' what a lovely golden caged prison '





carmens pov.



everything hurt, and yet it was quiet for once, my head it shut up the second their hands were on me. i was some sick addict for sure.

but this feeling was so fucking addicting.

and it didnt help when they keept wispering sweet praises, oh my heart. and now-

bathing with santos.

everything was perfect, in his arms the warm water making the ache between my legs go away for a second as santos hand rested on my lower stomach rubbing small circles on it.

'' are you gonna leave me daddy?'' i asked feeling vunarbale and as if i was back to being a ten year old needing reasurance ever damn minute he chuckled lightly as i rested my head against his chest feeling his hard muscles against my body.

'' we would never mia vita, you're ours arent you my sweet doll?'' he cooed and i smilled content.

'' ofcourse '' i muttered tiredly. i was exhausted i just wanted to sleep, to never leave this warm embrace. i wanted this peace and quiet forever.

was that too much to ask?

hell if everything so far that had hurt me had been so i was derserving of this serenity i wouldve thanked god for making me such a tormented creature, if it took me to get down on both kness and proclaim my undying obessive love for these two gods i would if it meant this wouldnt leave me.

it was cruel to give me something they new i would never find in any other man.

they ruined me.

for anyone else btu them. and i let them with open arms, smiles and kisses. i let them because this ruin didnt feel hautning or painful like the others. this one felt like salvation on the tip of tounge.

santos arms around me felt like a cage i liked being in, i felt like a bird who had her wings cut of before these two gods found her.

i felt like the cage they keept me in wasnt meant to harm, like it didnt bother me. that it was meant to protect me, and i was so hopelessly obessed i thought even if i never leave i'll always be their one true unconditional devotee.

even if this was a cage, and i its captive.

i didnt mind that thought at all.

it meant i was special enough to not only be keept but to be kept hidden and safe. after all you only hid the most precious treasures, and the mere idea of being that to the man holding me and his brother made me feel warm inside.

it was so fucked up.

but then again that was me.

fucked up in the head. nicolas entered a soft smile on his lips. oh gosh i wanted him closer, inside of me, ruining me for any other man to come.

he knelled down next to the bathtub as santos kissed my hair again his hands pulling me closer to his chest so my heavy head fell onto his chest.

'' you did so good cara mia'' nic cooed as if i was a child. i didnt mind the treatment, it calmed me , his soft tone and calming smile.

he reached out caressign my cheek.

i smiled weakly, i was tired now. exhausted but i didnt want to sleep. i just wanted to stay here.'' come on mia vita i dont want you catching a cold'' santos said ever so softly as if i would break if he as much as raised his voice a little.

like i was a fragile doll.

his doll.

it calmed me to be that.

to be his.

'' no please i want to stay '' i pleaded tears springing to my eyes, it hurt, my legs were hurting i didnt want to walk back to the bed. and what if i woke up alone or if they didnt stay after sex.

what if they left?

sensing my panic santos began to rub circles on my stomach while nicolas brushed some hair out of my face.'' shh my sweet sweet girl, dont cry your to perfect to cry, now lets get up and get you dried so you can get some sleep-'' i shock my head.

'' what if i carry you and then we can cuddle with you ? how about that?'' santos offered bringing his hands higher up to my ribcage.

i felt to tired to reply fully so i just slumped agaisnt him. he was safe. he felt safe. i hummed tiredly closing my eyes momentarily and the next thing i knew i was in bed soft covers over me as i was laying half on nicolas chest while santos had his arms wrapped aorund my waist from behind kissing my cheek goodnight.

i felt safe.

content.

wanted.

i was hooked on this unfamiliar feeling. and no nightmares found me that night, even though they were comming back now. but that night i was safe in the marinos arms.

i didnt mind being locked up in a cage if this was my cage. if this was my golden prison i didnt mind it, i would be locked up here till the day i died.

what a wonderful thought.







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warm hands ran through my hair gently as gentle kisses were trailed down my arm and stomach from my fingers to my collarbone, to my waist.

i hummed in content as i heard someone chuckle.

'' morning princess'' nicolas deep rough morning voice greeted, i smiled my eyes still closed as i nuzzled into the touch of who i assumed to be santos as he placed yet another kiss on my neck.

not a dirty wet kiss, nor one of hugner and posesivness, but a gentle sweet one.

'' sleep well?'' he asked as i noted that his acent were prominent now in the mornings, he sounded italian more than ever right now. it was hot.

'' mhm, you?'' i asked tiredly opening my eyes to find the sight of two gods starring softly at me.

my gods.

'' how could we not with an angel laying next to us?'' santos grinned from ear to ear as i sat up yelping as nicolas pulled me into his lap rather suddenly might i ad.

he didnt ask before his lips were on mine devouring them bitting down on my lower lip asking for entrance. i tried to gently push him away. '' what?'' he said confused and irritated.

'' i havnt brushed my teeth-'' he cut me off with his lips on mine.

didnt seem like he cared.

santos hands reached up cupping my bare chest.

fuck.

i was naked.

my eyes widned. as i jumped of nicolas lap grabbing the covers pulling them around my body. ''isnt like we havnt seen it princess'' nicolas rudely pointed out.

my cheeks turned bright red.

good god.

'' i like seeing you all naked in my arms, specially now when you cant run anywhere'' santos said with a smirk as i furrowed my brows to as what he meant.

'' i can-'' i stopped when i tried to stand only to fall back onto the bed.

i whinned in pain as both brothers were quick to pull me to them.'' dont try that cara mia, give it a few hours, it was your first time and im not exactly small, you'll be sore for a while'' nicolas explained as i covered my face in santos chest.

this was emberasing.

i heard him chuckle. '' come on baby what do you want for breakfeast, i'll order someone to make it for us'' he offered kindly.

and i just cuddled into the warmth of his bare chest as he pulled me onto his lap the blankets still around me as i curled up in his lap.

'' fruit bowl'' i whispered in his ear before drifitnf back to sleep at the feeling of hands running through my hair.

i would just close my eyes for a minute.

just a blink of an eye.

a long blink.