He walked out of his bathroom feeling fresh and clean after a very soothing and relaxing shower, with a towel wrapped around his waist securely, water dripping from his hair and droplets on the rest of his body. He made for the walk in closet on the side of his room.

He'd left the club quite early, so he could get ready for his outing with Nate, he didn't wanna call it a date because he didn't even know if that was what it was, he didn't wanna start giving himself ideas or a chance to imagine things. For all he knew Nate might not even think much of it and not that he fully understood what this was, yes he liked Nate but he didn't know why.

He'd grown up knowing he only found women attractive, he's been around men the world would consider as attractive and handsome and none of them had ever sparked an interest in him, not even a small reaction. Which made him to believe he was as straight as they come, but all of a sudden he started feeling a strong attraction to Nate, of course that was something to get confused and unsure about.

Was he attracted to Nate because it was Nate? Or was he always like this but because he didn't bother to explore it, he never knew?

Everything about what he was feeling was making him question himself, question everything he's ever believed in. If he liked Nate, did that make him gay?

He sighed out shaking his head, thinking about it too much was hurting his head, making him stressed out. He wasn't one to overthink, but he'd been doing that lately.

Standing in the middle of his walk in closet, he looked at the clothes hanging up from each hanger, each and every single one was a business outfit. This wasn't a business outing and wearing something as formal as a suit and white buttoned up shirt, was surely going to make Nate think otherwise, he needed to make him as comfortable as he can be.

His eyes moved to the where he had folded shirts and his casual clothes, he didn't have much of those as he rarely ever wore them.

His hands brushed through the clothes as he didn't know what to pick up from the clothes. He stopped on a jean, wanting to pick it up but he stopped himself, he needed something that would be comfortable for him to wear, he brushed past it.

As much as he wanted to make Nate feel comfortable, he himself needed to be comfortable if he wanted to let go today. He pulled out a black slacks, it had the outline of a jean and it even looked like a jean, looking it over he ran his thumb across the soft cotton material, knowing it would be very comfy for him.

He didn't even waste much time before he found a grey turtle neck, pairing it with an equally black jacket. He draped them over the counter and went over to the huge mirror in front, pulling out the drawer there he picked out his hair supplements, making sure to blow dry and style his hair perfectly well, he even took extra time to style his beards, before he walked over to where the clothes were.

He put them on and squatted below the shoe rack, his eyes scanning each row, looking for the perfect shoe, he wanted everything to be perfect. He picked out a white Nike shoes, placing it in front of his foot, he didn't really like that it stood out from the rest of his outfit.

He shook his head and placed it back on the rack, just below it he sighted a black almost similar shoes, he narrowed his eyes pursing his lips in a thin line as he examined it.

Looking at his outfit again, he pulled out the shoe, he wasn't really used to wearing things like this, he was more a tux guy. Before he could rethink his outfit, he quickly put the shoes on and stood up, straightening his jacket.

He stepped out of the closet, shutting the door, he stood in front of the mirror attached to his closet door. Looking himself over, he looked sharp and smart, he felt different in these clothes, it didn't feel like wearing tux. He licked his lips together, before walking towards the table in his bedside, he picked up his wristwatch there and wore it. Pulling out the drawer he picked up his gun, turning the cold metal from hand to hand, he tucked it safely inside his pants in the back before covering it up with his jacket.

He picked up his keys and walked out of the room, he turned his hand around and looked at his wristwatch, it was already 3:30pm. He had less than 30 minutes to get to Nate's place

Even though he'd been trying to distract himself, he was still feeling the slight bubble of excitement settling in the pit of his stomach.

He opened the main door and stepped out of the house, locking it behind him, he strode over to his car and opened it stepping inside. He was using his white Cadillac. It was his favourite car, thank God it wasn't the one he left at the party last night.

He sighed out, placing his hands on the steering, he flexed his fingers, moving it to rid it of the nerves building up inside of him. He blew out a harsh air from his mouth before starting the engine of his car and driving out of the compound.

There were five guys standings guard at the gate, they bowed their heads as his car passed them. He'd tightened security around the mansion since last night. He didn't wanna risk an attack on the mansion.

He drove into deserted road, there were no cars around this part of town, his house was built in a pretty secluded area, just like he wanted. He didn't want any attention on him when he decided to move his business down to New York.

He looked at himself in the mirror in front of him, everything was in place. He wasn't always this bothered about how he looked, of course he knew he was attractive and handsome but with Nate he didn't even know anymore. He could feel his confidence waver, and this had never happened before

In a way he liked how Nate shook his core foundation, everything he'd ever believed in but it scared the shit out of him that Nate had so much power over him, even more than he could understand.

He would do anything for him within a blink of an eye, if only Nate knew how much power he had over him. Around the young man he was always a ball of nerves, emotions he never knew he could feel because of anyone, Nate brought it all out in him.

He swallowed as he focused back on the road, accelerating the car engine to go faster, he could feel the breeze from the AC brush his face, blowing away some of his built up nerves

In less than 15 minutes he was already parked in front of Nate's apartment building. He let out a deep breath for the millionth time as he felt his hands clutched around the steering get moist, clammy and sweaty.

He looked at his wristwatch and it was just 4 minutes left till 4pm. He contemplated calling Nate or just staying here and prepping himself for the small conversation he'd be making with the young man Spade never waits for someone, he was always the one people waited on but sitting in this car, he was waiting for someone. For the first time in his life he was waiting for someone and he wasn't even thinking about that

Nate really was unraveling a lot of things about him It was scary as much as it was exciting. Nate was making him feel, he was making him break a lot of rules that guided his life, and the more scary part of the whole thing was the fact that he was enjoying it, every bit of it. He wanted more, he wanted to explore it even deeper, to see how far he was ready to go for Nate.

He let out one last deep breath, shaking his hands as if that would shake the nerves away, before he opened the car door and stepped out, closing it back he relaxed his back on it. Squinting his eyes at the evening sun, it wasn't hot on his skin but it was too bright and shiny, making him wish he'd brought along a pair of sunglasses.

The double glass doors of the apartment building pushed open as someone stepped out Spade quickly looked closer as he felt all the saliva in his mouth dry up, his mouth was left open slightly as he took in the appearance of the person walking toward him in slow steps.

He felt his fingers twitch at his side, Nate was walking towards him in slow steps as if he was having doubts about being out here, his head was down as he looked very nervous. He was putting on black slacks, white hoodie, his hands shoved into the pocket of the hoodie, white Converse on his feet.

Spade felt himself swallow hard, with Nate's head hanging low, Spade felt himself get even more excited, his dick twitched inside his pants, making it tighten. He clenched his jaw as the need to hide Nate away somewhere far from the world over took him. He didn't even realize Nate had gotten to where he stood, as he slowly raised his head up, his eyes were the first thing that drowned Spade, looking into those brown, honey, innocent eyes that begged to be tainted, he felt like he was drowning, and he didn't even want anyone to save him. He felt his heart beat rise, he feared Nate would hear how hard it was beating.

He resisted the urge to sniff and inhale the sweet scent he could perceive coming from the young man He's never been a fan of colorful cologne, something that had a strong scent, like fruits, but what he was perceiving from Nate was clouding his thoughts, invading his senses and making him lose the little self control he had inside him

His eyes slowly peeled away from Nate's eyes as they landed on his pink lips, they were pulled together, making the lower lips stand out, wet and inviting, Spade's dick twitched again and he almost growled out as Nate slowly raked his teeth through his lower lips. Fuck, the things he wanted to do with those lips, he wanted to be the one grazing his teeth on those lips, and nipping on them.

He cleared his throat before his eyes moved away from Nate's lips and set them on his eyes. "Hey" Nate whispered, the sounds leaving his lips made Spade to clench his jaw, stopping his mind from exploring the things he was already imagining

He opened his mouth to compliment him, to tell Nate how perfect, innocent and breathtakingly handsome he looked but his brain was working against as what cane out was "shall we"? His voice resounded in his own ears as he cursed himself out for not saying what he'd planned to say.

Nate nodded before walking over to the other side of the car, all the while Spade had his eyes set on his back, watching as his butt fit perfectly inside the slacks, giving Spade less to imagine about what they would look like, even better what they would feel like, should he decide to touch them

Nate entered into the car, before Spade followed, the air inside the car shifted, it became tense. He could feel the stiffness oozing off Nate's posture, the young man wasn't exactly relaxed beside him and it wasn't helping his own nerves either

He looked at Nate, smelling the sweet scent of innocence, he so badly wanted to corrupt, he felt the need to taint Nate, to take control of his innocence and bring out the raw desire inside it. "You can relax" he muttered making Nate to look up at him, once again drawing him in with his eyes "I'm not gonna bite you" he muttered seeing as Nate's eyes slowly widened a fraction, he wanted to smirk at the reaction he'd gotten out of the young man, Nate swallowed hard and Spade couldn't help but let his eyes follow the bobbing up and down of his Adam apple, making his own throat dry up as he almost swallowed too. "You ready"? He asked, his voice gentle as Nate nodded, he didn't like that he wasn't saying much, he wanted to hear his voice, the meek and captivating sound that left his mouth whenever he spoke "Words, I need your words" he said before he could stop himself and Nate's lips parted slightly in the middle before he nodded again

"Yeah, I'm ready" he barely let out, his eyes looking scared and lost, it reminded Spade of those who always talked about how puppy eyes got to them, now he understood what they meant by that, because Nate's eyes were unraveling him, he felt bare in front of him, he felt the need to have those eyes on him all the time If only Nate knew the things his eyes did to him.

He was about to look away when his eyes landed on Nate's side, he wasn't putting on his seatbelt. Without even thinking it through, he leaned in closer, his face coming down on Nate, he could see his eyes grow wide, as he moved back with each forward movement Spade made, his eyes darted to Nate's lips as he watched it open a notch, hot air leaving the open space, their faces were just inches apart, and if Spade moved any closer, their lips would touch, their nose were already brushing against each other. Nate's sweet scent wafting through Spade's nose, as he resisted the urge to give in to his desires and capture Nate's lips in a soft and sensual kiss.

He pulled the seatbelt to the other side, and clicked it lock, watching as Nate's eyes settled in realization of what Spade was doing. "Safety first" he whispered, his voice sounding hoarse and thick, conveying everything he was feeling now

The hotness in his veins, the stiffness in his pants. His dick was already growing hard, if he wasn't sitting down Nate would have noticed the budge.

He slowly leaned away, seeing as Nate's whole posture relaxed, he finally let his lips pull itself in a small smile as he turned on the ignition, hearing the car come to life with a small buzzing sound. He turned to look at Nate again, as if asking if he was ready, and the young man nodded his head discreetly, before faced the road and drove away from the building

Tonight's update would be more than double.

And I have a hint for you guys, but I'll drop it at the end of the last chapter I update tonight 😩😩