The drive was one of the longest Spade had ever had to endure in his entire life, he kept taking quick glances at Nate on his thighs, at a point he thought the young man had finally given in to his wounds, but the shallow breath that left his slightly parted lips, gave Spade a small but of hope

He didn't know he was this impatient, not until he had to sit in the back of the car with Nate as he watched Matteo drive, it was as though the blonde wasn't even driving fast at all.

But after the unending and torturing drive, they finally arrived at the hospital, he didn't even wait for Matteo to help him out before he got out of the car and scooped Nate up bridal style, rushing him into the hospital.

For once he was grateful he'd settle his issue with Garcia, because now he didn't have to go through the excruciating stress of answering stupid questions from the cops about how Nate got shot or whatnot.

He kicked the doors open as he rushed into the hospital, with Matteo right behind him, one of the nurses noticed him and rushed towards him as the other brought out a stretcher, he placed Nate on it gently, while he followed them as they wheeled him in "What happened to him sir"? One of the nurses asked

"He was shot" he rushed out, as he watched Nate's closed eyes, he looked almost lifeless laying down there, by now more than two nurses had surrounded the stretcher as they wheeled Nate closer to the room, one of them stepped up and placed her hand on Spade's chest

"Sir, I'm sorry but you can't go past this point, we're going to take it from here" she mutttered, he growled out about to oppose when Matteo shoved his phone inside his pocket and rushed towards them, placing his hand on Spade's shoulders

"Gio" he rushed pulling Spade away from the nurse, as he stood between them "let them take care of him okay" he whispered, watching as Spade clenched his jaw and shrugged Matteo's hands off his body, turning around and running his hands through his hair.

He couldn't calm down, infact there was nothing to be calm about what was going on now, he was scared, he was fucking scared. Even his hands were shaking beside him, he felt like if he stopped pacing the hall, his legs would give up and he would pass out.

He was sloppy, for one minute he was sloppy and now Nate's life was on the line, he let out a deep breath as he tried to steady his heartbeat. He was sweating, his brain was just so very confused right now.

He didn't know what to feel, he hadn't even gotten a chance to properly talk to Nate and now he didn't know if the young man was going to be okay.

This was all his fault, he pulled at his hair, wanting to groan out in frustration, when Matteo stood behind him "Spade, you need to relax" he muttered

Spade just turned to look at him sharply as he cocked his brows at the blonde "relax? You want me to fucking relax"? He asked as his voice had gone up, while he gave Matteo the most ridiculous look ever "Nate is in there and I don't even know if he'll be fine, and you're asking me to relax"? He snapped

Matteo's just clenched his jaw and sighed "I know it's not easy, but being like this won't help him, just sit down and calm yourself down, Nate is a fighter and I know he's going to be okay" Matteo said calmly, Spade let out a shaky breath as he shut his eyes and swallowed hard.

Of course he knew Nate was a fighter and would no doubt overcome this, but it still didn't excuse the fact that this was all his fault. He sighed out and opened his eyes, meeting with Matteo's blue, calm ones. He gritted his teeth together before he walked towards the chair there and sat himself on it, Matteo followed behind him and sat beside him on the chair.

He placed his face in his hands as he bounced his legs up and down uneasily. He was really trying not to break down at that moment, it wouldn't be good if Nate woke up and he was in the hospital bed himself.

"Su called" Matteo finally muttered out, making him to bring his face out of his hand as he looked at the blonde "Bernie told her what happened, she called to ask where we'd taken him, I gave Bernie the address, he's probably bringing her here now" Matteo finished, making Spade to let out a deep breath and face in front of him.

That was another thing he had to deal with, how would he face her, after he had promised he'd bring Nate back safe, being shot and on the verge of death didn't exactly classify as safe.

"Spade" Matteo called, and Spade just turned to look at him, the blonde sighed out "Stefano shot the man who shot Nate" he said making Spade's gaze to cut to his, sitting in an upright position, now looking at Matteo with keen interest "he was one of Sullivan's men" Matteo muttered out, causing Spade to clench his jaw

So that bastard still didn't back out, even after he warned him, he balled his hands into a fist, just then the doors flew open and a very frantic and breathless Su, she rushed towards where Spade was seated and he didn't even have the strength to get up, thank God for Matteo who got up and pulled her closer to him

"Where is he"? She asked and Matteo swallowed

"In the theatre" Matteo muttered out, she gasped out before her eyes landed on Spade, who seemed to be out of it, he didn't even notice she had crouched down to his level until she wrapped her hands around him, making him tense up, as he froze, he gently wrapped his own hands around her, not realizing how much he needed that.

The steps of the doctor broke their little bubble, causing both Spade and Su to spring up from the chair and approach the young man in white scrubs. "Are you families of the young man in the theatre"? He asked

"Yes doctor, how is he"? Spade asked and the doctor sighed out

"Well for now he's stable, he's still unconscious but he's fever has gone down and we've been able to pull out the bullet, thankfully, nothing serious was damaged, and he'll be up in a few hours" the doctor explained, causing all of them to sigh out in relief.

But Spade was the more grateful as he felt the tension in his shoulders ease themselves, he could finally breath as he felt his fingers unclench themselves

He let out a deep breath "But you'll have to fill out some paperwork at the front desk" he added making them to nod, Su was already standing by Matteo's side who had his hands wrapped around her shoulders, she looked just as relieved as Spade

The doctor was about to leave when Su stopped him "when can we see him"? She asked and the doctor just shrugged.

"You can go see him now, but be sure not to wake him up, he's in room 215" the doctor explained and Su nodded, before her eyes left the retreating back of the doctor and landed on Spade.

"Do you wanna go first"? She asked and Spade just looked at her before he sighed out

"No, you go first, I'll go after you" he muttered, as much as he wanted to go see Nate, he didn't know what he would say, and really he was scared of seeing Nate connected to those tubes, he knew eventually he'd have to see the young man, but he needed a few seconds to gather himself together

He watched as she walked away towards the room the doctor had told them, they could see it from where they stood, he watched her tenderly open the door as she stepped into the room.

He swallowed hard and sighed out. He was calm yes, but he was a ball of nerves, he didn't even know when he started walking towards the room, the same direction Su just walked in.

He stopped in front of the window as he watched them. His heart broke when he saw Nate attached to so many tubes, but he looked peaceful, wearing the hospital checkered gown, Su held on to his hands as she talked inaudibly.

He couldn't hear them but he could see the sad smile on her face. He let out a shaky breath, his heart was beating fast, as he felt himself slip from the real world to a world of pain and fear.

He couldn't stand to lose this young man he was looking through the glass. And when he was close to calming himself down he saw the way Su sprang up from her seat, she looked very alarmed, causing him to rush towards the door, she was already rushing out "What's wrong"? He asked, she didn't answer, she just rushed towards the reception area and yelled at a nurse to come quickly.

Spade looked in through the door and the machine connected to Nate was making a long, thin sound. He didn't know what was happening, but it didn't feel nice, a nurse brushed past him as they rushed into the room.

Yelling to the other nurse "get the doctor, he's flatlining" she rushed out before she gently led Spade out of the room, he was no fool. Nate flatlining meant he was....dying.

He just started going out of breath as he was sucking in air, gasping for air as he watched them run in and out of the room where Nate was in.

His vision was going blurry, his chest felt tight as he tried to breath, he felt Su stand beside him, but he wasn't focused on that, he couldn't focus on anything.

His mind was in a mess, as was his whole body His hands were shaking, his legs wanted to give up, he suddenly felt wobbly.

Everything was threatening to spill out, he felt like throwing up, his stomach churned as he tried to push it back. Is this what fear felt like? It wasn't a good feeling at all, and he never wanted to feel it again, in the past 24 hours, he's felt fear more than once.

The doors opened and the doctor walked towards them, causing Spade and Matteo who had joined them in front of Nate's room, to rush towards the doctor

"How is he"? Matteo asked first, Spade didn't trust himself to speak, so Instead he just watched, the doctor had a somber look on his face, as he looked from Matteo to Spade, and then Su. This didn't help Spade's feeling at all at the moment.

He was on edge and tense "well we tried all we could, we were able to stabilize him, hut he went into coma"

That was the only think Spade remembered hearing as his breathing became shallow, coma? he let out a shaky breath as he gasped for air discreetly, his brain felt too crowded and his chest was caving in

"What do you mean he's in coma"? Spade didn't even recognize his own voice as it came out hard and had a bite of venom to it.

The doctor swallowed, obviously scared to his core at the hard look Spade was giving him, he looked at Matteo who had the same look on, and then Su, who was close crying, her eyes already glossed over "Well he went into coma after his body went into shock" the doctor tried to explain, causing Spade to growl out

"You said he was okay and would wake up in a few hours"? Spade growled out, taking a step towards the doctor, who cowered back, Matteo quickly placed his hand on Spade's chest, stopping him.

He looked up at the man "Spade" he muttered shaking his head, as Spade clenched his jaw, he wanted to kill someone

"Yes sir, I did but... I didn't know he would go into shock" he stuttered out, Su who had been quiet since, spoke up, her voice croaky and shaky, tears were already dropping from her eyes.

"How long till he wakes up" she whispered out, the doctor looked at her before he sighed out

"I don't know miss, it might be a day, two, a week or even a month, it all depends on how strong his will is to fight" he whispered out, causing Su to gasp out as more tears felt.

Spade had already drowned out the rest of the man's remaining words as he fisted his hands by his side, clenching his jaw, he turned around facing the glass that showed Nate's room.

He looked at the young man one last time, gritting his teeth, he walked away from there and headed outside, Matteo rushed behind him "Spade where are you going"? He asked and Spade just clenched his jaw before he turned around and faced Matteo

"There's something I need to do, keep an eye on Nate for him, I'll be back soon, take care of him Matteo" he muttered out, seeing the way the blonde frowned at him

"Spade, what are you going to do"? He asked almost alarmed, as he took two steps closer to Spade "you're supposed to stay by his side, he needs you now more than ever" Matteo rushed out

"I can't be here knowing I didn't do anything to get justice for him, I can't let him be here while Sullivan is out there having the blast of his life, he put Nate there and I'm going to make him wish he never existed" Spade gritted out, causing Matteo to sigh out, about to open his mouth to speak when Spade cut him off "Don't try to stop me Matteo, this is something I have to do, just look after him for me until I get back" he muttered before he started walking towards the exit.

"Don't get yourself killed Spade" Matteo yelled out and Spade didn't say anything, he just pushed the double doors and stepped out of the hospital.

Okayyy It's getting interesting and fun guys

Three chapters left till end