Stefano sat on the bed beside Matteo, watching the blonde as he slept peacefully, his face had regained it's colour back, the doctor had confirmed that he was okay and just needed to rest for a few days, he'd lost a lot of blood

The doctor even commented on Stefano's stitching abilities, said he did a good job. Now they were both in the guest bedroom and Matteo was fast asleep, Stefano held onto his hands as he stroked on the back with his thumb.

When Matteo was shot today, he felt fear consume him, fear he'd never felt before in his life, he didn't think he could feel that way in his life, but watching the way Matteo had stepped in front of Spade and took the gunshot, it scared him to his core, he never wanted to feel that way again.

The blonde had been reckless to have stepped in front of a gun like that, what was he even thinking jumping in front of a gun like that, didn't he know that him getting hurt would affect not just Spade but Stefano?

Of course he was fucking worried about the blonde, he couldn't stand the thought of something happening to Matteo, even though the blonde didn't know to the extent at which he liked him, it was even more than just like, he had feelings for the blonde, feelings he'd been harboring for as long as he'd set his eyes on the blonde, feelings no one knew about except for him.

He sighed out when he looked at Matteo again, the peaceful look on his face, it melted his heart, he didn't think he could ever let Matteo know about how he feels, he still can't get over the fact that Matteo had been acting weird and hostile towards him since the night of the auction, he knew it was because of what happened that night, but he didn't think that should have been something that would make Matteo act the way he'd been acting

It wasn't even much of a thing, he had stopped it before it became something more, because he knew Matteo would probably regret it if it had happened.

But now he didn't even know what to do with the feeling inside of him. Was he perhaps running a lost race? He didn't even know if Matteo would ever feel that way for him, hell he didn't even know if Matteo liked men.

He was threading on thin ice, it would either end one of two ways. Either he gets rejected by the blonde, or he keeps holding on to this unrequited likeness, or whatever it was.

He sighed out again.

Nate got up after thinking, a few minutes after Spade had gone into the bathroom, he followed him, stepping into the bathroom, he looked to the right where the sink was, and Spade stood there in front of the mirror as he washed his hands.

Nate took slow steps towards him, stopping behind him, he let his hands go around Spade's chest as he pressed his front to Spade's back firmly, feeling the man tense up for a second before he relaxed.

He turned around and faced Nate, the young man looked up at him and gently placed a kiss to his lips, before he pulled away and started taking off Spade's jacket, and then he hooked his fingers to Spade's top, trying to pry it off. "I'm not mad at you Gio" he muttered as he took off the bloody top, leaving Spade completely naked from the waist up, he looked up at him again. "I'm just scared" he whispered, he was about to take off Spade's pants when his eyes landed on Spade's bruised knuckles, he took it and raised his brows at the man.

Spade sighed out "we found the shooter and I had a little talk with him" he muttered, Nate just smiled and shook his head before he pulled Spade with him towards the cupboard in the toilet, he pulled it open and he saw some first aid stuff there, like alcohol and cotton wool.

He took them out and gently soaked the cotton wool, before he placed it on Spade's knuckle, hearing the man hiss out, as he clenched his jaw "I didn't mean to make you scared" Spade muttered, his eyes on Nate. "This life, it's what I'm used to, it's what I do, I can't promise you that it gets better and I can't promise that I can change it" he explained.

Nate just sighed out and cleaned off Spade's other knuckle before throwing the cotton wool into the waste bin, he put the things back and closed the drawer.

He held onto Spade's hands firmly in his as he stood before the man "I don't want you to promise me anything or change anything, I already told you I knew what I signed up for when I agreed to be yours, but that doesn't make seeing you like that any better" he muttered "I grew up watching people that I care about get hurt and do stuff that I wasn't really okay with, Gio..." He paused, as if struggling with his words "I want you, I want this and nothing can change that, I just kind of got overwhelmed seeing you like that, and then Matteo" he mumbled.

Spade used his index finger and raised Nate's chin up so the young man could look up at him, and true to his words, Nate's eyes held fear, something Spade didn't really like seeing In the young man's eyes He leaned in and placed a tender kiss on Nate's lips, slowly moving his tongue and seeking entrance.

Nate opened up and Spade didn't waste anytime as he dived into Nate's mouth, kissing and sucking on his mouth, savouring the sweet taste of the young man, he pulled him closer and soon they were both stumbling into the shower, as Spade pressed Nate's back on the wall.

The young man quickly fumbled with Spade's pants, taking off the belt hastily and unzipping his pants, he dragged it down and Spade helped him, their kiss was rushed and filled with lust, but they didn't break the kiss

Nate wasn't putting on a slack, he was putting on one of Spade's sweatpants so it was quite easy for Spade to pull it down, he cupped Nate's erection through his boxers brief and the young man gasped out as his lips parted slowly, Spade sucked on his lower lip.

He pulled down Nate's boxers brief as both men stood under the shower completely naked, Nate's hands were buried deep inside Spade's hair as he ruffled and tugged at it Spade reached down and grabbed Nate's thick erection, he stroked it and elicited a moan from Nate, it made him growl out as he pulled Nate forward and used the same hand to grab his own erection

His large hand stroking both of them at the same time, while Nate bucked his hips, making sure their meat rubbed off on each other.

Nate shut his eyes and moaned out, as he felt his dick rub on Spade, everytime they did something new, it always ignited a fire inside him, a sweet feeling he never knew he was capable of feeling. He moaned and threw his head back as Spade stroked both of their lengths together. He didn't think he could last long, especially everytime his tip brushed up against Spade's tip.

He found himself moaning hard as Spade increased his speed, Spade's free hand had wrapped itself around Nate's neck as he squeezed it gently, he started sucking and kissing Nate's neck.

The young man tensed as he moaned loudly, his hot cum sprouting out and landing on Spade's torso, it felt like a push over for Spade as he growled out and soon he was cumming too.

Both of then were panting hard, as Spade let go off his neck and rested on Nate's round butt, he grabbed and squeezed it tightly, earning a light whimper from the young man.

He kissed him softly and pulled away, Nate smiled up at him gently, before he turned on the shower on both of them.

*****

Stefano had woken up quite early, earlier than the rest of the household, he slept at Spade's place the night before so he could keep an eye on Matteo. He didn't even think Spade would let him sleep there but he was glad the man let him.

He went home to get a quick change of clothes and come back, hopefully by then Matteo would have woken up.

Nate had taken breakfast to Matteo's room, the blonde still hadn't woken up, or so they thought, Nate was surprised when he walked into the bedroom and Matteo was up, sitting down on the bed, he was hunched over so Nate dropped the tray on the bedside table and leaned in to check in him

"Are you okay, how do you feel"? He asked and Matteo just looked up at him and smiled lazily

"Hey Nate" he whispered, this instantly relaxed Nate as he let out a deep sigh of relief

"Thank God you're okay" he muttered before he sat on the bed close to Matteo "how are you feeling? Should I call Spade"? He rushed out but Matteo just shook his head.

"No I'm okay, and no don't call Spade" he said softly but Spade was already walking into the bedroom, Matteo just sighed out, he really didn't want to talk to him now but he couldn't escape this now.

Spade walked towards them and stopped in front of the bed, his eyes leaving Nate and resting on the blonde, he finally felt relieved, he was okay. "Good morning Matteo" Spade muttered, the blonde just grumbled out a response while trying to avoid Spade's eyes, although he'd taken a bullet for the man, it still didn't erase the slight anger he'd feeling for the past week for Spade.

Nate got up and looked at Spade mouthing a 'talk to him' before discreetly walked out of the room, leaving both men alone

Spade felt weird standing there and for the first time, he didn't know what to say to the blonde, what would he say?

"Matteo.." he started, seeing the way Matteo sighed out, he knew the blonde didn't want to talk to him but he wasn't leaving here until the blonde had listened to him. "I know you're mad at me, and I don't have any excuse to give to you that made me do what I did, but if there's anything I know is the fact that I never want to feel that fear I felt yesterday when I saw you lying down there in a pool of your own blood" he paused before taking a step closer to the bed, he sat on it gently, giving little space between them on the bed "I thought I lost you, and to think you were mad at me before that, I never got a chance to apologise to you... I'm sorry Matteo, for keeping such a secret from you, I wanted to tell you, everytime I looked at you and realized I was keeping something like this from you, I wanted to tell you but I couldn't" he finished, Matteo looked at him, and the pained look in his eyes and his face showed how much guilt he was feeling. "I couldn't bring myself to tell you something like that" he voiced out, pain lacing his voice

After a while of just sitting there in silence, Matteo finally decided to speak up "when did you know"? He asked and Spade sighed out

"The day it happened" he whispered, Matteo's eyes widened in shock and surprise "I wasn't supposed to see it, but I did and till date I still can't get the image out of my head" Spade muttered "but it doesn't change anything, you're still a DeVille and you're still my brother" he finished.

Matteo cleared his throat and looked away from Spade, true he wasn't really supposed to be angry at Spade anymore, now that he thought about it, it really wasn't the man's fault

If he was the one that witnessed something like that at that age, he probably would have been traumatized for the rest of his life, but Spade rarely ever showed any weakness or sign of trauma.

He must have been really strong, Matteo didn't think it through, he just pushed himself and pulled Spade into a warm hug. The man tensed up for a few seconds before he returned the hug back, his hands going around Matteo's body. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you the truth sooner" he whispered.

Okay, this part wasn't really necessary, but I just wanted it out there 😩😜😜