Spade had just got back to the club, work was kind of hectic for him today, it was almost 6pm and he knew Nate would be here already, he wanted to just go meet him already but he decided against it, Nate was really coming along with the club's redevelopment, he didn't want to distract him, and he knew if he set his eyes on Nate now, he wouldn't keep his hands off him and Spade wouldn't want to let him go.

He smiled when he thought of Nate, now his heart was half free since he told Nate about his father's involvement with mystery man, but it remained the other thing that he still needed to tell not just Nate but Matteo too.

They both deserved to know, but the possible outcome kind of terrified him, he didn't know what they'd do or how they're take it, Matteo in particular. The blonde might never trust him again for having kept something like this from him for this long.

He pulled out the drawer in his table about to take the pack of cigarettes but stopped, he remembered Nate telling him to stop smoking, he was really trying to stop that, but the stress he's had to go through every day won't let him stop smoking that easily.

But for Nate's sake, he didn't pull out the cigarette, he closed the drawer back and decided to do some work, maybe that will help him. He was even thinking of bringing Nate's office to his, so he could be seeing him every second.

He sighed out thinking of the time he just met Nate, all the threats he'd thrown to the young man, and the shitty things he did to him, even then he thinks he already knew deep down that he liked Nate, but he was denying it to himself or maybe because he didn't know what it felt like to want someone, to like someone, he didn't know that was what it was.

For a long time then he despised Nate because he was always thinking about the young man, every chance Nate got, he invaded his thoughts. But now he understood it was just his feelings messing with him.

But he couldn't imagine going back to that time, he didn't think he was still the same person, well for Nate he wasn't the same person anymore.

He heard a knock on his door and he smiled thinking it was Nate "come in" When the door opened, he was shocked and surprised to find Matteo walking in.

He cocked his brows at the blonde, Matteo never knocks and now he had a distant look in his eyes, which made Spade to worry even more, something was definitely wrong.

"What's the problem"? He asked, his voice holding concern, concern he only showed towards Matteo and Nate The blonde just sighed out and sat down on the chair in front of Spade's table, that's another shocking thing.

Matteo rarely ever sits there, it has always been the couch. Spade raised his brows at this again. Matteo's slowly dropped the letter with him on the table, pushing it to Spade.

The older of both men looked at the piece of paper wearily, wondering what was in it and who sent it, Matteo noticed this and decided to speak up.

"Sunday evening in Italy, while I was preparing to come back, someone dropped this off at the cabin, I don't know who and there's no return address" he started, this time Spade picked it up and started opening the already ripped seal on it. "At first I didn't want to open it without showing you first because I had no idea what was in it" he paused watching as Spade opened the letter "but I got curious and did, and then I found that" he muttered out.

By now Spade was already reading the contents of the letter, his face still looked stoic and blank, no expression to tell what was going through his mind at that moment. Matteo just watched him, after a while he dropped the letter back on the table.

His face looked the same but his eyes, his eyes showed he was deep in thoughts. "Spade tell me that's not true" Matteo whispered out, his eyes eagerly begging, wanting Spade to tell him it was a lie, a plot by someone to get into his head, but Spade didn't say anything, he just looked at Matteo. "Gio, please tell me that this letter is a fake ass bullshit and mom didn't write that" Matteo muttered out louder this time.

Spade just sighed out, running his hand down his face "I can't, because it's the truth" Spade whispered out, he heard Matteo gasped out and when he looked at him, he could see the pain evident in his eyes.

He started shaking his head, clenching his jaw. He didn't want to believe before but seeing the way Spade looked at him told him it was true. He wanted to hit something so bad "You've know something like this for a long time and you never told me"? He asked with pain in his voice, Spade couldn't defend himself, he just stared.

He hated the look of betrayal Matteo was giving him. He didn't mean to keep something like this from him, but he'd promised their mother that he would only tell Matteo when the blonde was ready, and in his opinion he never thought the blonde was ready.

He clenched his jaw when he saw the letter again, how did he never find this in his mother's stuff, he couldn't say it was forged because the handwritting was hers and a lot of things in there that only her could have known, told him it really was her that wrote it.

"How long"? Matteo asked "how long have you known Spade"? He gritted out and Spade just sighed.

"Before you were born" he muttered and he heard Matteo scoff, running his hand through his blonde hair, he was hot all over. The office was suffocating him

Nate was tired of just sitting in the office going through the same damn paper for more than an hour, he'd been checking Spade's office every Fifteen minutes to see if the man had come but he hadn't.

He looked at the clock, it was unusual for Spade to stay this long at his office. It had been well over thirty minutes since the last time he checked.

He had missed Spade already, he noticed that ever since their talk about his father, the man seemed more relaxed around him and he liked that.

He meant it when he said he didn't mind if Spade had to do something to stop his father and whoever was trying to kill him. If Spade had to kill his father to stay alive, Nate wouldn't mind at all, his father has had it coming for far too long.

He remembered Spade had agreed that they'd meet his sister over the weekend, she was in Sydney and it was a bit far from them, they'd have to go by plane. He hoped she didn't run away again, and what would she even say if she saw him and Spade.

He would worry about that later. He just missed his sister so much, he didn't want anything to dissuade him from seeing her

He finally got up and decided to go check on Spade one last time, he walked out of the office, Bernie had left earlier on, said he needed to check something at the warehouse.

He walked towards Spade's office but the closer he got, he could hear voices, he realized the door was left slightly open, not too much but enough that he could hear what they were saying inside, it was Spade and Matteo.

"You've known that Micheal was not my father for so long and you didn't tell me" Matteo asked, even Nate could hear the pain in Matteo's voice, he wondered what had happened.

"Look Matteo, I had wanted to tell you for so long but...." Matteo cut Spade off

"Cut the crap Gio, if I didn't get this you would never have told me that Greg is my father" he growled out.

This made Nate to freeze What the hell? Did he just hear Matteo tell Spade that Greg, as in Greg his own father is Matteo's father too?

No it can't possibly be right, there's definitely a mistake somewhere "Does Nate know"? He heard Matteo ask, and by the silence of Spade, Nate already knew the answer to that. Of course he didn't know Greg fathered another child asides himself and his sister.

"Of course you didn't tell him either" Matteo spat with anger "stay the fuck away from me Spade" Matteo gritted out before Nate heard steps, he was too stunned to even move or hide, Matteo opened the door and was shocked to see Nate standing there.

Both of them just looking at each other, each having different thoughts of the truth they just found out, Matteo was the first to snap out of it before he brushed past Nate and walked away

The door to Spade's office was wide open now as he stood there, looking at Nate. The young man slowly walked inside, closing the door behind him He stood in front of Spade's table looking at him.

He swallowed, before his eyes met with Spade's grey eyes "is it true"? He whispered out and Spade just sighed out and nodded

"Yes, yes it's true" he muttered out and he saw Nate take in a shaky deep breath

Okay this was all too much for him to take, he wanted to sit down but he couldn't. "If Greg is his father..." He drawled out pointing at the door, obviously referring to Matteo "then that means.... He's my brother"? He asked himself, he let out a deep breath.

Doing a little breathing exercise "Does that mean you're....." Spade was quick to cut him off

"No" he knew what Nate was about to ask, they weren't brothers, Spade and Nate has nothing together, no blood between them, they were basically two strangers.

Nate sighed out, Spade didn't know if it was a sigh or relief or overwhelming emotions He looked at Spade again "How is that even possible"? He asked and Spade sighed out, he didn't want to relive this shitty memory or explain it to anyone but Nate was the one asking and unlike Matteo the young man was taking this whole thing rather to calmly.

"26 years ago Greg...." Spade paused, taking in a deep breath, talking about it was even harder than he thought "he uh... He raped my mother" he finally said it and he saw the way Nate's eyes grew wide, but he was still calm so Spade continued. "I was only a kid then, probably three, I wasn't supposed to see it but I did and at that time I didn't understand what had happened" he muttered.

Nate had walked around the table and stood beside Spade, with his back leaning on the table He knew how hard it was for Spade talking about something like this.

Spade sighed out and rubbed his face briefly "after that my mother got pregnant, and she gave birth to Matteo, for a long time we all thought Matteo was my father's child, for a long time I didn't ever think what I witnessed at three was my mother being sexually molested" he paused, the difficulty was evident in his voice.

Nate slowly reached out and grabbed Spade's hand in his, giving it a light squeeze, when Spade looked at him, he saw the warmth Nate held in his eyes and it egged him on to keep talking. "Matteo got sick when he was only three and I was seven then, they took him to the hospital and that was the day everything changed for us, the day my dad found out Matteo was never his son to begin with"

Nate sighed out, this was even getting messier than he thought. He knew his father was evil, but he didn't think the man was this bad, he didn't only ruin their own lives but other people's too.

"My father started abusing my mother physically and sexually, because she refused to tell him who Matteo's real father was, sometimes he would want to take his anger out on Matteo but I would take it instead" Spade paused "it took me becoming a teenager before I realized that the thing I witnessed as a child, was my mother getting raped and it resulted in Matteo's birth, I wanted to tell my father, to at least stop my mother's suffering, so he'd know she didn't cheat on him, but my mom made me promise I'd never tell anyone, not even Matteo, until he was old enough to understand" he sighed out as if telling Nate that he couldn't go any further, Nate rubbed circles on his hand. "I wanted to tell him after our mother died, for a long time I did but I just didn't think he was ready, I didn't want to hurt him with it" Spade solemnly said.

Nate could understand Spade, because he had a few secrets of his own that he kept from Su, and even now he was keeping those same said secrets from Spade.

He couldn't be mad at the man, instead he pulled Spade into a hug, as he gently patted the man's back. Spade hugged him back, and rested his face deep into the crook of Nate's neck, inhaling his scent. "It's okay Gio" Nate whispered out, Spade pulled away and looked at him.

"You're not mad"? He asked and Nate just shook his head

"I'm not, I don't think I should be, but I understand Matteo's anger, he probably feels betrayed, like his whole life had been a lie, anyone in his shoes would be mad" Nate explained and Spade just sighed out

"You're right, I should have told him earlier, I thought I was protecting him by not telling him"

Nate just gave him a pointed look, remembering their conversation about keeping secrets from people you love, with the excuse of protecting them, like Liam's wife. "Now he's probably going to hate me and not want to talk to me ever again" Spade muttered

Nate just used his hand to swat away fallen hair on Spade's forehead "I don't think so, he's mad yes, but Matteo has been by your side from when you both were born, I don't think something like this can make him hate you, he may find it hard to trust you but he doesn't hate you" Nate muttered.

Spade looked at him for a second before he sighed out, he slowly tightened his hand around Nate's waist before he pulled him in for another hug, he felt relieved that at least Nate understood him. If Nate had gotten half as angry as Matteo, Spade would probably be a mess by now

"Thank you" he muttered against Nate's neck

"For what"? Nate asked

"For understanding me and still sticking by me" he muttered, this made Nate to chuckle out.

Okay big secret out.

Turns out Matteo and Nate are brothers 🤔🤔

Before you ask, no, Spade and Nate are not brothers, neither are they related in any way.

They don't share any parent, different mothers and different fathers