Spade left Nate's house and drove straight home as he still needed to shower and change his clothes, he was feeling happy, excited and satisfied. He'd never felt like this before, not even when he took over from his father.

It all felt so surreal, he didn't go to Nate's house with the intention or expectation of getting together with Nate, it caught him by surprise when Nate actually asked him inside the house.

He had wanted to just tell Nate that it didn't matter if the young man wanted to be with him or not, he didn't like that his feelings was getting in the way of Nate's work for him, so he decided to just let him go free, but it didn't end that way

It went even better than he expected, and his heart felt lightweight, more than he'd ever feel in a while. His face didn't show anything of what he was feeling at the moment, but his heart was bubbling with excitement, his whole body cells were in jubilation.

But now he had one problem, he didn't know what to do now, he'd never been in a relationship before, he didn't want to be uptight or rigid, he didn't want to be controlling, but emotions and feelings weren't his forte, he never even thought he'd ever catch feelings for anyone, let alone someone like Nate

The young man was very fragile, the small time he had spent with him had shown him just enough to know that Nate wasn't like anyone he'd ever been with, sexually or physically. The way he carried himself, the way he spoke and acted around Spade, it showed that he wasn't like most people Spade moved around and associated with.

Spade's kind of life was tough, hard, dangerous and risky, he knew now that Nate wasn't used to things like that, even though he was Greg's son, he wasn't the kind of person Spade expected him to be, not that he didn't like the kind of person he realized Nate was.

Speaking of that, he forgot to mention something to Nate, it had been skipping his mind lately, he had wanted to tell him since the night of their first kiss, but he forgot, then he wanted to tell him at the hotel again, he forgot and now after spending the night at the young man's apartment, he left again without mentioning it to him.

The news of his sister. It had been almost two weeks since Matteo had found her, she'd been moving around, not staying at one spot for long, but Matteo was able to track her down, of course she didn't know she was being followed or watched, hence she'd have ran off again and probably for good this time.

She was one of the reasons he met Nate, one of the reasons he got closer to Nate. If at all he didn't agree to marrying her, he never would have met or have anything to do with Nate.

In a way, he was kind of grateful to her for that. He left the house after his shower and a change of clothes. He headed for the club directly, not bothering to stop at his office building, there wasn't much to do there, and if there was then his PA would definitely handle it.

He couldn't help his mind as it drifted to the night he had with Nate, he hadn't slept that peacefully in a long while, especially since he started having problems with mystery man. He could still feel the way his body and Nate's had moulded and fit together perfectly well, making his whole inside to turn jelly and fuzzy.

He didn't think Nate would agree to him sleeping over, but he didn't really leave much of a choice for the younger man, he didn't know why, but he just wanted to spend time with Nate, to get to know the young man more, and plus, he really wanted to run his hands through Nate's scalp, his beautiful hair.

If not for the strong self control Spade had over himself, he would have taken Nate more times than he could count last night, especially when he spooned him, and Nate unconsciously rubbed his butt on Spade's crotch area, he was uncomfortable and at the same time comfortable.

He kept groaning and trying his best to control his little guy, Nate didn't make it any easy for him, he probably didn't even realize what he was doing. After a while he finally fell asleep to the sweet rhythm of Nate's soft breathing and the feel of his perfect skin on Spade's own skin.

And this morning, he woke up first, of course Nate had woken him up, when his hand had mistakenly grazed his early morning erection, that was even worse than Nate rubbing his butt on his cock. He almost wanted to pin the young man down and ravish his body, worship him and watch him writh in pleasure, but he had to control the horny beast inside of him.

He needed to take things slow, all of this was as new to him as it was to Nate. He'd never been with another man before, he grew up thinking his attraction was only directed towards women, he never bothered looking at men, maybe because he always thought it was unnatural for a man to be attracted to another man.

Not that he had a problem with it, but he'd seen some people in the mafia look with disgust at men who liked other men, it never really bothered him as he didn't think it was his business who other people liked or wanted.

That was why it took him a long time to come to terms with the fact that he liked Nate and was attracted to him, but that didn't mean he didn't find women attractive still, he still looked at some women and realized they were beautiful and attractive, but he wanted Nate.

It was all so confusing to him, he found women attractive and now he realized he found men attractive, well for now he only found Nate attractive and handsome. He wasn't a clutz, he'd heard about people who found both men and women attractive, they were called bisexual.

He didn't really think it mattered what they were called or if they were called anything, what mattered was the fact that they were happy with whoever they were with, just like Nate made him happy.

It didn't matter if he was considered gay, bisexual or straight, as long as Nate made him happy, that was all that mattered to him. And Nate made him happy than he'd ever been in a long while.

He liked how fragile and soft Nate was, the way he stared at him today, letting his eyes scan and move through Spade's body, it kind of made him feel happy with himself for always going to the gym, it finally paid off, and the way Nate had bit his lip, another thing that almost had Spade busting up with the sweet surge of sexual tension he was feeling.

Everything Nate did got a rise out of him but not in a bad way, in a very sweet and pleasurable way, even the way he had grazed his fingers against Spade's nipple, he never knew that part of him was sensitive, not until this morning when Nate touched him there, he couldn't even contain the burst of pleasure that coursed through him, and hearing Nate moan just from him grazing his erection, that sound was enough to push Spade off the edge and take Nate on his bed, but he'd promised himself that he would take his time with Nate.

This wasn't just a sexual relationship, not like with Scarlett, this was more than that, he wanted to know Nate, listen to him talk, tell him things, establish a trust and communication relationship with Nate.

He wanted to try it, if not for anything, for Nate. He wasn't really letting his mind think of the fact that he sounded too cheesy, it didn't change who he was, he was still Spade, the devil like many call him. With Nate he would be Gio, infact he would be anything Nate wanted him to be, that was how strong what he felt for Nate was. The young man probably had power over him that Matteo didn't even have.

He sighed out as he walked into his office at the club, there was basically no one out front, even the counter was empty, but he saw Matteo's car upfront, meaning the blonde was already at the club.

He turned his chair and sat on it, slowly looking at his table, a few papers were there, some needed his signature, like the auction coming up in a week's time. He looked through it and everything was already in place, at least that was one thing mystery man didn't tamper with, he dropped it, having it in mind that he would go through it again, when his eyes caught sight of a small journal. Red.

He pulled it out, seeing the small designs of butterflies on the cover, he furrowed his brows, not remembering having anything of such as his. He opened the first page and immediately recognized the handwritten there, he felt his lips tug up in a half smile, he'd memorised Nate's handwriting from the few times the young man had showed him plans of the club redesigning and the hotel final project.

Just like the way Nate looked, his handwriting was perfect, specially made, every stroke was precise and neat. Everything about Nate was different, different than anyone he'd ever met.

He was still thinking about it when the door to his office opened up and Matteo peeked his head inside, his blonde ruffled hair. Spade looked up and quickly wiped the smile off his face.

"I thought I heard you come in, I was beginning to think someone had broken into the office" Matteo muttered before entered into the office. "What are you doing"? He asked, his eyes landing on the journal with Spade, and he quickly dropped it.

"Nothing, just going through some stuff" he said, watching as Matteo sat down on the couch again, reclining himself back on the couch's headrest. "What's up with Lucas"? He asked and Matteo just shrugged

"Still haven't gotten anything yet, tried all I could to salvage parts of the video but most of it was already damaged, the little I was able to get didn't really give me much, whoever wiped it, did a really good job" Matteo mumbled. His eyes landed on Spade again and he furrowed his brow "Something's off about you" he muttered, making the older of the two to look at him Spade just shook his head, resisting an eye roll.

He was always this free with Matteo, more than he'd ever been with anyone. Only Matteo knew the real him, the him that isn't heartless, that's much as human as anyone else.

Matteo looked at him quizzically, as if trying to decipher a code, he smacked his lips together. His eyes lit up as if he just remembered something "you're here early, I knew something was off about you"

Spade just looked at him with bored eyes "I always come here early" he muttered and the blonde snorted

"Yeah but not this early, it's barely 9am and you're here, you're not grumpy either, you're either here early and grumpy, or you're here late and still grumpy, but today you're not grumpy and that's a new look on you" he mused, letting his eyes look at Spade as if he was seeing something magnificent.

Spade just ran his hands down his face Matteo suddenly narrowed his eyes at Spade "it's him isn't it"? He asked

"Who"? Spade grunted out

"Nate, it's him, he's the reason why you're not grumpy"

"I don't know what you're talking about" Spade quickly muttered, then he heard a small gasp from Matteo

"Holy fuck, it's him, you're fucking blushing, you never blush" Matteo said dramatically, making Spade to look at him almost mortified at what he just heard from Matteo. "What the fuck did he do to you? No scratch that, what happened, infact when did anything happen at all"? He rushed out

"Stop talking rubbish Matteo" he grunted out, as he looked away Matteo, feeling his neck heat up, Matteo was getting into his skin, that was one thing he found annoying about Matteo, the man knew how to bring out this part of him, the part that was still Gio and not Spade

Matteo slowly shook his head, his face pulling into a wide grin as he watched Spade. "Something definitely happened between you two that you're not telling me"

"I don't have to tell you everything that happens in my life Matteo, especially not about Nate" he mumbled out, now regretting why he'd confessed to Matteo about how he felt about Nate, he knew Matteo would definitely tease him about it.

Matteo cocked his brows, giving Spade a lopsided look, with a mischievous grin on his face "But that was not what you were saying a few nights ago, when you told me how much you wanted Nate and how he was avoiding you and how you so badly wanted to kiss him and smooch him" Matteo said dramatically, making funny faces and kissing sounds, this made Spade to roll his eyes, he definitely didn't say all this things when he talked with Matteo, the man can be so dramatic at times

"stai zitto Matteo" (shut up) he mumbled, making the blonde to erupt in a fit of laughter, obviously enjoying making fun of Spade.

"You wanna deny telling me that" he asked, Spade just stared at him, trying to resist the urge to choke the blonde and maul him to death

The ringing of his phone stopped him, as he looked at the screen, hoping it was Nate, he totally forgot to call him after arriving at the club. To his disappointment it wasn't Nate. He clenched his jaw, the same time Matteo's laughing seized

Curse whoever was calling, they ruined a good moment 😩😩

I love Matteo 😩😩