They all had finally calmed down and everyone wasn't looking somber, but the whole atmosphere was still very much sad and somber.

Matteo had leaned his back on Spade's desk, he didn't think his legs could carry him to stand any longer, and Su had cleaned the tears on her face.

The one that looked more composed was Spade, hut he was the one least composed internally as his insides felt like jello.

He didn't even think he would be able to stand after hearing what he just heard. He just found out Nate was physically and sexually abused as a kid, that was too much for him to take in.

He'd been physically abused himself as a kid, but sexually, he couldn't even imagine what it felt like and how Nate was able to still look so cool and collected after going through something like that at his age.

He was not even a teenager yet and he was raped, fuck, Spade was breathing hard, infact he didn't think he could classify what he was doing as breathing.

He wanted to know who this person was that had done this to Nate, but Su still wasn't done talking. "Nate told me to come to you if I couldn't reach him, three days ago I noticed something strange in the coffee shop were I work, I didn't think of it as anything but after a day of watching, I realized someone was following me, watching me" she paused looking at Matteo and the Spade. "I just knew something was wrong, so I tried calling Nate, he didn't pick up, I texted and he didn't reply my texts, at first I thought he was mad at me for what I had said to him when he came to see me, but after calling him for more than a day without getting any response, I realized something had happened, so I found a way and lost the person following me, so I could come here and meet Nate face to face, but to my greatest surprise, he wasn't at his apartment, it was locked, his car was still in front of the building, and he hadn't shown up at work either"

Spade sighed out and clenched his jaw, hearing the things she was saying, he didn't need to be told again for him to know that indeed Nate was missing, but he just let her finish. "I think... I think that man took Nate, and my father know where he is" she finally said it.

This made Spade to almost stumble back, before he composed himself, he felt this heaviness settle in his chest, even though they were not together and he was kind of angry at Nate before, it didn't excuse the fact that he still cared greatly about the young man, and hearing everything that his sister just said, made him even feel shitty for not seeing these things.

Nate had been his boyfriend for more than a month and he didn't even know this about him, what did he even know about the young man? He asked himself

"This man, if you see him, would you recognize him" Matteo was the first to ask the question Spade had been dying to ask since she started talking.

Her green eyes moved from Spade and landed on the blonde, before she nodded.

Spade didn't say anything, he didn't think he could say anything without breaking down mentally at this point, or lose his shit But the anger inside him had intensified, all the shit he'd have to do over the past weeks, since he walked out on Nate, the tinge of guilt he was feeling for not being there and Nate had been taken, the anger and sadness he felt while listening to Nate's sister.

He clenched his jaw and started walking towards the door when Matteo's voice stopped him "Where are you going"? The blonde asked, and without looking back, he spoke

"To find Greg" he gritted out, but Matteo was quick to rush in front of him, placing his palm on the man's chest

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, Spade you have to calm down okay, you can't go finding Greg like this" Matteo muttered and Spade just clenched his jaw, narrowing his hard glare on the blonde.

He could do whatever the fuck he wanted to do, he didn't need Matteo telling him shit He shrugged Matteo's hand off his chest "get the fuck out of my way Matteo, didn't you hear what she just said"? He almost growled out, and Matteo sighed out, being the level headed one between the both of then, he had to put a stop to this.

"I heard her Spade and I get it if you want to bring in Greg, but you can't go like this, you're angry and pissed off, you'll kill him if you find him, and if you kill him we won't be able to find Nate" he said calmly, almost making Spade's to scoff.

He hated how Matteo was so calm about all of this, while he was boiling inside, he was a wreck and complete mess. The only thing he recognized now was the rage inside of him, and he wanted to satiate it so bad

"He's right" Su's small voice sounded behind him, making him grit his teeth, he closed his eyes and sighed out deeply, calming his racing heart and trying his best to cage the beast already wanting to come out inside of him.

"Gio, look at me" Matteo muttered, and he opened his eyes and met with blue, soothing and almost ocean like eyes, instantly making him relax a bit "I'm going to take Bernie and we'll find Greg and bring him here, you're gonna wait for us with her" Matteo explained, he sighed out before he nodded in defeat.

This was why Matteo was his underboss, the blonde always had so much control over things, especially when it came to things of emotions like this. The blonde nodded before his eyes landed on Su behind Spade

"Don't let him out of your sight" he muttered and she nodded before he left, walking out the door and leaving Spade there with Nate's sister.

He turned around and walked towards the couch, he could see the way she was staring at him, or more like watching him, as if he would snap and do something but he didn't even know if that would happen.

Yes he felt the urge to go out the door and get Greg himself but what then? What would he do then? What if Greg refused to tell them where Nate was? How was he even sure Greg knew where Nate was?

He was slowly losing his mind, he didn't even know he was bouncing his legs up and down, not until Nate's sister pointed it out to him. "Wow, and I thought Nate was fidgety when he was nervous, you're much worse" she muttered making him look at her, as she gestured to his leg that was bouncing up and down, which he stopped quickly "We're gonna find him" she whispered and he almost scoffed.

What if they didn't? He couldn't even begin to imagine what this man Su had been talking about would do to Nate, what if they were too late?

He cussed out lowly and ran his hands through his hair, it had grown over the past two week and so did his beards.

He should have listened to Nate, when he asked Spade to give him a chance to explain, he should have fucking listened to him. He had once again fucked his own life with his hands, why was he so angry that he said all those things?

He had handled Garcia quite well and no damaged was done, Nate deserved a chance to explain himself and Spade didn't give him that, he was blinded by rage.

He even threatened to kill Nate, oh God. He let out a shaky breath as his chest tightened with a familiar ache, he relaxed on the couch, but everything was still just as hot, and his mind was in so many different places all at once

"Why didn't he ever tell me"? Spade whispered out, and Su just turned to look at him "Why didn't he ever tell me your father was abusing him? Why didn't he ever tell me about what this man did to him"? He turned and looked at her, seeing the soft and tender look in her eyes, almost as if she was pitying him "we were together for over a month and he never told me" he whispered out

She gave him a pointed look "I've known Nate all my life and he never told me, I had to find out myself" she said matter-of-fact before she sighed out and scooted closer to Spade "He probably didn't want you to judge him or see him as some charity case that needed pity, Nate's like that, he likes to carry his pain and burden alone" she further said

Spade swallowed as his mind went to something that happened when he'd just met Nate, the thing that made them get closer with each other, after hearing Su explain those things about Nate, he began suspecting something, but he wanted to confirm it from her "After growing up, your father did he..." He paused, not knowing how to put it but Su already knew, so she finished it for him.

"Yes he did, he never really stopped" she said confirming it for him as he sucked in a harsh breath

"Oh my God" he whispered out, running his hands down his face, stopping at his bushy beards.

Only now did he realize that the day he had met Nate at his apartment beaten and bloodied, almost dead, it was his father that did that to him That was why he always avoided the topic whenever Spade mentioned it.

He had been so blind that he didn't see all these, he didn't notice the little things. Like how Nate was always nervous when it was about his father, especially the night he had met the man when Spade drove him there.

Spade sighed out and rested his head on the couch, shutting his eyes. What has he done? He had fucked up big time, he failed to notice the things he should about Nate, and he let his anger blind him and shut the young man out.

"You know it's not your fault right"? She asked as she looked at him closely and he just shook his head, she didn't get it, it was his fucking fault.

He failed to listen to Nate, he was a fool for letting that thing get in between them. She didn't know half the things he said to Nate, things he couldn't take back, that was eating him up with guilt.

He pulled himself from the couch and was about to say something, when the door opened and Bernie and Matteo walked in. Bernie didn't seem curious, but his eyes moved from Spade and landed on Su, who quickly ducked her head as she looked away from him, his eyes moved from her hair and her face down to the rest of her body, before he looked back at Spade and lowered his head in respect.

"He's at the lower level of the club" Matteo muttered and Spade sighed out, before he turned to look at Su who was still looking at her fingers, as if she didn't just hear that her father had been brought in

"Do you mind"? He asked, and only now did she look up, as he eyes moved from him to Matteo before she shook her head, completely avoiding Bernie.

"No I... Uhm... You should go, I'll just wait here" she whispered out before looking away from Spade, he sighed out and turned and looked at Bernie

"Stay with her" he ordered and Bernie just looked at her before he nodded, Spade moved his attention to Matteo before he got up "let's go" he muttered.

They both walked out of the office, with Spade having one thing in mind, he was so going to enjoy what he was about to do to Greg, he'd been waiting for something like this for a while

And it took Nate missing for him to actually be able to do it, he walked past the first corridor and took the next left turn, before heading down the stairs that led to the lower level of the club, he always has one in ever building he owns.

Even the apartment where Nate lived at, it was so if there was an emergency and he needed somewhere that would hold whoever he caught, and now it was proving useful.

He walked down the stairs and down another long dark corridor, before he stepped through the door, and came in contact with the huge bars, same as the one in his mansion

He pulled it open and stepped inside the cell, while Matteo followed behind him, standing just by his side, he saw the way Greg looked at him smugly, his face looked bloody and Spade turned around to look at Matteo who just shrugged, as if it was a normal thing, making Spade to want to smirk, but there was nothing amusing about how he was feeling at the moment.

He turned back to look at Greg and the man smiled, his teeth bloody "Spade, nice of you to finally drop by" he muttered and Spade just clenched his jaw, resisting the urge to punch that smug look of his face. "And you too Matteo" he said making the blonde to growl out

"Shut up Greg" he spat as the man laughed, titling his head back on the chair he was tied in

He regained himself back and looked at Matteo "that's no way to address your father Teo" he said, expecting to see shock in their eyes but they looked just as angry and pissed off as they looked when they just stepped into the cell.

Slowly but surely his smirk was replaced with a questioning look, as he looked at both men, seeing the smirk appearing on Spade's face, which quickly disappeared as quickly as it came.

"What? You didn't think you could use that to surprise us both did you"? Spade asked and Greg just looked even more shocked, Spade walked towards him and placed his hand on either side of the arm of the chair, before he leaned in and looked at Greg in the eyes "I watched you rape my mother and I've been waiting for so long to make you pay for it, and you just made it a whole lot easier for me"

Okay, we're getting somewhere 😩😩

Also who else thinks I should do a mash up between Suzy (Nate's sister) and Bernie? 😜😜😜