I looked down at my hand that was holding a black key card by the look of it. It had the words "North View Academy" carved into both sides of the black card in gold letters.

I look back up at Mr Whitlock with a confused face, and he begins to speak.

"I made this key card specifically for you and only you. This key card allows you access to the training facilities during after hours at night. We lock the facilities off to all students at night so they can't access it unless it's during training hours." He pauses making sure I understood,

I sort of just sat there taking it all in,

"I know what you might be thinking, the weapons that were splayed out during training yesterday will always get put away after every training session so they won't be there unless you pick the ones you want to use, this will help you to get comfortable first and work your way at your own speed with the weapons, is that okay?" He asked me politely,

I nod my head to his question, "yeah, I actually really like this idea, but I do have one question" I pause and he nods for my approval to ask, "if this key card is only for me, am I meant to keep this a secret? I mean I am new here, I don't want to cause trouble with the other students if I have different rules to them" I say,

Once he again, Mr Whitlock smiles and nods his head lightly, "I like how you think Miss Pierce, and yes I do have to ask you to try your best to keep this between you and me. The best time to go to the facilities will be when the majority of students are in bed, and ultimately try and use your key card at the door when no one is around. If anyone sees you, don't worry and just tell them to come see me" he spoke gently.

"How does that sound?"

I smile at him, this was a really good idea, but I was nervous, I can admit that, I will be when I go but I know this is something I have to do. I can't be at this academy if I don't learn how to fight and train myself. I just have to push through.

"Yeah I don't really know what to think but thank you for trying to help me" I say generously, his smile gets brighter,

"of course Miss Pierce, this is what I am here for, like I said before, we learn and grow here at Northview Academy and if that means we make a few tweaks in the system to help you, we will certainly do that" he leans back in his chair happily, "now you better get out of here and enjoy the sunny weather, let me know how you get on with the key card, if you have any problems just come find me" he finished speaking at stood up and made his way towards the door to let me out.

I stand up from my seat and head through the doors giving Mr Whitlock away and quickly placing the key card in my pocket so no one could see as I headed out in the courtyard making my way over to the Marnock common room.

The courtyard was a lot busier now, lots of people around, some laying down on the grass, others standing under shade. I head towards the door and thankfully two girls just walk out of the building, I quickly grabbed a hold of the door as they left it open for me,

"Thank you" I say, they nod awkwardly. '

Are these people ever going to get over me being here?

I walk inside and spot the group sitting on the two couches in the main room. I walk over and they smiled as I came to a stop standing next to Adira.

"Hey, Tilly is up in her room still deciding what to wear and waiting for you" Frankie said with a warm smile, "we'll wait for you both down here" Henry spoke tying up his shoe laces while sitting next to Frankie.

I nod his way and head through the kitchen towards the girls room. I open the door to number 37 and spot Frankie trying on clothes by the mirror. Swaying her hips until she stops when she sees me by the door.

"Oh don't mind me" she got a bit startled and awkwardly laughed and then walked over to her wardrobe, "cmon we have to get you some bathers for the lake"

I walk over, my heart sinks at the tiny two piece bathers piece she pulls from all her clothes. It was a simply red bikini with white lining around it, this is not good. I couldn't wear a tight top yesterday because of the scars, bruises and cuts and I'm supposed to wear something as small as a two piece bikini today? Not happening.

"I'm not wearing that" I say, laughing. Tilly turns to me with a questionable look, knowing she's asking why not.

"I um- I usually just wear a big top that, well, you know, covers everything" I say trying to avoid eye contact with her,

"Ohhhh, that's okay, I've got plenty of big shirts, here you can wear this" she hands me a simple black baggy shirt that whiffed of a boys cologne. But I don't question it.

I go into the bathroom and quickly change into the baggy shirt and put my shoes back on. I tie my hair up and head back in to the room with Tilly.

"You look great, what about me?" She asks even though she knows she looks amazing, she was wearing this beautiful yellow bikini. Of course she looked lovely.

"You look beautiful" I say, she smiles and nods in a thanking way.

"Suppose I have to look good if you know who is going to be there" she rambled, probably used to talking about this with Frankie and Adira.

I didn't say anything, I was confused, what was I meant to say.

"Oh fuck, sorry-" she laughed "I'm so used to speaking to franks and Adira about him-" she pauses, "oh I suppose I've got to tell you now don't I?"

I shrug my shoulders, "well for a while now I've sort of had a thing for Axel" she blushes and turns away from me, I've never seen Tilly shy or quiet really.

"Really?" I didn't know what else to say, I hardly knew what she meant. What's a thing for someone?

"Yeah I suppose I've sort of had this crush on him for a while" she says, her cheeks getting even more red.

Hold on, 'a crush'. I know what that is, I'm pretty sure it was a thing that I saw on this weird tv show back when I was in the basement, it's a thing that people say when they like someone that's more then a friend?

I feel incredibly dumb right now.