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what have I done...

I came back to my senses, the reality hit me hard after the man collapsed onto the floor and I felt the world stopped spinning. it was just me and the gun in my hand.

I killed him, I killed a man, I killed someone....

I could hear my heavy breaths, and I could feel my shaking body stopped by the sudden panic, my eyes were wide open and remained fixated on the motionless figure before me, unable to look away.

Blood trickled from his lips onto the grimy floor, his eyes open and locked at ceiling, no signs of breathing, no signs of life.

The gun slipped from my fingers, falling into the floor in an slowed motion, everything seemed slowed, the world, my breaths, my heart beat. and I couldn't focus on anything else other that what had I done.

I am a killer, I have killed a man.

A droplet of sweat trailed down my face and fell to the floor and after, my tears began to drop. I finally let in a deep breath before I burst out screaming, even though my voice was weak, turning out like a whimpers but I still couldn't stop.

I felt two hands pull me up from my waist, hugging me tight in his embrace while I still couldn't stop my madness, "I k-killed..him, I..I am A killer.." I cried out as my body started to shake again beneath his arms. my cold body that I couldn't feel or move no longer. the venom was now all over me, slowly numbing every muscle I had, taking all the strength i had.

"You're not a killer lisa, please don't cry" He hushed, his voice repeating in my head as. his fingers were crossing the back of my head, placing my head against his chest.

Yet I couldn't stop, My tears were so heavy that I could even feel the wetness on my neck, rushing down to his clothes, his bloody clothes.

"I... I don't feel... good," I managed to whimper, my eyes only slightly open. The world around me spun in disarray, and each breath came with a struggle.

He moved swiftly, gently placing me onto a table."No..No.. don't fall sleep, keep your eyes open lisa no.."

He then rushed to the man that I had...killed and pull out the needle out of his hands, running back at me, "This is it..." he said urgently.

"Look at me lisa look at ME!! Don't close them,"

"No... N-No..." I mumbled, the words barely audible even to my own ears. The pain was overwhelming, physically and mentally.

"Shh, don't worry, everything will be okay," he reassured me as he positioned the needle over my arm, ready to put in under my skin.

"I..I d-deserve t-to...die"

"Damn it lisa, Stop it" Tom shouted, gritting his teeth as well as taking a deep breath in, as if he was still unsure that the needle he has on his hands would save me or not.

"I'm a-a killer..." I whispered and He pushed the needle onto my skin, slowly injecting the liquid, "You're not, just hold on a bit longer, for me" He pleaded.

"There, done..."Taking out the needle, he grabbed my numb hand and kissed it with his soft warm lips, "Your going to make it lisa...just stay a bit longer." He whispered, holding my hand tightly into his.

a few minutes had past and His unblinking gaze remained fixed on me, as if hoping my pale skin would miraculously return to normal, even though it wasn't that simple. But I couldn't feel anything; emptiness had taken over.

a droplet of blood fall from his face and spread across my chest, and it was then I noticed behind that bloody face and terrifying face, behind those dark eyes, i still could see a child in him, horrified of loosing someone again, horrified of experiencing the painful feeling of loss again. But at the same time i could feel something other than that inside him, kind of as if he was ready to die with me.

I tried to mumble something but my voice was just stuck in my throat, instead my Tears streamed down again and my eyes slowly welling up, which seemed to both frustrate and worry him even more.

I could feel the anger bursting from his skin as he grabbed a hold of me, tightly, closely to him. He shook me violently.

"Ugh come on.. COME ON" he shouted, releasing my numb form and slamming his fist onto the table in a frenzy of panic.

"Don't you fucking dare to close your eyes lisa," He demanded, But I wished I could open my mouth and answer him back, saying the nasty stuff we used to, fighting over and over again. piss him off to the point he has to knock me out, saying that you don't tell me what to do, you don't own me...but instead I felt my my vision getting blurry.

"Don't you dare lisa, don't... Leave me.." I heard his voice once again but this time as if breaking down and more cracking, more emotion in it. the emotions that he was trying to hide most of the time, but i could see, i could hear. he was just a little boy in disguise.

"Don't leave me, stay with me...please." My eyes were closed, but I knew he burst in tears, still shaking me, trying to keep me awake, to keep me beside him.

"don't leave me"

"don you dare to leave me here lisa, I need you"

"LISA!"

"Please! I...I..Lo"

I couldn't hear anymore.

•••

••Bill's P.O.V••

"The number you have called is out of service please tr.."

"Fucking stupid!" I yelled as I slammed my phone to the wall, groaning in annoyance.

it has been almost two hours since Tom was gone and there's just no signs of him. The guards are searching the city, every angle but it's like they have faded away. I knew going there was a bad idea, but it's Tom, no one can say shit, even his beloved brother.

"Ugh..." I was jolted back to reality by Ria's groans. She was vomiting continuously. Those bloody shits, I will kill them all if anything happens to Tom. they are already dead for what the did, to Ria, to Lisa.

"Bill..." Ria's whimper caught my attention, and I rushed to the bathroom. Her pale complexion only added to my frustration. "Feeling any better?" I murmured, kneeling beside her and offering a comforting embrace.

She gave a slight nod and rested her head on my shoulder, her effort to remain strong evident.

"Still...No signs?" She mumbled and I shook my head in reply.

"They will come...Bill, I'm sure they are okay." She said with a painful voice, She tenderly brushed my cheek, trying to comfort me, which indeed worked. She had a way of making me feel better, even when I wasn't.

I grabbed her hand and placed a kiss on it, a sly smile planted on her face as she closed her eyes,

"I really miss my little best friend," she added, and I remained seated, my gaze fixed on the floor.

""She'd always sit beside me, whip up my favorite food, and we'd chat all night," she caught, fixing her throat.

"But lately, it feels like it's been forever since we had a... good talk. I think I've messed up everything," she admitted.

"I dragged her into this, I don't regret meeting you Bill, I love you, but I regret ruining her life, she was full of dreams, " a tear slipped from her wet eyes.

"if...if something happens to her.."

I had nothing to say and neither did she, there was this silent, letting us drown in our thoughts, our concerns about these two stubborn idiots. It was as if they were really... made for each other.

A faint smile tugged at my lips at the thought of that, they brought the worst in each others but at the same time, the best; something that none other could bring out of them.

suddenly the sound of the entrance door bursting open I jumped out of my thoughts. "Fuck," I mattered before I swiftly raising up from my seat and reached for my gun that was on the bed, "Ria stay here!" I said urgently then without wasting a moment, I headed out of the room.

My gun aimed as I was zooming at downstairs, poised for any threat. but I gasped as I spot Tom running towards the stairs.

"Tom?!" I blurted out, shocked as I saw him covered with blood, Lisa in his arms...unconscious.

In a an instant, he bounded up the stairs, taking two at a time, heading for his room without a response. I hurriedly trailed behind, my voice raised in concern,"Tom! what's the matter?!" I called out, but he didn't pause for a moment. With force, he kicked his door open.

by the time I reached his room, Lisa was oh his bed and Tom was shaking her violently, "Lisa wake up, LISA!" His voice boomed the room.

I slowly took steps forward, "Fucking open your eyes!" He cried out as he knelt down, his hand still grabbing a hold of her.

I placed my hand on lisa's chest, hoping to feel a heartbeat in her body, "For Fuck sake get up!" He yelled, pressing his head against the bedsheets.

To my horror, there was none... No heartbeat."Tom...she's..."I mattered in disbelief.

He kept on whimpering, clearly didn't want to believe that she's....dead, "Tom...uhh she's not alive..." I whispered.

"Fuck off!" He yelled before he swiftly got up to his feet, pushing me in rage, pulling out his gun.

"Tom!?" I questioned, lifting my arms a bit. attempting to hold his hand.

"Don't fucking touch me! I'll kill all of y'all," He exclaimed, pointing his gun at the doorway then me.

I shot a quick glance the direction, only to find Ria and the rest standing there, clearly shocked at how Tom was threatening all of us to death and how Lisa was laying on his bed without any movement.

"Tom...This is Bill, god damn it your fucking brother!" I started into his eyes, his madness face that was covered with dry blood, is he insane?

He aimed his gun directly at my head, holding it still, "No!" I heard Ria screamed and in an instant his finger pulled the trigger.

my heart stopped for a moment and I felt my blood froze in my veins, I let in a deep breath before I quickly came back to my sense, the gun was empty.

He let out a frustrated groan, and in a fit of anger, he slammed his own gun against the wall. My heart sank as he reached for my gun that was on my pocket.

My gaze met his for a moment before He stormed out of the room by pushing everyone to the ground. I let out a sigh of relief but then a wave of shock swept over me again. realizing how he had actually wanted me... dead.

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