Spade sighed out still looking at Nate, he gently brought his hand and tried to hold Nate's hand, but the young man just shrugged it off, trying to move away from Spade

"Baby what's wrong"? He asked, watching as Nate snickered and scrunched his nose up, he turned to look at Spade with disbelief dancing in his eyes.

"Are you seriously asking me that" Nate whispered out, and Spade sighed before he sat down on the bedside beside Nate

"I'm sorry" he whispered, causing Nate to scoff, Spade didn't know what else to say at that point, that was all he could come up with, he really didn't have any excuse to give. "I know I should have listened to you, I shouldn't have left that day" he added, this didn't even seem to pacify Nate as he only turned further away from Spade.

Spade grabbed both his hands and held them firmly "please look at me Nate" he whispered, his voice sounded as if he was close to tears, but Nate wasn't sure someone like Spade was capable of crying.

Not that he wanted Spade to cry, infact he had already forgiven the man but he just wanted him to feel bad about what he did, it wasn't completely right.

"I've been staring at your closed eyes for the past one month, I want to look into your eyes, please" he whispered out shakily, as he brought Nate's hand up and kissed it gently, the wetness caused Nate's eyes to snap at him, he was used to Spade doing that while he was unconscious, and even though he was trying to act mad, it warmed his heart.

Seeing those brown eyes look at him, Spade felt his tensed up shoulders ease up, he swallowed hard, pushing the lump away but the tears stinging at his eye lids were something he couldn't just push away, maybe he needed to let them all out. "I'm sorry about everything I said to you, I didn't mean any of it, I know I should have listened to you and not say anything of those things to you..." He paused, swallowing again "I let my anger to blind me to the things you had been through, how strong you are, and I will never forgive myself for those things I said to you, I don't deserve your forgiveness and I don't deserve a second chance from you" he swallowed, but before he could stop it, the first tear dropped, landing on Nate's hand as his eyes grew wide. "But I love you Nathan, I love you so much that I'd rather die than be without you, my life has been miserable since you weren't in it and now I realized that you are my life, and without you I don't have a life" he whispered out, his voice croaky and trembling..

Nate could already feel his resolve falter as he stared at Spade who had tears dropping from his eyes.

Never did he think something like this was possible, but it was happening and he didn't know how to feel about it. "Spade..." He whispered but Spade quick to cut him off as he placed his hands on Nate's lip

"Shhhh, let me finish baby" he whispered, sniffing loudly "I'm sorry I didn't realize how much pain you had been through and I just let you go like that, nothing I say will excuse my act towards you...." He did something Nate didn't expect as he got up and went down on his knees, causing Nate to gasp out as he tried to pull him up "Give me another chance baby, and I swear on my mother's grave that I will and cherish you with everything I have, I've never loved anyone the way I love you, and I want you to be with me forever" he whispered out.

Nate sighed out feeling the wetness on his own cheek too "Spade, I'm tainted, that man... The things..." Spade cut him off again, this time he stretched before placing his index finger on Nate's lips.

"I don't care what he did to you, it doesn't matter, I love you and that's all that matters, whatever he did to you, doesn't change how I feel about you" he explained, causing Nate to swallow as his own tears were now uncontrollable.

Nate pulled himself up from the bed before he tried to pull Spade up, he complied and sat on the bed before Nate buried his face into Spade's chest, feeling his sobs wreck through his body softly, soaking Spade's shirt.

Spade own tears were dropping on Nate's head as he rested his chin on Nate's head, he shut his eyes and just let it fall.

"I love you" Nate mumbled against his chest, he pulled away and looked at Nate's eyes, cupping his face as he gently rested his lips on Nate's lips, the kiss was gentle and not hot. It wasn't filled with need, but it was soft and intoxicating nonetheless. Making Nate to moan out lowly, Spade pulled away as he peered down at Nate's eyes

"I love you so much baby" he rasped out before Nate pulled him closer and crashed his lips on Spade's.

****

"I can't believe I'm finally leaving this place" Nate muttered as he pulled the shirt over his head, the doctors had asked him to stay back another week to be fully cleared, and after eating dumb hospital food and the stupid soup Su always brought to him, he was finally going home.

Spade had crossed the room and wrapped his hands around Nate's waist, pulling him closer, he pecked his lips before he pulled away. "And I can't believe I'll finally have you in my bed tonight" Spade rasped causing Nate to hit his chest lightly, a bright red blush appearing on his face

"I hate you" he muttered, trying to glare at Spade and the man just chuckled, before pushing a few strands of Nate's hair away from his face

"And I love you so much my Cucciolotto" he muttered, his smile slowly faded as he looked down at Nate seriously now "What about what we discussed three days ago"? Spade asked and he saw the way Nate frowned and sighed out deeply "You know it's okay if you don't want to go, I don't want you to feel pressured"

"No it's fine, I don't feel pressured at all, I want to do this, I have to, else he'll still have power over me" Nate muttered, causing Spade to smile sweetly at him before he pecked his lips

"This is why I love you, you're so adorable and smart" Spade muttered "come on let's go" he interlocked his fingers with Nate before leading him out of the ward

They didn't take too long before they arrived back at the mansion, Nate had missed it so much, it still looked pretty much the same and it felt the same, but better.

Spade grabbed his hand and squeezed lightly "you ready baby"? He asked and Nate sighed out before he nodded

"I'm ready" he whispered, Spade just looked at him skeptically, he smiled warmly at Spade before he squeezed back at the man's hand "I'm fine Spade okay, let's get this over with" he muttered before Spade sighed out and they both stepped out of the car.

They made their was into the mansion as Spade led the way, taking Nate into the basement and down the cell there.

The moment they entered into the cell, he felt Nate tense up as his hand clutching onto Spade's hand tightened, he swallowed hard as he watched the man that had tormented his life for no reason, looking almost dead as he was tied to a chair

His face was bruised and he had grown thin from the last time Nate had seen him, but he still had that lopsided grin on his face as he stared at Nate "I see you finally gathered the nerves and balls to come down here" he taunted, causing Spade to clench his jaw, as Nate's hand only tightened around his, he didn't want Nate to come down here, but Nate had insisted that he wanted to see Salvatore, said he wanted to tell him something. "Are you just gonna stand there and mop at me like a fool"? He gritted out in mockery as he looked Nate up and down, and for the first time, Nate didn't cower away or feel disgusted. On the contrary he felt even bolder standing there "This why I fucked your little hole" he snapped.

Spade growled wanting to launch at him but Nate pulled him back, shaking his head at Spade, who immediately calmed down Nate looked back at Salvatore before he opened his mouth "I forgive you Salvatore" he muttered out, watching as he frowned slightly, but he masked it with a snicker

"What the fuck are you on about"?

"I forgive you for everything you did to me" Nate said, shocking both Spade and Salvatore as both of them stared at him in awe He felt light-hearted the moment he said those words, he smiled cause now he finally felt free

He heard Salvatore grumble but instead of him to react, he just turned to look at Spade, smiling the same smile, before he walked out of the cell

Spade couldn't understand why he had done that, so he rushed behind Nate who didn't waste anytime in heading for Spade's own house.

The moment he stepped in, Spade followed behind him "what'd you do that for"? Spade asked and Nate just smiled and shrugged.

"What? Forgive him"? He asked and Spade just nodded. "Because that was the only way I could be completely free of him, now he holds no power over me, I don't have to think about him or what he did to me" Nate explained, causing Spade's chest to swell as he looked at Nate in admiration

This young man had really changed his life, and he would still change his life more, all he needed to do was love Nate, care for him and stick by him. He crossed the small space between them and grabbed Nate's hip, digging his fingers into it before he crashed his lips on the young man's, kissing him with so much urgency, sucking and biting on his lips at the same time, his hands went down and grabbed Nate's perfect round ass.

He pulled away and saw how red and swollen Nate's lips were as he was breathing hard, a smile on his face "What was that for"? He asked chuckling lightly

"For being such an amazing person, and for being mine, I love you so much Nate"

Nate smiled before he pecked Spade's lips again "I love you too Gio"

Gio felt happiness he'd never felt before in his life, he felt light and fulfilled. He had everything he ever needed in life, a loving boyfriend, a thriving business and happiness.

The one thing he never thought he could have, Nate got swept into his life as an unexpected surprise, and that surprise turned out to be his greatest gift. The greatest gift life could give to anyone.

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I'm crying guysss😩😩😩

This is so beautiful, although I feel like the ending part was rushed but I didn't want to drag the book longer than necessary.

To all my readers, thank you and I love you all.

Started this book on the 1st of January 2024, it was my first book for the year, and I finished it 3rd March 2024 😩😩.

My longest book so far It had approximately 170 chapters, and is 300,000 words long 😩😩

And I can say it was a wonderful writing this book, I feel sad ending ot

I'm probably going to put up a few bonus chapters, idk 😜😜

But for now, say your sweet temporary goodbyes to Spade and Nate

I said temporary because you'll be seeing then in Matteo and Stefano's book 😜😜

Ciao babies ☺️☺️