Stumbling into the shower, Spade had somehow pinned Nate to the wall, grabbing both his hands and holding them together above his head, while his mouth had dived in and started kissing and sucking Nate's mouth, ravishing him with kisses and sucking his lips.

He was still fully clothed, he trailed his hands down Nate's arms as he brought it down on Nate's hard cock, he cupped the young man's erection in his hands and Nate sucked in a harsh breath, panting hard and moaning lightly.

He shuddered as he felt his whole body shake with pleasure and electrifying desire, he whined when Spade had let go of his hands and started taking off his own clothes, Nate was quick to help him, almost as if he would rip Spade's clothes to shred as be hastily pulled them off

He wanted Spade more than he'd ever wanted him before, there was something almost animalistic inside of him, like he was greedy and craving for Spade.

Soon enough Spade was completely naked and he flushed his body against Spade's hard body, it was very warm and welcoming, he whimpered when he felt Spade start to kiss his neck and suck on the flesh there.

He moaned as he pressed his erection against Spade, Spade was quick to hold his cock as he stroked him slowly, almost rubbing Nate's erection against his.

It was as if Spade understood what he wanted as he grabbed Nate, breaking the kiss, he flipped him and turned him around, Nate wanted to turn around but Spade pressed his front to Nate's back, making Nate to groan out lowly as he felt hard, toned chest against his back, and Spade's cock pressing against his ass

Spade brought his lips closer to Nate's ear teasing and bitting on the flesh "hands on the way baby" he rasped out seductively and Nate without a second thought complied as he placed both hands against the wall, Spade grabbed his ass and squeezed lightly, making him shake as he whimpered lightly.

Spade once again leaned in and sucked on his earlobe, biting it and licking it sensually "what do you want Cucciolotto" he husked, calling Nate that sweet Italian name that he had come to know meant little puppy.

He had asked Spade why he referred to him as little puppy and the man had just laughed and didn't say anything else, but hearing him ask this question now, using that name, Nate felt so good and so bad at the same time.

Bad because his mind although filled with desire, was also filled with guilt, and for that he wanted Spade to punish him, to make him at least feel a little better about what he was about to do, so he said only one thing to Spade.

"I want you to fuck me" he breathed out in an almost laboured and breathless manner, causing Spade to growl out as he attacked his neck with kissing and sucking.

"Fuck.... Baby, you saying words like that turns me on so bad" Spade husked before he kissed his neck again, before he felt cold slippery liquid drooling off his ass, making him moan out lowly.

Suddenly he felt Spade's cock teasing his hole, as he was pressed against the wall, his ass pulled out perfectly for Spade, he felt excited as he knew what was about to happen.

He whimpered when he felt Spade's finger pressed against his hole with wet warm liquid, before Spade's tip teased his entrance, and just like that, Spade thrusted inside of him, making him moan out loud, his fingers digging and scraping the walls.

Spade groaned out as he started thrusting inside of him slowly, his balls hitting Nate's balls, cold and warm flesh against each other, he was panting with his eyes shut tight.

He felt a shit tone of pleasure and it was somehow drowning the guilt he was feeling, he felt Spade's hand wrap around his neck from behind as he squeezed on it lightly, titling Nate's head backwards.

With Nate's hands on the wall, Spade's free hand went down on Nate's cock as he started stroking him, and jerking Nate off, while he rammed into him mercilessly, Nate moaned out and shut his eyes tight, feeling tears brim his eyes.

The pleasure was all just too much, he couldn't deal as he started whimpering and moaning lowly, his eyes dropping with tears, every emotion he was feeling had doubled in that moment

The guilt from what he was about to do to Spade, the sadness at the fact that he would most likely never do this with Spade after what he would do today, the pain at how much Spade loved him and he was about to betray him, the anger he felt at his father for putting him through this, the anger he was feeling for his own life and ill luck.

He didn't know when he'd stop moaning and was letting out small whispers of sobs, Spade slowed down and leaned in closer, turning his head to the side so he could look at him, he was panting hard.

"Baby are you crying"? He asked almost softly but the laboured breaths he was letting out didn't exactly make it soft

He shook his head as he moved his face closer to Spade and kissed him gently, feeling the saltiness of his own tears on their lips and his tongue "I love you" he whimpered out and Spade just moaned lightly, before he kissed him back

"I love you too my Cucciolotto" he rasped out before he went back to ramming into him, Spade groaned out as his pace increased, making Nate to moan and whimper out as his legs started to shake, he felt his whole body tense up

"Ohh... I'm cumming" he moaned out and Spade just fucked him even harder, as he groaned out, as if he didn't want to be soft, he was ramming into Nate recklessly and almost brutally, but Nate liked it, in fact he wanted it, if this would make the guilt he was feeling to stop, then he was willing to take it all.

He felt Spade tense up before he groaned out almost animalistic, his hot thick cum shot Inside of Nate as he moaned out and shook with pleasure

After a while Spade stopped moving his hips as he was panting hard and breathlessly, he rested his front to Nate's back, as he kissed him there "I fucking love you so much Nathan" he whispered, Nate couldn't even say anything as he just stood there breathing hard, almost passing out

Spade had never gone that hard and rough with him, but in a way he felt like it was well deserved, something he could always think of, especially when he would go through with what his father had asked him to do.

They both showered, with Spade doing all the work and cleaning Nate, treating him as though he was fragile and would break if Spade even went any harder than him.

He was so soft with Nate that he felt his heart would burst with excitement and happiness, he wanted Spade to at least do something that would make him feel a little bit better with what he was about to do.

They were both lying down on the bed after just getting out of the bathroom, neither had put on any clothes, Nate had his head on Spade's chest as the man kept drawing lines on his arm, feeling his cold fingers on his body

After a while of just laying there with both of them thinking, Nate more about Spade and his whole. Spade shuffled underneath Nate as he tried to get up "Baby I need to go get dressed for work, and I think you should too" Spade muttered, his voice vibrating through his chest and seeping into Nate's body

Nate sighed out not wanting to leave the comforts of Spade's arm "Can we just stay in, I... I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to stay here with you" he whispered, Spade looked at him for a while before he sighed out too

"Okay baby, if that's what you want" he muttered, still running his fingers up and down Nate's arm.

****

After almost spending the whole day at home with Spade, Nate decided he couldn't take it anymore, if he had to spend one more minute at home with Spade he would go completely mad overthinking everything.

He suggested they both went out to the club, maybe seeing other people would ease his mind and make it easier for him to do what he should or what he was being forced to do.

Standing in front of Spade, with Spade's hands on either side of his hips, and his face pressed on Nate's torso, he was just resting there as if it was the most favorite place of his in the world.

Nate on the other hand was lost in thought, as his hands played with Spade's soft, black and sleek hair. It was relaxing for him, he could feel the recorder in his pocket, he'd been trying to be subtle about Spade touching him close to where it was, he didn't want Spade to feel it or even see it.

He had finally come to terms with doing it, but it was harder than it sounded because he didn't even know where to start, and he had less than a day before his father would come for it.

He was standing in front of Spade, but his mind and spirit were lost in thoughts, regret and guilt.

Regret for what he hadn't done yet, but he knew there was no turning back, to not get the recording was the same thing as telling their father to kill his sister.

He swallowed the huge lump in his throat, he felt at peace just standing there with Spade, he wished it was all a dream, meeting with his father the previous day, he wanted it to be a dream and he didn't go out for coffee that faithful afternoon.

But unfortunately nothing in his life was that easy, he sighed out and this made Spade to pull away and looked at him "You okay baby"? He asked, making Nate want to scream at him and yell, and ask him why he was so soft and kind to him, when Nate was planning to betray him, but instead he just nodded and forced out a smile.

"I'm fine, I'm okay" he whispered, his hands still buried deep inside Spade's hair, he didn't want to ask, but this was his only chance "Can I ask you something"? He whispered, praying so hard that Spade didn't hear and that would make him procastinate asking him about it, but Spade had heard, because he was always paying attention to Nate

"What is it"? He asked, he was now completely focused on Nate, as his eyes looked at him warmly and intently.

Nate sighed out, swallowing, this was it, the recorder was on, it had been on since they stepped into the office, and he knew everything he and Spade would talk about here would be in it. "Three weeks ago I think, you said Matteo traveled to Italy, he went for an auction, what's it about"? He asked, feeling his hands inside Spade's hair grow moist and wet, he was fucking nervous, scared and guilty.

Spade furrowed his brows as he leaned away even more, but his hands were still resting on Nate's hips "I never told you it was an auction" he muttered, Nate's lips parted, oh shit, he just slipped up. He needed to cover it up quickly, if Spade even had the slightest inclination of what he was doing, he might kill him.

He swallowed and smiled, trying his hardest to make it look genuine "no you didn't, Matteo did, I asked him and he told me but he didn't tell me what it was about" he finished, and Spade just nodded, before he placed his head back on Nate's torso again

Nate held his breath, praying to whoever was listening so Spade wouldn't answer, he wished Spade would just give him one of those vague answers he always gave, at least that way he could tell his father that Spade didn't say anything, which wouldn't be a complete lie, and the man wouldn't have any reason to kill his sister.

Instead Spade opened his mouth and spoke "well, the auction is basically how it sounds, it's an event where items are sold, rare items, weapons and people" he finished, making Nate's eyes to widen as he gasped out loudly

"People"? He asked and Spade just nodded

"Yes Nate, people, mostly girl...." Spade paused sighing out, before he pulled away and looked up at Nate "I don't buy any, but people do and I kind of own the whole thing" he muttered, Nate just swallowed.

First he was feeling like crap because everything Spade just said was in the recorder, and secondly he was stunned at what Spade just told him

An auction for selling people, or should he say buying people. He felt Spade's fingers brush up on the skin just above his hip "Baby, it's not something that bad okay, I know you're not really okay with stuff like that, that's why I didn't tell you before" he muttered, his eyes trying to assure Nate that it was okay. "And if it makes you feel any better, i don't let extremely bad people buy whoever I sell" he muttered, making Nate to frown as he slowly wanted to move away from Spade.

This whole conversation was taking a whole new turn and he didn't like it, what did Spade mean he didn't sell to extremely bad people "so that means you sell to bad people"? Nate asked and Spade was quick to get up as he pulled Nate closer to him

"Baby don't sound like that, we already talked about this, I'm not saying it's a good thing or something to be completely proud of, but this is my life, I'm trying to be better for you but somethings will take time" he whispered, seeing the way Nate avoided his eyes, he sighed out and turned the young man to look at him "babe look at me, let's not fight over this okay, I don't like it when we fight" he muttered.

Nate looked at him and sighed out, not that he wanted to fight with Spade or anything, he just couldn't act like what Spade just told him was perfectly normal, but when has anything about Spade be normal?

And Spade was right, he also didn't want to fight with the man, especially not now that he was about to do something like this "I don't like it when we fight either" he whispered out before Spade's face broke into a smile as he pecked him on his lips, he shut his eyes, hoping Spade would forgive him for what he'd just done.

Okay, it is done, Nate has officially betrayed Spade.😩😩😩

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