••Lisa's P.O.V••

My eyes slowly shoved open, needed a few moments to completely remember who I was and where I was. I was in a deep sleep which I needed it for weeks. my body was too heavy by the sleep I had which was really good at the same time.

After i got fully awake, my eyes scanned the room until my gaze settled on Tom, his shirtless figure framed by the large window. My stomach dropped for a moment, thinking about what had happened last night, we were fighting to death, nearly dying but then he suddenly came to himself, It was as if the things I had told him were exactly what he needed to hear, like he had been waiting to hear them for years.

I stared at him, observing the way he stood with such an calmness, and the satisfaction I felt grew as I watched him take drags from his cigarette. It was really attractive to me with but it made me feel a bit uneasy in other hand.

But then my gaze slowly shifted to his fingers and I suddenly remembered how he was playing with me last night, of how he was moving them inside me...I wanted to lie to myself but the pleasure he gave me was something i've never felt before and by looking at them, I was craving for more.

I shook my head a bit, still staring at him, thinking about how we got here? How did I end up...caring for him?!

Suddenly he turned his head back and met my gaze,"uh look who's awake," he said with an smirk before taking steps towards the bed, twisting his cigarette on the ashtray.

"Good sleep huh?" He said with his deep morning voice and I tiredly nodded in response. He then pull the warm blanket away from my body and hopped over me which made me gasp for a moment.

He started into my eyes while playing with his piercing with the tip of his tongue and I just started at how he was moving his tongue around it. He then slowly opened my legs apart with his legs before pressing himself more into my embrace.

"I..I just woke up.." I said nervously, not knowing what he was about to do next.

"I don't care," He whispered to my ear, putting little kisses on my neck and making his way up to my face.

His fingers touched my lips, playing with it before he pressed his lips against mine and I closed my eyes before kissing him back.

His hands found a way to my back and tightened his grip, pulling me more close as started moving his hips against mine, while I could feel his dick under his pants which was making my body warmer and crazier each second.

our breaths were getting heavier and heavier by the touches but suddenly the door cracked open and I gave a little jump in his arms. Without warning, Bill rushed in, blurting out, "Tom! Where's Li..." His voice trailed off as his eyes landed on us, and he stood there, completely frozen.

Tom slowly turned his head towards him, giving him a look for ruining his moment and I Swiftly covered my part as I knew I had no underwear, it was just Tom's shirt that was on my body.

Bill stood there speechless for a while before finally opened his mouth, "Ok question...You feeling better?"He asked Tom, a Bit concerned.

Tom raised his eyebrows annoyed before he got up and pushed the blanket over me, "Yeah what?"

"First why the fuck is there a bloody body in the yard?" Bill snapped and by his words my heart dropped and I felt a shiver down to my spine, I had completely forgotten about that poor girl.

Tom looked more annoyed and shook his head, "The guards should've taken care of that why didn't they?!"

"That wasn't my question Tom," Bill grinned, taking steps forward.

Tom rolled his eyes, clearly annoyed by Bill. "What do you want Bill just get to the point,"

Bill sighed and calmed his voice, "I just want to make sure that you're actually better.." he led out a deep breath before touching his dreadlocks.

"Done?" Tom asked, as if he was counting seconds for Bill to leave the room.

"Nah I need to talk to you it's important," He said as he pointed at the door with his head, clearly showing he wants to talk Alone.

Tom rolled his eyes before taking heavy steps towards the door and Bill followed him behind. They reached the door and Bill turned his head for a moment and gave me a warm smile before closing the door behind.

I took a deep breath before pushing myself off the bed, taking slow and quiet steps towards the door. at that point curiosity was overpowering me and without any second thoughts I grabbed the door handle and slowly moved it down. I opened the door a bit where my eyes could see Tom and Bill talking.

"ready to track them down?" Bill asked hesitate.

Tom sighed before he shook his head. "we need to be more ready, those Russian's biggest weapons are Their fucking heavy drugs, We need more support to fuck em up, were not going to rush this time..."He said as he tightened his fists.

"yeah those motherfuckers tracked us down to that building, It was all planned I fucking know it." Bill said frustrated, "but the thing is, weren't they a bit familiar Tom?"

"yeah...that's why we need more time and support, if that's the case I'm thinking, they are here for revenge." Tom said with his cold tone voice.

"Yeah...oh and by the way for tonight, we are invited to the red room but... I don't think we should go...it'll be more dangerous." Bill said concerned, placing his hand on Tom's shoulder.

"Red room? What are they talking about?" I said to myself.

"We're the Head Bill, the red room is nothing without us. No one's dare to do something in there." He smirked which made me uneasy and I knew whatever it was, it wasn't a good place.

"Uh and sorry for interrupting," Bill chucked a bit but his face expression changed in an instant as he continued, "It'll go for that time when you came while me and Ria were having sex and you tried to fucking rape her in front of me just to get Lisa's address." Bill said, his voice clearly sounded hurt before he started taking steps towards his room. Leaving Tom annoyed.

I gasped at what I just heard, at Bill's words. Did he try to rape her to make her talk? To get to...me?! even thinking about it sends me shivers down to my spine, but why didn't she told me that...why did she hid such a thing like that?! I questioned myself, feeling anxious.

as I was drawing in my thoughts, the door cracked fully open and Tom stepped in, looking at me up to toe, "Were you spying?"He raised his eyebrows.

"You tried to...to...touch Ria?" I said frustrated but I kept my voice low.

"I thought you don't have a problem with that since After I tried to do her in front of you and you didn't even move an muscle." He simply said.

"That time was different...you.."

"What's the difference huh?" He cut me off angrily taking an step towards me which made my heart drop again.

"You tried to rape her to get me..."

"And I tried to rape her for the second time to get you back from ..."

"How can you simply just say it?" I yelled as I cut him off frustrated which made him tighten his fists, closing the distance between us by taking a harsh step.

"Don't you dare to raise your voice at me.."Ye yelled back and I sightly jumped by how aggressive his tone was. as if he was ready to beat me around again any moment.

I shook my head as I stepped back and He quickly took his gaze away from me. with a pounding heart, I made my way towards bathroom while I was holding back my tears.

"Fuck.."I heard him mumbled before I shut the door behind myself.

I stood there for a brief of moments, trying to not burst out into tears. then I heard his footsteps coming closer before he stopped behind the door. he stood there for a few seconds before slightly nocked door, "Join me in the yard after you eat," he said, his voice calmer but still harsh.

I stayed silent, and after a few moments he let out a sigh before he took steps out of the room.

•••

I was starting at the plate in front of me, I couldn't finish it all. everyone were at the table except Tom and Gustav and Lauren.

Ria was setting on Bill's lap as they were talking softly and giggling. Bill looked really gentle with her which was making my heart melt. Deep down I couldn't help but to wish that Tom would act like him a bit more, gentle, softer and less aggressive. But he would never change, would he?

what am I thinking? he's Tom kaulitz why would he even try to change.

"Full already?" Morgan said as she put a full spoon in her mouth.

"Yeah I don't think I'll be able to eat the rest." I said as I nodded and she swiftly pulled her hand towards my plate, "Huh more food for me!" She giggled, her eyes red, clearly high.

I smiled at her before I got up and made my way out of the kitchen, I was feeling a bit lonely in there anyway.

I was almost forgetting about what Tom had said earlier so without any second thoughts I made my way towards the big entrance of the house.

I gazed outside and spotted Tom standing at a distance, holding a gun. I hesitate at first but then I took a deep breath and began to walk slowly toward him.

While I moved ahead, he caught the sound of my footsteps and pivoted to face me, taking a glance over his shoulder before fully turning around. throwing his cigarette away as he took a few a steps in my direction. "You ready?" he said, raising his gun as he spoke.

I froze for a moment as I saw his gun, "Don't worry darling i'm not trying to kill you."He laughed as he pulled the gun towards me, "Tonight, we'll be going somewhere and I think I need you to be prepared."He said as he handed me the gun.

"Take it, I'm gonna show you how it works in case if you needed to use it."He chuckled and I felt goosebumps as my hand touched the cold metal of the gun.

"No i can't... I can't do this." I said anxious but he came closer, standing behind me while wrapping his arms around me, putting the gun in my hands, "Don't worry darling while i'm around, no one can hurt you, i'm just teaching you just in case." he said, reassuring me.

I grabbed the gun in my hand as he corrected the position, "That's how you hold it," he said, his hot breaths flowing on the curve of my neck, "With this mini colt you don't need to aim far, just hold it where you want to shoot," He said pulling my hand up.

I turned to him and aimed my gun at him, "you always protect me from everyone," I said gazing at his eyes, "But your the one I should be protected from." I finished and he looked at me surprised.

Then he slightly smiled, pulling my hand more into his chest."You won't do it, you won't pull the trigger." He said confidently. And he was right, I didn't have the balls to harm anyone, including him.

"But if you've ever wondered how it feels to pull the trigger..." He murmured, tugging my arm towards a tree. "Go ahead, pull it," he urged, and after a brief pause, I obeyed and the sound of gunshot's echoed in my ears.

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