Song~ I know you - Faye Webster



Do you ever wonder if you have a purpose?

Like what you were made for?

My own father didn't think I had a purpose.

My father would have killed me if he could have, instead he wanted me to live in misery.

There were times I wished he had killed me, before and after I was sent to that 'school'.

Sending me to that school wasn't the only thing he did to me.

I believe my purpose may be to help those like me. Those who come from some not so loving home or who are about to be sent to another one of the Blood Doves school.

I know there are more of them, and I will help every single one one of those kids

Maybe, if I didn't have a purpose for my family, or my father, I had the purpose to help children like me.

To save their innocence, their hearts, their childhood.

And I plan to just that. Maybe once I'm done taking down the Blood Doves and the Russians, i could live a normal life.

No you couldn't, killings in your brain, there is no going back from that.

Yup I'm corrupted, but I plan to help each and every kid so they don't end up like I am.

I was defenseless and broken. Not anymore.

"Diovanna! Come see!" I hear Elijah shout from the first floor.

I reluctantly get up out of my bed, hiding my computer and the book I took from the assassin school.

I make my way downstairs seeing Sebastian, Domenico, and Elijah in the living room waiting for me.

I walk in and plop down on one of the couches.

"Diovanna" Sebastian starts. I want to roll my eyes at him, but I refrain. He did nothing your just being a bitch.

He could have saved me.

But he was a kid.

He watched me get dragged away.

He was a kid.

He knew our father's hatred for me.

He was a kid.

He- he could- could hav-

He was a kid, the one to blame is Giavanna.

"Diovanna? Are you okay? You zoned out for a little while" Elijah asks tapping my knee lightly.

I nod wanting him to get this over with and so I can finish my internal battle.

"As I was saying, our grandparents, aunts and uncles, and our cousins are coming visit, they missed you" I want to smile, wait which side of the family?!

'Moms side or your dads side?' I sign, they all look at each other when I signed your dad, but he is no father to me.

I guess they know the basics in sign language.

"Both" Elijah responds.

I nod, this will be a shit show.

My mom's side of the family was always more welcoming and lovable to me. They never resented me or hated me for their daughter/sister's death. They knew my mom wouldn't want that.

My father's side of the family was never horrible to me before, they didn't know what their son/brother was doing to me under our roof.

However, after Giavanna got me in trouble for something I didn't do, our grandfather, my father's father, hated me. He thought a six year old was a liability to let go of the mafia information "I had" I didn't have it.

Our grandfather wanted to keep me locked in the basement cells until I learned to never speak of the information. I mean, he got his wish. I was in a cell.

When at the school, news of me being sent away spread through the underworld like crazy.

The new of me being sent away made me an easier target, but my grandfather said they could take me. I was six and defenseless.

But I'm not defenseless anymore. He wants to say something he can say it to my fucking face.

Although I had a problem with my grandfather, no one else showed any hatred for me. Me and my cousins get along- had gotten along.

But things change it's been eleven years, there is no telling about what they think of me.

I nod at my three brothers standing up to leave.

Before I fully walk out the door I turn and sign, 'when are they coming?'.

"Tomorrow, I figured you have been here for a month, you're more comfortable and they would finally get to see you after so long- if you're ready of course" Sebastian says with honesty.

'Thanks' I sign before walking out and to my room.

I think about seeing my Grandma again- Lola.

She always loved me no matter what. I don't think any of my brothers know that she showed up to the airport the day I was being sent away.

She yelled and screamed at my dad trying to get me off that plane, to reason with him, tell him I was a good kid who needs her family.

My dad just pushed her away and threw me onto the plane.

That day, I watched my Grandma break in tears on the runway in an airport.

She loved me so much, more than I deserved. I'm forever grateful to her, even if she couldn't save me from the monsters, she tried. She was the only one who tried.

Tomorrow, I won't start anything but if someone comes at me, like my grandfather, I will state my peace.

I hope tomorrow goes well.

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Okay I have a bad feeling today is gonna go like shit.

I don't know why I have this feeling, I just do.

My gut is always right.

The extended family of both sides should be arriving within the next ten minutes.

Lucian and Antonio left to gosh knows where, saying something about wanting us to have private family time.

That's some bullshit, Lucian is just leaving me in a lions den.

It's currently Sunday, apparently some of my cousins go to my school, but I hardly talk to my own siblings much less look around to see if I notice my cousins.

Yet i still remember all of their names. How? Because everyone in this damn family is somehow related to my trauma years, even before i was shipped off.

The doorbell from downstairs rings so I quickly check my outfit before heading downstairs to see the other fam and their spawns.



I don't care if this isn't good clothing to wear when seeing my family for the first time in eleven years but I could not give two shits.

When I reach the bottom of the stairs, I hear laughter, chatter, and shouting. I stand next to Ares in the back who still hasn't noticed my presence.

Isn't he a mafia man?

"Where is Diovanna? I wanna see my niece!" Uncle Samuel says happily. Oh uncle Samuel, i missed you.

"She should be down her. Ares go get her" Sebastian says slightly irritated with my lack of presence.

As Ares goes to turn and get me, he finally sees me and screams.

SCREAMS.

Like a little girl might I add.

I raise an eyebrow at him while a couple look confused as fuck looking back to see why he screamed.

His face turns a shade of pink and he scratches the back of his neck. "She- she uh is right here. How long have you been here?" He says directing the last part to me.

'A couple minutes' I sign, he looks confused as fuck but Elijah translates for him.

When everyone settles down I walk past my brothers with my head held high looking for a particular 6'1 woman. I spot her only to see her already smiling at me.

She opens her arms and I run straight into them. I can feel everyone's gazes on me but I don't give two shits.

"You are so beautiful Querida" she exclaims, tears in her eyes. [Darling]

Pulling my arms back I sign 'I missed you'.

She looks a bit puzzled but understood nonetheless. 'I missed you to sweet girl' she signs back.

"Why the hell are you signing? Just speak" my favorite grandfather of all time says.

I roll my eyes turning around with a stone could expression. 'Because I'm mute' I state with a deadpanned expression.

He must not understand what I signed because he looks so fucking confused. I couldn't care at all. I turn around and wave at grandpa.

'Hey old man' I sign with a small smile playing on my face. He was a better father figure than my own father.

'Hey sweet girl, we missed you, you know that?' He signs back, a guilty emotion flashing through his eyes that quickly passes.

'I missed you all too, but it was not your fault, don't feel guilty' I sign with a soft expression wanting him to get the message.

He smiles in return. He also looks a little surprised that I read his emotions like that.

"Should we do introductions now?"Uncle Sam asks. He looks like he's about to start when I cut him off by raising my hand giving my head a shake.

I pull Elijah to the middle of the room and start signing for him to translate as I sign.

'No need, I remember all of you. Grandma, Grandpa. Their oldest son- my uncle-Santiago, his wife- my aunt- Maya, their spawns-my cousins- Alejandro, Emiliano, Elena, and Marco' I start off taking a break before going again.

'Their second son-my uncle- Samuel, his wife- my aunt- Alexandra, their spawns- my cousins- Amara, Apollo, Dimitri, and Atticus. You are all from my mother's side of the family.' I point them all out. I then turn the my grandfather.

'Grandfather, Grandmother, their second oldest son- my uncle- Alessandro, his wife-my aunt- Aurora, their spawns-my cousins- Alessia, Aria, Ciro, Emilio' I list them all.

'And your third eldest son- my uncle- Raffaele , his wife- my aunt- Olivia, their spawns- my cousins- Liam, Luna, and Ruth' I finish off.

'Y'all are like baby making machines cause damn that's a lot of kids' I finally finish pointing everyone out causing a few to chuckle.

"Wait- how the fuck do you know about Luna and Ruth? They are only four and you just got back!" Liam exclaims going in to protective brother mode.

"Language, wait what" uncle Raffaele says just now understanding I already know their four year old little girls.

'I know everything Liam, everything' I sign wanting to freak him out. I know he knows sign language, because his two sisters are deaf. Something happened while they were in the womb, i don't exactly know what but I do know they are deaf.

I turn to the two little girls who stand by their dads- uncle Rafffaele's feet. I crouch down and start signing. 'Hey, I'm your older cousin Diovanna' I sign with a soft smile to try and be as friendly as possible.

They both wave at me scrunching up their tiny fingers.

'You're so cute' I tell them smiling bigger at how sweet they are.

Ruth steps forward and opens her arms to hug me. I wrap her in my embrace, she is so cute.

Luna sees this and wants to join in on our hug and I of course let her. Once they let go of me I stand to my full height and go to walk to the kitchen when to small body's hold onto my legs. I look down to see Ruth and Luna on my legs giggling. I laugh at how cute they are and am about to say something when my grandfathers voice rings out.

"Diovanna, I would like to speak with you in private." Of fucking course I can't ever have a good day.

'Of course' I sign. I crouch back down and look at the two identical girls. 'I will be right back, okay? Then we can hang out and talk all day' I sign to them. They nod ecstatically.

I know for a fact not everyone in this room can speak sign language. These two girls probably always feel excluded because none of our other cousins can sign to them except for a couple and the girls can't hear them.

When they go back to their parents I sign for him to lead the way. Apparently it's not just me and him in this talk, it's all my uncles, both sets of grandparents, and a few of my cousins like, Alejandro, Amara, Alessia, and my brother Sebastian.

The Aunts and the rest of my cousins stayed in the living room.

In this moment I was glad Sebastian was here, I don't know why but in this room full of people he brought an unknown comfort.

When we're all in Sebastian's office, we all fit somehow, oh who am I kidding this office is unnecessarily huge.

"Diovanna, first I would like to say I'm glad you're back" my grandfather says. No you're not.

"But let's get straight to the point, the files you saw eleven years ago, they were some very important files. They are vile in bringing down our mafia, if it ever got out." He tells me.

I scoff and roll my eyes. 'It's hard to give out important file information if I never saw the damn file' I sign the truth getting annoyed at his point.

I told them back then I never saw the files but no one believed me.

"We all know you went through the files, no need to lie. But what I want to know is who did you tell? Because you are risking the entire mafia" he states, accusingly might I add.

I grit my teeth at the accusation. 'Again, I never even looked at the fucking files, I don't give a shit about your mafia or your work. I was six, fucking six and no one believed me' I sign getting really fucking frustrated.

Elijah lets out a whispered "language" but he knows it's not the time to scold.

"Watch how you speak to me young lady! I guess that school didn't discipline you good enough" he says in a warning tone.

"We could always send you to a different boarding school like that in another state or country" he says this time.

I want to scream. I want to shout but I know if something comes out my mouth, it won't be good.

'Fuck you, You know nothing. My father hated my guts, even before I was accused of what I didn't do. My father was a fucking coward! He hated a dam child' I say trying to stress my peace.

A hand suddenly hits my cheek, my head whips to the side and the copper taste fills my mouth.

This bitch slapped me.

"You don't speak about my son- your father- that way!" He yells. I spit the blood out of my mouth and onto the office floor.

I hear a couple people gasp, probably shocked he slapped me. I am not, my own father did it to me.

I turn my head back to him with a devilish look in my eyes. 'Fuck you' I sign before my fist connects with his face. He stumbles back from the force holding his jaw.

'To anyone in this damn family who has a problem with me, keep it to your fucking self. If you didn't want to believe a six year old little girl, fine. But if you thought, even if I did ever see the damn files- the ones i didn't fucking see- if you thought I would give out information I knew was important to My family, why would you think so low of me?' I sign before walking out the door.

I can't stop the tears going down my cheeks. They flow endlessly.

What the hell am I doing? They don't deserve my fucking tears. I haven't cried over them in eleven years and I won't start now.

I run down the stairs and out the front door.

I pull my AirPods out my pants pocket and put them in blasting music at full volume.

I'm free, I'm free, I'm not there. They can't send me back. They don't deserve my tears. They are not worthy.

Fuck them.



Did he just fucking slap my sister?

Oh fuck no.

Before I could actually beat the shit out of my grandfather, Diovanna signs 'fuck you' and punches him in the face. The force causing him to stumble back holding his jaw.

No one helps him, we just watched him slap his granddaughter.

'To anyone in this damn family who has a problem with me, keep it to your fucking self. If you didn't want to believe a six year old little girl, fine. But if you thought, even if I did ever see the damn files- the ones i didn't fucking see- if you thought I would give out information I knew was important to My family, why would you think so low of me?' She signs before walking out the door to my office.

Now it's my turn.

"Did you just slap my fucking sister?" I yell at him.

"What the hell dad! Sense when do you hit children!" Uncle Raffaele yells sticking up for Diovanna.

"She is no child, she is 17 almost 18. For all we know she could be a traitorous bitch. She has the information!" He screams back arguing his side.

My Grandma steps up and pushes my grandfather. "You hit my grand baby! You sick bastard! You leave her alone! If she were to even have the information- which she doesn't- someone would have taken us down by now! The information hasn't been spoken of in eleven years! You vile bastard! I'm going check on my grand baby" grandma says before walking out the room with grandpa on her heels.

Amara and Alessia look be withered at our grandfather, an unknown amount of rage held in their eyes for him hitting their little cousin.

"Get your shit together, you're pissing us off" Amara says before they both walk out the office.

"I get you wanted to know if she gave away the information, but we never lay a hand on women let alone children, get it together dad and fucking apologize. Kiss the fucking ground she walks on if you have to" uncle Raffaele says before he, uncle Alessandro, uncle Santiago, and uncle Samuel walk out giving grandfather nasty looks.

"I will be with Lola, fix your shit Gino" grandmother exclaims leaving me, Alejandro, and Elijah alone with him. I walk straight up to him and punch him in the face.

"You touch another hair on my sister and I'll kill you, family or not" I state with finality.

We all hit him a couple more times before leaving him beaten and bruised in my office.

He needs to get his shit together.

The three of us walk into the living room to see our Aunts, Grandma and grandmother, and a couple of our cousins looking stressed and a bit panicked.

"What happened?" My voice comes out demanding.

"She left, we don't know where she is at" Grandma says, a hint of panic in her voice.

Please be okay Diovanna.

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A/N: this is my longest chapter yet! 3,314 words!

I hope you all enjoy my drama.

Also to clear things up, anything in these '...' is in sign language. If it's in these "..." it is regular talking.

Also, when she was listing the family, she didn't say "their third son" or something I just wanted you guys to know who they were in the family, also like she didn't say "his wife" she just said aunt. You know?

I love you hoes<3