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Am really I alive? I wondered, feeling a bit woozy yet strangely calm. It was like all the hurt had vanished, no more muscle aches, no pressure in my chest, Just the rhythm of my heartbeat echoing inside me, I could clearly feel it.

"L-Lisa?!" A voice reached me, and I sensed someone shaking me gently.

"Lisa!" The voice pierced my ears, and my eyes fluttered open.

I blinked a few times to clear my vision, trying to make out what was in front of me. A faint light spilled from the room, it turned out to be Tom's room, which was a bit surprising. I couldn't recall falling asleep in his bed. As the haze lifted, I found Bill's face hovering just inches from mine. I couldn't help but gasp at the sudden closeness. His wide eyes bore into mine, a look of shock on his face.

"B-Bill?!" I mattered, still trying to figure out what was happening, what had happened.

Bill released my shoulders, his hands slipping away. "This can't be..."He admitted and I moved up a bit, trying to sat on the bed.

I glared at him in confusion, and after a moment, it suddenly clicked, I was supposed to be...dead! I was in that building, laying on a table while Tom was yelling, slamming everything around him.

Bill gasped as I moved a bit, as if he was seeing a ghost "Your heart beat...there was none!" Bill exclaimed, his voice filled with disbelief.

but I never felt that my heart beat was gone, i knew it was there, I could feel my heart pounding in my chest, that's what kept me alive, I can't be alive here if I didn't have a heart beat...

"But it got back to normal, slowly.."He paused, leaning over, "How's that...fucking possible, Fuck sake" he scratched his neck.

"I- I don't know..."I mattered, still trying to gain my strength.

"But I never felt that..I was gone. I could hear my heart beat I could feel it in my veins," I added.

"But It felt like it was gone...and it slowly went back to normal, pounding...like fuck...did I take too much drug?!" He chuckled at himself awkwardly.

"Well maybe... maybe it was just so slow that you thought there wasn't any...because I could feel my heart beating, I'm sure that It was there." I said as I kind of panicked, the idea of me coming back to life was just too much to bare. but I knew that I was never gone, It felt that I was unconscious, I wasn't sleep and I wasn't awake... It was just too difficult to describe.

He locked his eyes at mine as he shrugged, still in disbelief, "Good that you're...alive," and in an instant, he wrapped his arms around me, giving me little hug.

I gave him a warm smile and he pulled away, "Oh fuck Ria should know," "Ria!!" He exclaimed as he swiftly got up and dashed to the bathroom. Moments later, I saw him stepping into the room with helping Ria by putting an arm of her on his shoulder.

"L-Lisa!" She choked out, tears all over her face as she tried to speed up her steps to reach Tom's bed, where I was seated.

She flung herself onto me, as she continued sobbing. I hugged her back tightly, running my fingers through her curly hair, "I-I thought I...I lost you forever!" She cried out, tightening her grip on me, not whiling to let me breath.

I gently patted her head, a warm smile gracing my lips. After a few minutes, she gradually loosened her hold. Taking the opportunity, I held her face in my hands. "I'm here Ria, please stop crying,"

"I still don't believe it," She said as she pinched herself, "Am I dreaming?!" she asked, clearly not believing her eyes.

"Maybe.." I shrugged as I chuckled.

"We're really glad that you're okay.." Bill said, his arms folded around his chest, his gaze locked onto the floor. I could hear the pain seeping through his voice.

The way Bill spoke those words caused my stomach to churn and I quickly got up from bed, "Where's Tom?" The words came out of my mouth automatically.

His eyes were down and his face was sad and traumatized "Tom...Tom left" Bill said, struggling with his speaking "He grabbed my gun and his car keys and left" Bill said, still staring at the ground.

"He thought you were dead, I mean we all thought you were but he just snapped. but it wasn't Tom that left this house, it was a wild creature that would've kill anyone on his way." he paused to let in a deep breath.

"Your death changed him, I've never seen him like this before, he threatened to kill all of us, even me, he pointed his gun right at my head and pulled the trigger, he would have killed me, but his gun was empty, but I guess we can call it a lucky day." He struggled to say those words, as if he was really broken by the thought of Tom trying to kill him.

I gasped, "Oh my...." My voice caught in my throat.

"He's gone mad!" suddenly Morgan said as she walked into the room, a cigarette in her hand.

"whore, don't talk about him like that or i'll fucking kill you! get out.." Bill snapped at her and she quickly stepped back.

She gave me smile, "Love you Lisa! see you.." I read her lips before she quickly vanished away.

I turned back my gaze at bill and stepped towards him, "Bill...Where did he go?!"

"I-I don't know.." He hesitated.

"Bill...I need to know"

"I don't know, he was going on about it not being fair and that if you have to die than so does everyone else. He lost it, he could be anywhere"

I groaned "There must be somewhere he would go, you're his twin?!"

He shook his head and I added, "Give me your keys," I said in a demanding tone.

"Why?" He said confused and a bit taken back.

"I have to go after him Bill, I have to find him" I said, a bit annoyed at having to answer questions, I had to go find him, I have to see if he was okay.

He let out a sight before reaching for his pocket, "Be careful Lisa, he's gone into madness again...anything could happen!" He said, pulling out his car keys and placing them into my palm

"Thank you" I said before taking steps towards the door, attempting to leave but bill grabbed me by my arm, "There must be...somewhere..."

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I stepped out of Bill's car, the door shutting with a solid thud. It had been quite a while since I set foot here, The familiar dark alley where I once lived.

I remember I used to wish everyday and night to come back here, to stay away from Tom, but now I came here to find him, I guess distany really enjoy playing games with me.

But the question was... why would want to come here?

I shrugged and then looked down the alley. At the far end, I spotted my small house, it was dark and yet it still looked cozy. I started walking towards it steps while the rain was pouring down my face, the sound of the thunder was echoing through the dark sky, what a cold night.

As i got closer, I stared in shock at what I had been looking for; Tom's dark car.

I anxiously fastened my steps, reaching to his car, I flew the door open "Tom" I said looking in the front and backseat, he wasn't there.

I slammed his door closed and cursed under my breath, Now there was only one place he could be, my house...

The rain had soaked my whole body, my dress clinging to my body, making it more difficult to walk. but eventually reached the entrance of my house's yard and my guess was right, the door was open.

I let in a deep breath before I took a step in, and there he was, standing in the yard. everything was dark but I could still recognize him by his figure.

But then it suddenly clicked, I could now see him more clearly as I got a bit closer, he was holding a gun beside his...head!

"Tom?!" I mattered and before I knew, I started running.

I wasn't even afraid of slipping at this moment; I was too worried about Tom, too afraid of what he was going to do with that gun "Tom!" I screamed, getting closer.

I could see him clearly, he was standing, his back facing me and his gun stand tall by his temple. I felt so far away, I felt like it was going to take me forever to finally get to him, to finally hold him tightly in my arms, so it really shocked me when I crashed into the back of him tightly clasping onto his chest with my frozen fingers.

"TOM! what are you doing! put that down!" I exclaimed, my voice shaking.

He gasped, "L-Lisa?" Tom's voice was harsh, he sounded worn out, like he had been through a lot.

"Yes Tom, I'm alive, it's me, Lisa!" I mattered. snuggling my face against his back, into his shirt as I felt my eyes were surrounded by tears.

Tom's gun slipped from his fingers and fell to the floor with a loud clanking sound. He began to twist his body, trying to turn himself around to see me properly.

I let my arms drop and took a step back, to stare him in the eyes. our eyes fluttered from the rain falling onto our eyelids "You...were d-dead" Tom struggled to say, tears falling from his eyes and mixed with the falling rains on his face.

"I was never dead...my heartbeat had slowed down so much that no one could feel it" I explained and Tom just stood there. gazing at me, His red eyes from all the tears.

seeing him like that just made my heart shattered into pieces, i've never seen him this... hurt before and I couldn't help myself but to run for him again, to throw myself against him and clasp my arms around him.

He let his hands stay dead beside him "Why does this hurt so much?" Tom cried before falling to his knees and taking me down with him.

He snaked his arms around me and held me softly "I..I don't know" I cried as I snuggled my head into the curve of his neck, kissing his soft wet skin.

Tom didn't speak, he just held me, as if he was grasping the fact that I was still here, he hadn't lost me yet. He was cold, but we were slowly warming up from each other. The rain continued to fall, the cold icy rain "I thought you had left me forever" Tom mattered.

"I will never leave you" I said but I hesitate at first, not knowing if I actually meant my words or not. but I still hold onto him tightly as my knees were digging into the ground.

Tom shook his head as his tears were falling on my back, "Promise?" Tom mattered with a shaky tone and I nodded in response, "I promise" I said, reassuring him but his cries didn't stop.

"Tom..It's okay" I hushed "It's okay" I said, tears still running down my face, just a bit slower now.

I kissed Tom's neck again and his fingers grasped onto my back, tightly running downwards. I continued to stroke the back of his head, kissing him gently on his wet, slippery skin.

Tom began to pull back a little, I wasn't sure of what he was trying to do at first, but then realized he was trying to look me in the eyes. I pulled back a little as well, our arms still wrapped around each other.

His eyes were black in the shadow of the street light, causing him to have this sad look and really beautiful look on his face. He continued to stare at me for a bit, I was too hypnotized to say or do anything.

Tom then slowly leant in towards me and pressed his lips gently against mine. I closed my eyes, feeling the sadness in his kiss.

His arms around me pulled me in closer so I was pressed against him and he left his lips on mine, dancing slowly with his warm tongue.

His lip ring stung against my lip for the silver was freezing cold but I didn't care, his lips were too warm for me to take much notice.

Tom pulled away to look at me in the eyes again, but only for a second or two this time, for his lips went for mine again instantly, with more passion.

Tom ran his hands down my back and shuffled a little closer to me, enjoying the intense, moan inducing kiss. Tom panted a little once his lips parted from mine, but he attached himself to me right away that we both were having a little trouble breathing.

Tom held me tightly, as though he wouldn't release me for anything in the world.

After minutes, he pulled away and ran his hand down the back of my head before giving me a kiss on my forehead,"I'm sorry" He mattered.

I grabbed his hands and started at his eyes, there were no more tears, as if he had finally accepted the fact that i'm actually here.

A warm smile painted on my lips before pressing my forehead against his, "Kiss me!" I demanded.

sorry guys for the late chapter, I was sick (still sick) but hope you guys enjoy it, oh and get ready for the next chapter hehehehehehe.

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