Clicking of shoes was heard on the marbled floor as the door opened and he walked in, Nate laid on the bed, almost lifeless, although his legs had been released, his hands were still bound to the bed post, with his head facing the other side, he didn't bother turning to see who it was because he already knew who it was.

He'd been motionless like that for the past 24 hours, not moving or saying anything, he wasn't even reacting to anything done to him. After that man had touched him, he still had a little fight in him, but with every other day for the past five days that he had come to do the same thing over and over again to him, he slowly lost a part of himself.

The part that wanted to fight to get out of that awful place, he didn't think he had the fight in him anymore. He just laid there day in, day out, waiting for whenever he would come to touch him. He didn't even care if the man wanted to kill him, that would even be better because laying down there, he was already dead inside.

And everyday the man made sure to remind him how unwanted he was, telling him no one would come save him, not even Spade. He'd stopped eating the previous day, hoping he'd die of starvation, that was far better than what he was suffering

He heard the man sit down on the chair, he could tell because he heard the creaking sound. "They told me you refused to eat last night" he stated, Nate just stared at the open space in front of him. "You know I'm not going to force you to eat, I don't care if you eat or not, you're not a guest here, you're leverage" the man added.

Not that he wasn't listening to what was being said to him, but he didn't really care "You no eating is not gonna stop me from fucking that little hole of yours" he said, his voice taunting Nate, but he barely reacted to it "oh and before I forget, I've been meaning to let you in on something, your daddy dearest is dead" this made Nate to finally react as he whipped his head to the side, his eyes meeting with one damaged eyes and one good eye holding an evil glint, with a smirk on his lips "Yes Natey, I killed your father, and your boyfriend is next, and then your sister, I'm gonna take everything and everyone you love away from you" he taunted, watching as Nate's eyes began to gloss over.

What did he ever do to this man? Yes he get that his father had done something unspeakable to his sister, but he was not his father and he didn't deserve to suffer for his sins.

And hearing that the man had killed his father, he wasn't a big fan or supporter of his father but the man was the only parent he had left, after this same hideous man had killed his mother, and now his father too.

Now he realized the man wasn't joking at all, and he meant it when he said he'd kill the people Nate cared about. He just prayed he couldn't get to Su, she was the most vulnerable of all the people he cared about, Spade could take care of himself, he owned a mafia, but not knowing how evil this man was, was actually very dangerous for Spade, because he'd keep letting this man into his inner circle and handing him information about himself on a platter of gold.

"It's nothing personal, I just like to see that sad, painful look in your eyes, it makes me feel thrilled, and I also want to watch Spade beg on his knees when he realizes that I have you in my custody before I kill him" he added, tilting his lips up on the side in a sadistic, evil smile.

Making his face even more hideous than it originally looked. Nate swallowed hard as he started taking in shallow breaths.

He just wanted all this to end, he wished he was never born and that too to his father. His luck would never have been this bad. All his life he'd been suffering, from one thing to another, and when he met Spade that he thought everything was finally going okay and perfect, it gets ruined again.

And he finds himself back where he never wished to be, at the mercies if this heartless man who would stop at nothing to make his life miserable.

He felt his throat fill with a huge lump, and his eyes already brimming with tears, but he would not give him the satisfaction of seeing him cry, instead he just turned his head and faced the blank empty space on the wall, drowning out the man's words and his existence all together.

*****

It had been over four days since Salvatore walked into his club and killed Greg, four days since he found out the man was responsible for everything that had gone wrong with his business and alliance with other mafia.

And he still had no lead, not even on police radar, everything was just radio silence and it was killing him, it was driving him uts because he couldn't stand it.

He felt incompetent and completely useless, what use was the power he had if he couldn't even use it to save the man he loved, of course it was pointless.

Nate was out there going through God knows what and he was just there, doing nothing about it. He ran his hands down his face as he let out a deep breath.

He grabbed the glass on his table wanting to drink it's content, only to realize it was empty, he looked at it and frowned before he looked at the bottle of whiskey on his table, it was also completely finished, he sighed out, he didn't want to leave the bed to go get another whiskey and he needed another bottle, to drown the pain inside of him.

To lessen the guilt that was eating deep inside his heart. He wanted to numb the pain, to go back to how he used to be before he met Nate, but it wasn't that easy.

It wasn't a switch he could turn off once turned on, not when Nate had made him feel, had made him know and see what it was like to feel things.

He sat on the bed, resting his head on his palms as he groaned out, his hair was a mess as it had grown over the last couple of weeks, some were even going haywire as they fell on his face

He heard his door opened up and he didn't bother looking up, instead he just stayed there as he heard footsteps, until he saw from between his palms bright light illuminating his room.

"This place smells like crap" Matteo's voice made him slowly open his face and eyes as he looked at the blonde who was moving away from the window he just opened, he groaned as the light hit his face "And you look like shit" he added, making Spade to just give him a blank look

He stopped at the table where the bottle of whiskey and glass was, he scanned the empty bottle, his eyes resting on the half smoked cigarettes there as he frowned and scrunched up his nose, before looking at Spade and cocking his brows.

"What do you want Matteo"? He asked, his groggy and croaky voice making the blonde to snicker as he gave Spade a ridiculous look

"First of all, how long are you going to keep being like this? And second you haven't left this room in days, even Su is worried about you, she's been asking me to bring her to you..." Spade quickly cuts him off

"I don't want to see her, or anyone"

"Why? Spade, you can't keep doing this to yourself, it's not helping anyone" matter said softly

"What do you want me to tell her Matteo, that I haven't been able to find Nate? It's been six days now, and that's talking about when we found out, we don't know how long he'd been missing before we realized it, and you want me to see her, when I can't find him? What kind of a Don would that make me? What kind of a boyfriend would that make me"? He asked, his voice sounding almost desperate and filled with despair "I know, an incompetent one, Matteo I can't even find Nate in this city, I can't save the man I love" he voiced out in a whisper

This made Matteo to just sighed out as he moved to the side of Spade on the bed, plopping down on it, he interlocks his fingers together, while looking at the space in front of him

"Spade no one is thinking you're incompetent, you're trying your best and everybody sees it, doing this won't help you or Nate, locking yourself up.... Spade was quick to cut him off

"No, you don't get it, it's all my fault" he whispered looking at Matteo "I pushed him away, I said things to him that I should never have said, and now he's gone and I can't take it back" he said, his voice shaky at the end and his eyes showing just how much pain he was feeling.

All Nate wanted was for Spade to just listen to him, and he didn't. "If I had stayed one more minute to listen to him, he'd still be here"

Matteo sucked on his inner cheek "Spade it's not your fault, you have to stop blaming yourself"

"It's my fault Matteo, and Nate will never forgive me, I turned my back on him because I was blinded by rage, and now he's out there suffering" Spade whispered out, his eyes looked as if he wanted to cry, but there were no tears in them, just a huge lump that he swallowed before looking away from Matteo

The blonde sighed out, before placing his hands on Nate's thighs, giving it a gentle squeeze "Spade, Nate will forgive you, he's a very kind hearted person and I don't think he's going to blame you for what happened, you have to stop blaming yourself and let me tell you why I came here" Matteo told him, he swallowed again before he nodded, waiting for the blonde to talk.

He just wanted Matteo to talk and leave him alone, it wasn't like he was truly going to stop blaming himself, because he knew it was his fault, and the only way to supress this guilt inside of him was to keep telling himself that it was his fault, if he didn't push Nate away, he'd have noticed when the young man was taken.

"The van we were told circled Nate's apartment right before he was taken was spotted somewhere outside town today" Matteo said, making Spade to turn abruptly to look at him, his eyes showing complete interest and a little bit of hope.

"Are you sure"? He asked and Matteo just nodded

"Affirmative, it was the same van, same number, color and it was seen at an abandoned building" Matteo explained, seeing the array of hope in Spade's eyes as his grey eyes lit up

"Where"? He asked

"Around one of the docks Liam used to own which now belongs to his uncle, the building is just opposite the dock, it's well hidden and can only be seen upon close inspection" Matteo explained band Spade was quick to get up from the bed.

This kind of made Matteo to feel a tad bit happy, he hadn't seen Spade like this since Nate went missing. "Gather everyone, and while you're at it place a call across to Stefano" Spade said, immediately causing Matteo to frown remembering he hadn't seen Stefano since that day at Spade's gym

"What are you going to do"? Matteo's asked, making Spade stop halfway through the bathroom, he turned and looked at Matteo

"I'm going to get my boyfriend back" he said with so much determination in his voice, for once since four days he was finding a flicker of hope Inside of him, and he wanted to nurture it and make it grow because wherever Nate was, he needed that.

Matteo just nodded while he walked into the bathroom, shutting the door, he began with his hair first, he'd trim the crazy edges and then he'd take care of his beards and get a good shower, he looked homeless

Hold on Nate, I'm coming for you, he had thought to himself as he started on his hair He was determined that he'd get Nate back, and this time it was stronger, he felt it in his bones that he'd get Nate back.

And he was going to need all the help he could get.

Alright, I hope they get Nate back too 😩

Hold on Nate, we're coming for you 😩

I'll have to stop here for tonight, apparently my phone is draining fast😩😩, which is super annoying.

But I promise by tomorrow, you'll have the complete chapter of Spade uploaded 😜😜