Nathan

I groaned as I tried to move my body, my eyes were shut tight and a part of my face felt as though it was ran over, and my whole body felt the same, like a train had ran over me.

I couldn't even move as i felt all my bones crack underneath my skin, I opened my eyes slowly and was met with white blinding lights, I quickly shut my eyes again, groaning out loud.

God I felt like crap, my head was pounding and my wrists were stinging like hell, I knew I was bound to the something again, but to what, it felt soft so I was guessing it was a bed.

I slowly opened my eyes again and tried to adjust it to the light, my face still felt crampy and it hurt like a bitch, slowly and surely my memory started returning as I remembered shooting someone, that man that would bring me meals in the room I was kept in.

And then I ran, only to be stopped by some equally huge men who ended up beating the crap out of me until I passed out, and now I'm up again, only to realize that this wasn't a sick joke of some sort, and it wasn't a bad dream.

I was really still here and I was fucked because I killed one of his men, he would definitely kill me now and feed my bones to the dogs.

I don't know how long I've been kept in here but I know it has been a long fucking time and I'm still hoping somewhere that Spade was looking for me, or even Matteo.

I can't stay here, I've tried to run away and see where it landed me, I still don't even know what that man would do to me.

On cue the door opened and I know someone just walked in, and I don't even have the strength to look up at who, but by the clinking of his shoes, I already know who it is, it's him

I don't have the strength to be afraid, but that didn't mean that I wasn't afraid or that my heart didn't drop to my stomach when he came into my line of vision.

His face was set in a stoic expression and his eyes had a hard glare to them, well his good eye actually, the bad one just looked even more uglier than before.

He narrowed his eyes at me "my men told me you tried to run away" he started, making me want to roll my eyes at him, but the throbbing in my head wasn't letting me He looked at me before he pulled a chair, making a loud scraping sound on the marbled floor, he placed the chair in front of me on the bed, and sat on it, spreading his legs as he leaned over, placing his elbows on his thighs.

"You still don't get what's going on here do you"? He asked, with his grey roundneck and black slacks, I just look at him not saying anything.

Not because I was scared, but because I didn't have the strength to answer to him, if he was going to kill me, he might as well do it now and save me the trouble.

"You can't escape from here, even if you try, you just can't, and no one is coming to save you, not Spade, not your fucking father and not your damn sister or your blonde brother" he finished, making my eyes to widen, how did he know?

He noticed my reaction and chuckled "Oh Natey, you didn't think I was oblivious to the fact that your perverted father raped my younger sister and got her pregnant with that blonde kid"? He asked, making me choke on my spit, I'm sure Spade had told me that no one knew except for himself and his mother, and then Matteo and me.

I looked at the man again "how did you...." I whispered out and he just waved me away

"How did I know? Very simple" he said "you see your father always loved my sister, to the point that he wanted to get married to her, but she fell in love with someone else"

"Spade's dad" I whisper and he clicks his tongue at me

"You're quicker than I thought" he muttered before leaning away again and resting his back on the chair "Spade's father, your father didn't really like this and was forced by his own father to get married to the daughter of one of his business partner, forcing your father into a loveless marriage, thereby making him very unhappy" he paused as if thinking about the rest of the story.

I watched him, already trying to think of where the story was going, it wasn't sounding very good and I didn't like it one bit. "Years later after my sister had Spade, Greg started asking me to put in a good word for him, he wanted to have an affair with my sister who was happily married with a kid, but I couldn't do it, I wasn't that selfish, I loved my sister so much" he said, his eyes having a very distant look, as though he could actually see that time happening right before his eyes "Months passed and he stopped bugging me, untill one day he came up to me and told me that my sister had finally agreed and they were having an affair behind each of their partner's back"

I swallowed as I watched him, I didn't know where this story was going, but the look in his eyes was getting angrier by the second and it was actually scaring me to my core, because for someone like him to have that look, nothing was going to end well.

"He thought I wouldn't ask my sister, but I knew how much she loved Micheal and she would never cheat on him with anyone, least of all Greg, so I confronted her about it, already having my suspicions that Greg was lying and she confirmed it to me, your bastard father was indeed lying and they weren't having an affair, he had raped her in her husband's house and got her pregnant with his damn kid, and he lied to me about it" he snapped as his eyes rested on me, having a very crazed look on as he stared at me.

His one good eye had a mischievous and evil glint to it, while the damaged eye was kind of scary as he stared at me "I swore that I was gonna make him pay, but first I'd do the same thing he did to my sister to his kids, I'd ruin their lived too" he said smirking and I felt my hear jump to my throat as I swallowed hard, hoping it wasn't what I was thinking, because if he touched her, I would kill him, I don't care how it'll happen but I will kill him.

"I wanted to start with your sister first, the things I had planned to do to her" he said almost dreamily, making me feel disgusted "But fortunately for her, she was always with your mother or her group of friends in school, so I didn't really have a chance with her, but you on the other hand, you were always so easy to get" he said shutting his eyes and smiling.

I could feel my stomach churn as he spoke, how disgusting can he get "Everytime I fucked that little hole of yours and saw that fear in your eyes, that pain and anguish I caused you, it made me feel fucking proud of myself because I was getting justice for my sister, making you feel exactly what your perv of a father made her feel" he said looking at me, I could feel the tears brim my eyes and the lump in my throat getting huge and thick, hearing him talk about what he did to me with so much pride and gratification, as though it was something to be proud of, it made me want to throw up

He sighed and leaned forward again on his chair "then I tried it on your blonde brother" he said making my eyes to grow wide as I felt the first tear drop, no, it can't be. He didn't "I know he's my sister's son but he's the reason why she died in the first place, the reason why Micheal started hating my sister until he finally killed her"

I shook my head, no it wasn't, Matteo wasn't to blame for anything, he was just as much a victims as his mother was "No, it wasn't... It wasn't his fault" I whispered out in a stutter and he just frowned and furrowed his brows at me

"I wish that were true but it was his fucking fault, so I tried to do to him what I did to you, but turned out he was much tougher and Micheal wasn't as stupid and gullible as your perverted father" he snapped making me flinch, but I was a bit relieved that he didn't touch any of them, it would have killed me knowing they had suffered in his hands like I did.

He smacked his lips together and leaned away, his eyes going through my whole body as he checked me out, which didn't sound half as good as I was making it.

It made me feel disgusted, especially when his eyes stopped at my crotch area that was wide spread open, curse whoever tied me up like this He licked his lips as his eyes fell back on me

"I came here to teach you a lesson, and to warn you to never try to run away from me, especially if it involves you killing one of my men" he said lowly, making me swallow hard "So here's what's going to happen, I'm going to fuck that little hole of yours, I don't care if you let me or I do it by force, either way I'm going to have you tonight and nothing will stop me" he said making me shake my head vigorously.

I won't let that happen, that can't happen. I swallowed hard as he chuckled menacingly "you don't have a choice Natey, and when I'm done with you, I'm going to kill your stupid boyfriend, your perverted father, rape your sister while you watch and then I'm going to kill her too and the blonde" he listed off, as his eyes kept shifting from human to something almost insane, making the skin around his eyes to crinckle.

I hated the feeling his eyes on me was giving me, my skin was crawling and I felt very uncomfortable, but I still wouldn't give him the satisfaction of touching me, it'll kill me if he does. So I try to stall, hopefully by the time I'm done, he's not going to want to touch me.

"Why do you want to kill Spade"? I asked out of nowhere and he looks at me with interest before clicking his teeth.

"Well first of all he's an arrogant bastard, he feels like he's untouchable, but in the real sense he's very fucking touchable, and I'm a living proof of that" he boasted making me frown and furrow my brows at him "I've been fucking with him for the past four months and he hasn't even been able to figure out that it's me" he added making my eyes widened.

He's mystery man, he's the one Spade's been looking for, the one that sent those people that shot Matteo and killed those men at that party. Spade's uncle is the one that wants him dead.

I felt my blood run cold as I tensed up, how was I going to tell him now, he needed to know so he would stop trusting the man He stood up clapping his hands together as he looked at me "Now, let's get down to business shall we" he smirked making me swallow

I can't let him do this, but I can't stop him either, not with my hands and legs tied up. He starts advancing towards the bed, as I watched him start taking off his belt, I struggle against my binds but he just tsk at me

"You know Natey, the more you struggle, the more I'm going to enjoy every single bit of it" he muttered lowly before he climbed on to the bed, he slowly starts trailing lines from my thighs going up, and up until he stops just close to my crotch, I freeze and tense up as I shake, trying to break the binds but they aren't zip ties this time, they're handcuffs.

Before I know it, I felt him cup my member, and I suck in a harsh breath as I felt my throat clog and my chest tighten, making me look at him, my eyes brimming with tears, this is not happening to me, not now please.

But I couldn't open my mouth to say anything as he smirked back at me sadistically. He starts taking off my own pants, not hastily and he wasn't slowly either.

He took it off and pulls it down along with my boxers brief exposing my member to the cold as I gasp out lowly, I see him lick his lips, his eyes meeting mine "I always knew you were gonna be big down there, how long has it been, 8, 10 years now"? He mused, his voice thick and dripping with lust, a lust that didn't make me feel good like Spade's, instead I felt like throwing up

He tries to completely pull my pants off but it's stuck because of my legs that are bound, I hear him grumble before he reaches into his pocket and pull out a key, slowly before he starts unlocking the chains on my leg that was stuck to the bedpost

I didn't know if I wanted to struggle, to put up a fight or to just stay there and let him do what he wanted to do.

If I struggle then I'd be giving him pleasure but if I don't struggle then I'd also be giving him the satisfaction of knowing he won.

I was confused, scared and fucking terrified. As I felt the tears prick my eyes. He yanked off the chain and before I could react, he was already in between my legs as he pulled down his pants, he leaned in and pressed his lips to my neck, making me almost gag out as I shuddered with disgust.

I felt his finger shove itself inside if me and I shut my eyes tight feeling the tears slip out, I can't do this, I can't take it, it felt fucking weird and disgusting

I felt like 11 year old me again and i was fucking helpless I shut my eyes and tried to think of Spade but it wasn't working because the next minute, I felt his hard member probe my entrance, making me freeze and tense up. "You don't have to be so tense" he muttered into my ears, making me swallow the bile rising in my throat "I bet Spade has fucked that hole of yours so many times"

Before I could even react or process his words, he shoved inside of me with his dick, making me wince out in pain as I felt my hole stretching itself.

He groaned out "you're so fucking tight Natey" he mumbled against my neck as he started thrusting inside of me, hard and fast, making me wince and grimace in pain "Fuck I've missed your tight little hole" he groaned.

I just turned my head to side as the tears slid out uncontrollably, making me swallow hard. I couldn't even think of Spade if I wanted to

And then the voice in my head starts speaking, shadowing every other thought in my head With each thrust, the voice got louder

'you see Nate, no one cares about you' the voice starts, making me shut my eyes as I try to push it back, but it gets stronger and louder Everytime.

'not your sister, not your father, and not Spade, if they cared, they would be here trying to save you' the voice taunted, making me take in a shaky breath, still very aware of the man whose dick was violating my body

'they only care about what you have to offer them, your sister used you as collateral for her running away, your father has been using you all your life, Spade... He only wanted you as long as he could fuck you'

I whimper out not even trying to stop the voice, maybe it was right all along, maybe I didn't deserve to be loved, and all of them never cared about me

'they threw you out to the wolf, and now no one is coming to save you, you were only a chew toy for them, Your father, Your sister, this man and even Spade, they used you'

I sobbed out as i couldn't hold it in any longer, the voice was right, it had been right all along. I didn't mean anything to them

My sister left me at the mercies of my father when it got tough

My father abused me physically all my life, and Spade didn't give me a chance to explain myself when he found out I'd betrayed him

Something I did to save my sister. I choked as I tried to swallow my sobs, I could still feel him inside me and he was groaning and panting hard as he rammed inside of me

For once I gave in. I gave in to the voice in my head I lost everything and everyone I cared about, because I cared more for them than they ever cared for me.

This is so sad 😩😩

Just so y'all know, I added the ending part of this chapter because I was a bit conflicted about the ending part, I had so many possible endings but I couldn't pick one 😩😩

The last part of this chapter kind of helped me

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