~Madelyn~

I woke up this morning with my face in Enzo's chest breathing in his scent. I allowed myself to just stare at him for a while. I know it's creepy but I just needed to admire him. He looks handsome even when he's asleep.

I continue my creepy staring taking in every single speck or line on his face. A smile takes over his face but his eyes remain closed.

"Watching me sleep darling? A bit stalkerish but I'm not complaining." He says and I immediately stop my staring.

"I wasn't staring I was... Fine I was staring" I say feeling my cheeks heat up.

He lets out a deep laugh and I smack his chest lightly. I don't know why I did that.

He immediately rolls us over so that he's on top of me and holds both my wrists in one hand.

"Did you just smack me?" He asks playfully.

"What... No of course not" I say smirking and he doesn't say anything instead he just lowers his head until his nose brushes mine and takes his time kissing every part of my face. I laugh and his breathing speeds up for a second. So faintly that I almost miss it.

When he stops and looks at me I lift my head to capture his lips. He immediately kisses me back and I can't help but notice it's different this time. It's soft and gentle with heavy unsettled words between it. He pulls away letting go of my wrists.

"I'm going to go shower" he says standing up. "Are you joining me amore?"

I sit up nodding and he gives me a small smile before walking into the bathroom. Once he is in the bathroom I flop back on to my bed. I love Enzo and the best part is that I think Enzo loves me too. I feel the way he reacts to me and you don't do that if you're not in love . Right?

It doesn't matter because I've made up my mind. I need to tell Enzo that I love him because I do. I really really do. I've never felt this way about anyone. So no matter what happens I will tell him how I feel today. With that in mind I get up with a smile and head towards the bathroom.

It's around 1pm and I am still working up the courage to tell Enzo how I feel. How do you just tell someone you love them? I've never been this nervous about anything. I'm literally pacing around the lounge staring at Enzo's office door. He's in there right now. Come on Madelyn stop being a wimp. Just march in there and tell him how you feel. Ok I can do this. I can do this. I can't do this.

I'm literally having a fucking panic attack when someone grabs my shoulders. I immediately jump snapping out of my thoughts.

"Woahh you're jumpy today what's up sweetheart?" Kai asks with a lazy smile on his face.

"What's wrong? You just gave me a heart attack." I say my voice unusually high pitched.

"Please you looked like you were having a heart attack way before I touched you." He says rolling his eyes. "Now tell me why you look like you just drank a jug of coffee."

"I- uh - I'minlovewithenzo" I mumble quickly and Kai looks at me confused.

"Huh?" Kai asks and I sigh.

"I'm in love with Enzo." I say and Kai's jaw drops. We both stand there in silence and I stare at Enzo's door thinking. I bite my nail still figuring out how to say it.

"Forget I ever asked" Kai says running away and I roll my eyes.

I finally gather up my courage and walk towards the door knocking on it gently.

"What." Enzo says irritably and I slowly open the door.

When he sees me his eyes and entire body immediately relax and he lets out a sigh. I walk towards his side of the desk and he drops his head his hands rubbing his temple tiredly. He looks frustrated.

"I can come back later." I say softly and turn to leave but he grabs my hand before I can walk away.

He pulls me towards him at the same time he stands up and my chest collides with his. He grips my hip tightly pulling me flush against his body.

I breathe unevenly and he leans down until his slight stubble touches my cheek.

"Stay with me darling" he whispers into my ear before placing a kiss to the spot right below my ear. I let out a heavy breath and he pulls his face away but I grab his neck pulling him down to kiss me.

He kisses me hard and I let out a soft moan as his tongue explores my mouth. I kiss him back equally as hard and before I know what is happening he lifts me off the ground. My legs wrap around his waist and he keeps one hand on my ass to hold me up while he shoves everything off his desk with the other. He places me onto the desk and begins sucking and biting my neck in a way that draws a moan from me.

"Enzo" I gasp out as he continues torturing my neck. " I need to tell you something"

"Shh just let me feel your perfect body darling." He says bringing his hand up to my throat and pushing me down so that I'm lying flat on my back on his desk.

He takes off my dress kissing my chest and unhooks my bra. My full tits burst out of the bra and he looks with pure desire and continues kissing down my stomach. I arch my back when he squeezes my tit while keeping his mouth on my stomach. I can't stop the moan that falls from my lips as he squeezes my tit again.

He mouth reaches my underwear and he place a kiss over my covered pussy. He looks up at me ,his eyes asking for permission, and I nod. Then he bites down on the waistband on my underwear pulling it off effortlessly with his teeth. He straightens himself letting his eyes roam over my body. Then he lets out a long breath.

"Fucking prefect." He whispers and I blush harder than I ever have.

He takes off his shirt and unbuttons his pants as I just watch. I can't take my eyes off his body.

"You're beautiful." I say and he raises an eyebrow at me. " Completely and insanely beautiful."

And then I think I'm hallucinating as I see a slight blush creep up Enzo's cheeks. I stare at his face not daring to blink. Yep he's definitely blushing and it's the cutest thing ever.

He quickly clears his throat and the blush disappears. He pulls himself out of his boxers and I bite my lip staring at his length. He rolls on a condom before sliding himself up and down my folds. I let out a moan and he sinks into me. I try to remember how to breathe and he starts moving. I let out a loud moan before my hands shoot up to cover my mouth.

"Don't worry darling my office is soundproof. Let me hear you." He says and I immediately move my hand allowing another moan to fall through my lips.

He pulls out until only his tip is inside me before slamming back in and I scream. My nails are digging into his forearms on either side of me.

He continues thrusting mercilessly into me so hard that his desk literally moves. My moans have turned into screams and he brings his hand up to my neck giving my throat a slight squeeze.

His hand remains wrapped around my throat making sure not to squeeze it too hard. Tears are running down my face from the pleasure coursing through me. I come hard my legs shaking uncontrollably and my hand gripping the hand around my throat. He continues thrusting into me and I can't stop my body from shaking. I clench around him and he mutters a string of curses before coming. He's let's out a deep moan and I clench again because it is the sexiest sound I have ever heard.

He pulls out of me slowly and I whimper. He discards of the condom before picking up my dress from the floor. I sit up and he puts the dress on me gently. He's so gentle that I almost can't believe that this is the same man who just fucked me so mercilessly. His desk has moved almost halfway across the room from the strength of his thrusts and I'm shocked. He pushes my hair out of my face and I look at him. He cups my cheeks placing a kiss on my forehead.

I look into his eyes and they're swirling with different emotions. I stare at him seeing the emotion I have been feeling recently in his eyes. Love.

He kisses me softly and I kiss him with all my strength. We pull back after a minute or two breathing heavily. He rests his forehead against mine and the words slip out without a thought.

"I love you" I whisper and suddenly his whole frame freezes. He stops breathing and takes a step back looking at me.

"No you don't" he says so quietly that I barely hear him.

"Yes I do. I love you Enzo." I say again my voice a bit louder this time but still gentle. " I love you"

He takes another step back shaking his head. "Darling I don't-"

My heart shatters into a million pieces as realisation hits me. I try to swallow the lump in my throat but fail.

"Oh" is all I manage to say as my hands shake.

I stand up as tears sting my eyes. Don't cry don't cry don't cry. He looks at me and I see hurt in his eyes.

"Madelyn you don't understand" he says softly.

"I understand." I say my voice cracking. "You don't love me?"

The tears I tried to keep in begin to fall from my eyes one by one and I can't do this anymore. I look at him again waiting for him to say that I'm wrong and that he does love me but he doesn't. Instead he just drops his head staring at the floor.

I begin to back away stumbling as I reach for the door knob. I open his office door running out before slamming it behind me. When I do I hear a crash from inside his office followed by another. I run up to my room and lock the door before my knees give out. I land on the floor allowing myself to fall apart.

He doesn't love me . The first man I've ever loved just rejected me. ______________________________________________________

Heyy guyss Soo... How's everyone doing... If y'all think that was bad it's about to get a whole lot worse. 😬

Also I'm so mad rn I've been reading shatter me and I read two of the books in the series last night. GUYS I'M SO MAD. I read two books last night for the characters I wanted to get together and then when they finally do BAM no smut!

AND I'M NOT SOME KIND OF SMUT FREAK BUT HELLOO I LITERALLY WAITED FOR SO LONG LIKE YOU CAN'T GIVE ME A SLOW BURN AND THEN WHEN THEY FINALLY GET TOGETHER JUST TAKE AWAY ALL THE SPICY SCENES.

I FEEL ROBBEDDD😭

BUT ANYWAYSS NEXT CHAPTER IS GONNA BE CRAZYY SO BE PREPAREDD LOVE Y'ALL MWAH 💋