Arshia POV

This was not what I had imagined my married life to be, definitely not this. That day,if I view today at this very point of time,it seemed like a dream. I can't imagine it was Angraj the day before we got wedded.

I thought we would get more comfortable but we got more distant. Not distant but not even close. The first few days,it was awkward the next it was shyness and then it all suddenly turned into ignorance?Was it ignorance?I don't know.

It felt as we were two strangers living in the same castle. The only time we could talk was in the night time but he comes in all tired from the political work and I am not that desperate to trouble him when he is that tired.

During the day when he is free,I am practicing my weaponary. I wouldn't want to lose that skill. So, that's the summary of the past few months of my married life. Each second, minute,hour and day passing adds on to the guilt and hurt of marrying the man who was supposed to marry his true love.

Yes,he could marry her even now. My opinion doesn't matter,it doesn't matter if I cry and beg him to not marry any other woman,it doesn't matter what my will is. I am a queen and I should be happy that I got this privilege. I would have talked to him about this but I couldn't.

He had married other women after truly loving Vrushali. It's not like Vrushali would have liked when he brought other women home and introduced them as wives to the whole world. If he didn't spare the one who had his whole heart,how would he spare me?when I am just his wife who he had won with bravery and skill...

These thoughts slowly killed me from within, making me weak emotionally and mentally. I knew in matter of days, Draupadi would be born and Mahabharat would start...

"Arshia"

I turned around to see him.

"Yes, Angraj?"

I still call him that just because I am against calling him 'Arya'. I expressed my desire on our wedding night and he happily agreed, telling me that I could call him Angraj until when I would be comfortable enough to call him by his name.

"What are you doing here?I thought you were supposed be practicing weaponary?"

He asked.

"I thought you were supposed to be court?"

I questioned back.

He was in his royal attire with his crown on. But his eyes didn't look tired and worn out,so he must have not been to court yet.

"It's a holiday today,Arshia"

He frowned.

He had informed me yesterday night that today was a holiday and after I practice weaponary,we could spend time together. It must have slipped off my mind. Yesterday I came back to the chamber really tired because I had to practice the gadaa,my least favourite weapon. It took me days to only pick it up and mastering it had a long way to go.

I mastered the sword first and it became my favourite. I like how it sounded when I swing it and cut plain air. It's satisfying. I would always practice that but I have to work on my wicknesses rather my strength.

"Yes,I remember" I snapped out of my trance.

Karna nodded.

"Are you free?Can we go to the banks of the rivers,today?"

He always wished for us to go to the banks of the rivers,he even requested it on our wedding night that someday he would like to take to where he spends most of his time,if he is off royal duty.

"I...sure"

I was going back to our chamber to change my outfit and practice archery today but the hopeful expression on his face... convinced me. I guess I have to practice overnight today.

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This was a really soothing spot to be at. Merely entering this place gives one peace. We simply sat on the huge rocks, staring at the fast moving currents of the river.

I sniffed the fresh smell in, feeling the comfort spread over my entire body. I felt an intense gaze on me as I quickly turned to Angraj, hoping it was him. (It would be so weird if someone else had that kind of gaze on me..)

I caught him looking at me but he didn't budge. He kept on staring with a hint of appreciation in his eyes. I blushed under his gaze and looked back to me hands. I heard a chuckle,it might be weird but to me that chuckle seemed so heavenly.

Turning my gaze back on Angraj,he softly smiled at me which I gladly returned. He stood up and walked behind me...when I was about to turn I felt him sitting behind me and wrapping his arms around me,letting my body crash against his chest.

But this time,I couldn't feel anything. I didn't feel what I felt the first time. Ofcourse the guilt was there but the shyness wasn't.

He placed his chin on my shoulder and stared at the river.

"Arshia.... what's bothering you?Over the months it felt as if we are growing more distant than growing closer. What's the matter?"

I execpted it.

I execpted that question. It was true,I had something that bothered me. I know what is going to happen in the future,it scares me so much that I let it hamper my present.

"From where I come from,kings don't get married to several princesses or queens. They have one wife and with her he has several children. But it's different here...kings get married to many women and I get why.... it's important to create a healthy and safe relationship with other kingdoms but I can't come to the thought that you will remarry and introduce another woman as your wife..I shouldn't have let these thoughts interfere in our relationship....I-I am sorry"

I had a lot more to share...I wanted to cry,to scream and to give up. I wanted to but that's not my purpose here.

When I first entered this era,I thought I would be a mere spectator to this war but possibly being a part of this isn't what I signed up for. But I had to go on with it,why? Because I have no choice.

"Then,I won't remarry."

That sentence struck me hard. I turned around and that's as probably a mistake. I felt my lips brush against his when I turned around.

He laughed.

He.Literally.Laughed.

"Not all kings get married more than once Arshia... it's our choice if we want to."

"But what if the circumstances demand you to?"

"I will go against the circumstances then. Nothing can make me do something that would make you sad,love. That's impossible"

The nickname would have made me blush but the situation didn't let me.

"There will be situations...whe-where you have to—"

"Then I now, in front of you,take an oath that I won't remarry ever again and if I do,I shall walk into the sacred fire giving up on—"

My hand covered his mouth.

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Arshia's hand covered his mouth before he could continue. She felt him smiling against her palm as she glared at the man.

"Don't say such things"

Karna nodded and pulled her cheek.

"Okay love,I won't.."

Before they could continue,a voice interupted

"Maharaj ki Jai ho"

Arshia tried to stand seeing a soilder behind them but Karna held her back.

"Yes?"

The soldier's lips almost formed a smile. To hide it,he bowed his head and said

"Yuvraj Duryodhana has arrived in Anga and is requesting you" Karna nodded, dismissing the soilder.

He stood up, sliding his arm around Arshia waist and one want rested on her back. Out of surprise,she wrapped her arms around his neck.

"Come on,Angraj!What are you doing?" Arshia asked finally getting flustered by his boldness.

"I don't want your feet to get hurt!"

"Hey!I am a warrior!"

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"Mit—oh"

Arshia wanted to dig a hole and bury herself. Karna is really going to be the end of her.

He softly placed Arshia back on her feets and smiled at Duryodhana.

"I interupted your quality time, didn't I?"

"No,mitr. You could never"

"Pranipat,Raj—Yuvraj Duryodhana. I will leave you two be. "

She said hurriedly and walked away

"Bye, bhabhi!"

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