I still remember my memories when I first met Noha, at that time my family was holding an event and lots of nobles came with their children.

I was crying by the fountain after being slapped openly by my mother, anyone who saw it would immediately suspect that I was an unwanted child, but I can't deny it because it's the truth

Suddenly someone approached me, he was shorter than me and because it was dark here I couldn't see what expression he was making so by reflex I became wary of that boy.

But what surprised me he instead gave me a baby blue colored handkerchief then sat beside me, that's when I finally could see his face more clearly because of the moonlight

"Why are you here?" I asked

"Crying alone is not good, it would be better if someone was by your side and tried to cheer you up" said the boy

I was a bit surprised at what he said, who am I to make him want to do this?

"What reason do I have to be comfort by you? And are you okay with me?" I asked

"That's because... not all children deserve to be treated like that," said the boy

I'm a bit confused by what he said, what kind of treatment did he mean?

"Ah, I mean being treated in front of everyone like that before, I know how it feels...so..." Said the boy

After listening to his words which were a bit awkward it made me feel amused and then laugh, even though a few moments ago I was crying loudly

"You are really a strange child, my name is vincent de willem, how about you?" I asked

"My name is...noha de aprice!!" said noha

"That's a good name, from now on we're friends!" I said

"Yes!" said noha

We promised to meet again and will go play together, that's where our friendship was created, moreover we shared the same fate which made us get to know each other better

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We often play together and spend time together, wherever we are always together, wherever I go Noha will always follow me, we are never separated

Noha's attitude is free and mischievous but sometimes he acts quiet and mature even though he is only 5 years old, sometimes his advice manages to amaze me

I've met duke aprice and noha's brothers several times but they never said hello and just passed us by, just like that

At that time Noha's face would immediately turn sad, seeing that made me want to continue to be by His side and comfort Him, it felt like it was my duty

Sometimes it's not only Noha who is sad, every time my mother is angry with me, Noha is the place where I go and release all my sadness, without realizing it, affection begins to grow in my heart

"Noha promise me that in the future we will get married together" I said

Hearing that, a very cute smile appeared on his face

"I do! I promise I will marry Vin and only you, nothing else!" say noha

My heart feels flowery to hear it, for five years we were together but when we were ten years old...noha suddenly disappeared from my life

Many have told me that Noha left because he was fed up with me and didn't want to meet me again but I don't believe that because we promised to marry together

For 7 years I've been looking for Noha. It is only because of this promise that I still insist on looking for him, when I find him, I will bring him back to amiver kingdom and then we will marry together.

sometimes there are times when I think of giving up but every time I think of his face, my heart becomes pounding making it even more difficult for me to give up

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Now I'm ten years old and suddenly a girl sent me a letter telling me where Noha is, after reading that I prepared everything and then moved to Esvier Academy, all just to meet my first love

It only took 3 days to arrive at the Academy, when I entered class I could immediately find my love that I had been looking for, my heart kept pounding and I couldn't take my eyes off of him.

When it's time for lunch, this is the right time for me to meet my love but how shocked I was when I saw that there were three boys beside him and kept clinging to him

Noha didn't forget our promise right? Of course he's not, noha is not the type to break or forget promises, I walked up to him, I can't wait to see what expression he will show

But it's not what I expected...noha's face looks very flat, even though I'm a bit disappointed but I can't give up on taking him back with me because I've come this far

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After a week and a half, I moved into the same dorm as Noha and three people who apparently also liked Noha, they said their names were Kyriol de Rlevier, Evan de Alverych and Arrion de Eviyors.

Well even though they also like Noha but I won't give in that easily, wherever Noha goes I always follow him, it feels like we're back like before

But... somehow over time I felt something was different from Noha, no, more precisely I felt like the Noha in front of me was not the Noha I knew.

The Noha I know likes tea with honey because it's very sweet but now he says he doesn't like anything too sweet, it's really weird

Moreover noha really likes blue and only wears anything in that color but now he doesn't care about all that stuff anymore

This makes me very suspicious, is it true that the Noha in front of me is still someone I know?

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For 24 hours noha was surrounded by the three boys but right now he was alone because they had to go, so I invited him to take a walk in the academy garden

I tried to strike up a conversation but it always ended awkwardly, this made me unable to hold back my suspicions any longer

"Noha...there's something I want to talk to you about" I said

"...What's that?" said noha

I was silent for a moment, I was a little hesitant to said it

"...Who are you?" I said

Instantly noha's face turned pale and he started sweating coldly, seeing that made me one hundred percent sure that he was hiding something

"W-what are you talking about? Of course I'm noha" said noha

"No way! You are different from the noha I know, so different!" I said

Right after saying that, Noha sighed and then looked at me with a blank stare that I've never gotten from him before

"It seems that there is no point in hiding this from you," said Noha

"You're right, I'm not the real noha, I'm just a lost soul who took over this body" said noha

"W-what do you mean...?" I said

Noha explained everything in detail, how he died, how he got this far, he also said that he no longer remembers what he was like in his first life

I need some time to receive this information...while noha just sat by my side, waiting until I'm ready to say something

"Because now you have this body does this mean the noha I know...is dead?" I said

"I'm not sure if he's dead because I'm still here, maybe he...became a lost soul" said noha

"...after hearing all this...do you not like me anymore?" said noha

The expression he showed was exactly the same as the facial expression he gave me 11 years ago when we first met. But apparently i really can't

"It turns out I can't, even after hearing this my feelings for you are still the same..." I said

"I may need a long time to move on but... if the owner of this body asks to be returned, please return it to him, I beg you" I said

sounds very selfish but Noha just nodded understanding

"Of course..." Noha said with a small smile on his face

Since that day, I have continued to follow him as usual, but what can I do, humans are indeed selfish creatures, every now and then I hope and think that the noha I know will return

A/N: noha and evan [art by me]