Nate pushed the double doors and stepped out of the building, he felt the sun hit his face, making him look up at the scotching sun, it was a bit high up in the sky today and very hot too.

He eyes moved and landed on the figure standing close to a black Chevy, the same one Spade had been using the past few days to come pick him up to and from work, well at least today, Spade didn't go through the trouble of coming to pick him up to work, because he skipped and instead made plans to accompany Spade to wherever he was taking him, which was still a mystery to him.

His steps slowed down when we took in the outfit Spade was putting on. A maroon coloured suit, it was shiny through the sun and he didn't need to ask to know it was fucking expensive, like always the man looked too poise and sharp. Squared shoulders that were broad to the point they fitted his suit perfectly well, and the buttons of the jacket was let lose.

But Nate did a double take, he was second guessing his choice of outfit, maybe he didn't hear Spade correctly but the man had asked him to put on something casual, yet he was wearing a formal outfit, making Nate look out of place, like a cartoon character that got lost in a real human movie.

He looked at his outfit again and then back at Spade, who had dark shades on. Compared to his regular casual outfit, Spade's suit looked more mature, made him look more appealing to the eyes. Making Nate to feel self conscious, he could feel the insecurity crawl out, as he took slow steps towards Spade.

He stopped in front of Spade and looked up at him, seeing those grey eyes already set on him, he chewed on his inner cheek, feeling himself grow smaller in front of Spade's scrutinizing gaze.

"Hey" he whispered, mentally cussing at himself, he sounded like a cat being mauled to death. This never happened when he was with someone else, it always happened whenever he was close to Spade. With Matteo he never lost his voice or nerve, even though his father was a very scary man and the man scared the shit out of him as a kid and even as an adult, he was never this squeaky around him, maybe a little but not to the point of losing his voice and nerve at the same time.

But with Spade it was always like something that happens on impulse, by default. And as much as he wanted to know why he was always like that, he didn't like it one bit.

"Hi"

Nate felt his whole body shake with desire, he felt his body cells move, and then the slight jump of his heart. "You look nice"

His eyes lit up and grew big as his heart rate picked up, thumping very loud, he could almost feel how his blood vessels worked. Spade just said something of a compliment to him, and not just any compliment, but about how he looked, his cheeks heated up and red crimson color adorned his cheeks as he lowered his eyes.

His thick long lashes moved with the wind, shielding his eyes from Spade. Spade watched as his pale cheeks moved from pale to pinkish red, he was blushing. One of the many things Spade found cute about him "Come on" he muttered before getting into the car first and the Nate followed

He sat on the seat and pulled his seatbelt clicking it in. He seemed more relax than he was the first time he entered Spade's car, even though he wasn't completely comfortable around him, Spade knew they were getting there, and nothing gave him more joy.

He drove away from Nate's building, after inputing the location Ryan had sent to him on his GPS. Liam really did try to keep his family from the life he lived.

This made Spade to think far, making him actually think of something he'd never thought of before, the possibility of having a family. He clenched his jaw as his hands wrapped tightly around the steering

That idea had always been something he never wanted to think of or even consider, it always left a sour taste in his mouth and a crazy feeling in the pit of his stomach.

That was the only thing in this world that he feared the most. As a kid he used to fantasize about having his own little family and loving them to the fullest, he already even had a plan of getting married to the most beautiful woman on Earth, and them having two kids, just like his mom and dad did.

But all it took for that dream to come crashing down was just one visit to the hospital His father became an animal, abusing his mother physical, emotionally, mentally and sexually. He watched it all and he couldn't do anything to stop it.

Watching the change and switch of his father, he feared he would take after the man, become like him. So as time went on and he grew up, locking away all his feelings, shutting down his ability to feel, he realized if he ever had a family, he'd turn out exactly like his father, he wouldn't love his wife, nor his kids. And he didn't want that to happen.

So he decided he'd never get married, his dream of having the kind of family they had when things were beautiful and happy, was crushed He snuffed it out himself and became this cold, heartless, soulless person.

He let out a deep breath, blowing harsh air out from his mouth, this caught Nate's attention from the viewing of the trees passing them by that he was seeing.

They'd left town behind and unlike the road they took to Spade's house, this one was quite different, it was in the opposite side of town, he could still see houses around tho but they were quite separated from each other, unlike Spade's place, there were no houses at all. Just a long journey of endless forest. Even Spade's house was hidden that if you had never been there before you'd never guess there is a house behind the gate and tall trees inside the compound.

Spade felt Nate's eyes on him and this kind of distracted his mind from what he was thinking, making him wonder why the younger man beside him hadn't asked him questions like he usually does.

"Aren't you gonna ask"?

Nate's mouth opened as he almost jolted, he didn't think Spade could tell he was looking at him, but it seems the man had almost caught him eye raping him. "Huh" he mumbled and Spade finally looked at him, raising his brows up

"Aren't you gonna ask where we're going"? He asked again and Nate's lips pulled up in an 'o' as he realized what Spade was talking about Spade faced turned back to the road as he focused on the drive, at least that was what Nate thought until Spade spoke up again. "We're going to see Liam's wife and his son"

Nate's brows scrunched up as he was trying to take in what Spade just said, Spade gave him a quick glance, he could see his face morph into one of confusion, probably already asking himself who Liam was, and why they were going to see his wife. "The man that got shot Friday night" Spade clarified.

"Oh" Nate whispered out and spade just nodded, already satisfied that Nate knew who he was talking about.

But Nate had another question "He had a wife"? He asked in a whisper and Spade nodded his head.

"Yes and a son too" he added quickly

"Wow" Nate whispered, facing the road back, wondering how people in this line of business even had the heart to have a family. Why give people a reason to be happy, and smile only to snatch it again

He always used to wonder about his father and mother. If his mother actually knew what his father did and she got married to him regardless?

He didn't know the story behind Liam's family but he was sure the woman would be devastated after hearing that her husband was shot dead. Losing someone you care about isn't something of a nice experience, actually it was one of the worst and he didn't wish it on anyone, not even someone he hates with so much passion.

Spade turned to look at him momentarily, after hearing his whisper and then silence, he wondered what he was doing, but when he turned to look at Nate he saw he was deep in thoughts, his forehead was creased in worry and something else, something he couldn't pin point "What is it"?

Nate turned to look at him, still and silent for a second before shaking his head, as if just remembering something "Nothing" he muttered

Spade clenched his jaw, not liking that Nate didn't want to open up to him, not that he wanted to force the words out of his mouth, but he wasn't expecting Nate to just shut him out like that again, he thought he was getting through to him.

"It's just..." Nate paused letting out a small sigh "it's just that... I kind of feel bad for her" he muttered "now she's gonna be alone with her kid, no husband and her kid's not gonna have a father"

"Well, that's life"

Nate let out a deep breath before sitting himself properly on the seat "Does she know"? He asked making Spade to look at him "I mean does she know what her husband did"?

Spade shook his head "no, she didn't"

His eyes grew bigger, his mind already spiralling out of control as he tried to comprehend what he was hearing, it was kind of getting him angry and pissed off. Why would he not tell her what he did? It's bad enough that he did something as dangerous as that, but it was even worse that he never told his wife, who has a son for him. Why keep such a secret from someone you claim to love. "Why didn't he tell her"? Nate asked and Spade gave him a quick glance

"To protect her"

"To protect her"? He asked as if he couldn't believe what Spade was telling him "He's dead and she doesn't even know why or who killed him, does she even know he's dead"? He asked raising his voice a bit.

Spade clenched his jaw and shut his eyes momentarily before opening them back again. "She knows he's dead, but she doesn't know who killed him, she was only told he died of a gun shot wound to the head by an unknown person"

Nate let out an exasperated breath, running his hands through his scattered locks. "So what? She's gonna live the rest of her life not knowing that her husband was in the fucking Mafia"?

Spade's hands around the steering wheel clutched on it tighter as he felt his whole body flame up, hearing Nate curse just took him off course, forgetting about the reason why he cursed in the first place but only focusing on how it sounded coming out of his mouth. Those innocent lips, letting out a dirty word, and getting tainted. Fuck, he shouldn't even be thinking about this at this particular moment but he couldn't help the part of him that craved every part of Nate, including those beautiful pink lips

"It's for the best" he muttered, hoping Nate understood why, but when has anything about Nate ever been easy

"Is that it? It's for the best? Is that what you would tell your wife"? Nate asked shocking Spade as he clenched his jaw and let his hard, dark grey eyes cut to him in a hard stare, but Nate wasn't backing down, he had that fire in his eyes. The same one Spade had wanted to put out a month ago when he'd just met him, buy now it made him burn, made him crave for more of that from Nate.

"No" he muttered "because I don't have a wife and I have no intention of having one"

Nate scoffed and turned away from Spade, suddenly regretting not asking where they were supposed to go together earlier on, if he knew this was where Spade was taking him to, he would have declined.

Spade watched as Nate turned away from him, focusing on the window and outside that car, he could tell the young man was angry, and there was something about Nate giving him a little bit of attitude that made him look even more cuter, but that aside they needed to address this issue.

He wouldn't want Nate to get to Liam's house and start telling her something she has no business knowing in the first place, it'll complicate a lot of things not just for him, but for her too.

He let out a deep breath "Look, I know you don't like the idea of her not knowing what killed her husband or the kind of things he did, but he didn't tell her for a reason, and if he's like every other mafia man out there who still has a heart then he probably did it to protect her"

Nate still didn't say anything or acknowledge the fact that he was in fact talking to him. Making him even more frustrated. They were almost at the house, maybe a few minutes and he didn't want Nate to go there and start talking, it wouldn't be good.

"Nate...." He quickly cut him off, without looking at him.

"If you're worried about me telling her the truth, I won't, it's not my place to tell her" he muttered, before totally ignoring Spade the rest of the drive there.

Angry Nate is so hot 😃😩😩