I couldn't concentrate on anything in school, my mind was filled with her memories, her scent, her cute smile, her innocent nature, her beautiful face. I miss her so much

After a few excruciating hours, school was finally over. I slowly walked over to the car and got in with my brothers and cousins. Brothers nonetheless

"What's wrong with you?" Xavier asked and I just shook my head

"Are you sure you're okay?" Bruno asked and placed his hand on my shoulder

"I'm okay just focus on getting us home" I told them and closed my eyes. I don't have the energy to talk right now

I could still feel most of their eyes on me but I didn't open my eyes. Once the car stopped, I got out and walked into the house. I ignored everyone's curious gazes and quickly rushed upstairs

I got changed into some comfy clothes and sat on my bed, my eyes landed on my guitar that I haven't touched in a long time. I only played when she was around

I grabbed the guitar and started playing our song. She forced me into singing it with her once and since then we always sang together and it was always beautiful

(AN: You can play the song now ^‿^)

I sang the last note and I didn't even realize that I was crying again. I miss her

"Come back to me" I mumbled and I heard multiple clapping, causing me to jump slightly and I quickly turned back and saw..

Third person's pov When the older ones saw Gabriella just walk upstairs, they threw the younger ones a questioning look

"We don't know, she's been in a shitty mood since this morning. Refused to tell us anything" Diego said with a shrug

"I just hope shes okay, she's become more quite lately. She's pale and doesn't eat much anymore. Worse part is she won't even tell us what's wrong" Antonio said slightly frustrated and Xander scoffed

"What? Don't look at me like that. It's your fault, she shut everyone out because of you Antonio!" Xander yelled angrily and Antonio stared at him in disbelief before his gaze turned cold

"What the fuck do you mean by that?" He asked taking a challenging step forward, Xander also took a step forward in anger

"Xan please calm down" Xavier said in fright. He knew how hotheaded his twin was and at this moment his anger would only land him in trouble

"Shut up" Xander gritted out, still not tearing his gaze away from Antonio

"I'll ask one more time Xander, what do you mean by that?" Antonio asked with tightly clenched fists

"It's your fuckin fault, you're to blame. She had finally started opening up to us but you screwed up just like you did with that Dad!" Xander yelled. Antonio stilled at what he said, all he saw was red.

Before anyone could predict what would happen next..Antonio slapped Xander across the face, Xander looked at him in utter shock. Everyone was, they knew Antonio never raised his hand to any of them

"Watch your fuckin mouth-"

"The fuck is wrong with you Antonio. Stay away from my twin! It's not like he's lying, it's your fault" Xavier growled angrily. He hated the fact that Antonio raised his hand to his other half

"You too?" Antonio asked in shock and disbelief. What happened with their father wasn't his fault

"Guys please stop this, we shouldn't be fighting" Emilio pleaded

"You just be quiet Em" Antonio said, still looking at the twins with pain in his eyes

"Everyone knows what happened wasn't my fault. He didn't tell me what his plan was, he was supposed to tell me everything since I was supposed to take over but he didn't tell me anything" he desperately tried to explain.

"Are you blaming dad?!" Stephano suddenly yelled in anger

"Guys please stop" Matteo pleaded, fresh tears brimming in his eyes. All their eyes softened, they knew they had to stop fighting, for Matteo's sake

"Don't cry, they won't fight anymore" Angelo said, giving him a hug while glaring at all four of them. What made them think it was alright to fight infront of Matteo when they knew his condition?

"We're sorry bud" Xavier said softly and ruffled Matteo's hair to which the latter glared at him through his blurry vision.

"Guys can you hear that?" Diego suddenly asked and they listened carefully. That's when they heard it, the most angelic voice they had ever heard

"Is that our bambina?" Matteo asked no one in particular

"Let's go see. Walk softly, we don't want to scare her" Nicolo said and they headed to her room

They opened the door slightly and there they saw their bambina sitting on her bed, legs crossed with a guitar in her hand and singing her heart out

They were mesmerized by how nice and strong her voice was. Once she finished, they started clapping and she flinched and quickly wiped her tears

"You were amazing bambina. Can you sing for us again?" Emilio asked softly

"No I don't sing for people. You should know that eavesdropping on someone is bad manners" she said; 'I only sing for one person, and she's gone' she mused

"You're right sorry" Ales said. He had been observing her since they entered the room, he knew it was something more than her not wanting to sing for them. What are you hiding bambina?

"Can you guys just leave? I'm tired" she said and they all hesitantly left knowing she needed time to herself

Antonio's pov- I went to my office and sat down weakly. What the twins said to me had been ringing in my head ever since. Was it really my fault?

"Why didn't you speak to me dad?. I could have saved you. Why didn't you just tell me your plan cazzo!" I whispered in frustration. (Fuck)

What happened five years ago wasn't my fault. Our dad was depressed when our sorella got taken. He kept looking for her everyday, everywhere. He contacted different mafias, our allies and different gangs but she was no where to be found

One day he went to a casino to talk to our allies (French mafia, Spanish mafia and the cobras) . He didn't tell anyone, he just left

Unknowing to him, Russians ambushed them and killed some members of the cobras, making the cobras resent the Russians and us, they pulled away from our borders

The Russians killed our father brutally, his body wasn't even recognizable but we knew it was him because he was wearing our mafia ring. Every Don, second in command and third in command had one. His was gold, mine silver and Ales' bronze

The spanish mafia only told me when they realized what was happening and I tried my best, I really did. I went there with our men but it was too late

Our dad died, the Don was dead and mu brothers blamed me for it, they said i was ignorant and refused to help because I wanted to be Don when in reality I didn't even want that position

*Flashback* "Dad but I can't. I don't want to be Don" I told my father and he sighed, rubbing his head

"Son you know I don't want this life for any of you. But what will happen to the mafia if no one takes over?" He asked

I knew he was right but I didn't think I would be able to take up the responsibility of a whole mafia. What if I mess up and disappoint everyone, including him.

"Then give it to Ales I'll step down for him" I said and he shook his head immediately

"It has to be you son. I believe in you and I know you can do it. I'm not getting any younger, I want to use the rest of my life looking for my little tesoro" he said and my heart clenched at the mention of my baby. I miss her so much

"Alright father, I promise I won't let you down" I said and he smiled at me, hugging me tightly

"You'll do great buddy" he whispered in my ear *End of flashback* I didn't realize when tears dropped from my eyes. I miss dad so much, today my baby brother blamed me for his death again, opening wounds in the process. I let everyone down again, why am I so useless?

Xander's pov- I went to my room after what happened, I made a mistake. I know it wasn't his fault but I just needed someone to blame and i chose him

I know he was hurt and he's still hurting. Why did say that to him? I'm not at all mad that he hit me, infact I deserved it

I heard a knock and I said a weak 'come in' and Xavier walked in. I looked at him as tears welled up in my eyes. He is the only one I showed my weak side to. I shared everything with him, he's my other half

"Oh twinny don't cry, I'm sorry that happened. I will always be here for you. He had no right to hit you, you're my twin and I'll never let anyone hit you ever again" he said and hugged me tight, I love this idiot so much

"But I messed up Xav" I mumbled in his chest

"Xan, I know you didn't mean it. If you still feel bad then you can go apologize to him, I'll come with you. I also have to apologize for raising my voice" he said and I nodded immediately but a yawn escaped me and he chuckled

"You're sleepy, go to bed. We'll apologize tomorrow" he said and kissed my forehead

"Sleep with me?" I asked and his eyes twinkled

"Of course. We're having a sleep over!" He squealed and pounced on me, laying directly on top of me with his head on my chest

"I love you Xav" I said and I felt him smile against my chest

"I love you more Xan" he said and I shook my head.

"Not possible" I said and drifted to sleep. This is why I love him, he makes me feel better even when I feel like shit.

______________________________________ Okay I want to apologize to all of you for the late update. School has been really stressful given that it's my last year and I have a lot of work to do

Also I'm sorry for any mistakes in this chapter, it was rushed but I know I had to write something.

Do you think what happened with their father is Antonio's fault?

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