As I lay there, I got this itchy feeling in my head that I couldn't get rid of.

I feel weak.

Kenji

Kenji

Kenji

What does he think of me?

He probably hates me.

I do want to open up to him, but...

I'm scared

I don't want him to think differently of me.

Why?

I don't know.

What if he doesn't want to be next to me after I tell him what, if he thinks I'm filthy?

~~~

It's been a few days, and I'm all good now, but I haven't seen Kenji since we had that 'talk'.

"Where's Kenji?" I ask them.

"He's home"

"But I haven't seen him in a few days," I state.

"No, I mean his home."

"Oh"

"In Mexico," Owen says, which makes my eyes pop.

"When did he leave?"

"Three days ago, why?"

"No, just, I didn't know, and it seemed strange not seeing him."

"Why? Do you maybe?" Theo whispered to my ear, "like him." He chuckled and smiled, winking at me.

I turn my head in his direction. "Child with the devil stare, sis," Owen said.

"I didn't hear you say no," Theo said, running away.

I do not like Kenji.

Why would I?

I mean, he looks good, but yeah, actually, that's it; he just has looks.

I nod at my statement in my head.

"Why are you shaking your head?" I hear Henry say.

"Your sister is a genius," I state.

"I know," he smiles.

~~~

It's been two weeks. I haven't seen Kenji for a month.

Why

Is he avoiding me?

And a better question: Why am I even bothered?

He asked me if I had some kind of feeling when he kissed me, and I didn't say anything.

Why is it that whenever I'm with him, I forget whatever happens to me? Like, I was never scared of men, and I wasn't scared of men approaching me.

And when he kissed me, I rubbed my lips with my fingers.

I wasn't scared or discussed by a kiss.

That's why I kind of kissed back.

I don't remember; I sit in my room, and my heart is pounding hard without knowing why."

~~~ Sorry, for short chapter