I bite my nails as I sit on my window ledge, looking out at the miles of trees that surround our house.

I've never been so conflicted in my life.

Even when I was little I always trusted my instincts and trusted my ability to make the right choices but now it seems as if I'm unable to make a decision. I'm too scared whatever choice I make will be the wrong one.

It's not about age or money, I know I'm mature and responsible enough to raise a child. It's about mentality.

Am I in the right head space to be raising a child? I know I've become a lot more stable now that I'm living with my brothers but I still have night terrors and flashbacks regularly. Surely that can harm the baby.

I feel a bond with this baby already and I know it would kill me to get rid of it but I'm not sure if I can handle being a mother right now, especially if I'm doing it alone.

I haven't even told Santiago. I'm scared of his reaction, I know an eighteen year old wouldn't want to be held back by the responsibly of a child.

I realise that I'll eventually have to tell him either way but I at least want to be sure and confident in my decision first.

But what if I end up keeping it and he starts to resent me?

Pessimistic thoughts cloud my mind as I start to do something I haven't done in years, cry. I choke back sobs as the feeling of vulnerability overwhelms me.

"Hey you wanna come with me to-" Angelo says while barging in my room. I look up at him and immediately start wiping away my tears, trying to conceal my moment of weakness.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Angelo says worriedly while making his way over to me. This must be strange to him, even when I was little I barely ever cried so he's rarely ever seen me be vulnerable.

When he asked me what was wrong it's like the flood gates opened and I just started bawling uncontrollably. He sits next to me, engulfing me in a tight hug as he rocks me back and forth.

I'm crying so hard that my body is shaking, it's as if the past six years worth of tears are now finally coming out.

"Sshhh it's alright," He reassures while rubbing my back. He tries comforting me but I'm hysterical at this point.

"Darc tell me what's wrong so I can help," He pleads. I'm so desperate for guidance that I actually do the thing I've always dreaded, asking for help.

"I'm pregnant," I choke out in between sobs.

He just stares at me, stunned. "You're what?" He stutters, even though I know he heard me.

We sit on the window seal in silence for a minute, letting the information sink in. "Whose is it?" He asks, dumbfounded. I don't reply, containing to cry.

"Darcy, whose is it?" He repeats, his voice slightly raised.

"Santiago's," I whisper. Before I can even register what's happening he's storming out the room.



"Angelo stop! Wait!" A distraught Darcy calls from behind me but I'm too blinded by rage to listen.

My sister is pregnant. My baby sister is pregnant and it's the fault of someone we trusted, someone we let sleep in the same house as her.

I storm to the main office, where I know my brothers and the security guards are having a meeting. I slam the door open, meeting the shocked faces of everyone in the room.

"You bastard!" I scream as soon as I see his smug face. I lunge at him, delivering a right hook to his jaw.

"What the fuck Angelo!" Romeo shouts, pulling back his chair. I'm about to land another punch when a small hand pulls my arm back.

"Angelo s-stop please," She pleads in between sobs. I watch as the whole room immediately becomes alarmed at Darcy's appearance. She shaking and crying uncontrollably, barely being able to breathe.

Luca tries to comfort her but she brushes him off, trying to pull me out the room.

"What's happened?" Lorenzo asks, concerned and confused.

"What's happened! I'll tell you what's happened!" I shout like a mad man before I'm pushed out into the hallway.

"Please don't say anything, we can go in my room and talk just please don't tell them," She pleads with me as I look down at her tear stricken face.

I sigh and try to calm down for her sake. She called back into the office that everything is fine, which obviously didn't convince anyone but they could tell we needed to be alone.

She pulls me into her room and sits on her bed as I pace back and forth. "How long have you known," I ask, still in shock. "Since the hospital," She whispers.

"Since the hospital! Darcy what the fuck," I exclaim. "Have you seriously been thinking that you could do this alone?" I ask in disbelief.

I realise that I'm being too harsh when her lip starts to wobble and more tears silently fall from her eyes. "Look, I'm sorry," I say softly while sitting next to her on the bed.

"We need to see an obstetrician," I tell her calmly. "What's that," She sniffles.

"It's like a baby doctor, they'll make sure everything's okay and they'll tell you your options, we can go right now," I explain.

She agrees and we head to the garage. I send Lorenzo a text saying we're going out and we'll talk later to which he replied 'K'.

I'm in a rush to get her to this doctor, apart of me needs physical evidence for me to believe that this is true.

It only takes ten minutes to arrive at the doctors office. We both climb out and walk to the entrance, "Darcy, have you decided if you want this baby?" I ask her.

"I'm not sure," She replies, picking at her nails.

I slipped the receptionist a considerable amount of cash to speed up the whole waiting process which meant that Darcy was already lying down in the doctor's office five minutes after we arrived.

"Okay this might be a little cold," The doctor warned. Darcy seemed to have no reaction to the cold gel as the doctor spread it across her stomach.

"Would you like to hear the heartbeat?" She asks while tilting the ultrasound screen in our direction.

The second Darcy heard that heart beat and her eyes lit up, I could tell she wasn't getting rid of this baby.

Shit I'm going to be an uncle.

"Wow, Miss Russo do twins run in the family?" She asks. "Yeah my older brothers are twins," She smiles, seemingly not getting what the doctor was hinting.

"Well congratulations Miss Russo you are having twins!"