Ari

"And what did you say?" I ask seb when we're in bed. He just told me about stephan saying he knows where their parents are.

"I didn't say anything. I just nodded and walked away."

"Do you want to know?" I ask him as I run my finger across his tattooed chest.

"I never did before. If I wanted to know I would have had rat find them. I can't let him go by himself though if he decides he wants to see them."

"He won't have to go by himself babe. That doesn't mean you need to go with him though, if you don't want to."

"You're not going around those people."

"First of all I didn't say me. I was thinking dad, eli, Parker, or even Jasper."

"Yeah, I don't know. I need to think about it."

"Okay, well if you want to talk about it I'm here."

"Thank you, baby" He says kissing the top of my head.

The day of Charlie's birthday party came quick. Peyton insisted on having it at hers and dad's house.

Dad did not overstep and hire princes after I told charlie no. He took a creative rout and had the prospect dress up.

"Dad, you didnt." I laugh when I see them pulling up on their bikes in costumes.

"Well you said we couldn't hire actors. So the club had a vote." He shrugs.

"Daddy look!" Charlie squeals from Sebbys arms.

"I see babygirl. Motorcycle riding princes. What more could a girl ask for." He sends a wink my way.

They weren't just dressed like princes they're all wearing masquerade type masks that cover half their faces. I'm not sure if the six men getting off their bikes had much of a choice in their outfits, regardless I'm greatful they went all out for my daughter.

The smile on my daughters face is priceless. If I had known how happy it would have actually made her, I would have just hired her some princes.

Her party is amazing, filled with all our our family, every member of the club came. It was a day filled with smiles and love for a my little girl.

I see seb and stephan standing off the the side as the party wraps up. "I want to see them, seb I want answers." I hear stephan tell his brother.

"What answers are you looking for? Why they chose drugs over not one but two kids? Why they let us grow up getting our asses beat in foster care? Why they didn't give a single fuck about us? I don't need those answers, stephan. They mean nothing to me, I have you, I have ari, I have charlie, I have the club, I don't need the people who didn't choose me, I have the people who did, so do you. I choose you stephan, everyone here chooses you."

"I get that,seb, and I'm so fucking greatful especially for you and ari. I just... I just want to look them in the eyes and ask them why I wasn't good enough for them to choose me. I want to show them I'm better off without them, I'm better of with you."

Seb is quiet for a moment before speaking "Fine, We'll go. You're not going alone. I'll be by your side the whole time."

"Thank you seb"

Sebs feet stay planted as he watches stephan walk away. "You okay, handsome?" I ask him shocking him out of his thoughts.

"Hey, angel. Yeah I'll be fine. I just don't know if him meeting them will do more harm than good".

"Babe, you don't have to be the one to go with him, you know one of the other guys can take him. They won't let anything happen to him." I tell him wrapping my arms around his waist.

He hugs me back burying his face in my hair and whispering, "I need to be the one there for him, but thank you."

"Okay," I sigh and nod my head. I know this is going to take a tole on him. As much as sebby tries to say he doesn't care and he's better off without them, I know it hurts him to know that his parents chose drugs over him. My mom chose drugs over me too, she was just better at staying off cps's radar.

Seb

It was a week later when I finally told stephan it was time to go see the people who gave us life. I wasn't surprised when he gave me the address in a sketchy part of town. A part of town I really don't want to park my new truck in, but what's insurance for I guess.

"You sure you want to do this?" I ask stephan as we pull up.

"Yeah, are you okay?" He asks me.

"Yeah, let's get this shit over with."

When we get to the door I knock. We wait a few moments before the door is opened by a frail looking woman. I try to search my memories to see if I can place her, I can't. "Hello?" She answers softly. "Can I help you with something."

"Are you tammy?" Stephan asks.

"Yes, do I know you."

"Well you should." I mutter loud enough for her to hear me.

She stares at us both for a moment in question. "I'm Stephan, this is Sebastien."

Her eyes grow wide, then fill with tears. "My boys," she breaths. She doesn't look high, Which I didn't expect I figured to we'd find a couple of strung out junkies.

"I was wondering if you and Justin had a few minutes to talk?" My brother asks in a hopeful voice.

"Umm, Justin isn't here. He's at work. He should be home soon though. Would you like to come in?"

"Sure, yeah" my brother answers in both of our behaves.

So I guess we're going inside. Fuck my life. "I never thought I'd see either of you again." She says as we take a seat on their worn down couches. "Would either of you like something to drink?"

"No, we're good." I answer for both of us. We don't know this lady. She may have given birth to us, but that's the only thing she ever gave us.

"I'm sure you both have questions." She's fidgeting with her hands like she's nervous.

"Yeah, well I did." Stephan tells her.

Before he can ask anything the front door opens "Tammy, who's truck is outiside?"

"That would be mine." I say looking at the other person who wss supposed to be my parent. Being a dad to charlie is the greatest gift I could possibly ask for. I don't understand how these people had children and didn't feel the same way. I have to remind myself why I'm here, for stephan.

"Who are you?" He asks.

"Sebatain, long time no see."

He wears the same look of shock Tammy had on her face when she realized who was standing at her door. "Wow, and you're stephan?"

"Yes," Stephan answers.

Justin moves to sit next to Tammy. He rests his elbows on his knees and looks between the both of us. "I can't believe you're here. You're both all grown up."

"No, I'm grown up. Stephan is still a kid." I narrow my eyes at him. Stephan is not grown yet, I want him to enjoy the rest of his childhood lord knows the first fifteen years were shit, I hope to make the last three the best.

"Yeah," Justin nods in agreement.

"Stephan had some questions for us." Tammy tells Justin.

"Yeah I figured. Okay, go ahead." He nods.

"Are you both clean now?" My brother asks.

"Yes, we're both a little over five years clean." Tammy tells him.

"You couldn't do that before the drugs lost you both of your kids to the system?" I raise an eye brow at them.

"You're right, we fucked up. We know we fucked up. Honestly you were probaly better off in a foster home back then than with us." Justin tells me.

"You have no idea what you're talking about. You can't begin to comprehend the amount of beating I took from different foster parents. I was living on the streets at twelve by myself. When stephan found me he was beat up, running away from a hell house of his own. So no I don't think we were better off. I think we would have been better off with parents who gave a single fuck about us."

"I'm sorry Sebastien," Tammy lowers her eyes and speaks again. "I'm sorry to you too stephan. I wish I would have been strong enough back then to get the help I needed."

"I just don't get it." I shake my head. "I don't know how it didn't fucking kill you to watch your kids have to leave your life. That could never be me. I would burn down the entire world if someone tried to take my daughter away from me. If I didn't get to hear her call me daddy or tell me she loves me everyday, if I didn't get to put her to bed everynight, if I didn't get to see her smile everyday, that would fucking destroy me. I would make sure to do everything in this world to make sure she came home to me."

"You have a daughter?" Tammy's glassy eyes meet mine.

I didn't mean to let that slip, hell I didn't even mean to talk. This was supposed to be stephan's show. I had planned on sitting here quietly and letting him get his answers. I convinced myself for all these years that I didn't care. Sitting here looking at them now, I realize I do. I care that I wasn't enough for them, and I fear one day ari will realize I'm not enough for her and charlie either. Maybe I need these answer just as much as stephan.

"Yeah, she just turned three last week."

"I'm a granpa?" Justin asks wistfully. What the fuck?

"No, you're not. You're not even a parent. My daughter will never know either of you. She has a grandma and a grandpa, who just like me and her mom, would do literally anything for her. I have killed her for and her mother. I would do it a hundred times over to anyone that caused harm to them."

Justin lowers his head and stares at his hands, then stephan speaks up. "Seb is a great dad. Him and Ari took me in without question. They helped find my friends dad and get her out of foster care, they have bought me more clothes and shoes than I have ever owned in my life, they won't take the government checks for me, the won't even let me help buy a car for myself."

"Sounds like you're doing good for yourself Sebastien." Tammy says with a sad smile.

"I am." I agree.

"What is it that you do?"

"I help run several businesses for devil's rayne mc. I have been with them since they rescued me from living on the street at twelve. They are my family."

"So you're a criminal?" Justin asks with a shocked expression.

I can't help but to laugh. "I didn't say that," even though yes, I am. "But I find it funny that the junkie who got his kids taken from him has some moral high ground to stand on about a motor cycle club."

"They kill people." Tammy gasps.

"Prove it " I raise an eyebrow at them, they can't prove shit. No one can.

"They are good men. They would do anything for eachother. They are more than a club, they are family. They have become my family and you don't get to sit here and judge seb for his choices in a life that you chose not to be apart of. Realize this, neither of us came here for your approval of our lives, we came here so I could have answers to questions that seb doesn't give a fuck about."

"Language." I mutter under my breath at him.

He shoots me a sideways glance before continuing. "So I want to know why. Why we weren't good enough for you to choose us."

"It was never about nit choosing you." Tammy speaks "we were both addicts. We loved you both very much, we just weren't in the right state of mind to get help."

"You have been clean five years, why didn't you try to get me back? I have read my file it's how I knew about seb and where you live. You never tried."

"You were taken when you were a baby. There was a chance you were in a good home with people who loved you. We didn't want to uproot your whole life."

"Well that was a stupid assumption, but honestly thank you. If you would have came back for me I would have never found seb. Him, ari, charlie, the whole mc really, were worth the extra five years." He shoots a smile my way. I'm happy my little brother found me too.