chapter tweenty four

' i think i might've be falling '

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I shot them. my hands were trembling slightly. but not as much as they should've been- I've just killed not one person but five- one of which was my own brother- flesh and blood.

yet they had tormented me for years. I had every right to demand their lives.

I was a serial killer.

oh god.

oh god.

oh my god.

the Salvador brothers seemed shocked too. as Dante picked me up making me wrap my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. '' they deserve it '' Alex said walking beside his brothers.

I buried my face in Dante's neck tears streaming down my face.

'' they hurt me Dante-

he did so many horrible things to me-

he was a monster-

I didn't meant to-

I promise I didn't mean too-

but they hurt me so much''

I mumbled only he could hear and for a second I was unsure if he heard until I felt his hold on me tighten '' I know little one, that was why he was down there, why they were down there'' he replied softly.

he sat me down on something soft which I assumed was a bed. and went to move away from me.

'' please don't leave- I'm sorry'' I cried helplessly.

'' I'm sorry, please don't leave me, I'm sorry, I'm sorry'' I sobbed as he wrapped his arms back around me holding me tighter than before. '' shh I'm not going anywhere'' he promised.

'' and you have nothing to be sorry for- they were going to die anyway my love'' I heard nic coo as I felt him stroke my leg his cold rings hitting my warm bare skin. '' we're just surprised, but we're proud of you for taking your revenge '' he said.

proud?!

I just killed five men.

how could they be proud?

I knew they were killers- mafia leaders- but how could they say they were proud of me killing another living being- much less five men.

with families.

mothers and fathers

maybe siblings.

maybe wives and children.

grandparents.

friends.

tears soaked Dante's shirt as I clutched it tightly. '' come on principessa'' Alex whispered pulling me away from Dante making me stand before all four of them Enzo walked over pulling my dress over my head before helping me get into a t-shirt that fell like a dress on me.

it smelled of Enzo's expensive cologne. I could have drowned in the comforting scent. '' shh don't cry cuore mio'' Enzo cooed.

'' how can you say that?'' I whispered trying to wipe away my never ending stream of tears. '' I just killed five people!'' I exclaimed panic setting into my body.

'' calm down lillith- '' I didn't hear anything else before the world seemed to spin around me and the voices turned blurred and I felt myself fall.

I fell into someone's arms.

someone that smells of expensive cologne and cigarette smoke.

'' we're not leaving you lillith, we wont ever leave''' I heard a faintly familiar voice say.

I did know if it was a promise or a threat.

maybe both.



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my eyes fluttered open as the suns bright light hit my eyes.

the first thing I noticed was that my body was feeling incredibly heavy. and so I rubbed my eyes only to find a giant beast of a man laying on my stomach.

one laying partly on my chest and on sitting up with my head between his legs the fourth man laying beside me his arm draped over my arm and breasts.

I don't know why but I smiled. this felt nice despise the fact that it was a bit troublesome to breathe and move.

I didn't want to wake them all up now that they all looked so peaceful for once.

so instead I used five whole minutes maneuvering out of bed without waking them up. they truly did look like Greek gods. even now when they were effortlessly sleeping.

no man could compare to their looks. that much I was almost sure of.

I slowly and silently tip toed downstairs to make us all some breakfast. luckily the fridge was stocked since I had told them I didn't want to go out and eat all the time.

I wonder if it makes me a psychopathic killer if I say I don't feel panicked anymore.

if I say that the only reason I reacted like that yesterday was because I was in shock. I know it would make me a horrible human being. but there were nothing I could do.

I couldn't find it in myself to feel bad for killing them. I felt bad for their families who would have to grieve them but I did not feel bad for what happened to them.

and like nic said they would've been dead anyway.

I wondered how they had even found out about my brother and his friends. maybe Katya? yeah that had to be it, Katya would've been the only one to actually know anything.

after all we had spoken a few times lately and she had admitted to keeping an eye on me as often as she could.

but what made me wonder was why did the Salvador's care?

it was in the past.

I had forgotten, or well I had tried to.

forgive and forget you know.

clearly it didn't work because as soon as I saw them my blood began to boil and that gun that was laying right before me looked appealing more than ever.

and I wasn't one for violence yet I had craved it.

like a starving angry beast looking for vengeance and blood.

I almost screamed when a pair of arms wrapped around my waist from behind I instantly recognized the familiar rich scent of the cologne that had become my comfort smell. I looked up to find Enzo there his hair disheveled and messy his hair curling into beautiful dark curls that made me want to run my fingers though them.

'' good morning cuore mio'' he greeted.

that nickname I wonder what it meant. '' what does it mean?'' I asked pouring some coffee into five cups.

he leaned down before placing a long tender kiss on my neck that I was sure would leave a big purple mark.

his kisses slowly trailed up before they reached the corner of my mouth and on instinct my head turned slightly to his lips meet mine.

or well I would like to tell myself it was on instinct.

in reality I wanted his kisses. their kisses. this soft feeling of being turned around so he could deepen the kiss, hands roaming my body in the most pleasant way I had ever felt. soft and tender touches. eyes so dark I drown.

he pulled away once I began to struggle breathing.

damn you lungs.

'' it means my heart'' he muttered against my lips.

and I swore my heart stopped for a second and my insides began to go crazy.

a huge smile breaking out on my face.

I must've looked like a fool right there, but I didn't really care my arms just wrapped around him as I jumped into his embrace.

'' I think I might be falling in love with you, you all '' I whispered to him as if it was mt biggest secret.

maybe it was.

maybe it was because I hadn't admitted it before now. not even to myself.