what a shit day.

The next morning slowly comes around, another restless night, another night of nightmares and flashbacks of my past.

The sun rose up through the windows into our room and I could hear the rustling of the bed sheets from the other girls,

I get up first and the cold morning air hits me as I leave my bed and head towards the bathroom and get changed to see Mr Whitlock soon.

I already knew the conversation I was about to have with him regarding the incident yesterday during training and I wonder what the consequences are for what I did. I couldn't bare to think of what he might do to me.

I step out of the bedroom and the girls were still in bed which actually made me smile, I don't know why but it just did. Maybe because there was no rush today, no schedule. It was nice.

"Morning girl how'd ya sleep?" Tilly asked as she sat up from her bed, her hair messy and her blanket half on the ground.

"Yeah better actually" I say fully lying to this girl, "um what about you guys?" I ask back, knowing that's what a usual conversation holds, someone asks you something and you ask it back, progression I say.

"I slept like a log after yesterdays training and I'm guessing so did Frankie and Adira as they're still pretty much asleep" she laughed but quietly so they didn't wake them up, I smile as well and wave goodbye and headed out the door.

I walk down the stairs and towards the kitchen and through the Marnock common room towards the exit to outside. I passed a few early birds who were already up and making breakfast.

I open the door and walk towards Mr Whitlocks office. Even though I was so nervous for what was about to happen, at least I could feel grateful for actually being outside.

I could smell freshly cut grass that was done yesterday, I could hear the birds chirp as they wake up and the sun was beaming just through the long pine trees in the distance.

It was a surreal experience actually, that I haven't quite got used to.

I make my way to the office and I knock on the door politely. I stepped back and waited for him to open the door.

"Come in" he shouted, I twist the door handle and push open the door and then shutting it behind me.

"Miss Pierce, Good morning, how was your sleep?" He asked with a warm smile which confused me, I mean he wanted to speak to me early in the morning and obviously about what occurred yesterday and he asks me how I slept with a warm smile? My confusion shines through my answer I say slowly,

"Yeah alright I guess" I say as I sit down in front of his desk and so does he after opening his blinds,

"Good good." He says as he catches his breath once he sat down and sorted himself out and looked right at me, still with a smile on his face, does this guy ever not smile?

"What was it that you needed to speak to me about?" I ask knowing damn well what this was about, I sat there with my hands in my lap and fidgeting with my nails, preparing for the worst of punishments he was going to give me.

Whenever I disobeyed my parents or did anything that they didn't agree to on that day, I'd get punished by unexplainable things. Usually kicked repeatedly or even no food for a week, a lot more stuff but my memory has lacked from all the hits to the head.

Mr Whitlock took a breath before he began speaking, "I have a feeling you already know what this is about Miss Pierce-" he pauses looking at me, "the incident involving Mr Kelly yesterday during training?" He questions to make sure I'm on the right page, I simply nod and he continues on,

"Am I able to ask what happened?" He spoke carefully, I think Mr Whitlock is the only one that knows about my past, which gives me a sense of comfort that someone knows but makes me feel weak. I remove my eyes off him as he asked that, I was nervous to say but I know I need to explain myself.

My voice goes quite, "I suppose after seeing all the weapons and training equipment it gave me flashbacks of... well you know...-" I paused and Mr Whitlock just nodded his head saying he knew and for me to keep going, "- and I just couldn't do it, with everyone in there and then Mr Kelly sort of forcing me to give it a go and then grabbing me, I- I- just couldn't do it and my extinct kicked in and something sort of took over me and I'd say I was just protecting myself but I'm really sorry, I shouldn't of done it, I won't eat for a week or I'll sleep outside, or even if you want to kick me, whatever you think is right, I'm very sorry" I blabber on and once I realised I was over sharing I stop suddenly and look down at my hands avoiding eye contact,

"Octavia don't be sorry, please don't be sorry, you don't need to be. I won't make you sleep outside or not eat for a week or anything along those lines, your safe here now. It's not like how it was back with your parents. We learn and grow here at Northview Academy. And I hope that's okay?" He asks me for reassurance,

I nod, taken away at the fact I wasn't in trouble, I couldn't handle it, I didn't get punched or kicked, I could still eat, I wasn't used to it, don't think I'll ever be.

"But we do have to come up with a plan on how we can get around this without you feeling like that yesterday and then we can work our way around getting to the stage of training with the others. But for now, I've made this for you" he opens his right side draw of his desk and takes out something and hands to me, I take it from his hands.

What is this?

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