardia misunderstand

'Young master is crying? he must miss the late duchess, I have to report this to the duke' thought ardia

she quickly dashed out of the room and surprised noha who was focusing on the book

'Why is she suddenly running? weird' thought noha

suddenly he felt goosebumps and a really big bad feeling, noha is a person who believes more in feelings than brains so he is sure something bad will happen

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"So you said you saw Noha crying in his room after he saw Eve's photo?" Osius said

"That's right duke, young master noha's face looks very sad" said ardia

Osius was silent for a moment when he recalled the figure of the duchess, Eve de Helys, the woman who had previously won his heart

he remembers that his life was perfect with his beloved wife and the three children he cared about but that life suddenly collapsed

when eve got sick and eventually left them. at that time noha was still very young so he thought that noha no longer remembered eve but it turned out he was wrong

"It turns out that my suspicions were right all along!" said amon

he suddenly broke down the door of osius's office, even though not even 2 hours had passed but they had already returned from the noble event

"What do you mean by that? Try to tell me" said Osius

"Father, are you really not aware of this? Lately, Noha has been quiet more often and his eyes look empty," said Avion.

"That's different from young master Noha who used to be very cheerful," said Ardia

amon and avion sat on the sofa that was in front of osius's desk, osius wanted to deny but what avion said was true and he also realized that long ago

"Duchess's death left a deep wound and because the duke and young master are always busy... young master noha must be very lonely while waiting for attention" said Ardia

they were silent, what ardia said was true lately they were busier than usual and almost didn't pay attention to noha again even though they had promised

"If this happens, I have to find a way to fix everything before it's too late" said Osius

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noha looked at the mirror and tried to remember how his face used to be...wait...why can't he remember his own face!?

"My face...what was it like back then?" muttered noha

he was sure his former face was more charming than the current one but somehow he couldn't remember it

he tries to remember but fails, how many times he has done it in vain. it made him feel stressed and frustrated and because of that great feeling...he started crying

crybaby, that's the only attitude noha and original noha have that are similar, more than that they are really much more the opposite

tears started to fall, it annoyed him and his tears flowed even more. to calm down he tried to lie down

after a while he finally began to feel calm, but suddenly the bedroom door burst open and noha who was lying down immediately got up

the people who were outside saw traces of dried tears and album books beside him

it made them misunderstand, they thought noha was crying because he missed the duchess but he wasn't!!

"little brother don't cry!!" said amon

he quickly hugged noha and stroked his head

"b-brother Amon I'm not sad" said Noha

he's honest but no one believes that because original noha's habit when sad is to be silent and say that he's fine, it makes them worry

Avion took then opened the album and saw a photo of the duchess who was holding Noha when he was just born, a sweet smile etched on Avion's face

"Your face is very similar to Eve... I know you are sad about your mother. She is also my wife and I miss her too so don't hide your longing alone" said Osius

"That's right, mothers will definitely be sad if she see her youngest child crying," said Avion

noha didn't listen to what they were saying, he just focused when osius said that he looked like the duchess

the feeling of annoyance and frustration that had been calm now exploded again, he wanted to tear up the album, his tears were flowing again and his face looked really stressed.

Just as he was about to reach for the book in a hurry as if losing control, Amon suddenly held him in his arms

Avion hugged the album book and slowly walked backwards so that Noha couldn't reach it, while Osius tried to divert Noha's eyes with soft words.

"noha, calm down noha! I know you really miss eve but please don't be like this" said Osius

'I don't want to hear your words! just let me tear up the book!' thought noha

At that time, Osius really didn't know what to do, he was really confused about what to do to calm Noha who was out of control and cried loudly

"Little brother control yourself! You still have us! So don't keep everything to yourself! Just tell us all your problems!!" said amon

'JUST GIVE ME THE DAMN BOOK AND THIS WILL BE OVER!!' thought noha

he tried so hard to speak but somehow all that came out were sobs that were so heartbreaking. Amon was getting tired but for some reason Noha was still squirming non-stop to get out of his arms

Osius tried to cover Noha's eyes so he wouldn't see the album again, Avion gave his book to Ardia then approached Noha. the sound of sobbing is still clear even though it has begun to subside

"little brother~ calm down...listen to me...everything will be fine, just trust me" said avion

for some reason noha started to stop squirming then fell asleep from exhaustion, osius sighed and amon finally let go of his hug

after that incident, osius asked the servants to move all of the duchess' belongings to a place where noha could not found

because according to the maids, this all started because noha entered the tower that containing all the duchess's belongings

A/N: I don't know what I'm typing anymore so i'm sorry if the story doesn't make sense

and for those of you who are curious about how Amon, Noha and Avion look like [art by me]