From the moment Nate entered into the car, his mind has been a huge array of clouds as he couldn't even keep his emotions in check. His hands on his laps were fiddling with each other, trying to ease the ball of nerves that had taken space in his head and whole body since he stepped out of the building.

And Spade wasn't making it any easy for him, especially when he leaned over to help him with his seatbelt. He didn't know why for a minute there he thought the man was going to kiss him, Nate had his eyes set on Spade's dark lips, feeling his throat clog up and his air being sucked out of him.

He was scared Spade would hear the sound of his heartbeat as it violently thumped against his chest. He held his breath the whole time Spade was leaned over, he could already feel his head grow heavy with too much blood before Spade finally leaned away and he could finally breathe, but he had another impending problem, one he was trying to hide between his legs. His throbbing cock, it didn't only just jump in excitement, it was on full standing ovation, how embarrassing it would be if Spade saw it.

He was sweating profusely, but save for the color of his skin, his whole face would have been completely dripping with sweat, like the rest of his body underneath his clothes. He was suddenly regretting putting on a hoodie, if he knew Spade would get this close to him, make him hot for no reason and invade his personal space like that, he would have worn something less covering.

Speaking of his clothes, he couldn't help but admire what Spade was putting on, even though it was his signature colour, black, it made him look quite different from the usual way Nate was used to seeing him. He cleaned up real good, not that he didn't look good before but it made him look uptight and less gentle.

But seeing him in casual clothes only made him look like an attractive devil without the horns. When Nate saw him standing with his back to his car, he felt the air being sucked out of his lungs, Spade looked very attractive and rugged, with black slacks, black jacket and a grey turtleneck inside He couldn't help but admire his handsomeness.

He looked twice as attractive in casual clothes than he looked in his suits that he always wore After they drove away from the building and into the main road, neither of them had said anything to each other.

With Spade's hard gaze on the road, Nate couldn't stop himself as he turned to look at him again. His eyes trailing the perfect line of his chiseled jaw, the way his beards matched the squared shape of his jawline, the other parts of his face was completely spotless with his milky tanned skin, the sun peeked in from the windshield, casting a slight shadow over his eyes, as his thick and long lashes moved along with the wind each time he blinked.

Nate's eyes moved past his slender nose, down to his lips, almost dried but still looking dark and inviting, Spade's mouth opened and his tongue pulled out and licked over his lips, wetting it and making Nate to feel his own lips suddenly dry up, as he sucked in a discreet breath.

He clutched his hands that were on his laps together, trying to stop it from twitching as he could already feel the sweet sensation and excitement seep through his veins. His hands were clammy and extremely sweaty and slippery, he quickly looked away from Spade, because if he didn't, he would keep looking at him until they got to wherever they were going.

He faced the other side looking out of the car, building after building, car after car passed by as they were in the deep center of the city, the hustling and bustling, cars honking and people walking on the side walks, some rushing home from work, while others were probably going on dates, as he saw a couple holding hands and walking down the streets.

He let out a deep breath making Spade to look at him, he couldn't see Nate's face clearly which wasn't really what he wanted at the moment, he wanted to see his face, to be able to read his expression, to see if he was comfortable going out with him, he wanted to know what Nate was thinking at the moment.

Since they left he hadn't said anything to him, he didn't even know what to say, he didn't know how to make small talks, the whole car was silent and awkward. His eyes raked through Nate's whole body, drinking in the appearance of the young man, seeing him in casual clothes actually made Nate look his age, not like the troubled kid he always looked like when he wore suit and formal clothes.

He looked free and much younger. Spade liked how he looked, he wanted him to keep wearing clothes like this, clothes that made him comfortable and much more handsome than he looked in uptight formal clothes.

His eyes landed on Nate's hands that were placed tenderly on his laps, he could see his fingers playing with each other, he was doing that thing he always does whenever he was nervous. He knew Nate was always nervous, but knowing he was the reason Nate was nervous now, not out of fear but more out of the tension in the car, made him feel satisfied with himself.

He quickly looked away and back at the road, as he was looking too much, he didn't wanna freak him out and plus he still needed to focus on the driving. They were almost at the venue for their outing. It was one of the many places he visited in the city during his free time, which he rarely ever has.

He didn't wanna tell Nate because he wasn't sure he'd agree to going to a place like that, but he chose that particular place because of it being the first time Nate agreed to go anywhere with him, he wanted it to be a public place so Nate would be free and comfortable if he saw other people there, and the fact that he wanted Nate to feel relaxed and in his element The casino wasn't really like that, the casino was more his territory than Nate's, and Nate didn't even agree to go with him, he practically demanded and Nate just followed

He could already see the building from where he was, a lot of cars were parked out, the closer he got he could hear the noises coming from inside, and a few stands outside that items were sold.

He pulled into an open space and parked his car, turning his attention to Nate, the young man was looking at the place, with a lot of questions already dancing on the tip of his tongue

"Where are we"? He asked and Spade's deep voice made him take a sharp look at him.

"A stadium" he said his eyes matching Nate's as the young man quickly looked out again, before looking back at Spade.

"What are we doing at a stadium? I thought you said you wanted to take me somewhere quiet so we could talk"? He asked softly, his voice not showing any sign of fear or doubt, more like curiousity

Spade nodded "yes I did, but I figured you might not wanna be alone with me after...." He trailed talking about what happened at Nate's apartment the night he lost his cool, and Nate swallowed remembering it too "Everything that I've done, I wanted you to be comfortable around me, so I picked this place, they're having a rugby game tonight, I thought you might like it if we watched it together" he muttered, he didn't mean it to come out so intimate but it was already out, his eyes moved between Nate's as he tried to see if he would react to Spade saying something like them watching together, but Nate just blinked looking at him. "If you don't want to, we could go somewhere else" he rushed out his hands going to his keys as he wanted to start the car.

"No" Nate was quick to stop him, his voice coming out louder than the tiny whispers he'd been letting out all day "it's okay, it's fine" he muttered letting his tongue lick the bottom part of his lips, Spade fought the urge to look, he didn't wanna sport a hard on this close to getting out of the car, it would be a very uncomfortable night for him. "I just.." Nate trailed his eyes leaving Spade as he looked out again, people were already walking into the building, he could see the lights shinning at the top, he looked away and back at Spade. "It's just that I don't really know much about Rugby" he muttered feeling a little embarrassed as his cheeks tinted a dark shade of red, Spade fought back the grin that was threatening to take over his face as he noticed the red that tainted Nate's face, he had never found something as small as a blush so fascinating and satisfying to watch but seeing the red taint on Nate's cheek, he wanted to keep the image deep somewhere in his mind as he would replay it everyday for as long as he could.

"What sport do you like then"? Spade asked and Nate looked into his eyes, seeing the warmth in them and the sincere curiosity Spade had in his eyes.

"Football, I guess" he mumbled the last part out and Spade just nodded, even though he wasn't sure football was his favourite sports, maybe he only liked it because it was the only sport he'd ever really watched and paid attention to, and that was a long time ago, probably during his college days.

"Don't worry, you'll love this one, trust me, I'm gonna be with you the whole time" he muttered, his eyes conveying what his mouth couldn't. His words had a double meaning but he didn't think Nate could read the double meaning of his words. "Come on, let's go before the tickets are sold out" he said

Both of them stepped out of the car and onto the pavement of the huge and wide parking space that was already occupied by cars.

Spade walked first towards where Nate was standing, he towered over Nate's 5'9 frame, he looked down at him, seeing every little detail of his body. "Come on" he muttered.

Spade walked in front while Nate followed closely behind him, trying not to move his eyes away from his black Nike shoes, for fear that he would get lost staring at his backside, even without looking he knew Spade's ass would flex in them, showing the perfect shape of his ass.

He wasn't trying to match Spade's strides, instead he was walking in his footsteps, making sure his feet laned exactly where Spade's feet lifted off from. He used to always do that when he was a kid, whenever his father would take him out to one of his numerous meeting, it always kept him from losing his nerves or overthinking, it was a form of distraction for him.

Spade's eyes moved to the side and Nate wasn't walking beside him, instead he was right behind him, he felt like he was walking too fast for the young man to follow, he slowed down his steps, walking to the side to give Nate enough space to walk beside him, he watched how Nate's steps also slowed down.

He looked at him and somehow waited, Nate looked up and saw Spade's eyes momentarily stop at him as his steps slowed down, with the look Spade was giving him he knew he was waiting for him to meet up, he increased his pace and was soon walking side by side with Spade.

His hands was shoved into his hoodie as they both entered into the lobby of the building, there were a lot of people in the lobby also lining up to get tickets, Spade looked ahead seeing that if they stood here, they wouldn't leave on time. He turned to look at Nate who was looking at the whole place, his eyes darting around the room, he looked up at the high up ceiling and Spade's eyes landed on his Adam apple as he felt himself go stiff, his mind bringing up images that was making his whole body burn with desire.

Nate looked back down and his eyes met with Spade's hooded eyes, he swallowed thinking he'd done something wrong by looking around the place, but he couldn't help it, the places looked very beautiful, with the shiny marbled floor, the ceiling was so high up he felt dizzy looking at it, and the counter was made with shiny tiles. He'd never been to a stadium before.

"Come with me" Spade muttered, he cursed at himself at his crude use of words, even though he didn't mean it that way, his brain had already quickly worked it's way around it, Nate just nodded, before Spade turned around and walked away towards the lined up crowd, bypassing them to the front line

Nate just followed behind him like a lost puppy who's just found it's owner and didn't wanna be left behind, he was hot on Spade's trail as they both stopped in front of the counter, a guy was standing behind it, probably selling the tickets and some jerseys.

Nate stood a few feet away from Spade but he watched as Spade spoke to the man, handing him a few dollar bills and his credit card, the man smiled before he handed Spade's credit card back to him and he turned on his heel and faced Nate.

"Let's go inside" he muttered, as he walked ahead away from the crowd at the lobby, towards the double doors in front of them, Nate was wondering how they'd get in without the tickets, sure he saw the man on the counter collect cash from Spade but he didn't see when he handed him the tickets.

They opened the double doors and there was another smaller door in what looked like varenda and there was a man standing in front of his, he looked like a guard because he had a radio tucked on his waist in the hoister, with a stick in his other hand

Spade stopped in front of him "Giovanni DeVille" his deep, commanding voice bounced off the wall, reaching Nate's ears as he felt heat consume his whole body, and goosebumps filling his skin up, even though he was putting on a hoodie.

The man pulled his other hand from behind him, revealing a tablet, he tapped on the screen a few times, scrolling on it, he stopped and looked up at Spade before his lips pulled into a warm smile "Welcome sir, follow me" he said before pulling the door open.

Spade looked at Nate and the young man was still with him as they both followed the guard through the single door. Spade was the first to step into the stadium, while Nate followed behind him

Stepping out the door and into the stadium, he stood in awe as the whole place was packed with people, the chairs in rows and rows, filled with people who were either cheering, taking pictures or making small talks. The rows were arranged in a circular way, divided in the middle, creating a small space just like the one they were currently standing at, each stand had at least 50-60 rows of seats arranged side by side for people.

"You'll go straight that way" the guard pointed at an open space just behind the stand on their left hand side "once you go down the stairs there, you'll find the empty seats on the second row, they're seats number four and five" the guard explained to Spade and he just nodded before his eyes found Nate's, as if he was speaking to the younger man with his eyes, Nate already knew what he was saying.

"Enjoy the game sir" the guard said before leaving both of them there and walking back out. Spade just moved closer to Nate, his eyes studying him, Nate looked at his large callous hands and for a second he was distracted as he imagined those hands touching him, not like they did before but in more personal places, places Nate didn't think he'd ever let anyone touch him ever again. He swallowed as his throat went dry, even his saliva could moisturize it. Those hands had been on him before, even though on some of those times he didn't like how and where they touched him, it still didn't excuse the fact that he felt the spark nonetheless.

Especially when he held his hand tightly, yesterday night during the whole party incident. He shook his head and looked away from his hands, when he didn't find what he was looking for, tickets.

"Come on"

He waited until Nate took the first step before he did, but still Nate was still a little behind him as he was the one that knew where their seats where

I almost turned this chapter to a second person POV at the end 😩😩

Writing really is fucking hard Do enjoy